Scarletts_Blood

Sirius Black liked it when Remus Lupin shivered. He liked the way that the small hairs on the back of his neck pricked up and the way he tried not to let his shoulders shake. The way Remus would look at him almost accusingly as if he were mad that these reactions made him seem somehow more human, because he was the calm and composed Remus Lupin and shouldn’t shiver or do anything else that wasn’t calm and composed.

This weather, hot but breezy like the end of summer, always forces memories that I would much rather have forgotten to the front of my mind. But to forget the memories, I'd be forced to forget something I once loved.

Sirius is left alone after Remus' suicide to contemplate his relationship with the werewolf. Counter-story to "I Am A Rock".

"He knows who I like. Well, I'd say that I don't like the person. I love the person. I know the feelings I have are stronger than just fancying…funny, isn't it. How my feelings about love can be so strong, yet in every other way, I'm weak." Mild Sirius/Remus.

It's Remus' sixteenth birthday. The Marauders have a little gift planned for him, but all he wants is to be something instead of the nothing he thinks he is.