- Rating:
- PG
- House:
- The Dark Arts
- Characters:
- James Potter Lily Evans
- Genres:
- Action Angst
- Era:
- Multiple Eras
- Spoilers:
- Philosopher's Stone Prizoner of Azkaban
- Stats:
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Published: 10/04/2002Updated: 12/22/2002Words: 23,910Chapters: 19Hits: 5,906
You Were too Young to Die
Lily Potter Flower
- Story Summary:
- Lily and James are married. They begin their couple life. Mission for Dumbledore, friends' death, cries and other things...
Chapter 13
- Chapter Summary:
- Peter become jealous... And it is not good at all...
- Posted:
- 11/13/2002
- Hits:
- 232
- Author's Note:
- Thanks to my little brother because he makes me laugh AND TO Hermione Potter 5000 because she reviews my fic...
Chapter 13
DIEU, QUE LE MONDE EST INJUSTE
( God, the world is so unfair )
One year later
__ Happy birthday Harry ! Lily sang taking her son in the dining room, where James, Sirius, Remus, Peter, Cecilia and Rigel were waiting for him.
They all smiled at the sight of the hardly woken little boy who looked at them with a surprised expression. Sirius held his arms and Lily left Harry in his care :
__ So, how is my dear godson ? Does he walk, Lily ?
__ Not yet... But it should happen soon...
Sirius played with Harry on his knees. The baby smiled then had a chuckle.
***
Peter was watching Lily playing with Harry and Sirius. Then his eyes turned to James who had an arm put around his wife´s waist with tenderness.
He had a sigh of resignation.
Why James who had everything, charm, fame, success, power, humor and so many things too, would he have as well love ?
Et lui sans faire un seul geste
Sans un mot, sans un regard
Il a mis de la tendresse
Au fond de tes grands yeux noirs
Why was it necessary that James had the only woman Peter would have done anything for ?
He moved his glance away of his childhood friend and put it again on Lily.
He remembered the first time he had seen her. It was so long ago... At Hogwarts. Before she had met Prongs. At this time, Snape was her boyfriend.
He remembered it very well.
This day, she had rushed through of the library, without looking in front of her and she had hit him, Peter, letting fall all her books, breaking her bottle of green ink... The words she had said still resounded in his mind...
__ Oh, excuse me ... I am really sorry.
__ Cheer... Cheer up... It... It doesn´t... doesn´t ma... matter...
__ I am sorry ...
She had looked at him with her big green emerald eyes, remorseful. He might have seemed so stupid to her, with his stammering... Every time he spoke to a girl, he blushed, he faltered...
Ma laideur est une insulte
A ta beauté insolente
Une erreur de la nature
Qui ne me fut pas aimante
Lily... You have never looked at me... You have always despised me.
Of course, I have neither the charm, nor the humor, nor James's charisma. Naturally, I am ugly, stupid, shy. You should have thought that so many times.
Do you know which is the most horrible day of my life ? Your wedding, Lily... This day you kissed him, going out of the church...
Dieu que le monde est injuste
Lui si beau et moi si laid
Je te donnerais la lune
Tu ne voudrais pas m´aimer
I hate you Lily. As I hate James. As I hate your son. But especially you.
Because you came to change everything.
We were the Marauders : Wormtail, Padfoot, Moony and Prongs. We were the accomplices in the bad jobs, those who did little shemes, tricks in any kinds... We were four. I had found the friends who protected me.
And you came.
I fell in love with you Lily. I wanted that you looked at me.
But you have never seen me.
You looked at James with the eyes of love. James this idiot who became crazy when you appeared.
I cursed him. He always stole me everything, the success, the girls, the glory, you.
When you kissed him one evening, on the Quidditch pitch, I hated you. Hated.
Dieu que le monde est injuste
Aime ton beau cavalier
Le satin de ta peau brûle
Mais pas pour les va-nu-pieds
And Harry. This child that I would never have wanted to see being born...
Because he calls back to me what I would have been able to live with you if only you had deigned to look down at me.
But you didn´t look at me, you were only disturbing the Marauders...
Even Sirius and Remus were crazy about you at the beginning...
Because you are beautiful Lily and because you don´t realize that the boys fall under your spell at the first glance you throw to them...
But Padfoot and Moony quickly gave up. But not me, Lily. Not me.
Dieu que le monde est injuste
Lui seigneur et moi vaurien
Il te donnera la lune
Toi tu ne demandais rien
Peter squeezed his fists.
I am always too afraid to make decisions...
But there, Lily, I won´t give up.
And when you will die, I would have won.
For the first time of my life, I would have won.
Finally you will be at my mercy.
Finally I could contemplate you at leisure.
It is too late Lily. I am going to hand you over Voldemort.
You are a young lady, Lily. You would have been able to grow old, to have a great life.
No.
You will not get old.
You will die.
And this day, I will exult.
For once, James won´t be able to do anything for you. Because he will die too.
Dieu que la vie est cruelle
Pour deux coeurs qui se cherchaient
Moi si laid et toi si belle
Comment pourrais-tu m´aimer
***
Lily opened the front door, taking Harry back of Peter's arms.
She kissed his friend on both cheeks :
__ Goodbye Peter, spend a good evening...
She smiled to him and closed the door.
***
Peter saw the big smile she sent him.
He hesitated.
And if I had made a mistake...
No.
I won´t give up.
He turned left.
***
He saw that James´s sister was beside Voldemort.
He shivered.
Even your own family betrayed you.
He threw a glance on his forearm, contemplating the Dark Mark, still red.
He approached Voldemort :
__ Master, I have believed to understand that you want to eliminate all the Gryffindors...
__ Yes, he whistled. Would you have any piece of information ?
__ They are my friends. I could hand them over you... But I...
__ What ?
__ I would want you to kill the girl too.
That's it, he had said it.
The Dark Lord´s eyes shone with fury.
__ I will do what I want ! he roars out. But I shall seek your help when I would have decided to kill the father and the son...
Peter went away by trembling.
I am sorry James.