Rating:
PG-13
House:
Astronomy Tower
Characters:
Hermione Granger Ron Weasley Seamus Finnigan
Genres:
Romance Action
Era:
Multiple Eras
Spoilers:
Philosopher's Stone Chamber of Secrets Prizoner of Azkaban Goblet of Fire Order of the Phoenix
Stats:
Published: 01/30/2004
Updated: 07/10/2006
Words: 7,868
Chapters: 3
Hits: 1,697

I Can't Fight This Feeling

Rachealle Black

Story Summary:
It's another year at Hogwarts and Ron and Hermione are beginning to discover that their feelings for each other run far deeper than friendship. After an encounter in the Quidditch Pitch, they know. But exactly what are they going to do about it, especially when misunderstandings and jealousy arise?

Chapter 02 - Chapter 2

Posted:
12/26/2005
Hits:
396
Author's Note:
This chapter is dedicated to my two wonderful betas, Jak and Potter. Thank you guys so much for all your hard work! A/N: Well, here it is, the second chapter. I hope you all like it. Oh, and one other thing: If you guys have not heard this song out, go find it somewhere, it's an amazing song, and the music that goes with the lyrics will really make you see how well this song fits Ron and Hermione. That said, read on.

I Can't Fight This Feeling

Chapter 2

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Hermione walked slowly down the corridor on her way to Charms class, allowing Ron and Harry time to catch up with her. They'd been slow about leaving the Transfiguration classroom, and Hermione had been in a hurry to talk to Professor Flitwick about their previous homework assignment. But, seeing how they were practically running through the halls to catch up with her, she figured she could spare a second to see what they wanted.

She should have known it would be something stupid.

"Hey, Hermione," Ron called as they got closer. "Guess what we just found out?" his excited tone sparked her interest, and when his arm accidentally brushed hers, Hermione felt her heart jump.

She laughed shakily to cover the way her hands suddenly trembled.

"What?" she asked, more to Harry, who had come up on her other side, than to Ron. She didn't think she could safely look at him right then. She was too afraid she'd start blushing under that baby-blue gaze for absolutely no apparent reason. You know, it was strange. She never felt anything like this when Harry touched her.

"Gryffindor has their first Quidditch practice tomorrow!"

Harry's words shook her out of her musings and her gaze shifted from one boy to the other, eyebrows raised faintly. That was the news?

"And?" she prodded, thinking there had to be more to the story if they expected her to get excited about Quidditch.

"What do you mean, and?" Ron asked, incredulous. "What else does there have to be? Quidditch, Hermione, Quidditch. Broomsticks, flying balls... fun. Not that you know much about that," Ron added under his breath and immediately regretted it when he realized that Hermione had heard him.

Hermione felt her face grow hot. But it wasn't from embarrassment. It was fury. "And what exactly is that supposed to mean, Ronald Arthur Weasley?" And to think, two seconds ago, she'd been melting under his gaze...

"I-I-" Ron stammered, "Nothing. It didn't mean anything." Harry shot him a sympathetic look.

"Hmmph. It didn't sound like nothing to me." Hermione was still glaring at him, and several students hurried around them and on down the hall, casting furtive glances behind them. Harry wished wistfully that he could join them. He really didn't feel like listening to another argument between the two of them- wait a second, why couldn't he join those other students? It wasn't his fight after all.

He started walking, leaving the pair of them to it. If they wanted to yell the school down around them, that was their problem. Hermione was still glaring, and Ron looked displeased, but determined. What was worse was that Ron hadn't even told her the real news yet. And I so don't want to be around when it gets to that part, he thought with a sigh Even if it had been partly his idea...

Neither of them noticed when Harry left them and disappeared around the corner, and Hermione was so incensed by now that she didn't even care if they were late for Charms. She was going to have this out with him, here and now. She wasn't sure why his comment had bothered her so much, but it had, and she wasn't going to take it easily.

But you do know,

a little voice whispered in her ear. It's because it's true...Shut up! she ordered it fiercely. It's not true. It's not. I have fun! The voice fell silent.

" 'Mione, I'm sorry. I didn't mean it like that, you know I didn't."

Ron's soft voice pleaded with her not to get mad at him, his blue eyes clouded, and in spite of all her efforts to prevent it, Hermione felt herself softening. He hardly ever called her by her old nickname anymore. She often wished he'd do more often; it was so distinctly Ron. Not even Harry could call her that and really get away with it. It just ended up sounding stupid. But when Ron said it, it was so natural...

Hermione felt her anger melting away, and mentally slapped herself. Now was not the time to be having those thoughts. Now wasn't time to- Bloody hell, now was time to get to class!

Taking a deep breath, Hermione released the rest of her anger. "I know you didn't, Ron," she said as gently as she could, at the same time rearranging her books in her arm and starting to walk away. "Let's just forget about it and get to class, okay?" She didn't wait to hear his answer.

Ron hesitated a moment, then rushed to catch up with her. "I haven't even told you the best part yet."

Hermione's steps faltered and she risked a glance up at him. He was smiling at her, a hopeful expression in his eyes, and even as she smiled back, Hermione felt a surge of unease. "There's more?" she asked carefully.

She didn't want another argument if she could help it...

"Yep."

Hermione's brows furrowed with impatience at his sudden lack of eagerness "So...?"

"Maybe I should wait until after class," Ron wondered aloud, voice apprehensive. I don't think this was such a good idea...She's going to get mad at me again, and I hate when we fight.

You did it for her, he tried to remind himself. She needs to get away from those books of hers, she's going to end up with one permanently attached to her face if we don't watch out. And it was Harry's idea too!

That last part sounded a little too much like desperate self-justification for his liking, and firmed his resolve to wait until later. Later. I'll just tell her later.

Hermione frowned slightly, but nodded her agreement. "Good idea. Let's wait until class is over. I have something important to discuss with Professor Flitwick, so I really need to get there a bit early."

Unfortunately, they arrived just as class was starting, and Hermione realized that the discussion she'd planned on having with the Charms professor was going to have to wait.

They walked into the classroom one after the other, Ron stepping back to allow Hermione to go first, like he always did. It was funny, she decided as she walked to her desk. She had never really noticed how considerate it was of him. He was truly a gentleman...

And then she snorted with laughter at her own stupid thoughts. Ron? A gentleman? Not even.

It wasn't until she came back to reality a second later that she realized everyone was staring at her.

"Are you alright, Miss Granger?" Professor Flitwick asked, a concerned frown on his face. He couldn't have his best student ill. It just wouldn't do...

Hermione felt her face burning, and slouched down in her seat a little. "I'm fine, Professor," she mumbled, not immune to the snickers of her classmates around her. Even Harry was smiling, though he tried to cover the expression with his hand.

"Alright then," the Professor continued. "Now, about those vanishing charms..."

Hermione perked up again, quill in hand as she prepared to jot down notes. She was writing rapidly when a new awareness hit her. Someone was still staring at her. Looking up, she jerked her head quickly to the side and met Ron's eyes. There was something odd about them, something she'd never seen before. A vague kind of dreaminess, almost as if his eyes were focused on her but he wasn't really looking.

Kind of like the way I look at him sometimes when he can't see me, she thought suddenly, and the comparison hit her like a physical blow. But that's silly, she argued with herself. Why would Ron possibly be looking at me that way? I mean...its Ron.

Her reasoning didn't help, and it didn't make the odd feeling go away. If anything, it seemed to intensify it, so that when Ron blinked and the vague look disappeared from his eyes abruptly, she felt herself blushing again. Now she was the one who had gotten caught staring. She averted her gaze quickly, hoping Ron hadn't noticed the rosy hue that stained her cheeks but certain that he had.

The rest of the class was spent with her pretending to take notes and pay attention while really glancing covertly out of the corner of her eye to where Ron sat at his desk. He didn't look at her again, just kept his eyes locked carefully on the front of the room. Hermione was oddly disappointed.

After the class was over, Harry and Ron waited outside the door, conversing in low voices, while Hermione had her discussion with the professor. The boys seemed to be arguing about something, she discovered as she approached, but their voices stopped as soon as she walked out.

She smiled amusedly at them, the chat with Professor Flitwick fully restoring her good mood. "Oh, you can go on if you like, don't let me stop you"

Ron shifted his weight from foot to foot nervously, and Harry glanced away; neither of them replied. Hermione's eyes narrowed and she looked at them warily. "Okay, spill, what is it? What's going on?"

There was still no answer. Her eyes narrowed further, this time with more than a hint of impatience. "Alright, Ron, you said you wanted to tell me something after class. Now speak up."

Ron bit his lip, unsure how to reply. "Harry'll tell you," he said quickly, glancing at Harry and hoping his friend would oblige him. Ron was a little sorry he'd put Harry on the spot, especially because he had just so adamantly been insisting that Ron had to be the one to tell her, but maybe his best friend would have pity on him and help him out.

Fat chance. Harry just looked at him, his green eyes unreadable to all but a few people. And Ron was one of them.

He groaned inwardly, knowing it was no use. It had been his mouth that had voiced the idea, and it was his responsibility to tell her.

Taking a deep breath, Ron told her. "WesignedyouupfortheQuidditchteam," he mumbled so fast that it was impossible for her to have heard him.

Hermione gave him a blank stare. "What?"

He sighed. There was no getting around it. "We signed you up for the Quidditch team."

If looks could kill, Ron would have been six feet under in two seconds flat. "You did what?" Hermione's voice was deadly calm.

Ron didn't answer, just cringed and looked away. He knew she'd heard him. Hermione glanced towards Harry, but he refused to meet her eyes.

"Of all the dirty, rotten-How could you do that?" she asked, the pitch and volume of her voice getting higher and higher.

Her face was not a pretty sight either, all clouded and ominous looking. Ron found himself mentally comparing her to a raging thunderstorm.

"Why would you possibly think I would want to be on the Quidditch team, either of you? I hate flying!" She was completely exploding now, and Harry wondered absently how long it would take before the roof caved down on them. Two minutes? Three?

"How is that even possible? I never tried out!"

Ah, now there was something Harry could answer. "I know you didn't," Harry explained. "Neither did anybody else, and we were one player short this year."

Hermione's voice dropped back to its

normal level, and she forced herself to speak evenly. She knew if she let herself she'd get carried away and have the whole school talking. "So...you just assumed that I'd fill in the empty place, did you? Knowing that I've never played a game of Quidditch my entire life, knowing that I'm not even that great of a flyer..." Her voice trailed off, leaving a nasty silence in its wake.

"I could help you," Ron volunteered, his voice lower than a whisper. But Hermione heard.

"Excuse me?"

"I said, I could help you. You know, show you how to play the game, help you improve your flying..." he explained in a small voice, suddenly finding the floor fascinating to look at.

"Oh you could, could you? Well what if I said that I refused to play? What if I simply said 'no way'?"

Neither Ron nor Harry had any answer to that.

Hermione closed her eyes and forced herself to relax. She needed to think, to see things clearly, and she couldn't do that through a haze of anger "I'm going to the library."

Harry and Ron's eyebrows shot up as she left, leaving them standing outside the empty classroom. Professor Flitwick had already bustled past them before the argument began. They watched her walk around the corner, both wondering whether that was really it, or if she was going to come storming back around the corner again, all riled up and ready for another fight. She didn't.

After a few minutes watchful, anxious silence, the two boys turned to look at one another.

"Guess I've really done it this time," Ron said expressionlessly.

"Guess so," Harry replied lightly, trying to lift the heavy mood that hung over them.

"She's never going to speak to me again."

Harry's brow lifted, and he studied Ron calculatingly. "You really do like her, don't you?"

"Hmm?" Ron asked absently, his mind clearly elsewhere.

"I said, you really do like her, don't you?"

That brought Ron around. "Who?"

Harry rolled his eyes in exasperation. "Hermione."

The red flush that spread over Ron's face was answer enough.

"I knew it," Harry grinned smugly, causing Ron to glare at him.

"Oh really? How?"

"Well, it's fairly obvious for anyone with eyes, you know."

Ron's eyes widened. "You mean...Hermione...?"

Harry shook his head, smiling now. "No, not Hermione. In fact, she seems to be the only one who's as blind as you are about the fact."

Ron felt relief wash over him in tidal waves. "Good. Because she can't know. Not ever."

Harry looked at him then, puzzled. "Why on earth not?"

Ron didn't answer at first, just stared hard at the ground. Then he looked up, and Harry could have almost sworn there were tears in his eyes. "Because," Ron said. "She would-she would never like me like that."

Harry eyebrows lifted in surprise. "No? What makes you think that?"

"I-I don't know," Ron said. "She just wouldn't, that's all."

Harry shook his head. "You'll have to tell her how you feel, sometime; eventually."

Ron nodded. It was the same thought that had been racing through his head for the past week, ever since the night he had finally realized that what he felt for Hermione was anything but friendship anymore. "I know," he confided, "but I just can't. Not yet. Call me a coward, if you want, Harry, but I'm so scared she'll laugh in my face that I can't do anything. I can't eat, I can't sleep..." he trailed off dejectedly. "It's hopeless. And it's kind of funny too; in it's own strange, sad kind of way. I mean, Hermione is so...well, Hermione. She doesn't seem to change, not really. You'd think that I'd be able to predict her answer, if I told her the way I felt. But I can't. I can't even try to predict what she's going to say, because part of me doesn't want to know. Part of me wants to go back to the way it used to be, before these...feelings interfered with our friendship. Back to when things were so clear-cut. Hermione used to be the one I could count on to show me the way, to solve problems, to make things clear. Now, I'm stuck with the biggest problem in the world, and the only person I can't tell about it is her." He gave a soft, bitter laugh.

I tell myself that I can't hold out forever

I say there is no reason for my fears

'Cause I feel so secure when we're together

You give my life direction, you make everything so clear

"It'll be alright, you'll see. She'll come around." Harry felt his heart go out to his best friend, and he tried to project as much confidence into his voice as possible.

Ron swiped his sleeve across his eyes quickly, suddenly feeling a bit embarrassed to be rambling on as he was in front of Harry. "You really think so?" he asked, his voice a bit more hopeful.

"No," Harry replied, shaking his head, "I know so." I hope I'm right about this...

The two boys turned, and began walking back towards Gryffindor Tower; the opposite direction from the one Hermione had taken. She waited until they were out of sight, then pulled her head back from the corner and practically flew to the sanctuary of the library.

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A/N: That's it for now, but don't worry, I plan on updating this story often, with probably not more than two days in between each posting. Hope that suits everyone. Oh, and don't worry about me not being able to do it, because I am happy to say that I've actually already finished writing the entire story. So it will be finished!

Thanks to all of my wonderful reviewers, I love you all!


A/N: That's it for now, but don't worry, I plan on updating this story often, with probably not more than two days in between each posting. Hope that suits everyone. Oh, and don't worry about me not being able to do it, because I am happy to say that I've actually already finished writing the entire story. So it will be finished!