Self Destruct

Chapter 2: The Beginning

It's been a week since the beginning of the year at Hogwarts has started, and the most exciting thing to happen yet was the fiasco of Weaslette and Pothead. Every breakfast, lunch, and dinner he always begs her to forgive him and to take him back. One of the most talked about fights so far had only happen this morning, and I, of course wanting to see Potty miserable, saw all of it.

"Ginny!" Potter yelled, running to catch up to her where she was ignoring him and walking fast. "Ginny, please! Just talk to me!"

He put his hand on her shoulder and she shrugged it off. "I don't want to talk to you," she said, and continued to walk away. "Just leave me alone."

"Let me explain," he said, stepping in front of her and putting his hands on her shoulders. She didn't look up at him, but looked at the floor. It was easy to see that the break up with Potter and what he had done to her and crushed her. "I was drunk. I know I shou-."

"I don't want to here your fucking excuses," she hissed. "What you did to me was unacceptable and I will NEVER forgive you! No matter how much you plead and beg and cry for me to come to you. We're through. Now get that through your scarred skull and leave me the fuck alone!"

"But I love you," Potter said. I saw the Weaslette stop and for the first time she looked up at him. I shook my head at how easy she was. "And you love me. I know you do. We're supposed to be together forever and you it."

She was quiet and then she stepped away from him and wrapped her arms around her body. "You're wrong," she said. Everybody was quiet and watching them with interest. Everybody had known of the romance that they had shared last year, but from what I had heard they had broken up. They must've gotten back together during the summer.

Potter gasped at her. "W-what?" he asked.

"You're wrong," she said in a chocked voice. "I don't love you. I gave you my heart and you gave it back to me in a million pieces. I can't forgive and forget something like that. I depend on my heart to live, and it's getting harder and harder everyday. You have no idea how much pain you've caused me."

"I told you I was sorry! I can't be sorrier! I love you and it's killing me knowing that we're not together! Kissing Hermione was the biggest mistake I have EVER made and I've told you repeatedly how sorry I am."

"Saying sorry will never be enough," she said so low I couldn't even hear that well. "You can't just tell 'I'm sorry' and expect me to forgive you and jump right back into you arms. That would be foolish of me, and I've been foolish too many times in my life before to do it again. I won't do it again, Harry. I can't do it again."

"Fine," he said after a moment. "Fine, I'll leave you alone. But I won't give up on us, Ginny. We will be back together soon. This is not the end of us, I swear to you, Ginny. This is not the end. It can't be." Then he left the Great Hall.

The Weaslette looked around at everybody and then sat down next to Lavender Brown. Brown wrapped her arm around the girl weasel and hugged her. They started talking and I went back to eating my food.

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I heard them talking about her two weeks later. After quiditch practice while we were all in the lockers showering and changing.

"Damn, that Ginny Weasley has one hell of a body," I heard somebody saying. I started listening to the conversation.

"Are you just now noticing that? Shit, you are slow!"

"Have you seen it without clothes on? Whoo hoo! Damn, she is FINE!"

"What are you talking about," I asked, spinning around and looking at the two boys with curiosity.

"What I am talking about is that I saw little Ginny Weasley in the owerly last night," Theodore Nott said, looking smug. "She looked so sad. I talked to her and convinced her to walk with me. We went up to the Astronomy Tower...and well...I don't need to go on from there."

"You and the Weaslette shagged?" I asked, completely shocked. "You guys aren't even going out!"

"She's vulnerable," Theo said. He turned towards his friend, Blaise Zabini, "Blaise, mate, you should seriously go for it. She'll fuck anybody right now. I overheard Seamus Finnegan saying that he had shagged her as well."

I couldn't speak. I was SHOCKED! Ginny Weasley wasn't the type who would do this - she wasn't Pansy.

"Look, Theo," Blaise whispered, but loud enough so that I could hear it. "I think Malfoy is about to blow!"

"Now that wouldn't be too bad, now would it," Theo whispered back, equally as loud as Blaise.

I glared at them and finished changing. After fixing my hair I stormed out of the lockers. Theo and Blaise were still talking about the Weaslette and how good she was. It was disgusting. Not just how Theo and Blaise were acting, but with Ginny. This breakup was going too far. She had slept with THEODORE NOTT for Merlin's sake! And Theo is known to be one of Hogwarts biggest pervs. How Ginny had gone from Harry Potter to Theodore Nott was amazing.

Wait. When did I started calling the Weaslette 'Ginny?' I shook my head and sighed. This was not one of my good days. I needed to get away from everything and relax. So I walked into the main building and to a corridor that was always empty. It was dark and quiet, letting me think about everything without being seen.

I heard a sniffle and I froze. Then another one and then somebody was crying. I slowly and quietly looked around the corner and saw Ginny Weasley sitting in the corner with her head in her arms. Her knees were curled up to her chest. I couldn't move.

I had never seen a girl cry before, except my mother after my father had beaten her. But this was completely different and it shocked me. My chest hurt and it felt hard to breathe. Was I really seeing this? Was I really witnessing Ginny Weasley sobbing her eyes out in a corner of a hallway?

Deciding I couldn't bear to see it anymore, I leaned against the wall away from her and looked up at the ceiling, letting out a long breath. Then I turned and walked away as fast as I could without making any noise.

This breakup was going to be harder on her than I had ever thought it would, possibly even harder than it was for the professor's to deal with Dumbledore's death. I mean, this girl had loved him for six years and when she finally gets him, he cheats on her with her best friend - and one of his.