- Rating:
- PG-13
- House:
- The Dark Arts
- Characters:
- Dudley Dursley Harry Potter Lily Evans
- Genres:
- Drama Angst
- Era:
- Multiple Eras
- Spoilers:
- Philosopher's Stone Chamber of Secrets Prizoner of Azkaban Goblet of Fire Order of the Phoenix
- Stats:
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Published: 12/12/2003Updated: 12/12/2003Words: 11,412Chapters: 5Hits: 3,477
Of Sisters and Sons
Jaylee
- Story Summary:
- A tale of two sisters: one who died young, forfeiting her life for her tiny son and a cause that she believed in, and the other who took a lifetime to discover that there are consequences for every action, especially when two little boys get caught in the crossfire.
Of Sisters and Sons Prologue
- Posted:
- 12/12/2003
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- 1,111
Of Sisters and Sons
By Jaylee
"I should be crying,
but I just can't let it show.
I should be
hoping,
but I can't stop thinking
Of all the things I should've said,
That I never said.
All the things we should've done,
That we never
did.
All the things I should've given,
But I didn't.
Oh, darling,
make it go,
Make it go away." Kate Bush, "This Woman's Work"
Prologue:
*****
Dudley was in a coma.
The idea was so
foreign to Petunia, as if she was stuck in a nightmare, and the sight of her
son: tubes running in and out of his body, unmoving and deathly silent, was
something she could shake off, something she could alter if her will was just
strong enough.
The stark, white walls of the hospital room added to the
allusion of a dream: bright and luminescent, as if intently surreal. Even the
words of the doctor seemed distant, as if she were not hearing them up close,
but as a faint whisper in her mind, conjuring her worst fears.
"I'm sorry
to have to tell you this Mr. and Mrs. Dursley," the man was saying gently, his
expression infinitely sad - a look Petunia found to be inexplicably
condescending, "but from the deterioration of yours son's liver and kidneys,
we've determined that he's been using illegal substances for quite awhile.
Coupled with his weight, which has put a large strain on his heart for extended
period of time, and his body has just simply decided to shut down, unable to
handle the stress of both drug dependency and obesity. We've put him down on a
list for a kidney transplant, meanwhile, we have him on dialysis, also, we have
performed an emergency bypass to clear the blocked artery. I'm afraid there is
little else we can do for your son right now. There is no guarantee, even if we
find a donor, that his body will accept the new kidney, or that he'll even wake
up. I'm obligated to tell you that life support, regardless of insurance, is
rather costly..."
Petunia was too stunned to intercede, too certain that
this wasn't real; that is wasn't her boy lying there; that it wasn't her son who
had had a history of drug abuse. Dudley was a good boy, now a man; she knew
that. He always had been. After all, how could she have possibly not have
noticed something as significant as this? How could she not have noticed that
her own flesh and blood, her pride and joy, had been using dangerous substances.
There had to be some kind of mistake.
Vernon Dursley, however, seemed to
have no apparent loss for words. Petunia turned to her husband just in time to
see him clutch his fists tightly at his side, his face turning purple from the
strain of his tension, his eyes flashing, dangerous and fierce. Vernon, it
seemed, would set that doctor straight...
"I know what you're implying,
doctor, and I don't like it. My son WILL wake up. And you will do whatever it
takes to ensure that he does. I don't care about money, and I don't care about
bloody insurance. Do what you have to do to keep my son alive!" the elder
Dursley all but screamed, his posture rigid with temper... and with
grief.
Petunia could only blink at her husband, unable to hold back her
tears. Vernon hadn't demanded an alternative explanation to the decline in
Dudley's health, he hadn't ranted and raved about how the doctors HAD to be
wrong, instead he had insisted that the life support would remain, and they'd
take it from there...
And something inside Petunia Dursley
snapped.
Dudley was dying; was practically dead already, and she'd never
felt such a potent wash of grief in all of her life: not when her parents had
died, and certainly not when her sister had died.
Because she loved him.
He was hers: made from her, molded by her, and born to love her first and
foremost. She had taken everything she had felt she had been lacking in her own
childhood and given it to Dudley, without hesitation. All her good intentions:
to make sure that he never wanted for anything, particularly her affection, to
ensure that he never felt second fiddle to anyone, to make him feel special for
his normalcy - his blessed lack of magic... Her over-indulgence spurning his.
It was she who had signed his death certificate.
The doctor was about
to answer Vernon when Petunia raised her head, and met her husband's eyes
determinedly, her tears halting in shadow of her resolve.
"The boy," she
said aloud, in clear, certain terms, steeling herself against her husband's
shock and the doctor's obvious confusion. "They cannot help Dudley here, but
perhaps the boy can."
"Petunia," Vernon sputtered, his concern for his
son apparently warring with his long adapted sense of propriety, "do we really
want to invite one of them into this? To allow that boy access to Dudley
once more? We haven't even seen him since he left that last time. It's been
three years, we don't even know how to get a hold of him."
"He's our only
hope, Vernon," she answered firmly, "and this is the last option at our
disposal. I wont allow my son to die when we could have done something,
anything, to save him."
Her tone was absolute but her spirit was not. It
was possible that the boy wouldn't help them; it was possible that the boy would
want nothing more to do with them at all... she had ensured that as
well.
Two boys, both of them hers at one point: one revered, one
ostracized, and all because of a woman with eyes as green as spring leaves, and
hair like silk-spun amber.
'Lily, what have I done?'
*****
Three-year-old Petunia Evans wasn't entirely sure how a baby should look, having never seen one before, but she was certain that her new sister looked more like a hairless version of the monkeys she had seen at the zoo than she did a regular human being. One-week-old Lily's skin was rose petal red, too bright to possibly be considered normal, and Petunia couldn't help but notice that she seemed to sleep an awful lot, which wasn't very fun in the grand scheme of things.
Her parents had promised her a playmate when they had told her that she had a brother or sister on the way, and she couldn't help but wonder if the one they had brought home was somehow broken. After all, no one person should be allowed to cry as loud as Lily did whenever she was hungry, it made Petunia's ears hurt just to listen to her.
But the worst of Lily's sins, by far, was how busy she made their mother. Ever since her family had returned from the hospital, bringing Lily along with them, her mother had spent nearly every waking moment either feeding the baby, or changing her nappies. When she wasn't doing that, she, too, was sleeping, and Petunia was beginning to get more than a little annoyed with the situation.
None of this was supposed to be a part of the deal. Lily wasn't supposed to take her mother away, and she certainly wasn't supposed to turn out as boring as she obviously had. Clearly something had to be done.
The obvious choice was to present the matter to her father, since her mother was otherwise indisposed, and as soon as he walked through the door following work that day, Petunia latched on to him, determined to communicate her plight.
"Daddy, I think we should take the baby back," Petunia announced with certainty, her eyes all but pleading for him to comply with her decision.
"Now, why would we want to do that, Pumpkin?" the elder Evans asked, bending down to knee level to face his daughter as the corners of his mouth twisted into a grin he unsuccessfully tried to repress.
"Because," the little girl answered, frustrated that the reasons weren't entirely obvious without the need to illiterate, "she's not right."
At this her father shook his head, now smiling widely, much to Petunia's growing confusion. She didn't find the situation funny in the least.
"Now why do you think that, Petunia? As babies go, your sister is very healthy, the doctors told us so themselves. And even if she wasn't, we'd never place her anywhere but here, she's our child, just as you are. Your mother and I would miss her terribly if she were gone," the young father replied complacently, holding open his arms for his daughter to walk into.
"But Daddy, all she does is sleep and cry," Petunia announced with a whine, clutching her father tightly in an obvious show of possession. She was their child first; after all, he and her mother were hers.
The elder Evans laughed merrily at this, hugging his small daughter to him as he shook his head in amusement.
"Petunia, that is what babies do. Until they get a little bit older, they are entirely dependent on us for their needs. You were the same way when you were that small. Would you have liked us to take YOU back?" he asked her, his smile turning gentle when she softly mumbled a quiet "no" through the bottom lip that was sticking out in a pout.
"Good, then we're not going to take Lily back either. Rest assured, when she's older, she'll be walking and talking our ears off, just like you do, especially because you're here to show her the ropes. It's a big responsibility, being an older sister, and a very important task. Lily is going to look up to you. Think you can handle that?" the young father soothed, patting his daughter gently on the head as he stood and smiled down at her.
"Yes," the child replied, still pouting, but feeling a little better about the situation as a whole. Yes, she was forced to share her parents, a fact she still didn't quite like, but at least she had the promise that her sister would grow out of this odd stage she was temporarily stuck in... at least she had her father's word that Lily would one day become a normal child.
To be continued...