My Happy Ending

"My Happy Ending"

You were the one. You loved me, or so you said. We almost had a happy ending. I thought our life would be like a fairytale. You were my prince charming and I was your princess. We had it all, or so I thought. I was afraid of falling in love and you knew it, but I took a chance and found that you were a mistake. A huge mistake, the biggest I have ever made.

Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something you said?

I want to talk to you, find out what went wrong. Why did it end, I thought we would be together forever. And just when I was beginning to feel like the only one, you broke it off. Just like that. You told me you loved me, that you would never leave, that I was the only one. Did I do something? Was it something I said? What happened? Tell me, please, look my way, say something.

Don't leave me hanging
In a city so dead

Please talk to me. I need to know. It is killing me, not knowing why you left without a goodbye. I cry every night trying to find out what went wrong. I see you with another girl already, was I just so you could get some action? Is she just a rebound girl? You seemed so happy with her, you seemed the same, can't you see me? What you did to me? Every time I try to talk to you, I just end up in tears. It is like I am invisible to you. You don't notice me. I am hanging here, waiting for you to come back to me. To hold me in your arms to tell me you love me. To kiss me and to care for me the way you once did.

Held up so high
On such a breakable thread

You were always there for me. When you were gone at night I still felt your arms around me. I still saw your eyes. What happened those nights? Where did you go? Is it that other girl? The "rebound"? Were you with her? I thought I knew you. Thought that you were mine. I thought you were perfect. When you would say my name, "Ginny" you would whisper it oh so softly. Your voice would give me chills. You were so perfect. We were supposed to be together. We were perfect for each other. When you kissed me, I felt chills and a sensation in me that only you could produce. You made me melt in your arms. Everything seemed so right when I was with you. You knew how vulnerable I was and we both took a chance. I thought you would always be at my side, but I was wrong. Your chance was breaking it off and mine was falling for you, some people fall into love, but I had to crash into it.

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

All of the good times we had. The winter kisses in front of a fire, the snowball fights. The "good night" kisses. When you snuck into my tower. When I went to yours. The good times. Over the summer, all those owls you sent me. All of the times we snuck out to see each other. We knew it would be dangerous but danger could not hurt us, we were invincible. All of those memories stab me, everyday, like a knife, slowly ripping down. They pain me everyday. I want them to go away, to forget, but those memories won't let me. You loved me. Or so you said. You said you would always be there for me, but you lied. You told me that you wanted to marry me, to runaway from everyone to a quite place where we could be together forever. Away from all the disagreements from the outsiders, away from your father, and away from Voldemort.

You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it

There goes my fairytale out the window. You were mine, all mine. We had each other, who cares if they said we should not be together. Everyone told me that this would happen, that I would fall so deeply in love and then you would strike, like the snake you are, strike and break me. You hurt me and you cannot see it, you knew I was afraid of love, I was afraid that this would happen. I knew it would happen, just when I was feeling secure you would leave, leave me here to die.

And all the memories, so close to me, just fade away

All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

There go my dreams, my heart and my soul. You took then and won't give them back. You have hurt me so badly I want to die. Everything I say and do reminds me of you, it reminds me and those memories hurt me like you cannot believe. The pain is unbearable. It is worse then any pain because this pain, this horrible thing I have to endure daily, this pain is from my heart. The heart that I gave to you so freely, the heart that you stomped on, the heart that was mine. My heart, you won't give it back, I want it back, to never give to anyone else, you were my one and my only, my good and my bad, my life and my death, my mistake. That us all you ever were ...a mistake.