Beautiful

Beautiful

I walked down the snowy streets of Diagon Alley, hands in my pockets; my back slouched over. The war had ended less than a year ago and though I had joined Order of the Phoenix, I seem to still live in solitude. Though I am on the same side as Potter, I still envy him. These past few months had been difficult for me. Not because of the aftermath of the war, or because some are still scared I'm not fully redeemed; but because I lost the one thing that mattered most to me, I lost the one who taught me how to love. I lost her.

My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.

Then I heard it. I heard her laugh. I slowly looked up hoping she was there. Maybe I'd still have a chance to tell her. There she was. I looked over at her in shock: she was with him. Smiling, laughing and holding hands, with Potter.

She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.

I looked at her and she stared right back. I made a motion to talk to her in the alley to the right. She looked back nervously, I had been drinking a lot lately, she knew. She was probably worried I'd do something unexpected, like try to kill Potter or something. I smiled weakly. 'It's alright,' I was saying, 'I just want to talk.'

Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
Fucking high,

"Harry, I'll meet you back at the Burrow. I just wanted to check something."

I waited in the alley hoping she'd come. I had to tell her. She came in and looked at me and I looked back.

"I have to tell you this in case I never get another chance, but I love you."

"I know," she said calmly. "I've always known. I've had your heart for awhile, haven't I?"

I nodded.

"I'm sorry but my heart belongs to someone else," she whispered.

Then she looked up at me and kissed me on the cheek before walking out of the alley.

And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.

I stood there in silence as if her kiss had frozen me to that spot. I couldn't have her heart, it belonged to someone else. She had mine though, she always would.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw you face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

I ran out unto the crowed streets looking all over for her. She was walking very slowly towards the snowy grounds where you could apparate. Her beautiful long hair swaying behind her.

"Ginny!"

She turned around and smiled before disappearing with a pop.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.

I stood there once again, my hand over the spot on my check where she had kissed me. Today was so far the happiest day of my life...and the saddest.

I put my hands back in my coat pockets and slowly dragged myself onward. I did what I could, even if it was too late.

But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.