Rating:
PG-13
House:
Schnoogle
Characters:
Ginny Weasley Harry Potter
Genres:
Action Drama
Era:
Multiple Eras
Spoilers:
Philosopher's Stone Chamber of Secrets Prizoner of Azkaban Goblet of Fire Order of the Phoenix Quidditch Through the Ages Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them
Stats:
Published: 10/17/2005
Updated: 05/26/2007
Words: 66,281
Chapters: 19
Hits: 33,310

Harry Potter and the Secret Horcrux

LogicalRaven

Story Summary:
Post HBP. Every story must have an end. Harry Potter must now face the greatest adventure of his life. Lives will be lost and love will be found. The only difference between a Muggle and a wizard is his ability to believe. Based on what could occur in book seven.

Chapter 19 - Ramblings of A Desperate Man

Chapter Summary:
Harry discovers a Black family secret.
Posted:
03/26/2007
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864


Chapter Nineteen: Ramblings of a Desperate Man

Harry entered the room feeling the weight of his gripping fear. His memory from earlier that evening played on a continuous loop. He could see the golden shimmer as she opened her book satchel, but all he could do was pray she hadn't done anything stupid. Didn't she realize how dangerous of an object she had taken? Harry shook his head viciously. Of course she didn't know how dangerous the locket was. He had kept it from her intentionally. She wasn't supposed to be involved; she wasn't supposed to be in danger.

He didn't even knock before he forced the door open. Ginny gave an audible start and Harry's glare seemed to freeze her. Her surprise quickly passed and she seemed to collect herself in preparation for a defense.

"Where is it?" Harry demanded. He already had all the proof he needed in his mind. Ginny had taken the locket and foolishly placed herself in grave danger.

Ginny blinked hard before snapping a silver book shut and narrowing her eyes to glare right back at him.

"You don't know what it is, what you're doing!" Harry snapped.

Ginny's cheeks grew slightly red as she clenched her hands against her sides. "Don't you dare take that tone with me, Potter."

Harry momentarily found himself at a loss for words. Whatever he had expected her response to be, it certainly was not to be addressed by his surname.

"Ginny, give it back before you do something stupid," Harry said in a forced voice after the shock passed.

Ginny gave a sneer that could rival Malfoy's before responding, "I have no idea what you're talking about."

"Yes you do!" Harry retorted, his voice growing a little louder again.

Ginny snatched the silver book off the table where she had set it down just moments before. "Do you want this book? Is that what you're talking about?"

Harry raised his eyebrows but before he could tell her he was looking for the locket, she tossed the book across the room and towards his head. His quick seeker's reflexes allowed him to duck out of the flying book's path and it crashed into the wall behind him.

"WHY DID YOU JUST THROW A BLOODY BOOK AT ME?" Harry ranted as Ginny glowered at him with her hands firmly on her hips.

"Because you deserved it," Ginny spat viciously.

"I just want back what you stole! I don't think I deserve to have my head severed by a flying book!" Harry replied.

Ginny looked like a Norwegian Ridgeback ready to spew fire as her red hair fell in uneven strands from her ponytail. "I just gave it back to you, so take it! Little good it will do you since you don't know how to use it."

Harry glanced down at the silver book lying open near the wall behind him. "I'm not talking about the book. I'm talking about the locket."

Ginny cringed, but quickly recovered. "Why would I have the locket?"

"How should I know?" Harry yelled.

"You just assumed I figured out a way to nick it, but I'm not clever enough to destroy it?" Ginny fumed. "Little Ginny Weasley. I'm completely incapable of doing anything important."

Harry paused. "Who said I wanted to destroy it?"

Ginny's mouth fell open as if Harry's question had revealed something she hadn't wanted him to know. "Oh come off it," she recovered. "You, Ron and Hermione have been whispering around since you arrived with the cursed thing. What else would you want to do with it?"

"Who said I wanted to destroy it?" Harry repeated in a firmer voice.

"So you don't want it destroyed?" Ginny asked angrily.

Harry shook his head. "I didn't say if I did or didn't."

Ginny bit her bottom lip and then glanced nervously at her cauldron as some of the fight drained from her eyes. "Potter, I don't time for this. I have to finish this potion."

"What potion is it?" Harry asked sharply. This time, hearing his surname didn't take him aback.

Ginny, on the other hand, seemed rather surprised that Harry was figuring things out. She seemed to search the room randomly with her eyes as if she hoped an excuse would jump out at her. "It's just a potion for Slughorn."

"Which one?" Harry demanded.

"Why does it matter?" Ginny spat viciously, suddenly looking very defensive against Harry's line of questioning.

Harry glanced into the cauldron. "I don't recognize it."

"Do you honestly think you can remember every potion you did last year?" Ginny accused.

Harry raised his eyebrow. "You weren't using your Advanced Potions Making book."

"How do you reach that conclusion?" Ginny questioned tensely.

Harry raised his finger and pointed at her book satchel where a corner of her potion's book was peeking out of the corner. "Which begs the question, what are you brewing?"

Ginny lowered her head but didn't answer Harry's question. She gave a soft sniffling noise and Harry felt as though he had been flogged with a broomstick. He had made her cry, again. He felt only slightly better when she looked up and he noticed her eyes were dry.

"Ginny, you have to understand," Harry said in a dull whisper. "I don't want to keep you out of the loop; I don't want you to think I'm treating you like you're not important. It's just--it's just, if you're out there..."

"What if I'm out there?" Ginny asked in a weak, almost vulnerable voice.

"I won't be able to fight," Harry said quietly, as if he hadn't meant to actually tell her that.

Ginny glanced up, looking completely confused by Harry's confession. "What?"

"If you're out there, I'd be so worried about keeping you safe that I wouldn't be able to do what has to be done. If anything happened to you... if Voldemort used you..."

"And what about me?" Ginny asked. "How am I supposed to live with myself knowing I did nothing? It doesn't matter how safe you keep me. If you end up killed in this quest of yours then I'll have to live with it. I'll have to move on and remember everyday for the rest of my life how I did nothing to help. There are things worse than death, Harry. I'd rather die than live with that."

Harry felt his body give an involuntary shudder.

Ginny continued. "You didn't even ask me how I felt? You just assumed you knew what was best for us--for me."

"Ginny," Harry said quietly.

Ginny's eyes started to brim with tears before she hastily wiped her eyes on the back of her sleeve.

"I know it's a Horcrux," she revealed, looking quite determined to change the subject. "I know what you're planning on facing."

"Did Hermione?" Harry began.

"No," Ginny interrupted. "He told me."

Harry wondered briefly if he should know who 'he' was? Was she talking about Ron? Surely Ron wouldn't have told her. Was she talking about Dumbledore? Did Dumbledore tell her about the Horcruxes?

Ginny pointed to the book she had thrown at him just moments before. "Regulus Black."

"Regulus Black is dead," Harry said without even really thinking. His mind juggled the idea that Regulus Black might be visiting Ginny as a ghost for a brief second since nothing Ginny was saying was making sense.

Ginny pointed behind Harry. "The book, it belonged to Regulus Black. It's charmed so not just anybody can read it. If you open it all you'll see is blank pages. It's charmed not to reveal itself and look blank, just like the Marauder's Map."

"How did you figure that out? How did you figure out the password?" Harry asked as he picked the book up and thumbed through it.

Ginny grinned in spite of herself as she approached Harry with her wand in her hand. "I'm Fred and George's little sister...Toujours Pur."

As Ginny touched her wand tip to the blank pages, the book filled with so much writing there was hardly a white margin, which caused Harry to nearly drop the book in surprise.

Ginny continued, "Regulus Black suspected a ring Voldemort once wore might be another Horcrux."

"Dumbledore destroyed it," Harry said without thinking.

It was like a piece of lead had been dropped on his chest, making it much more difficult to breathe properly. Ginny turned a few pages of Regulus Black's diary and held the book up for Harry to read.

I feel I'm getting closer to what I'm looking for. Antonin mentioned to me again that the Dark Lord had taken measures to prevent his own death. He is one of the Dark Lord's oldest and most faithful followers, but I do not think even he knows what is meant by 'measures to prevent his own death.' The only way the Dark Lord could prevent, not just delay, his own death would be to create a Horcrux. What kind of fiend would choose to divide his soul? What have I sworn my allegiances to? A cloud of secrecy surrounds the Dark Lord and no one knows anything of his past. It was once suggested that he might be Tom Riddle who was once Head Boy at Hogwarts. The suggestion was used as a reason to perform six of the most unjust executions I've ever witnessed. I didn't dare speak out on the accused behalves; they were foolish enough to ask questions. I will not even mention their names in this journal, for fear that it will someday fall into the Dark Lord's hands. If he knew of my suspicious, if he knew of my fear he would waste no time in striking me dead. My dear brother will spend a lifetime opposing what my master stands for, but it will be I who makes him mortal again. The playing field must be level; the Dark Lord's Horcrux must be destroyed.I>

The words were written in the same penmanship as the note that has was placed in the decoy locket. Harry took the book out of Ginny's grip and flipped a few more pages.

I was approached today. I didn't recognize the old man but there was something uncomfortably familiar about him. He asked if I was a Death Eater and only by chance was his life spared. The Dark Lord does not tolerate questions and this stranger was asking questions that I dare not answer. The truth is I am in fact a Death Eater. The Dark Mark burns darkly on my arm reminding me daily of the pledge I've made. I do believe in what I'm fighting for, but there are moments where I wish there had been other options. I'm the favored son; I'm the decent Black. I do not despise my brother for being what he is; I despise him for making me who I am.

"He was only a kid," Ginny said somberly. "He was a sixth-year when he took the Dark Mark."

Harry felt the lead on his chest grow heavier as he subconsciously flipped to the back of the book.

I've done it, I've deflected... I do not doubt that the Dark Lord will discover that I am no longer loyal and send Death Eaters for me soon. I cannot hope of not being discovered for I am a traitor. I wonder if I will be missed but other questions haunt me as well. Tonight I will venture into the forbidden cave. Augustus Rockwood said he had heard the Dark Lord mention performing a terrible act involving the cave. The only act I can possible imagine that would be terrible in the Dark Lord's mind would be the creation of his Horcrux. I continue to believe that he has made more than one, and it is my hope that I can destroy the both of them before I am killed. I have no hopes of being the one to stop the Dark Lord, but I do intend on making sure the Dark Lord is mortal when the prophecy is fulfilled.

Harry quickly turned the page to see the last words Regulus Black ever wrote in his journal.

I have retrieved the locket and I am certain the Dark Lord does not realize his precious Horcrux has been replaced. I left a warning for my former master but I hope it is never discovered. Looking back I realize that by leaving a warning I have endangered my entire family. I cannot even pretend to know how to destroy the locket so I have sought the help of others. A stranger I once met in Hogmeade as a student has given me instructions to a potion to destroy the Horcrux, which I now keep in my possession. I cannot collect the ingredients and create the potion without arousing suspicious from my family at the present time. I am hiding the locket in my parents' home in hopes that I will be able to soon retrieve it and destroy it.

There were no dates and most of the entries were written in no particular rhyme or reason. Regulus Black had been a desperate soul that had fought between doing what was right and what was expected of him. Harry could not even begin to imagine what he must have gone through to discover Voldemort's secret.

"You're creating the potion?" Harry asked as he suddenly looked up at Ginny.

She nodded.

Harry scanned the instructions and ingredients and actually felt some admiration for Ginny. She had apparently managed to gather some difficult ingredients including Acromantula venom and Doxy eggs.

"How did you get Acromantula venom?" Harry asked blankly.

Ginny sighed. "I haven't managed that ingredient yet. I'm hoping Fred was able to find some. He's supposed to bring it to me tonight."

"Do they know what you're up to?" Harry continued.

Ginny grinned. "They think I'm working on a new product to put in their Skiving Snackboxes. That was how I got the Doxy eggs."

Ginny reached out and touched Harry's hand as she gave him an inquiring look. Harry noticed she started to say something but stopped. He smiled down at her and laced his fingers through his. She had saved him again. Ginny was the one who was always there for him to count on. She was just as clever as Hermione, as inventive as Fred and George and as loyal as Ron.

Ginny continued to stare at their interlaced hands, but didn't dare look up or speak. It was as if time had turned back and Harry was seeing her again. He remembered how desperately he had wanted to talk to her before he had kissed her after the last Quidditch match. Those emotions had been the strongest he could ever remember feeling. He loved how Ginny made him laugh. He loved how Ginny could make his stomach gather in knots. He even loved how Ginny could make him so frustrated he couldn't even think.

The Horcruxes and the dangers seemed to disappear from his thoughts and without even pausing for a moment; he hooked the bottom of Ginny's chin and tilted her face up towards his. He thought he had forgotten what it felt like to be this close to somebody, but as soon as his lips touched hers he realized he had never forgotten. She inhaled sharply before she returned the kiss.

Harry wasn't sure how long the moment lasted but it ended much sooner than he would have preferred. The sounds of somebody racing up the attic steps caused him to pull away and turn his attention towards the door. Hermione peeked her head in a second later, looking winded. Ginny took a step back from Harry and pulled her hand away from his.

"There you are," Hermione said in a desperate voice. "Have you found it?"

"Ginny had the locket and she's discovered how to destroy it," Harry replied before Hermione could say another word.

"WHAT?" Hermione asked. "Ginny had the locket? Do you realize what could have happened?"

"She knows," Harry said firmly and gave Hermione a look that Ginny was not to be lectured at the moment.

Hermione looked anxiously at Ginny then gave an annoyed sound. "RON! HE'S UP HERE."

Ron appeared a minute later. By that time, Hermione was already reading through the potion's instructions and questioning Ginny to make sure she had followed all the correct steps.

"What's going on?" Ron asked.

Harry pointed towards the book Hermione was reading. "Ginny discovered a way to destroy the Horcrux. She had the locket."

"This is a very tricky potion," Hermione said looking serious. She seemed to be bracing herself for bad news before continuing, "If the instructions aren't followed accurately then it could blow up the entire house."

Ginny's face drew up and Harry couldn't help but grin at how cute she looked when she pinched her nose. "I followed it exactly. The venom is the last ingredient and then it has to simmer for forty-eight hours."

"How can you be sure? Look here at steps nine through eleven. Did you stir counterclockwise five times? If you missed one rotation it could have ruined the entire potion."

"It's fine, Hermione," Ginny snapped. "Do you honestly think I'd risk blowing up the entire house?"

Harry chanced a glance at Ron, who was shaking his head looking puzzled. Ron seemed torn between relief that the locket was found and fury about where it had been found; Harry knew exactly how he felt.

"How are you getting Acromantula venom?" Hermione asked.

Harry grinned as Ginny rolled her eyes.

"Fred," Harry stated. He hoped to take a little pressure of Ginny since Hermione was being callously cold towards her at the moment.

Hermione frowned. "How would the twins have access to Acromantula venom? It's very difficult to come across and monitored by the Ministry."

"Maybe they're going to nick it from Slughorn. Harry, didn't you say Hagrid let Slughorn milk that gigantic spider of his during his... err funeral," Ron suggested with mixed emotions.

"I don't think Slughorn is going to give up any of his Acromantula venom," Harry said quietly in Ron's direction.

Ron leaned in towards Harry and whispered. "So Ginny took the locket?"

"Yeah," Harry replied.

"And you're okay with that, mate? Not an hour ago you were ready to kill the thief," Ron reminded.

Harry cut his eyes at Ron. "She isn't a thief. She took it because she was afraid I wouldn't let her help destroy it."

Ron frowned. "She still shouldn't have taken it without telling us, regardless what her reasons were."

"Lets worry about destroying the damn thing first and then we'll lecture her on taking Dark objects that don't belong to her," Hermione said loudly from across the room. She pursed her lips and crossed her arms across her chest, which was the signal that now was not the time to discuss things.

Ginny passed Ron a sour look as Hermione continued double-checking Ginny's work. After several minutes of reading the instructions and asking questions Hermione finally conceded that Ginny's potion looked correct.

Harry kept trying to concentrate on the serious task at hand, but he couldn't stop thinking or looking at Ginny. He realized he was paying close attention to the way her lips curled when she spoke. Ginny would occasionally look over towards him and she also seemed elated underneath her annoyed exterior, but she also seemed to not want to appear hopeful. Just when Harry felt he might not be able to keep from kissing her again, the reality of what he had done hit him.