- Rating:
- PG-13
- House:
- The Dark Arts
- Characters:
- Percy Weasley
- Genres:
- Drama General
- Era:
- Multiple Eras
- Spoilers:
- Philosopher's Stone Chamber of Secrets Prizoner of Azkaban Goblet of Fire Order of the Phoenix
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Published: 11/13/2003Updated: 08/09/2004Words: 20,044Chapters: 4Hits: 2,962
Swords to Plowshares
Cedar
- Story Summary:
- The wizarding world is changing. The lines between good and evil are blurred, and Percy Weasley is caught between his family and the Ministry of Magic. Seeking structure and security in a society slowly turning to chaos, Percy's discoveries lead him down a path that will force him to question everything he thought he knew.
Chapter 04
- Chapter Summary:
- After considering the facts as he sees them, Percy decides to act on his knowledge and take his first step towards what he believes will be a more rewarding life.
- Posted:
- 08/09/2004
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- 523
- Author's Note:
- H.F. and Malfoi are two of the smartest, most patient, analytical, thoughtful betas I could ever hope to have. I love you both.
On November first, Mr. Crouch called us all into an emergency
department meeting. I was surprised to see him there, as I thought he
would be at Hogwarts at least until the end of the day today to discuss
the results of the drawing of names from the Goblet of Fire. Gathering
coffee, quills, and parchment, we gathered around the long table in the
staff room. It was nine-thirty in the morning, and small particles of
dust swirled in the sunlight coming through the row of windows to the
east.
"We have a problem, ladies and gentlemen. Harry Potter's name came
out of the Goblet of Fire last night."
"What does that mean?" asked Ben Carver, who only half participated
in any discussion we had.
"He's underage," I replied automatically.
"He's not only underage," confirmed Mr. Crouch, "but Hogwarts is
only supposed to have one champion. Dumbledore told me that another
boy," he checked the letter in his hand, "Cedric Diggory, is supposed
to be Hogwarts champion. Diggory is of age, so in theory he should have
been the only one from Hogwarts whose name came out of the Goblet of
Fire. Dumbledore doesn't know how it happened, and neither does anyone
else at Hogwarts. The staff is investigating. Meanwhile, this
department is going to have trouble.
"Dumbledore has already expressed to me the displeasure felt by
Olympe Maxime and Igor Karkaroff, the heads of Beaubaxtons Academy of
Magic and the Durmstrang Institute, respectively. They say that if
Hogwarts gets two champions, they should, too, regardless of the fact
that no one is sure why Harry Potter's name came out of the Goblet of
Fire. Right now there's no evidence one way or the other as to whether
or not Potter's name was in there by choice."
This made me pause and draw breath for a protest, but I didn't think
it was entirely appropriate for me to interrupt my superior while he
spoke. Harry Potter did have somewhat of a reputation at Hogwarts as
being a show-off, but that was mostly among the Slytherins and those
who had no glory of their own and no pride in their accomplishments.
Potter was a star on the Quidditch field and of course an important
name in wizarding history, but I also knew he'd faced a lot of
hardships in his years at Hogwarts. Of course, I didn't know him that
well personally, so for all I knew, he had put his own name in the
Goblet of Fire, maybe to gain recognition for something that didn't
have anything to do with He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named.
"Potter is protesting the Goblet of Fire's decision, but there's
nothing that can be done about that. As a chosen champion, he must
complete the tasks. The discord in international wizarding relations is
already there. This event is going to be heavily covered by the Daily
Prophet, and witches and wizards everywhere are going to learn that
Hogwarts has a distinct advantage in the tournament whether or not they
chose it. Since we are responsible for maintaining strong international
cooperation, we are going to have to stay in regular contact with
Dumbledore and try to do as much damage control as possible.
"This is going to take work by every one of you in this department.
There will be owls to answer and probably more than one late night
spent here. Do not speak to anyone at the Daily Prophet yet. Field all
those inquiries to me. Greengrass, I want you to act as the coordinator
on this project. You'll be responsible for tracking all the
communication that goes in and out of this office…"
By that time, I was only half listening to Mr. Crouch, idly doodling
in the margins of my parchment. I knew things were bound to get hectic
again, and that I would be buried under work, and Greengrass would get
all the credit for my late nights. I didn't mind the work, because it
might lead to a chance for me to get to Hogwarts and see part of the
tournament, but I did want the recognition for what I did.
The rest of the meeting went fairly quickly, and at the end I
gathered my things and stood to follow everyone out of the room. Mr.
Crouch remained sitting at the long meeting table.
"Weatherby," he called, beckoning me to him. I closed the door,
placing my folders and quill down on the table as I sat. He leaned
forward, glanced up at the door, and asked, "How is that report
coming?"
"Everything is fine, sir. I'm going through the files and forming
tables of the information you asked for, and as long as I'm here, is
there anything else you need me to cross-reference?"
"Anything else as in..." He pressed his fingertips together and
narrowed his brow. He sounded like he was suspicious of me, which made
me think for a second that there really was something in these files I
wasn't supposed to uncover. That, of course, made me all the more
curious.
I lowered my voice. "I'm finding quite a few connections between the
people you asked about. Many had connections to
He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named, and some, I believe, are related." As I
spoke, I realized I had phrased this just right. I gave my secret
research a legitimate front, so in case I was discovered in the course
of mining this information, I could justify it as going above and
beyond the call of duty.
Mr. Crouch looked alarmed. "No! I mean, really, Weatherby, that's
not necessary. Just complete your task. I...ah...appreciate your
efforts, and they will be noted, but for now, please do only what I ask
of you."
"Yes, sir," I replied, though I felt slightly deflated. His approval
of my idea would have given me the chance to add a dimension to my
work, to perform this task to a degree that would gain me recognition
as a strong worker and at the same time satisfy some of my personal
curiosities regarding the files. He didn't say anything else, but waved
his hand to dismiss me. On my way back to my desk, I consoled myself
with the fact that I was no worse off than before. I would just have to
hide any work I did on my own, the way I had been doing.
As the week went on, I nearly forgot about my curiosity in the files
Mr. Crouch had me retrieve from the Department of Records. Greengrass,
to my surprise and pleasure, asked that I serve as his second on all
communications regarding the Triwizard Tournament. This turned out to
be a huge time commitment, and as I had over the summer, I brought my
work home with me and stayed late at the office. I saw very little of
my parents, which, at this point, was fine with me. Lately, I felt like
I couldn't express my opinions without engaging in a two to one battle
over the subject at hand.
What I needed, I mused as I sat at the desk in my bedroom, was
someone who would listen, yet challenge me. A mentor. Someone skilled
in wide range of magical arts and theory. Someone with life experience,
who would recognize my need to learn and use powerful magic to rise
through the ranks of the Ministry. Of course, my chances of finding
anyone at this point, when I needed it the most, were slim to none. I
had no idea who would even be qualified outside of Mr. Crouch, and it
wasn't as though I could take out an advertisement in the Daily
Prophet.
Greengrass and Mr. Crouch both reported sick on Monday morning, and
as a result things were a little lax around the office. I took
advantage of the fact that everyone was ignoring me and spread the
files from the Department of Records over my desk, searching through
the familiar pages for information I might have missed.
Malfoy, Lucius
Every time I picked up his folder, I winced in memory of the time I
had made a fool of myself in front of him. Flipping through his papers,
I questioned myself as to what it was that intimidated me about him. It
was his physical presence, no doubt, and the fact that he was so
formidable with his solid, confident walk, his head always held high.
He was highly intelligent, too, judging from the evidence I had. His
file showed several magical licenses, some for very high-level spells.
If he'd been suspected of being a Death Eater, that meant the
Wizengamot believed him capable of performing the Unforgivable Curses,
which were known for being difficult to learn. He was a man rich in
culture as well as money, who always knew the right words and gestures
for every occasion. He was...
...the man I wanted to be.
If any member of my family heard that, I'd be disowned without
question. I felt an odd sense of vertigo and put my hands on my desk
for support. The everyday noise of the office faded around me as I sank
deeper into my thoughts. My desk fell out of focus and my morning
coffee felt like it had gone straight to my head. This couldn't be
right. The idea that I wanted to be anything like Lucius Malfoy went
against everything I'd ever learned and heard. My father never had a
good word to say about him, and I was sure that conversation around the
Malfoy dinner table didn't exactly consist of, "I had the most pleasant
discussion with Arthur Weasley today." But for everything I'd been told
over the years about his nature as a Dark wizard, I couldn't deny my
realization, that through everything my father said, the facts about
Lucius Malfoy: the money, the skill, and the poise and grace, were
irrefutable. The Department of Records didn't lie, nor did my memory.
I was not disposed toward rash behavior. If that were the case, I'd
have risen from my desk, run to hunt him down, and forced him somehow
to make me into someone he would be proud to call an associate, a man
refined, respected, and rich. The more I thought, the more I realized
that he could very well be the key to my moving up through the
Ministry. He was someone who understood how these things worked, who
was known and respected by almost everyone in power at the Ministry. A
chance to speak with him was a chance to further not just my career,
but also my status in life.
Lucius Malfoy occupied my thoughts for the rest of the afternoon.
His image, tall and proud, dressed in heavy black robes, haunted me. I
ate lunch alone and only finished half my sandwich, pondering the best
and worst things that could happen if I decided to approach him. The
worst, I figured, was that he would ignore me completely, not listen to
a word I said because of the fact that I was a Weasley. No. The worst
that could happen was public humiliation, being cut down verbally in
front of my superiors or my co-workers by someone who intrigued, even
fascinated me. As I played the scene in my head, of the two of us
standing in a crowded hallway with a half-circle of Ministry workers
watching, I felt my cheeks grow hot. This was much more likely to
happen than I wanted to admit, and I had to be able to counter it
somehow. The best-case scenario, that he would accept me immediately
and take me under his wing without question, was improbable. I had too
much to overcome for that to occur. If I wanted him to talk to me, I
had to strike just the right balance of professionalism and interest,
but I couldn't sound too desperate, or like I knew more than he did. I
could make a meeting work. I had to. There was no way I was going to
have peace until I at least made the effort to talk to him. It was just
going to take a little time to formulate.
For two days I barely slept. I made sure to keep on top of all
office business, because falling behind in my work would do nothing but
damage what little good reputation I might have. My spare time was
consumed with thoughts of meetings and dinners and the possibility of
discussions in which I felt welcome.
My father, of all people, was the one who presented me with the
perfect opportunity to approach Lucius Malfoy. His name was mentioned
at the dinner table, because my father was scheduled to raid the Malfoy
estate on Thursday evening. That meant Mr. Malfoy would have to make a
court appearance next week, most likely on Tuesday. It would be the
perfect time to approach him, especially since through my research I
had drawn my own conclusions of his innocence. I could use my
discoveries as a starter to our conversation. The flaw in this was that
I wasn't supposed to talk about my findings with anyone outside Mr.
Crouch, but I didn't think Mr. Malfoy would really be one to talk,
anyway.
These thoughts distracted me during dinner. I barely said a word as
my parents talked through the meal. Once or twice I considered
defending Mr. Malfoy from their gossip, but that would have meant
revealing more than I was supposed to about the work I was doing for
Mr. Crouch. There was also the fact that I didn't want to cause any
more strife than I already had with my parents.
"Percy, is something wrong?" asked my mother.
When I heard my name, I looked up from my dinner. "Pardon me?"
"You're quiet tonight, and you've barely touched your food. Is
everything all right?" She set her silverware down and peered at me
over her potatoes.
"I'm fine, fine," I reassured her. "Just...thinking."
"Anything we can help with?"
"I...don't need help. Really, it's fine."
"Well, if you want to-"
"I'm fine, Mother, thank you."
An uneasy silence settled over the three of us, and my mother and
father spoke only to each other for the rest of the meal. After dinner,
I went to my room and sat at my desk. I lit no candles but pulled back
the curtains that cloaked the window. The land outside was dry and
barren, glowing in the moonlight. Sitting in my desk chair, I let my
thoughts wander.
I knew Lucius Malfoy was on top of his organization, a group of
influential wizards whom my father sometimes spoke about with a note of
loathing in his tone. My father said they were Dark, bigoted,
supporters of a wizarding world where blood was pure and Muggles were
playthings. For years I listened, but I didn't start to question what
he said until now. It was more than just the attitude regarding Muggles
and wizarding blood. This entrenched struggle of power and attitude
between my father and Lucius Malfoy clearly had a losing side. My
father's. Everyone in our family knew why Father was still in such a
low Ministry position after so many years. Supposedly, it was because
of his fondness for Muggles. I didn't doubt the link between his
interest and his status, but there had to be something more. It wasn't
just that he stayed in his job because he was happy. He stayed there
because he had no desire to do anything else, no aspirations of
becoming something more than he was.
Essentially, he was living my nightmare.
If I did nothing but agree with my father on everything he said, I
was doomed to a life of being a nothing. Maybe my father thought Lucius
Malfoy's ideas were dangerous, but Mr. Malfoy, unlike my father, would
never be content to sit on his ideas and stay in one place no matter
how happy his convictions made him. That was no way to get anywhere in
life. I knew it, and Mr. Malfoy knew it. I sighed and thought about
this for a while, formulating ways I could get his attention.
It had to be in the hallway or perhaps in a small office or the back
of a courtroom, in the shadows, away from everyone's eyes. Of course I
could have approached someone in my office about setting up a meeting
with him, giving our department secretary some fabricated excuse, but
if there's one thing the Ministry and its endless reams of parchment
teaches you, it's that you will never begin to get anything done unless
you skip all the middlemen and go straight to the people at the top. I
would find out from my father the date of Mr. Malfoy's court
appearance. Should I meet him afterward? Maybe. Before. Yes. Since the
outcome of the hearing was unknown, I couldn't bank on being able to
talk to him afterwards. Pulling a pad from the drawer of my desk and
lighting a single candle, I dipped a quill in ink and began to make a
list of everything I had to do, say, and even wear. Planning took me
late into the night. I slept on thoughts of wealth and power.
It was imperative, I knew, to talk fast and think faster. He would
never look at me twice unless I gave him no other option. Or he would
look at me twice, but with an expression of contempt, and he would
never believe a word I said. I had calculated all this, of course,
thinking of almost nothing else since my father's raid last Thursday.
It was now Tuesday afternoon, and I had taken half a personal day to
witness Mr. Malfoy's court appearance. As he had been before, he was
cleared of the charges. The judges decided the evidence of his
practicing the Dark Arts was insufficient to bring criminal
proceedings. I caught him near the end of the hallway leading out from
the courtroom.
"Mr. Malfoy, may I speak to you for a moment?"
He paused and turned, each move cool, controlled, and refined.
Though we were almost the same height, I straightened to make eye
contact. Eye contact was always key in matters like these. If I failed
in one small aspect of this meeting, I was doomed to a life of
mediocrity, or at least, a life that never reached its full potential.
"Weasley, is it?" I knew from his inflection that I already had a
strike against me. Damn my father and his conviction that anyone he
didn't like must be hiding half the wizarding world's Dark objects
under a loose floorboard in their attic. The Weasley name was a curse.
"Yes, sir. I wanted to know if...if there was anything I could do
for you." That did not come out the way I wanted it to. I sounded
desperate. However, the words were out, and I had to, as I'd learned in
chess, play the game as best I could and try to anticipate my
opponent's moves.
His eyes narrowed as he turned his head slightly to the side. I
could feel him trying to calculate why I was there and whether I was
honest in my intentions. "Do? I don't see what anyone of
your...status...could possibly do, except perhaps convince your father
to stop dragging me into this building on trumped-up charges of owning
Dark artifacts, trying to ruin my reputation. You're wasting my time."
He turned away from me and started walking down the hall.
"Mr. Malfoy, wait!" I said, running to catch up.
He paused and looked back at me, irritation twisting his lip. "For
what, Weasley? For you to snivel and simper to me about Barty Crouch's
ridiculous demands, or to perhaps play nice and ask me how my wife and
child are doing? Do you expect me to believe that one useless Ministry
peon could undo years of useless raids on my house and my character?
When you have something to say, then say it. Now, if you'll excuse me,
I have to speak with some people which, I'll have you note, would be
unnecessary if I hadn't just squandered a day defending myself against
your father's latest litany of accusations." He continued toward the
Atrium, but I refused to be outpaced.
"I don't agree with him, sir."
"Well, isn't that nice to know? Little Weasley Junior might have
some shred of a mind of his own...but it's probably buried in
paperwork."
I started to panic. I had to keep him talking to me so I could make
my next move, whatever that was supposed to be. My plans were quickly
going to hell in an unregulated cauldron.
"The work I do for my department-" I stopped myself. I didn't know
what he wanted from me, but I got the feeling he didn't need me to tell
him the everyday nature of my work. "Sir, I have always had a mind of
my own."
"And you're using that great mind of yours to act as Crouch's errand
boy. What a wonderful use of your fine education." His words were
saturated in sarcasm, but I couldn't rise to the bait. I had to stay in
control, prove not only that I was my own person, but also that I could
hold my own against him.
"Though it's true I hold a lower position at the Ministry now, I
believe that I am doing quite well for someone less than a year out of
Hogwarts."
"Weasley, why are you trying to justify your position? Is it because
you think that one day you can one day be as virtuous as your father?"
"I don't think that."
"Then what do you think?" Every word he spoke was low and perfectly
modulated, and his emphases came not from increasing the volume of a
word, but by lengthening it.
"I think...I think my father is wrong, sir."
"Said with such assurance."
"You were cleared of those charges." This, I felt, was my last
chance to gain control of the conversation and tell him of my
discoveries. I was sweating under my robes, my heart was pounding, and
my face was hot, but I couldn't give him the chance to get away. "I've
read some of the old court records, and I know you were found innocent.
I believe the judges, sir." That would have to be enough. I feared that
if I said any more, I'd start to ramble.
"Your point being?"
"I know my father doesn't like you, Mr. Malfoy, but that doesn't
make what he's doing right. In fact, if I may say so, it makes things
even more wrong. He's out for redemption rather than justice." I spoke
with the self-righteous confidence gained only from unadulterated
idiocy. Some might even call it bravery.
"So the impotent Weasley son disagrees with the impotent Weasley
father. Well, then. It's an occasion to celebrate."
"Sir, with all due respect, that was uncalled for. I doubt you have
always been as strong in your convictions as you are today, and I also
doubt you started your Ministry career as anything more than, as you
say, a peon."
The shift in the air between us was something I would never be able
to describe in words, only in that I felt the pressure change around my
heart and in my bones, like my marrow had suddenly become weightless. A
new, clear dimension opened in my mind. My body knew, though I was
screaming curses at myself in my head, that I had said the right thing.
Mr. Malfoy's eyes glimmered. I watched him for a moment, still in
denial of what my instincts knew, fearing that I had ruined my only
chance to get him to believe me.
Rather than continue to walk, though, Mr. Malfoy stood in his place
and nodded slightly, encouraging me to speak.
Had I not been only inches from the wall in the corridor, I'm sure I
would have collapsed right there in relief. I had said not only what I
believed, but also what he wanted to hear. How I had managed to do
this, I still wasn't sure.
"I don't always support my father, sir."
"Yes, Weasley, we've been through that already."
"I believe that those records, not my father, show the truth, sir."
He smiled without showing teeth. "The truth is a difficult, elusive
thing, Weasley. As much as you and your piles of paperwork might like
to believe otherwise, it's not black and white."
"I'm aware of that, sir. I'm also aware of the difference between
the truth and lies, no matter how colored the truth may be." It was a
gamble. I didn't know much of what he said behind closed doors, but I
did have his court records, and today's ruling, on my side.
"Somehow, Weasley, I get the feeling that you haven't the faintest
idea of what constitutes the truth."
When he left me standing in the hall, I knew better than to run
after him and demand an answer of any sort. I had done what I could to
gain his attention, though the thousand times I had rehearsed in front
of the mirror in my bedroom, I had done it with much more finesse. He
would contact me immediately, or perhaps never, but the choice no
longer lay with me.
By Friday, I had given up hope that Mr. Malfoy would speak to me
again and found myself entirely unmotivated at the office. My thoughts
drifted and I felt sluggish, even through my pleasant lunch with Wood.
He ordered a cup of coffee for me, which I drank dutifully. When I
returned to the office, waiting for the caffeine to kick in, I saw a
new piece of mail in my in-tray.
This wasn't a standard office memo, I realized as I picked it up and
noticed the deep green ink and heavy weight of the parchment. Usually I
was the secondary recipient of anything that wasn't a Howler, and for a
moment I eyed the memo suspiciously. For all I knew, it was going to
spurt ink all over me, or laugh at me, or sing in a high, obnoxious
voice. I smiled. At least it might bring some excitement to this
afternoon. Carefully, I broke the wax seal and unfolded the letter.
Mr. Percy Weasley,
Your presence is requested at
dinner on Saturday, November 26, at seven o'clock in the evening, at
the home of Lucius and Narcissa Malfoy. Proper attire is required.
Please Apparate to just outside the front gates. You will be escorted
from there.
I had to read the letter three times. Surely it was a joke. But from
who? I hadn't told anyone about my meeting with Mr. Malfoy outside the
courtroom. I knew better than that. I didn't recognize the handwriting
at all. But if the invitation was real, I had just over twenty-four
hours to prepare for the dinner. That wasn't enough time! I needed a
haircut, dress robes, shoes... I pulled out a piece of paper and made a
list, relaxing a little as I laid out my goals on paper, figuring how I
would reach them. I could do this. I had to.
After work, I caught my father in the corridor and told him I was
going to meet a friend in Diagon Alley, and before he could ask me whom
it was, I checked my watch, feigning lateness, and ran to the
fireplaces in the Ministry atrium. A few seconds later, I climbed out
at Diagon Alley and headed for Gringotts, which was open later on
Fridays. I had no idea how much new dress robes would cost, so I
withdrew what I considered to be an appropriate amount and raced toward
Madam Malkin's Robes for All Occasions, hoping she didn't close early
for the weekend.
"Need a hand, dearie? Special occasion?"
"Ah, a dinner party, Madam. I don't know how formal. And I've...I've
never been to a dinner party before."
I was going to a place where I wanted to be noticed, and I was there
because I had spoken up and made Lucius Malfoy take note of my
presence. And if the spotlight was going to be on me, I might as well
look the best I could. Thanks to Madam Malkin's eye, that part, at
least, would be easy. I talked her out of dressing me in green, not
wanting to take the risk of upstaging my host in a crowd unfamiliar to
me, and ended up with a set of lightweight wool robes in a gray almost
dark enough to be black. I smiled as I paid for them, knowing they made
me look much more adult than my standard work robes.
Lying to my parents was easier than I thought it would be. I told
them I had a date. It wasn't perhaps the best cover I could think of,
but it certainly explained my new robes and shoes, which my mother
caught me with when I Apparated into the living room instead of my
bedroom. (Distraction, I cursed.) Later, I realized, it was also a good
explanation for my nervousness, which I couldn't hide. I figured if
dinner at the Malfoys' went poorly, all I had to do was tell my parents
the date didn't work out as well as I'd planned. If it did, I could
make up future dates. I'd be safe until my parents wanted to meet
"Courtney," but I had to cross that bridge when I came to it.
At one minute to seven on Saturday evening, I Apparated in front of
a set of wrought iron gates. I shivered underneath my dress cloak, and
my stomach was in knots. Stand up straight, I reminded myself. Look
people in the eye when you talk to them. Don't argue with anyone. Watch
the forks. Try to avoid discussing politics unless you have no choice
otherwise. Think of what you want to be, and how they embody that. It's
not hard. Just watch everyone else and follow their lead.
I was absolutely terrified.
A man I didn't recognize came down the front walkway, pushed the gates open, and indicated that I should follow him. I nodded, thanked him, and followed him up the path to the house.
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