World View

Don't know what's going on
Don't know what went wrong
Feels like a hundred years I
Still can't believe you're gone
So I'll stay up all night
With these bloodshot eyes
While these walls surround me with the story of our life

I feel so much better
Now that you're gone forever
I tell myself that I don't miss you at all
I'm not lying, denying that I feel so much better now
That you're gone forever

Now things are coming clear
And I don't need you here
And in this world around me
I'm glad you disappeared
So I'll stay out all night
Get drunk and fuck and fight
Until the morning comes I'll
Forget about our life

I feel so much better
Now that you're gone forever
I tell myself that I don't miss you at all
I'm not lying, denying that I feel so much better now
That you're gone forever

First time you screamed at me
I should have made you leave
I should have known it could be so much better
I hope you're missing me
I hope I've made you see
That I'm gone forever

And now it's coming clear
That I don't need you here
And in this world around me
I'm glad you disappeared

I feel so much better
Now that you're gone forever
I tell myself that I don't miss you at all
I'm not lying, denying that I feel so much better now
That you're gone forever
And now you're gone forever
And now you're gone forever

Pansy looked over at the peaceful boy beside her, and snorted at the thought, since when had Draco Malfoy ever been peaceful, let alone angelic, although upon looking over at Draco and remembering his slate grey eyes, pale rose lips and silken blond hair, Pansy understood why many girls had found themselves ignoring the gossip and losing there hearts to Draco Malfoy.

Pansy knows better, she loves the malicious, sneering boy Draco Malfoy really is. She also knows all the hearts Draco has around his finger, and as such clung tight afraid of what would happen when Draco realized.

Pansy had one dream, to lose herself to Draco Malfoy, to scream his name to the inky sky and twinkling stars.

She'd offered herself to him many times, teasing him, but never finishing then pulling him to her biting his earlobe, and whispering 'make me scream, Draco' in her most sultry way, and she just about did when he just groaned, stood up and walked to the bathroom finishing what she had started without so much as a backward glance.

Pansy's hand found Draco's hair and combed it between her fingers, smiling as silken strands tickle her palm. She loses herself to his beauty forgetting to hold back and allows her hand to trail over to his cheek. Pansy lightly traces Draco's strong face, feeling his warm breath on her body as she leans in to plant a kiss on his forehead.

Pansy then let her hand trace down from Draco's lips to his belly button, to his treasure trail of pale blond silk. She was completely enthralled with his beauty she didn't feel Draco's body grow rigid underneath her.

He had awoken. Pansy discovered when Draco's hand shot up and grabbed her by the elbow. 'Don't touch me.' He hissed, as he threw her off of him.

From the floor Pansy looked at Draco's moving form and knew she had gone too far. Draco had never been use to affection, his father always pointing out his flaws, his mother merely smiling to show her pleasure. Needless to say Draco's parents had a wonderful marriage, both smiling stupidly at each other across the room, and the like, but Pansy had a feeling Draco was blind to their love, as it seemed he choose to be to her.

***

Pansy had long given up on Draco being her first, and now lay in Blaise's warm bed, heart thundering in her chest, breathing in heavy gasps amazed at the feel of having the boy inside her.

She kept playing the role of Draco's girlfriend knowing that as soon as he chose to lose her, other girls would never keep their filthy hands off him, giving Draco Malfoy a sense of the true power he had.

She knew she was done for when the door began to rattle to a silent hallway that could only mean Draco's stealth. When the light of the hallway finally crept in Pansy knew it was over, she smelt the pepper and lime that instilled love and fear in her on countless occasions, she saw the light hit the silken blond hair she still felt on her fingers, she heard her own heavy breathing, her heart throbbing in her ears, the taste of Balise's mouth still stung her tongue.

When Draco's head finally appeared around the corner Pansy simply stared back at Draco's sneering face. Pansy let her head fall back on to the pillow behind her when Draco turned and walked away. His eyes had said everything she knew it was over and her eyes began to fill with tears.

Draco followed his feet though the corridors of Hogwarts, knowing they would take him away from Pansy thinking he would come back. The truth was it had all been a set up, Draco knew Pansy loved him he also knew he would never love her, his father had taught him as much. Draco knew Pansy was broken.

When Draco's feet stopped moving, he found himself outside, beside the lake with the early morning air blowing over him in the twilight.