Just This Once

Dearest Self- 9:23 PM 3 Months later

I am so happy with him! He treats me like a princess, just like Harry... Whenever I think about him, I think about Harry, darling Harry, my Harry. He was my life and when he died last year, I was devastated. I thought I could never live without him. When Voldemort killed Harry, just before he died he said, "Hermione, darling, I love you. Never forget me..." and he was gone. Just like that, Harry, sweet, beautiful Harry, was dead to the hands of the one who killed his parents. But Voldemort's gone too. Sirius killed him. Retribution, I guess, for the deaths of Lily and James and for the years he spent in Azkaban. I haven't seen Sirius since that day last February... I wonder how he's doing. But Harry, he's with his parents now and I know he'd be happy for me, happy for us. Harry would see how much he's changed, how well he treats me, how in love I am. He's smiling down on us, I know. I still love him, I don't believe I'll ever stop, but I've got someone else, though he will never replace Harry, my Harry. He loves me, too. And I love everything about him, from his white-blonde hair, his ice blue eyes and his muscular body to his sense of reality, his kindness, his genius. I adore him, and I know he adores me. He tells me everyday, with everything he does and says, how much he cares for me, how much I mean to him. We saved each other and no one can ever break our bond. We may have our arguments, but they are nothing compared to the love we share. Well, I'm off to another night with him in the Astronomy Tower... caio.

--Me

Dear Diary- 1:57 AM

Whenever I'm with him, everything changes, there's no one else in the room. We are meant for each other, just as Harry and I are... were. I don't know what Ron thinks of us, me and him. He's jealous, I know, but I know all he wants is for me to be happy, and I am, oh I am, dear Self! I think even Ron, whose hated him forever, sees how much he's changed, how much he loves me. If Ron didn't approve, at least slightly, I don't know what I'd do. I need him. He, Harry, and I had a special friendship, and no one else could ever take that away from my heart. Even though I'm still lost without Harry, my life is returning to normal, thanks to him and Ron, though it'll never be the same. He means so much to me and I'd never give him up for anything. I saved his life, he saved my sanity, so it's ok for us to love each other, just this once.

--Me

Yes, I know it's against Hermione's rules, but she's asleep, and don't worry, I haven't read any of her writing... yet. Just kidding. I'd never invade her privacy like that. I just wanted to add that I love her, more than you could ever imagine. Most people only dream about this kind of love, the kind that goes so deep that you can hear each other's thoughts and feelings. It's like that with Hermione and me. It was like that with her and Harry, as well. And even though I didn't like Harry, even though we never got along, if he was still here with us today, I'd apologize. Apologize for everything I've done to him over the years. The only good that's resulted out of his death is that I've found Hermione, that she's found me. I love you, Hermione. I guess I always have. And I always will.

-Draco