- Rating:
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- House:
- Schnoogle
- Ships:
- Draco Malfoy/Harry Potter
- Characters:
- Draco Malfoy Ginny Weasley Harry Potter Hermione Granger
- Genres:
- Slash
- Era:
- Harry and Classmates Post-Hogwarts
- Spoilers:
- Philosopher's Stone Chamber of Secrets Prizoner of Azkaban Goblet of Fire Order of the Phoenix Half-Blood Prince
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Published: 10/22/2006Updated: 01/26/2009Words: 143,258Chapters: 29Hits: 81,858
Black Sheep
Jackie Stevens
- Story Summary:
- "Black sheep is a derogatory colloquialism in the English language meaning an outsider or one who is different in a way which others disapprove of. This can be someone who has been shunned by others, or one who has chosen to be an outsider, due to actions and aims that separate them from the rest of the people or 'flock.'"
Chapter 25 - In Which Stories Are Told
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- 09/24/2008
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Neville
Longbottom had been true to his word and when Harry showed up for
breakfast the next morning, looking a bit wan, there was an owl
waiting on the high table. The bloody thing was pecking at the ham
and annoying Professor Vector something fierce, as he was the only
other staff member to be breakfasting at such an early hour. It was
only half-six, after all. Harry hadn't been able to sleep.
Wondering
distantly just what sort of shift they had poor Neville on, Harry
plucked the tightly rolled note from the owl's leg and shooed the
tetchy bird away. He unrolled the scrap of parchment and then
understood just why the bird seemed so ill-tempered and peckish -
it was dated the night before.
Harry
dropped into a chair several feet from Vector and read the note
through. Basically, Neville hadn't been able to do a whole lot of
anything so far, or so it seemed to Harry. He said he was researching
past cases to try to provide any sort of precedents for Malfoy and
that he'd petitioned to get Malfoy pulled out of Azkaban for some
'preliminary questioning', but that the higher-ups didn't seem in any
rush. He promised to continue sending Harry updates, but with only
news of this calibre, Harry wasn't even sure why he should bother.
He
let the note fall to the table and leaned back in his chair. It'd
been nearly twenty hours since Draco had been taken from Hogwarts.
Even if he figured in several hours for transport and processing,
Draco had probably been within the walls of Azkaban for at least
fifteen hours. The longest Harry had ever been in the presence of
Dementors was less than thirty minutes and that was with his Patronus
keeping them at bay. What could Malfoy be going through, this very
moment, as Harry was sitting in front of a lavish breakfast spread,
under the bright morning sky that shone through the Great Hall's
enchanted ceiling?
Harry
pushed his plate away, deciding he'd lost his appetite. He noticed
the unfurled newspaper lying next to Professor Vector's elbow and
asked, "Would you mind if I...?" He gestured towards the
paper and the Arithmancy professor handed it to him without a glance.
Thinking
that it was the first time he'd ever actually spoken to the
professor, Harry realised belatedly that he should probably at least
have introduced himself or something -
but honestly, who didn't know just who Harry Potter was? He was
startled when the dour-looking man pushed back his chair with a
screech and suddenly stood. He paused for a moment, then spoke in a
deep, dolorous voice. "Shame about the Malfoy boy. He was one
of my better students." Then he walked away, letting the side
door fall shut heavily behind him. Harry stared after him, glad he'd
never been in Vector's class himself.
Sighing
tiredly, he turned to the paper. Of course Draco was front page news.
There was even a bit on Harry, since they'd been so recently linked
in the news. Luckily, though, it seemed that word of Harry's wild
entrance into the Ministry yesterday was being suppressed so far.
Harry didn't take much note of the words on the paper, instead he was
staring at the Wizarding photo of Malfoy. It had been scowling when
he'd first turned the paper towards himself, but then it had noticed
Harry and begun cavorting about energetically, making rude gestures
and trying to either make him angry or make him laugh - Harry
wasn't sure which. When Harry didn't respond in either fashion, the
photo Draco sighed, blew his hair out of his eyes, and looked bored.
He started examining his tiny, printed hands.
Harry
still hadn't made it past the first page by the time that the other
staff members began arriving. He did look up when he heard the side
door open again but he immediately wished he hadn't. Of course it
would be just his luck that the lone teacher to join him as he sat at
the empty high table was Marianthi Fotiadis.
"Oh!"
She exclaimed aloud when she saw that they were the only two present.
She naturally took the seat right next to Harry and asked him
brightly, "What are you doing up and about so early, Harry?"
"Couldn't
sleep," he said shortly, hoping she would notice his foul mood
and leave him alone to stare moodily at Draco's photo in the
newspaper in peace.
"I
had to be up for the sunrise, to calibrate the seeing crystals for my
fifth years today," she explained cheerily and without
prompting, taking no heed of Harry's silent ire. She noticed the
newspaper in front of him and took the opportunity to lean across
him, her warm body pressed against his arm, under the guise of
reading the paper. Her cheeks seemed a bit flushed as she said, "Oh,
yes. I heard yesterday that
your friend was taken to the Ministry." She looked up at him
from this close distance. "I'm so sorry."
When
Harry's only response was a grimace, she laid a soft hand on his
knee. "If you ever want to talk... I know you two were
close..."
Something
inside Harry seemed to snap, as the witch practically tried to crawl
onto his lap. "Yes, we were," he snapped. "So
'close' that we were sleeping together."
Marianthi's
dark eyes darted about as she tried to think of an alternative
meaning for the English words. "You were..."
"Come
now," Harry said cruelly, "We stay together in the
History master's room and there's only one bed, of course. What did
you think our relationship was?"
"You
mean, that you're - but you couldn't be..." She stared at
him, her dark eyes like black marbles in her pale, shocked face. She
whispered disbelievingly, "Are you...?"
"Well,
obviously!" Harry exclaimed, feeling as if he might laugh -
or cry.
Marianthi
pulled back from Harry and leaned against her high-backed chair
limply. She mumbled numbly, "I understand. I mean, I have a
cousin who is - I just never imagined that you might be..."
Harry
had finally got rid of his unwanted suitor, but - he was
realising as Marianthi moved away and the strange madness slowly
receded - he may have just created a far uglier problem. His
face was suddenly serious again.
"Oh... er,
please don't feel bad about it. No one knows, after all. We're, er,
very private. I only wanted to tell you,
to... to apologise for Malfoy's behaviour. The
way he strung you along. All that nonsense."
He winced at his own babbling. "So please, don't mention it to
anyone else."
Marianthi
still looked lost in thought, but she at last said, "Yes, I
understand. Of course not." Her eyes flicking awkwardly in
Harry's direction, she reached out for an enchanted flagon of coffee
and poured herself a cup. She ate quickly and silently and though
other professors started arriving and engaging in their normal
morning chatter, she rushed off without exchanging more than a
half-dozen words with anyone.
Harry
silently berated himself. He'd just been so eager to get rid of the
witch and make her stop talking to him about Draco. Now she was
shocked and he had no idea what she she might do next - or who
she might tell. All he knew was the sick feeling in the pit of his
stomach that told him that, once again, he'd done something stupid.
He
felt useless without Malfoy around to stop him from making a fool of
himself, or to make fun of him when he did so anyway and make him at
least laugh at himself.
Maybe
he should just invade Azkaban, he thought hopelessly. What were the
chances that the Ministry, even after their maximum ninety
days, would just let Malfoy go free?
But
then again, that was probably another of those idiotic ideas that
Malfoy would
have put a stop to - telling him that he'd only end up in
Azkaban as well, or else Kissed, and what bloody good would that do
anyone? Gritting his teeth, Harry resolved to do as that snippy
little voice in his head told him. The only way he knew to get
through the next several days was to do what Malfoy would do. He
wouldn't let anyone see how
much he was hurting, he
wouldn't loosen
his icy control on himself, and he would drink profusely.
Still burning with his fresh
determination, Harry went to the History classroom alone. He was
surprised to see the whole class already assembled, but managed to
act aloof, or so he thought. The students all looked at him
doubtfully and someone yelled, "Where's Malfoy?"
"Malfoy," Harry corrected the girl reproachfully, "is away
from Hogwarts, so I'll be taking your class today." There was a
dark murmur from the crowd and Harry made a mental note to tell
Malfoy, if he ever got the chance. Not only were the students for the
first time disappointed to have one of their teachers disappear, but
they were more interested in having Malfoy standing in front of them
than Harry Potter. What changes a week could bring.
"Now
then," Harry said bluntly, taking up Draco's usual position on
the empty teacher's desk. "I may have more first-hand
knowledge of Dark Lords than
anyone else alive, but I know fuck-all about any
history before Grindelwald, so I hope some of you have done your
reading."
He wasn't as insidiously charming as Malfoy, but thanks to their years
of shared experience, he could at
least stare just as
mercilessly and unrelentingly. Eventually, a student raised a hand
and class began.
The
day dragged on like that: Harry stumbling his way through the history
classes and feeling keenly alone every time another group of students
trooped out and he was left on his own in the large, shadowy room.
After the last class for the day was finished - a particularly
awkward two hours, since it
had been a NEWT level class
- he trudged back down to the Great Hall. He hadn't bothered to
go down for lunch, but now his empty stomach was urging him to brave
that bright atmosphere. As soon as he stepped through the doors,
though, and was awash in the din of chattering voices and chiming
silverware, he knew he'd made a mistake. This wasn't where he wanted
to be.
He
stepped back but it was too late; Hermione was waving at him
furiously and it would be impossible to pretend he hadn't seen her.
He slunk over
and slid into the chair she'd kept open for him. He noticed Marianthi
looking in his direction and he avoided her eyes.
Hermione
jogged his elbow, catching
his attention. "Harry, how are you doing? You just rushed off
at breakfast and then you
never even came to lunch. I was beginning to wonder if you'd run off
again..." She looked genuinely worried that he might try
something foolhardy.
Staring
blankly at
the food in front of him, he reassured her - very
unreassuringly
- that he wasn't planning to storm Azkaban or anything of the
sort. "I may not be great at being a functioning adult,"
he said bleakly, "but I do at least know that I can no longer
do things like invading the Ministry and expect that Dumbledore will
be around to save me or that the Ministry will shrug it off in light
of Voldemort." He looked down at the palm of his hand, where
something seemed to be written, and told her, "I'm the best
shot Malfoy has of getting out of that place. I know that. But only
so long as I have the public's good opinion, and if I go about acting
like a deranged criminal, then I'll be useless to him."
Hermione
was staring at him in surprise. In
the past two weeks, she had
felt that he was the same boy she had known
as a girl, and she had felt
as if he'd become someone strange, who she wasn't sure she liked. But
who now was this serious, thoughtful man, who was doing the best he could in a
situation that obviously pained him? She felt like hugging him, there
in front of the whole Hall, as she searched his sad expression. She settled for squeezing
his arm warmly, though, and saying, "For what it's worth, I
think you're doing the right thing. And I'm proud of you for doing
it."
He
didn't look pleased, though,
as he looked sideways at her. "It doesn't mean I like it,
though," he told her softly, and she could see dark horror and
despair in his eyes. She wondered if she would be able to stand it.
If their roles were reversed and it was Harry in Azkaban, would she
be able to hold herself back? Or was she still too much of an
impetuous Gryffindor, following her heart and forgetting her mind?
This cold pragmatism of Harry's - it didn't come from
Gryffindor. She thought she knew where it came from. "You are
doing the right thing," she told him again, "and I think
Malfoy would agree. He's very logical, when he wants to be, that
Slytherin of yours."
Harry
knew she was right. He'd told himself the same things before.
He knew that Draco would
tell him not to antagonise the Ministry. But he also knew that Draco
would never follow his own advice. Hadn't he said that he would do
anything for the people he cared about? Hadn't he become a Death
Eater to protect his mother? Hadn't he suicidally gone after the
Horcrux at Snape's behest? Of course he wouldn't stand by while
someone he cared about was going through psychological torture. He
was as hotheaded as a bloody Gryffindor sometimes.
Harry
pushed his chair back and said in
a choked tone, "I'm
sorry. I'm not hungry." Then he practically ran for the side
door.
In
his mind, he cursed the wards at Hogwarts that prevented him from
Apparating on the spot. He wanted to be somewhere far from here; he
didn't know or care where. No, that was a lie: he knew exactly
where he wanted to go, but
he couldn't - he shouldn't - right?
His
long,
furious strides brought him back to the history professor's room and
he threw the door open. There was no one there, of course. He slammed
the door behind him and stalked into the bedroom. He pulled the doors
of wardrobe open with such force that the wood creaked and then he
stood a moment, staring at
Malfoy's clothes in front of him. He reached out and grabbed an
armful of the clothes, yanking them from their hangers. Then, sinking
to the ground, he clutched the soft bundle to him tightly, inhaling
the familiar scent that clung to Malfoy, and finally letting his hot,
frustrated tears fall.
How
had it come to this? A month ago he could never have imagined that he
would be back at Hogwarts, back among Wizarding folk, and sick with
worry about Draco Malfoy, of all people. He almost wished it had
never happened. But he still remembered how being with Draco had
felt. Clutching at the empty
clothes in his arms, he fought to remember every moment. The need to
recapture those feelings, to have Malfoy back in his life, was the
only thing he could cling to now.
The
next morning brought another disappointing owl from Neville
and another day of wasting
time with classes. He was being more proactive -
seeking out Hermione's help
in researching magical law -
but he looked worse than
ever. The first day after Draco had been taken away, he had merely
looked wan and ill-rested.
After the second day, his
skin was a chalky white and his eyes were sunk in dark circles.
Hermione began hounding him to eat more
at meals, but there was little she could do to force him to sleep at
night. When the third day dawned and no owls came from the Ministry,
Harry had trudged out of the Great Hall without even pretending to
eat.
When
Friday afternoon arrived and marked four full days that Malfoy had
been in Azkaban, Hermione scolded Harry: "You have
to eat something. I will personally have Pomfrey hospitalise you if
you don't stop your bloody moping." She watched hawkishly as
Harry picked up a roll and started absently pulling off small pieces
to put in his mouth. She hardly blamed him, though. Malfoy was in
Azkaban, and with no magic to protect him; for all they knew, he
might already be irreparably damaged.
Chewing
mindlessly, Harry fought to swallow the bread that tasted like ashes
in his mouth. It was Friday afternoon. Friday
afternoon. How was he
going to make it through the weekend? Two whole days with nothing
else to occupy him. Over forty-eight hours to imagine what Malfoy
must be experiencing, to wonder if he would ever see him again, to
wonder if he would even be the same.
He stood up abruptly. "I'm
going for a walk." And then he strode away from the table,
without even waiting for any sort of response. Hermione gaped for a
moment, then jumped up after him. His longer legs ate up the long
paths of the castle corridors, and he just kept walking faster.
Hermione had to practically jog to catch up with him.
She
called out to him breathlessly, "Harry! What
are you doing? You know you can't go to him! What - are you
going to Apparate to the shores of Azkaban, thinking that the
Dementors will just welcome you with open arms? Well, they will -
open arms, and open mouths, because you'll be Kissed, you bloody
fool!" Her tone grew angrier and angrier as she struggled to
keep with him. She didn't even particularly care for Malfoy, but even
she was frustrated with the situation and feeling pushed to her
limits.
Pushing
herself into a run for a moment, she managed to reach out and grab
Harry by the arm, spinning him around to face her. "Harry!"
She berated him, shaking him slightly, "You can't
go there."
He knew it. He knew it but he
hated it and he tore himself away from her, loping across the grounds
towards the gates of Hogwarts and the limit of her wards. He had no
clear idea of what he was going to do once he crossed those borders,
but he couldn't stand sitting still. He needed to do something, even
if it amounted to nothing more than an empty gesture.
The gates were in sight and he
was about to break into a full run when someone appeared from the
other side, rushing towards him just as urgently. He stumbled to a
halt and his knees seemed to give out, driving him down to the
ground. Hermione ran up behind him and stopped, bent over with her
hands on her knees, breathing hard and staring up at the man
approaching.
Waving
a large hand, Neville jogged up to them. Harry had gone almost green;
was this good news or bad
news? He wasn't sure his heart could take either. He let Hermione be
the one to speak up and she called out, "Neville! What're you
doing here? Have you heard anything...?"
Neville slowed to a walk as he
drew near, but he was shaking his head slightly. "I can't
believe how lucky I am to run into you two here. I was dreading
trying to sneak into the school. The Ministry shouldn't hear that I
was ever here." A couple of feet from Harry, he stopped and
looked down at the pale man. "I'm afraid I don't have good
news."
Harry swayed back as if struck
and Neville hastened to add, "I mean, I don't have bad news
either! I just don't have much news to speak of. That's what I'm here
to talk to you about." He squatted down and spoke quietly to
Harry, and Hermione, who leaned closer.
"Look, I have some clout
in my own department, but not many people want to see Malfoy get out
again. It didn't sit well with any number of folk the first time.
I've been sending requests to get him out for questioning, but the
higher ups are obviously happy to put my requests at the bottoms of
their piles." He peered at Harry, whose eyes were hidden by his
overgrown fringe. "There's no support for Malfoy now and I
can't do much more than I already am."
He winced and said the words
that he knew Harry would hate. "I need you to go public for
him, Harry. Malfoy needs you to."
Harry twitched slightly and he
did finally look up at Neville. "What do you mean?" he
asked numbly.
Neville slapped his thighs and
spoke more confidently now. "I'm suggesting a press conference.
We call the Prophet, or any other paper you want, and offer them the
juiciest scoop of the decade - the first interview with Harry
Potter in nearly a decade."
He saw Harry grimacing and knew
how much his old school friend hated the press, so he pushed him
gently. "I know it'll be a pain, Harry, but we need you to
paint your side of the story. Tell how Malfoy helped you during the
war, how he's been helping at Hogwarts, anything you can do to bring
the public over to his side. If the public and press start to
pressure the Ministry, they'll be a lot quicker to get this charade
over with."
"So you want me to tell
them how we became... friends?" Harry asked in an odd sort of
voice.
Glad to see any sort of
response, Neville nodded encouragingly. "Exactly. Anything to
warm the public to Malfoy's side."
Harry was silent for a long
moment, staring down at the grass before him. Then he said quietly,
"But you know more about what happened to Malfoy than I do."
Neville swallowed hard and
looked squarely at Harry. "I can't be linked to this in any
way, you know that. And even if I could, it wouldn't be my place to
tell strangers what Malfoy only told me under Veritaserum."
"Could you..."
Harry gnawed on his lip a moment. "Could you tell me? I'm
hardly a stranger."
The breath whooshed out of
Neville and he looked doubtfully at Harry's kneeling figure. He said
sadly. "It's still not really my place. I think if Malfoy
wanted you to know, he'd tell you." The Auror waffled for a
moment and then he continued, "The one thing I can tell you is
that he's already been punished enough. By himself and by the Death
Eaters. But I think you already knew that."
Harry stared at the ground.
"Did they... did they..." He squeezed his eyes shut but
he couldn't bring himself to say the words aloud. He knew Neville was
right; if Malfoy had wanted him to know what the Death Eaters had
done to him, he would have told him himself. Whether he was trying to
protect Harry, who would surely blame himself, or whether he was
protecting himself, by trying to hide the ugly things that been done
to him, Harry felt like asking would be a betrayal of Malfoy's trust.
He whispered, "Never mind. I know enough."
Neville clapped him on the
shoulder and looked to Hermione. "I can trust you to handle the
rest?" he asked her, smiling ruefully. She nodded and he stood,
brushing at his trousers unnecessarily. "Then I'd best be off.
They'll have my head back at the office if anyone hears I was here
helping with this." His eyes lingered on Harry one last time
and he said quietly, "Do your best." Harry blinked and
glanced up at him, and Neville gave him an awkward little smile. Then
he was off again, jogging through the castle gates and then
Apparating away in an instant.
"Okay, then,"
Hermione said briefly. "Let's get back to the castle. I still
have one class this afternoon, but I'll send off an owl before that
to arrange for the press." She dragged Harry to his feet and
began propelling him back towards the castle. "Would you like
to hold it here or down in Hogsmeade? We would have more control
here, but we'd also need McGonagall's permission. And then we'll need
to..."
Harry barely heard a word, as
they slowly made their way back to Hogwarts' safe walls. He was
picturing Malfoy, in his imagination's hazy idea of a cell, and
wondering if his awkward words would be enough to get him out.
Hermione had arranged
everything and the next morning she came to the Great Hall early to
get her copy of the paper. She wasn't surprised to see Harry sitting
alone at the high table. In the quiet of the empty hall, they looked
at each other silently for a moment, and then Hermione stepped
forward. She took the seat next to him and he handed her the paper
without a word. In the calm before the storm, she snapped the paper
open and began to read.
Mr
Potter's Plea
By Peter Lovejoy
I met with Mr Harry Potter in the
History classroom at Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry. As I
sat down with arguably the most famous wizard alive, I felt indeed
like I was experiencing a bit of history, but it didn't for a moment
feel like a lecture.
Mr Potter is an interesting man, most
curiously for his utter normalcy. If you didn't know his part in our
history, you might simply walk by him in the street without giving
him a moment's notice. Of course, his looks are arresting - his
eyes are as green as rumour says and there is a knowledge in them
that catches you if you happen to meet them. Yet he is a quiet and
self-conscious man, obviously awkward being in the limelight, and the
only time he forgets himself and smiles is when he talks of happier
times.
I
was lucky enough to hear about some such times from Mr Potter, who
had requested to be able to
speak out on behalf of his friend, Mr Draco Malfoy, who has been kept
locked up in Azkaban this past week.
"We first met in Diagon Alley,"
Mr Potter tells me, with one of his private little smiles. "I
thought he was awful. He reminded me of my horrendous cousin. He was
the first wizard of my own age that I ever met - I'd been
living with my Muggle relatives until then, after all." Mr
Potter then laughs and for a moment he looks like what he should have
been: a happy young man in the high days of youth. "He was
self-absorbed and sneering and I wished that I'd never have anything
to do with him again, but you can see how that turned out."
He tells me about their time at
Hogwarts School, as Quidditch rivals and seemingly natural enemies.
Gryffindors and Slytherins are not often known for their great love
for each other, after all. "Still, in a way," he says
thoughtfully, "we were always very important in each other's
lives. If I caught the Snitch in a match, I would search out his face
to see his expression. If I made a mistake in class, I knew he'd be
around the corner to rib me for it. I think he felt very much the
same. Everything we did was with each other in mind. That is, until
Voldemort."
In light of the Dark Lord's return,
their rivalry and dependence on each other was pushed aside. "Of
course, many people were close to Voldemort in many different ways.
But we were especially entangled with him, and perhaps that's why we
understand each other so well now. I was perhaps the closest person
to Voldemort in many ways - we shared a link after he failed to
curse me as a baby, which he had several times tried to take
advantage of through Legilimency. I would have visions of the awful
things he did. I had a part of him, a part of the monster who had
killed my parents and so many others, living on inside of me, giving
me abilities like being a Parselmouth and making me..." Now he
breaks off suddenly, and it is several moments before he speaks next,
telling Mr Malfoy's story this time.
"Malfoy ended up being closer
physically to Voldemort than he could ever have imagined in his worst
nightmares. He was of course raised in a family infamous for
producing Dark wizards. His father was a Death Eater and I had often
come face-to-face with him in confrontations with Voldemort. But by
that time, Lucius had been locked up, captured during the battle at
the Department of Mysteries. Voldemort expected Draco to take Lucius'
place. I know that Draco was afraid for his own life, but more than
that, he feared what would happen to his mother. I think he could see
no possible escape, no one who would help him - everyone he
knew and trusted was under Voldemort's sway. He was given the Dark
Mark and then he was ordered by Voldemort to kill Dumbledore. We were
both sixteen at the time."
Mr Potter then revealed the truth of
what had happened on the mysterious night that Albus Dumbledore died
and both Mr Potter and Mr Malfoy ceased being regular schoolboys, if
they had ever been regular at all. "The three of us were up on
the Astronomy Tower. I'd been petrified and Malfoy had disarmed
Dumbledore, but he couldn't kill him. Malfoy would do anything to
protect his mother, who Voldemort was using against him, but he still
couldn't seem to bring himself to kill another person." Mr
Potter paused, obviously remembering that painful night.
"You
have to understand," he tells me, his lips now twisted into a
sad smile, "that Malfoy is a bit soft, really. He was a rotter
to me all our years at Hogwarts and he fought dirty and he knew more
curses than any schoolboy rightfully should. But I don't believe he
ever wanted to kill anyone. He loved his mother most in all the
world, perhaps because she was the only person who ever showed him
any love. I think at that time, desperate, he thought that any price
would be worth her life. Yet he still couldn't force himself
to kill for her, at sixteen. But before the end, he was forced to
hurt people, to torture, to murder. And his mother was killed by
Voldemort anyway, horribly, right in front of him.
"I know that the fact that he
didn't want to do the things he did doesn't make them any less wrong
or horrid or painful. But I don't know if anyone else understands how
it feels to be forced to do such things, to be forced to kill, and to
then live on with that knowledge." He looks at me and for the
first time I see the full horror that haunts him, a man who was
forced at age seventeen to kill for all our sakes.
Mr Potter talks briefly of his highly
private journey to defeat the Dark Lord and of Mr Malfoy's assistance
in that journey. "Severus Snape, who had endured more than
anyone to protect both Malfoy and me, was finally tortured to death
by Voldemort for his deceit. Before his death, though, he and Malfoy
had worked out the final piece to the puzzle, the last tool I needed
to have a chance of defeating Voldemort. He had..." He seems to
search for words and finally says, "He had certain weaknesses."
"Malfoy was sure to be
Voldemort's next victim, after Snape had been revealed as a traitor.
He could have run then. He could have tried to flee the country, as
other Death Eaters had before him. But instead he came to me and put
his life right back on the line. He helped me find the last tool I
needed to go after Voldemort."
But Mr Malfoy's good deed did not go
unpunished. "He was captured by Voldemort," Mr Potter
explains, looking grim. "And it was because he subjected
himself to a curse that was meant for me. As a result, he lost his
magic and was absolutely powerless against Voldemort and his loyal
Death Eaters. They tortured him without end, until all of the Death
Eaters were eventually rounded up by the ministry." It's
difficult to imagine what Mr Malfoy must have gone through at the
hands of the Death Eaters. Not many have survived to tell tales of
such horrors. "But I think even that pales next to the
emotional torture that Malfoy has put himself through,"
suggests Mr Potter. "I don't think he's forgotten for a day
what he's done. He's punished himself every day for the past six
years that he's survived.
"He was originally let out of
Azkaban because of these two facts - that he had already been
punished more than anyone could be expected to endure, and that he'd
lost his magic and become virtually powerless. Recently he and I
began researching ways to restore his magic, never imagining the
consequences. Directly or not, I was the one who took his magic away
from him. I was certainly the one who left him to be tortured. I
thought if I could help make him whole again in any way, that I would
do it. I wanted to help my friend. But now he's been taken back to
Azkaban and is being forced to relive every terrible, ugly thing in
his life again and again."
Mr Potter's control, which has been
almost unwavering through his retelling of the horrors he has carried
on his young shoulders, now begins to fail. His eyes are shiny with
tears as he admits to me softly, "I'm afraid it might already
be too late."
Looking pained but desperate, he gives
his final plea: "I don't think I've really asked too much of
people. At least, I hope I haven't. I've mostly just always asked to
be left alone. But once, nearly eight years ago, I asked for you all
to believe me. To believe that Voldemort had come back and to prepare
yourselves. Now, one last time, I'd like to ask you to believe me.
You may believe that Malfoy doesn't deserve to get his magic back,
but he doesn't deserve Azkaban. He has been punished enough. We've
both been through enough. Please believe me when I say that he
doesn't deserve this. Please let him go."
These two men, who approached the war
from opposite side, who chose different paths, but who now walk side
by side. They set an example of the understanding that can reach
across the hurts we've all experienced. Will their suffering and
sacrifices go ignored? Will no one hear Mr Potter's plea? ▅
Hermione finished the article
and let the paper rest on the table. Glancing at Harry, she was at
least relieved to see her friend manage a nervy little smile when he
said, "Well, you were right about this Lovejoy fellow. He wrote
up a right sob story, just as you said he would."
"That is what he's known
best for," Hermione agreed absently, glad that the journalist
had followed the conditions of their offering him the interview. She
had feared it would turn into another attention-grabbing gossip fest
about Harry, but the man had managed to stick straight to Harry's
quotes, only adding touches of melodrama for his loyal (and largely
female) audience. "Now we just have to wait and see if Neville
was right, and if we can spur the Ministry into some action.
They both glanced towards the
grey morning sky through the enchanted ceiling, seeing the small
shadows of owls approaching in the distance. Swallowing hard, Harry
murmured, "We might not have to wait all that long."
Oh, oh, we're getting close now...