Forever Lost

I laid in my room on my bed deep in thought. Not knowing what was happening half way across the world. My thoughts were on one mysterious person that I always liked, more like loved, but he never seemed to notice me. I was the bookworm with all the right answers, never an equal. Right now that doesn't matter, after seeing him after five years it was hard not to think about him. After all, he was my best friend but I never really knew a lot about him.

I had fallen in love with him in our sixth year at Hogwarts. Things were so perfect until he had to go and almost get himself killed. First he didn't tell me that Ginny had gotten kidnapped. Second, he didn't tell me that he and Dumbledore were planning to save her without anyone else. Just himself and Dumbledore coming in and saving him if he needed it. I was worried sick until the Great Hall doors opened five days after he left to two men in black cloaks standing there. One holding an unconscious Ginny Weasley and the other holding a jar with a rat in it. As the one with the rat pulled his hood off we knew suddenly who the other one was and we jumped up and ran to him. Ron grabbed Ginny away and I hugged him yelling at him not to do that again.

We still didn't know until we met with Dumbledore two hours later. He looked older then normal. He told us that not only did they have Ginny but Draco Malfoy, Remus Lupin and Sirius Black in their evil hands. It appears that Malfoy never wanted anything to do with his father and the fact that he was a Death Eater made Draco hate him more. For about an hour while the old Headmaster was telling us this I felt sorry for Draco and vowed to myself that I would be nicer to him, even if he wasn't to me, but I had a strange feeling he would be.

"There are times when I look above and beyond

There are times when I feel your love around me baby

I'll never forget my baby

I'll never forget you"

After that Harry was never an easy person to talk to. I had known him for a little over six years and I knew that he never showed his emotions on ANYTHING! He didn't really talk for about three months after those five days. He only spoke when he was called on in classes and to Ginny because they were going though the same thing. He also became great friends with Draco and helped Sirius in his trial. He won, thank god and now Peter is were he belongs. I noticed that during the time he would only talk to Ginny, they became closer. Almost attached at the hip. That's when they fell for one another I knew I was lost in the wind. So after graduation I moved here, to this small town in Virginia; I hate living in this state because it bares HER name.

He told me, a few weeks ago, he's getting married. He was so exicited as we talked, sitting in the small café, it took all my strength not to run out of there, crying. Since then I haven't seen him, spoke to him, or even thoughtabout going to their wedding. The only person that I have really spoken to is Draco. During seventh year we became fast friends when Sirius caught his dad and Lucius was taken to Azkaban for a life sentence. So as he told me all this I sat there staring at him, crushed, much like I am now. But there really isn't anything I can do about it since the wedding is tomorrow. I'm not going.

I sigh as I look at the invention on my nightstand. I can't stand looking at it because it makes my thoughts drift to him. I know I will never have him now. Now that he's engaged to that girl. That Girl. That's what I started calling her. I thought she was my friend. She knew I loved him more then life itself and now look. She took him away from me, but how can he say no? She's beautiful, way prettier then I will ever be. I only wish I was in her shoes.

So I desided to go for a walk.

"There are times when I look above and beyond

There are times when I feel your love around me baby

I'll never forget my baby

When I feel that I don't belong

Draw my strength

From the words when you said

Hey it's about you baby

Look deeper inside you baby"

I slid on my favorite walking shoes and a heavy coat on then walked out the door of my small flat. I glanced at my wand on the table next to the door and realize I'm not on call right now so I am free to do what I want to. I mean I love being a medi-witch and all but sometimes my wand beeps at the worst times. Once I was snogging my ex-ex-boyfriend and it went off and I had to stop right in the middle and go on call, some stupid kid had choked on a pea. I swear they shouldn't make kids eat those things.

I slowly walked to the elevator and waved to Mrs. Lawson down the hall. She was walking her dog, Carmel, cute little thing. All her kids are my age and older and it's just her now, her and her dog that I bought her. Poor woman, her wizard husband died a few months ago of natural causes thank goodness. I was his doctor and he just died in his sleep one night. Shame really, Mr. Lawson was always a nice man. Reminded me of Professor Dumbledore.

"Dream about us together again

What I want us together again baby

I know we'll be together again 'cause"

I rode the elevator down to the bottom floor of the small apartment building and into the small lobby. I wave to Nick at the front desk he's doing paper work on the building since he owns it with his cousin and best friend. I walk outside and into town as I head for the park.

As I step into the park I pull my coat on a little tighter. Suddenly wishing that someone's arms were around me, keeping me warm. I look up as a couple passes me and I head towards the small lake in the middle of the park. Once I get there I plant myself on a park bench and stare into the water. At my reflection. It shows a twenty-two year old medi-witch with brown shoulder length/straight hair that falls into my chocolate eyes. I cut it when I got my job.

"I'm so ugly, not even Martin looks at me like he looks at everyone else," I say to myself talking about Martin, Nick's twenty-four year old son.

I lean back into the bench and stare across the lake. I suddenly hear footsteps.

"Is anyone sitting there?" a man's voice asks.

I look up and gasp.

"Everywhere I go

Every smile I see

I know you are there

Smilin' back at me

Dancin' in the moonlight

I know you are free

'Cause I can see your star

Shinin' down on me"

"No, there isn't anyone sitting there, I don't think there ever will be," I answer hotly.

"Don't talk like that about yourself," he tells me. And sits down next to me. We both stare across the lake.

"Why shouldn't I?"

"Because, even if you don't know it there are people out there that do love you," he answers and turns to look at me.

"Ya really?"

"Yep, why didn't you tell me that you aren't going to be at the wedding? Why did I have to find out from Draco?" he asks.

"Good times we'll share again

Makes me wanna dance

Say it loud and proud

All my love's for you

Always been a true angel to me

Now above

I can't wait for you to wrap your wings around me baby

Wrap them around me baby

Sometimes hear you whisperin'"

"Because no one is making me go. And I don't really want to go to a wedding were I'm not welcome by a bride and were I won't feel welcome by anyone but Draco and maybe Ron. Why should I go?"

"For me."

"Ya and only you."

"Ginny likes you."

"No, she doesn't, you just don't understand."

"Then explain it to me, please come to the wedding for me."

"No, I will not come. I have already made up my mind and anyways I'm on call that night, I can't."

"Fine, be that way. Your so stubborn."

"Thank you, but I happen to enjoy my job more then weddings."

He doesn't say anything for a long time after that.

"What are you doing here?" I ask suddenly after about five minutes of silence.

"I came to tell you the wedding is off," he answers.

"No more pain

No worries will you ever see now baby

I'm so happy for my baby

Dream about us together again

What I want us together again baby

I know we'll be together again 'cause"

"What!? Why? After all that fighting about the wedding?!"

"I found out that I was in love with someone better."

"Is there a person better then Ginny Weasley?"

"Yes."

"How did she take it when you called off the wedding for no reason?"

"Oh I called it off for a reason."

"What?"

"She was cheating on me."

"Everywhere I go

Every smile I see

I know you are there

Smilin' back at me

Dancin' in the moonlight

I know you are free

'Cause I can see your star

Shinin' down on me"

"Oh I'm so sorry."

"No need to be, I still was going to call it off. Mrs. Weasley was so mad," he says and we sit in silence for a while.

"Why didn't you just write me?" I ask after a while.

"I could have but then what's the point? I was in town anyways," he tells me.

"You live in London; I live in Portsmouth, Virginia. You were not just in town."

"And you know this because?"

"Good times we'll share again

Makes me wanna dance

Say it loud and proud

All my love's for you

There are times when I look above and beyond

There are times when I feel you smile upon me baby

I'll never forget my baby

What I'd give just to hold you close

As on earth

In heaven we will be together baby

Together again my baby"

"Because I know you."

"Is that right?"

"Yes."

"Then tell me what I'm going to do next."

"Get up and walk away."

"Wrong."

"Then just what are you going to do?" I ask quietly.

He puts a hand on the side of my face and moves it gently to face him.

"This," he answers and kisses me.

"Everywhere I go

Every smile I see

I know you are there

Smilin' back at me

Dancin' in the moonlight

I know you are free

'Cause I can see your star

Shinin' down on me"

I sit there in shock and realize quickly that he wasn't going to pull away anytime soon so I decide to deepen the kiss by putting my arms up and around his neck. He brings me so close to him that I am sitting on his lap so I wrap my legs around him and he stands up, and carries me all the way home. On the way there the kiss stops and I smile.

"You don't believe how long I've wanted to do this," he says to me and smiles.

"You won't believe how long I've dreamed of this," I tell him.

"Everywhere I go

Every smile I see

I know you are there

Smilin' back at me

Dancin' in the moonlight

I know you are free

'Cause I can see your star

Shinin' down on me"

"You dream of us?"

"All the time."

We walk into my flat and into my room. He sets me down on the bed and kisses me again.

"I love you Hermione, I always have," he says to me and I smile again.

"And I you Harry," I tell him before he kisses me.