Dear Salazar

Dear Salazar,

My darling, I miss you so. Why did you leave us over a petty argument about Muggles? Why can't you see that you were just being stupid? Godric has his beliefs and you have yours, but why can't you come back, for me at least?

Salazar, I love you, I want to see you again. If you had forgotten we are married! I want to hold you in my arms, to see your face light up when you see Kayla and myself, when you look deep into my eyes. Your eyes like the sea, I miss them, they make me weak for you, make me weak for you again.

Kayla misses you so, my friend, my love. She cries for you now, and will not sleep when I comfort her. She knows that you are gone, you cannot hide it from her. Whenever I try to hide your memory from my mind I see her and tears form in my eyes, she has your eyes, your dark hair, your smile. But I have not seen that wonderful smile since you left, she knows you are gone. Kayla has inherited your talents, she too can talk with snakes, I worry for her every day, as I worry for you.

Please, my love, you do not know what you do to us, and to one not yet born, one inside of me. For I am with child, and Helga says that it will be a boy. Salazar, a boy, you always wanted a boy. Please, I cannot live without you and the stress of this loss may make this child fade, and I will not be able to love him. Salazar my love, please reply, I want you to come to me again.

Your darling wife,

Rowena.

Dear Rowena,

I miss you as well, but the hurt that Godric has done to me has made me scream in frustration. I cannot bear this absence from you, but you know that I cannot return. The child inside you I know is mine own, and so I beg you, name him after myself, so that you shall not feel too sorrowful.

I feel a great longing to see you again, your eyes remind me of the soft grain of the wood at the table in the great hall. Our school will go on, and I can see that Godric will not be moved, but I do not and will never agree with him. My love, I cannot tell you where I am, or what I am doing, but I will always write to you. Every night in my dreams I see you, I feel you, I run my hands through your soft brown hair, but you are not there.

One day I will see you again, one day we will meet up and I will hold Kayla and my son in my arms, and we will be a family again, but until that day I will hold you in my memory. Do not stress yourself too much, I give you this gift, it will keep you safe from harm and you can use it to summon me wherever we are, even if you are at Hogwarts. Just call my name into it, I have its partner.

I love you forever,

Salazar.

Dear Salazar,

Is that all you have to say? Is that all you have to give? Godric would forgive you if you returned now, why don't you? Even seeing your writing is not as good as really being with you. But I will do as you say, and wear I round my neck for the rest of my life. I pray that I shall not have reason to use it.

Kayla no longer wails in the night for you. She now smiles and makes me sadder. My boy, he will be called your name, he will become your heir, as Kayla will be mine. Maybe that is why Kayla is calm, she knows that you are not really gone away, but are in me and will soon be with her again. As for me, I still miss your eyes.

Nothing you can say will really stem my grief, but the fact that we may one day meet again keeps me strong. Godric himself, once your greatest friend and now your greatest enemy over a petty argument, he regrets his words spoken in haste. If you could only accept his forgiveness, and apologies, if only you could forgive him, all would be well.

The students in your house have elected a new head, you would be proud. It is Thomas Malfoy, the French boy, who has just graduated. If you remember he was good at potions and dueling, like you. I am sure that our son will inherit those talents as well.

Kayla has your stubbornness; she will not give up! It makes me sadder and sadder whenever I see her. I cannot go on like this, if you do not come back I have no idea what I will do.

Your love forever,

Rowena xxx

Dear Rowena,

Godric insulted my house and me. Mudbloods are untrustworthy, they could betray us all to the Muggles and we would die. They could lie about their magical powers more easily than we could, it is not a good idea. You don't understand how I feel about this. I cannot accept his forgiveness nor can I forgive him, I cannot.

Rowena, you are not the only one who wishes that our situation could be different, I too wish this. Kayla is a good girl, she will do well as your heir. I still dream of you, I still hope to see you again, and I promise that I will try. Maybe during the Summer holidays you could visit me, but I would have to send you a portkey, the destination must remain undisclosed.

Have you heard about the development of moveable portraits? I expect you would have done, since it was Helga who invented it. She always was good at tricky things like that, whereas you prefered to just mess around. How are her children Gwenneth and Gareth? Though I do not care for Godric that does not mean that his children would be the same.

Oh, I do not know what to say. Our sudden goodbye was not good for Kayla, I never ever said that word, and now I feel sad, feel lonely. You were the only one who could ever make me smile, and I have cried many times since that fateful day.

Your dearest love forever,

Salazar.

Oh my dear love, my one and only Salazar,

I am so sorry for calling you during the terrible pains, but I needed you at that time. My love thank you for coming, and for holding my hand, and for comforting me when he came out, and was still. I miss you more than ever now that you have said goodbye properly and Kayla has fallen quiet again. She shall be your heir, for there shall be none other now. We shall never meet again, I am sure.

I cannot survive without you and with the loss of one I shall never know. I shall go, and fall beyond the veil, but I shall remain too on Earth, as a ghost. I want to follow the history of the school forever. I shall guard Kayla while she lives, and her children, and our houses. I shall remain at Hogwarts for the rest of my life (and death). I shall forever be yours.

Godric put the Sorting Hat idea into practice today. It worked very well. All our students who chose to prove that they were in the right house have stayed there. Our memories will always live on, and I will live on throughout the history of Hogwarts. I will be there to council the Headmasters long after Godric has gone. You are the only one I am telling.

I will go now forever, and am always yours, but I cannot go on.

Rowena.

Dear Rowena,

Don't do it! I could not ever stand it if you died. Stay, remain on Earth, don't my dear one, don't! Kayla deserves you to be alive, not staying the same age while she grows older. I don't deserve it. My love, my one and only, mine forever, do not die! I will even forgive Godric if you stay alive.

Salazar.

Dear Salazar,

I am dictating this note to Helga, so you might realize that I am dead. Sorry, but I had to do it. Kayla seems to understand that I am her mother, and that Helga is looking after her. I feel wiser as a ghost, I understand more, but I am forbidden to tell you of the mysteries of death. If humankind discovered what death was then everything would change, the world would not be a happy place.

I am sending you my diary, maybe it will help you to understand. I have made Gregor Flitwick my head of house, he is wise and a good choice.

Rowena.