- Rating:
- PG-13
- House:
- Schnoogle
- Characters:
- Tom Riddle
- Genres:
- General Drama
- Era:
- Multiple Eras
- Spoilers:
- Chamber of Secrets Goblet of Fire
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Published: 07/21/2001Updated: 12/12/2010Words: 82,561Chapters: 11Hits: 28,956
Chapter 04
- Chapter Summary:
- A conversation with a snake (it's not who you expect), wizard window shopping and Albus' very first serving of Phoenix Flambé.
- Posted:
- 07/21/2001
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DREAMWALK BLUE -- CHAPTER
FOUR
Chapter Four: A conversation
with a snake (it's not who you expect), wizard window shopping and Albus' very
first serving of Phoenix Flambé.
CHAPTER FOUR -- CRYING IN THE WILDERNESS
Behold, I send My messenger
And he will prepare the way before Me
For behold, the day is coming,
Burning like a oven
And the day which is coming
Shall burn them up,
That will leave them neither root nor branch
Behold, I will send you Elijah the prophet
Before the coming of the great and dreadful day
(malachi 3:1,2; 4:1,5 from
the new king james version)
I know… I'm dreaming.
Something was screaming
in the desert, something desolate and violated in the blasted wastes. Something
cowering in the rolling heat, crashed upon by glassy waves, like the blast from
a furnace.
I am dreaming… Aren't
I?
The sun burnt the sand. A fig tree withered, drying up and blowing away, its shadow dying a half-breath before it. Metis tried to breathe, but the air seared her lungs. The sand burned the soles of her feet, and black scorpions with jeweled, faceted hides chittered and scuttled around her ankles. A bird soared through the cloudless sky overhead, and Metis followed it. The bird, a mourning dove, led her to a stand of trees, where a swarm of insects hovered like a dust cloud.
There a wild-eyed man crouched
by the bank of an anemic river, scorpions at his feet, locusts in his hair.
"Think you that I shall be vanquished by a mere child?" he cried aloud.
"It is written. But many things are written that are not so."
The madman raved on as Metis
watched. His bloodshot eyes popped, rolling like a frightened horse's. He dragged
a distracted hand through his unkempt hair and matted beard and said, "It
will not come to pass. I won't let it," he said, then laughed aloud. "Fate
may think it has me in its clutches, but I know better. I see all that is to
come and have prepared myself."
"Girl." He reached
out a hand to Metis, seeing her for the first time. "I know what you are.
Take my hand and I will baptize you with blood."
Metis shrank back from him. What was this? Images swirled before her as if she
stood in the midst of a sandstorm. Locusts and honey, a sticky, drizzling droning
in the sandy desert. Paving the way? For what? For whom? She fought the urge
to flee.
When her vision cleared
again, the man stood in the midst of the insect swarm, batting ineffectually
at the stinging creatures. Bees, Metis realized. Her stomach turned over. An
animal shriek of pain split the air, immediately swallowed by the oppressive
hush of the arid desert. She turned away, stumbled over her own feet in her
sickened haste. The sand burned her palms as she caught herself, feeling as
though the shifting sand would suck her under, swallow her whole.
I don't want to see these
things anymore. I don't know what they mean and I don't want to… Tom? Wake
me up! Tom!
She scrambled to her feet
again and found herself face to face with a slender, jade green serpent. It
coiled around the branch of one bowed, unhealthy tree, regarding her curiously,
its tongue flicking to and fro, something familiar in the knowing expression
on its face, as though it could see through her, into her, beyond her.
The snake broke her gaze
and dropped carelessly, gracefully to the ground. It made its belly-crawling
way over to the river at double-time. The snake curled its lithe body around
the fallen man, who was helpless and bloated with a thousand bee stings. The
snake swayed its diamond-shaped head prettily, as though delicately making up
its mind. Then, as she watched, it distended its vicious jaws, the inside of
its milky mouth glistening in the sun, and swallowed the man whole.
Sated and basking, the snake
turned its limpid eyes on Metis. "There you are, my love," it hissed.
"How long have you been watching me?"
"All my life,"
said Metis, although unsure why she did so. "Tell me," she asked suddenly,
"are you you? Or are you the one that came before?"
"In this place," hissed the snake, "I am both. As are you. My
other self sees in you the face of his dead lover, and wonders whether you share
her gifts."
"I don't know what
he means."
The snake slithered over
to her, and suddenly they were seated together on the riverbank. The serpent
curled familiarly around her waist, its blunted head in her lap.
"He is me and I am
him, just as you are her and she is you. Can you not feel it? She sees out through
your eyes." It twisted up and around Metis' torso, resting its head on
her breast.
"And yet you say she
is dead."
"We all are dead, or
sleep, or suffer little deaths each minute. It matters not." The snake's
tongue flickered as it spoke, displacing the air around it. Metis could feel
the vibrations of disturbed air on the bare skin of her collarbone. "We
didn't intend it this way -- and yet it could have been no other. The workings
of destiny favor us this time. We loved you before we knew what you were."
"What am I then?"
"Don't you know?"
The snake seemed amused. It bared its curved fangs in what must have been a
laugh. "I think you do know. You're only afraid. Don't be afraid, love.
Nothing can hurt you so long as I love you."
"You always say that,"
Metis sighed. "It makes me fear for the day you stop."
"Stop? Never,"
it said silkily. "Do you really think that feelings so powerful could ever
disappear?"
"No, no. You're right.
But you could change, or I could change, or the whole world could change. And
then where would we be?"
"Everything around
us could turn to dust and ashes and we would live on. You know that. We aren't
like others, my love. We weren't before, and we never will be. If only you'd
seen that sooner, none of what has gone before or will come after would be necessary."
"I don't understand."
Metis looked at the river, blinded momentarily by the reflection of harsh sun
on the water.
"You will," said
the snake. "This time, it will be different."
A pause lingered between
them, heavy on the dry, crackling air.
"I would have you with
me always," it said, suddenly.
And bit her.
***
Hart Bronski stared into
the guttering flames of his low fire. He had begun to imagine that he saw shapes
and shadows in the crackling flame. But that was impossible. His grip on his
sanity remained as firm as it could be for a man who had seen and done the things
he had.
And now they were coming
for him.
It didn't come as much of
a surprise. One got used to this sort of thing in his line of work. Still, he'd
never thought he would meet his end this way. Other people maybe, but not him.
Well, he'd made his choice, thrown in with the lesser of two evils. Now he was
going to die for it. No, that wasn't fair - he would die no matter what choice
was made. At least this way, he might be able to achieve a certain amount of
peace.
Bullshit.
There was no peace to be
had in this insanity, not for anyone. Muggle, wizard, civilian, soldier -- every
last soul was touched, tormented by this filth, this diseased time they lived
in. He stood abruptly and moved away from the fire, scattering fat, pecking
hens as he crossed the small yard away from the tiny cottage.
Out of the way, chickens.
Dead man walking.
Bronski swallowed an irrational
laugh. He would not crack, would not meet his death a raving, pleading fool.
Not like others he'd seen. If they kept to the course he expected them to take,
they'd be here today. They would find him, burrowed in amongst these simple
farmers, and wonder why after more than a month, he hadn't come to them of his
own free will. He'd been living on borrowed time and knew it. So he sat on a
decaying tree stump, and waited. The hours passed like water through his cupped
hands. He couldn't hold them back; they slid past him, time like flowing liquid.
"Bronski? Is that you?"
a voice was calling at the edge of the woods.
There was a moment when
he almost ran. He could have tried to flee, but something in him rebelled, some
fundamental part of him that was tired of running, exhausted with waiting. He
couldn't delay the inevitable any longer.
"I'm here, sir!"
he heard himself reply in a surprisingly steady voice.
"Ah, there you are,
Hart." William Price emerged from the stand of trees, followed by a handful
of witches and wizards, all with the grim bearing that marked agents of the
Department of Mysteries. Clean
up. Price was known for it. He mopped up the messes that other agents didn't
dare touch.
"Hello, Will,"
Bronski said carefully. There was still a chance that they would only modify
his memory. He wasn't counting on it, but, on the off chance, it wouldn't do
to piss Price off.
"Why don't we go inside
and have a little chat, Hart?" Price said.
"Thanks, but we can
chat just fine right here."
"All right then,"
Price said. "If that's how you want it."
It was. In the weeks Bronski
had spent imagining this moment, he'd picked the spot for this confrontation
carefully. He'd grown to like these northern trees and cold-weather flowers
and grasses. There was an empty bird's nest in the crook of an alder branch,
just above Price's head, and the air smelled like dry leaves and impending snow.
The agents fanned out around Bronski and Price, one of them took out a quill
and nodded at Price.
"All right then,"
he said again. "We're ready. Go ahead with your report."
Bronski began with the routine
information. His team, their orders, the progress of their investigation into
Scoresby's murder. But when it came to their capture, their imprisonment in
the catacombs, he choked. He could taste the spice and smoke and incense again,
could smell Brona's fresh-spilt blood, hear Reve's cries of pain. It would swallow
him. How could he tell? Who would even believe?
Pushing all that aside,
he summoned every last shred of his pride, his professional demeanor, and looked
Price evenly in the eye, "Sir, we were right. It was as we suspected."
"You got a good look
at him then?"
He swallowed the tangle
of emotions that lodged themselves inconveniently in his throat and said crisply,
"Yes, sir. It was exactly who we thought it would be."
"And no one survived,
save you?"
"No, sir. No one else.
They were all killed by the- they were all killed."
"All except you. How
did you manage that, Hart?" Price's tone was insinuating, but Bronski was
past caring.
"There was a girl.
She said- She let me go free. I don't know why. I didn't ask her to."
Price nodded, and the agent
recording the interview folded his parchment and tucked the quill up a sleeve.
Bronski looked a bit defiantly
across at Price. "So what do you plan to do about this? Surely the Ministry
can't let this go unchecked. It's our responsibility. We created this m-"
He broke off abruptly. The sharp tip of a wand poked against the soft cartilage
behind his left ear. A pair of rough hands from behind shoved him to his knees.
"I am sorry, Bronski,"
Price said. "You've been a good soldier, but we've got our orders."
Bronski snorted. He hadn't
expected anything else. He closed his eyes, determined to meet his death with
dignity.
"You always were a
respectable son of a bitch, weren't you?" Price said softly. "That's
a good man."
The wand tip moved ever
so slightly. "Avada Kedavra."
There was an explosion of
green light behind Bronski's eyes, and the painless, nauseating sensation of
something bursting in his chest. And then darkness.
***
In London, at the Department
of Mysteries, Jack Seward received a package wrapped in brown paper and dirty
twine. Under normal circumstances, he would report it immediately to Security
in case the package contained a curse, a hex or other powerful dark magic. But
Seward was fairly certain he knew where this particular package had come from.
He locked his office door and put up several highly illegal wards to keep out
any prying eyes.
He unknotted the twine,
removed the heavy paper. Inside lay rolls of parchment neatly packed together
and completely undamaged. On top of the ordered, tightly fastened rolls was
another piece of parchment, open and face up, covered with Hart Bronski's familiar,
cramped handwriting. The corner of the letter was stained dark brown with something
that Seward hoped wasn't blood.
Jack-
I'm afraid you've been
right about all of this. I've just had word that a group of our people have
been spotted near here. I'm assuming it's Price and his bunch. Look, I hope
you're wrong and they aren't here to kill me, but just in case, I've put together
all my team's notes and everything we salvaged from Scoresby's place in this
package. I've got to say, I can see why people don't want some of this stuff
to see the light of day. I'm not sure it's going to do you much good to have
it, but good luck.
And, listen, Jack, I
just want you to know that you've been a hell of a friend. If for some reason
I don't make it back, would you take all my personal stuff to my Mum's in Surrey?
Would you mind going personally? I don't want her to find out by post. My Gringotts
account should be transferred over to my sister and nephew. She's widowed and
doesn't have much savings, and the kid's a hell of a Quidditch player who'll
be needing a new broom. And tell Dora that I love her, and I'm sorry.
But then again, we may
be worried for nothing and old Price's just here to take me back to a hero's
welcome, ticker tape parade and all. If so, you owe me a pint at the Leaky Cauldron
for making me worry and get all sentimental.
-Hart
Seward sat heavily in his
straight-backed chair. Hart Bronski had been a friend of his since school, and
if Price was involved there was very little chance of Hart coming back alive.
One more friend to grieve.
There had been far too many
of them lately. This one, perhaps, he could do something about -- if, of course,
he were willing to risk his career and possibly even his life for the truth.
He hadn't been sure about that, had felt guilty for asking Bronski to do so,
when Seward himself wasn't sure he could step up. He was sure now.
This isn't right. It
won't stand. I can't let it. Seward laughed at that thought. The idea of
a man in his line of work growing a conscience was, after all, rather funny.
He carefully began to unroll
the parchment, looking for some clue, a starting place. At first the whole situation
really looked hopeless. There was just too much here, and Seward was law enforcement,
not an academic.
Hours later, though, after
reading through Scoresby's notes, he found a lead. First thing the next morning
he was going to pay a visit to Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry. But
first, he needed to find out everything he could about a man called Albus Dumbledore.
***
"Why do you suppose
it is, June darling," Hayden said offhandedly, gazing around the crowded
restaurant, "that people like us never seem to eat at home?"
"Perhaps because it's
totally unglamorous to unseal a tin of something by oneself?"
"Too true. Who wants
to see that?" He lit two cigarettes with his monogrammed lighter and handed
one to June. "Besides, it's much more diverting to have some entertainment
with a meal."
"Entertainment, Hayden?"
June folded her napkin in her lap, and turned curious eyes on him.
"Why, the people, of
course. Look there," he indicated with a subtle hand. "The Malfoys
are about to have it out again."
"How can you tell?
Neither of them are saying a word."
"The calm before the
storm, trust me." Hayden waved their waiter over and ordered second cocktails
for them both. "Now, see. There, darling, she blows."
Indeed, Lucinda Malfoy chose
that moment to politely, but stiffly, excuse herself from the table, leaving
her husband glowering after her. June raised an eyebrow at Hayden, simultaneously
impressed and amused. "Do you ever think of using your powers for good
instead of evil, Hayden?"
"Shame on you, darling.
Evil is much more fun, you should know that. Besides, where would you be without
an outlandish sidekick?"
June solemnly acknowledged
that this was true, as the waiter arrived with fresh drinks. As Hayden talked,
she picked distractedly at the tablecloth, sipping idly at her drink.
Hayden launched into a fresh
story about the Malfoys. "…chatted up some fresh, young thing at the
Foundation benefit. I felt sure Lucinda was going to shove him in the…"
He paused. "And then Adolf Hitler parachuted in and showed us all how to
do the New Jersey Stomp… June? Are you even listening?"
"What?" She colored.
"Oh, Hayden. I'm sorry. I wasn't listening."
"Obviously," he
replied coolly, stealing a glance at her.
"I'm just a little
distracted is all."
"Keep this up, darling,
and I'll begin to think you've tired of my company." Hayden sulked, swishing
a swizzle stick around his gin and tonic.
"Really, Hayden…"
June trailed off, not knowing quite how to finish the sentence she'd begun.
"What is wrong with
you?" Hayden looked impatient. "You've been all cow-eyed for over
a month. If I didn't know you better, I'd say you were pining over some chap."
"Why on earth would
you say that?" June asked, a bit too sharply.
"Well," Hayden
exclaimed, smiling unpleasantly. "That's it, isn't it? Oh hell, June. Don't
go all womanly on me. That's the thing I like about you best."
"That I'm unwomanly?"
She glared at him. "And just where did you get the reputation for being
charming?"
"Now, now. You'll not
throw me off the scent that easily. While, it is true that I like nothing better
than talking about myself… unless it's, perhaps, thinking about myself
or doing things for myself… you can't play that card on me now." He
studied her, an unusual, curious light glowing in his gold-flecked hazel eyes.
"Who is it then? At least you owe me the name of the fellow who's stolen
my favorite playmate."
"You've plenty of playthings
to keep you occupied," June returned dryly.
"Playthings, yes. But
playmates are much rarer, and more valuable."
June bristled. The last
thing she needed was Hayden's rubbish over this. She turned to him, and said,
a bit more tartly than she'd planned, "It's not how you think it is. I'm
not mooning over some man. Not like that. I'm just concerned, and the whole
problem's begun to eat at me."
To her irritation, he only
seemed amused. "Well, then. Why didn't you tell dear old Hayden all about
it to begin with?"
"Forgive me, Hayden
darling, when I say that you are about as sensitive as a troll when it comes
to other people's romantic sensibilities."
He leaned forward, affecting
a hurt expression. "I'm told I'm quite a sensitive lover."
"I am not talking about
sex, Hayden," June said, a bit too loudly. The middle-aged couple at the
next table looked scandalized. She lowered her voice. "I'm talking about
emotions that go slightly deeper than, say, 'How'd you like to ride my broomstick?'"
"I'm still waiting,
darling, to hear who Mr. Sensitive is."
"Oh, sod off."
She ground her cigarette stub viciously into the ashtray.
"Oh, how very ladylike!
Can I quote you on that, Miss Lisbon?" Hayden laughed. "June Lisbon,
press advisor to the Minister of Magic, told the world at large today to 'sod
off' in no uncertain terms. Sources close to Miss Lisbon cite 'trouble in the
bedroom' as the cause of the disturbance."
"Yes, do sod off, Hayden.
And further more…"
He grabbed her hand smoothly.
"You can't stay mad at me. I know it for a fact."
"Really? How precisely
do you figure that?"
"Because you've never
been able to before." He leaned back in his chair, a self-satisfied smirk
on his handsome face. "No woman can."
"And here I thought
you liked me because I wasn't womanly."
"See!" he exclaimed
triumphantly. "That was very nearly a smile, darling."
"Hayden, you're a haughty,
self-indulgent prig…"
"And you love me…"
"And I love you, but
I'm not telling you about this." She began to signal around for the check.
Hayden tossed back the rest of his drink and let her, watching her through heavy-lidded
eyes and feigning a feline sleepiness while clearly attempting to allow his
prey to relax into thinking she'd won.
He scribbled his signature
across the check when it came, putting the meal on account. Normally June would
have argued the point, but tonight she let him pay out of pique. He retrieved
their coats from the cloak check girl and helped June politely into hers. It
wasn't until they were walking arm-in-arm through the crisp, sparking winter
night that he brought the subject up again. They passed Lulu's, tiny dots of
moisture in the air crystallizing and sparkling like diamonds beneath the street
lamps. Hat in hand, Hayden stopped in front of Amesbury's storefront display
window, already decked out for Christmas. Sugar plum fairies danced behind the
glass, twirling around wooden nutcrackers that turned into handsome princes
with the right spell; while sword-bearing mice jousted in a miniature enchanted
forest filled with dancing snowflakes.
The fairy light reflected
on his aristocratic face, turning his dark hair into a gold halo from behind
when he turned to look at her. "Tell me, June, or I swear I shall commit
seppuku with one of those mouse swords." He indicated the display window
with a casual hand.
"Good luck acquiring
one. The store appears closed." She smiled at him in the half-light.
"Then I'll be forced
to use whatever is at hand." He tugged his ivory cashmere scarf tight around
his neck like a noose, and looked at her pitifully. "I'm not fooling, darling.
I shall do something rash."
Snow was beginning to fall
in soft, large flakes around them, the scent of cold mingling with wet wool
as the flakes melted on Hayden's charcoal grey overcoat.
"Honestly, Hayden,
why on earth does it matter to you?"
"Sheer bloody-mindedness?"
He grinned lopsidedly. "Or perhaps, darling, this is my clumsy and inappropriate
way of showing I care."
That gave her pause.
Smiling wickedly, he added,
"Or it's just a ploy to find out blackmail-worthy secrets. One can never
have too many of those." He shoved his hands in his pockets. "Fine.
You won't tell me. Then I'll guess. Now who would you be protecting from me?"
Realization dawned across his face. "Oh, no! Not old Mr. Professor!"
She turned away from the
shop window, the world plunging into shadow again, and headed up the street.
"June! Darling?"
Hayden tagged after her. "Oh, not him, anyone but him."
He caught up to her at the
corner, quietly threading her arm through his again. He looked down apologetically
once, opened his mouth to say something, then thought better of it. So they
walked on in silence, the falling snow swallowing up their tracks as they went.
***
She was dreaming again.
But it wasn't one of those dreams.
Metis felt lately all she
did was sleep and dream. The cold and snow outside, the crackling fires and
long afternoons lulled her, tempted her into sleep. No matter how hard she tried
to fight it, drowsiness tugged at her, never caring where she was, what she
was doing. Except when she was with Tom. Tom was like black coffee, like electricity,
like breath in her lungs.
Her conscious self knew
that she was in the common room, by the fire. Her mind's eye could see her book,
face down on the rug, could see the thick, soft wool blanket she'd wrapped herself
in. She was aware of the heat from the fire on her face and the murmur of other
voices at the edges of the room. But her subconscious replayed scenes from the
book she'd been reading before falling asleep. Ladies in silks and satins, standing
in a long line, curtsied properly to their dance partners as an orchestra struck
up a popular tune. Metis found herself curtsying as well, only to discover that
she didn't know the steps. The music flowed around her as she tried to mimic
the other dancers. She stumbled, her partner catching her arm. She looked up
into his face, a bit afraid of what she might find there.
Tom looked down at her,
candlelight flickering behind him, casting odd shadows on his familiar mouth.
"Just follow. I won't let you fall."
And the dream began to change.
With a sickening familiarity, the voices in the common room began to recede.
She could no longer sense the fire's heat or feel the wool blanket beneath her
fingers. She was lost again, lost in the cold vacuum between her dreams, where
light was darkness, where pictures had voices, and screams were symphonies.
Wake up. Wake up,
she chanted to herself.
A hand, warm and solid,
rested on her chest, fingers stroking her collarbone. She reached up and grabbed
hold of it, letting its reality pull her out of the dream completely. She opened
her eyes to see Tom watching her curiously, her hands wrapped tight around his
slender wrist.
"How did you get in
here?" she asked, disoriented.
"Do you think anything
could ever keep me from you?" His voice was soft, strangely curious, as
though the idea of a barrier between them was completely foreign to him.
The room lay in thick silence,
save for the crackling of the fire, and they were alone. She must have slept
longer than she'd realized.
"You're really here
then? This isn't a dream?" She flung her arms around him, she could hear
the pounding of his heart in his chest, feel the heat coming off his skin.
"Of course I'm not
a dream," he said softly. "Why should you think that?"
"I've been afraid to
tell you," she said, her words muffled against the crisp cotton of his
shirt. "I fear I'm going mad."
"Come here." He
pulled her to her feet, unwrapping the blanket gently from her shoulders and
smoothing her tangled hair. He led her away from the fire and to a low sofa,
scattered with abandoned books and papers. The other Ravenclaws had likely gone
down to dinner. "What could possibly frighten you, Metis? Haven't I always
told you how safe you are with me?"
"Oh, but, Tom…The
things I see." She shut her eyes tight, tears threatening to spill through
her lashes. "The things I see. I don't understand them, but I- I think
they're real."
He regarded her curiously,
surprised but almost… pleased. "Have you always had these dreams,
Metis?"
"Yes, but now I have
them so much more often." She hesitated. "Do you think there's something
wrong with me?"
He kissed her warmly. "No.
If I'm right, there's nothing wrong with you at all." He looked at her
again with that expression of pleasant surprise. "If I'm right," he
said again wonderingly, almost to himself. "How perfect. I didn't intend
it this way -- but here you are."
"Tom?" Metis said.
"What do you mean?"
"Don't worry. I'll
tell you. But I must be sure first." He cupped her face with a gentle hand.
"There are things I've been afraid to tell you as well… About myself,
about my family. Well, my mother, really."
"Tom, you should know
I don't care about any of that. It's you I care about."
"But that's just it,
Metis. It all has to do with me -- who I am now, who I'll become. I've wanted
to tell you everything, but first I needed to know I could trust you."
Metis closed her eyes. "This
again? How can you doubt my love for you, my loyalty to you? You could do anything,
say anything, become anything and I wouldn't leave you. I couldn't leave you.
It would kill me."
He caught her face in both
of his hands. "Oh Metis, how I hoped…" He kissed her, pushing
the books and papers from between them. An inkbottle tipped over, spilling scarlet
ink over his hand. Heedless, he caught her face again, leaving a smear of crimson
at the corner of her mouth.
She wrapped her arms around
his waist, leaning her head against his shoulder. "Tell me then, Tom. I
want to know." She closed her eyes as he dragged his long fingers through
her hair. "Tell me everything. No more secrets. Keeping secrets from you
is impossible for me. It hurts."
"All right, Metis."
He rested his chin on top of her head, his arms so tight around her she could
feel the pulse at his wrists. "I'll tell you all you want to know. But
hear this first, once you know these things, there is no going back. You have
to be sure I'm what you want, for always. Once you know me, really, I can't
ever let you go."
"Why should I ever
want to be let go of?"
He looked down at her, tipping
her face up toward him. "People abandon the one they thought to love. It's
true. It happens all the time. If you ever did that to me, I couldn't forgive
it. Do you know what I mean by that? Do you understand?"
"I think I do."
"I will die loving
you, Metis. Will you die loving me?"
"Yes, of course. But
you already knew that."
Some indefinable emotion
flared behind his dark eyes. "I suppose I did, didn't I?" he breathed,
and kissed her again.
***
Jack Seward hadn't been
to Hogwarts in years. The castle loomed like a hulking, grey beast, its halls
filled with pushed-aside memories of youth, memories that had lain undisturbed
for years. Seward liked it that way. Now, faced with the school again, he suddenly
felt- well, he didn't know what he felt, and that was more disturbing than anything.
He'd been to see Dora the
night before. She'd taken the news about Hart with surprising calm. Better almost
than Seward himself. Her engagement ring had caught the lamplight while she
made the two of them coffee, and it had taken all of his strength not to walk
over and embrace her, to tell her to stop being so damn brave and rational.
Seward reached the massive
doors and knocked briefly, only to be immediately ushered inside by a rumpled,
youngish professor, who acknowledged that, yes, they had received his owl and
then led him up to the headmaster's office.
"Ed Halley, by the
way," the young professor said.
"Jack Seward. Nice
to meet you, Professor."
Halley didn't look to be
much older than the sixth and seventh years he taught. He had that same nervous,
bookish air that Seward associated with prefects and Head Boys from his own
school days. Halley handed Seward deftly over to the headmaster, who plied him
with tea and biscuits while Halley fetched Dumbledore from his morning class.
"So," said the
headmaster, in what he likely assumed was a casual manner. "What does the
Ministry want with our Albus? He's not in any trouble, is he?"
"I can promise you,
Professor Dippet, that's he's not in any trouble." Not yet, Seward thought,
wryly. Though I'll do my damnedest to drag him there before the day is through,
won't I?
"Ah, Albus. There you
are," Dippet said, standing up as the door opened. "This is Jack Seward,
from the Department of Mysteries."
At that, Dumbledore raised
an eyebrow just perceptibly. "Nice to meet you, Mr. Seward. I'm Albus Dumbledore.
I understand you wanted to see me."
"Yes, Professor. Might
we talk in your office?"
With a sidelong glance at
Dippet and Halley, Dumbledore replied, "Of course. This way."
The two men walked in slightly
uncomfortable silence down the long, familiar corridors. Every so often, Seward
would catch a glimpse of something he recognized, jogging some silly memory.
He shook his head, trying to collect his thoughts. He couldn't be distracted
by the past today, he needed all of his focus in the here and now.
"Here we are,"
Dumbledore said, opening a heavy oak door.
"Can I get you some
tea?" he asked once they were inside. Dumbledore motioned to a chair in
front of his desk before taking a seat himself.
Seward shook his head. "Let's
dispense with all that. I'm going to be perfectly frank with you here. I know
you were working with Lee Scoresby on that translation project of his. I also
know that it got him killed." Seward looked at the other man evenly. "What
do you have to say about that?"
Dumbledore appeared unfazed.
"Surely you can't be suggesting that I was involved somehow."
"No. I am, however,
suggesting that you know more about this than you're letting on."
"Well," the professor
returned mildly, "no one has yet asked me anything about Scoresby, or his
project. No one from your department has shown the least interest in what I
might or might not know until yourself, Mr. Seward."
"Fair enough,"
Seward replied. "You're aware there was an investigation, though?"
"I'd heard rumors."
Seward shifted in his chair.
"Then have you heard this one? The team we sent to Albania never made it
back. I have reason to believe they're all dead."
Dumbledore raised an eyebrow,
and the tension in the room shifted ever so slightly. "And why tell me
this? I can't imagine that's information that the Ministry wants made public."
"Oh, you won't be telling
anyone," Seward returned, with the casual, practiced air of a hardened
veteran. Intimidating people came easily after all these years, though deep
down he suspected Albus Dumbledore was not a man to be strong-armed. "And
I'm telling you because I believe you're our best hope for getting to the bottom
of this mess. You're the only one left alive who's familiar with Scoresby's
work and what he was looking for in Albania." He paused. "So what
I need to know is will you work with me on this?"
"On what? You still
haven't told me what you hope to accomplish."
"I should think that
would be obvious. I want to find out who murdered Scoresby, and who murdered
our investigative team."
"So all you really
need from me is information on Scoresby's work?"
Seward sat back, measuring
the other man. "There is something else, but I need to be sure we have
an understanding before I go any further."
In turn, Dumbledore seemed
to be sizing Seward up. After a few moments he nodded. "I'll do my best
to help you with any information I can on Scoresby's work and plans. Until I
know more, I can't promise any further than that."
Seward nodded. He was taking
an enormous risk here; one that he couldn't be sure would pay out. But he'd
come this far already, and wasn't about to turn back now. He dug into his satchel
and tossed all of Scoresby's Albanian notes onto Dumbledore's desk. "This
is what I need you for. These were recovered from Scoresby's residence in Albania.
I can't make head nor tail of them." Dumbledore was already flipping interestedly
through the mass of papers.
"All of this,"
Seward indicated the parchment with a sweep of his hand. "All of this is
completely off the record. Do you understand? If either of us were to be caught
with these documents the consequences would be dreadful."
The young professor studied
Seward briefly, an inscrutable expression on his face. "Why are you doing
this?" Dumbledore asked at last.
"Because the man who led that team was a friend of mine, and I'd hate to
see the people who killed him get away with it," Seward said, mostly truthfully.
"I see," Dumbledore
nodded. "I can understand that. I'll do everything in my power to help
you."
***
Albus didn't trust that
Seward was telling him the whole truth, but at this stage it didn't matter.
He couldn't pass up the opportunity for access to Scoresby's research. Besides,
he'd held back quite a bit of information from Seward himself. Seward had taken
his leave abruptly, and Albus spent the rest of the morning rifling Scoresby's
notes and pacing his office, deep in thought. He was doing just that when his
ponderings were unceremoniously interrupted by a hacking, wheezing cough from
the corner of the room.
"Oh, poor old fellow."
Albus crossed over to where the scarlet phoenix slumped on its perch, looking
for all the world like it had a walloping hangover. The bird regarded him with
a teary eye and thrust its head up underneath Albus' cupped palm. He stroked
the phoenix's balding head, making sympathetic noises until, without warning,
the bird squawked and burst spectacularly into flame.
Albus yelped and jumped
back. He'd known what to expect, of course, but he'd assumed there would be
some sort of sign before the old bird went up like so much dry straw. Sucking
on one burnt finger, he backed away toward his desk while the raging fireball
burned itself down to a pile of silver ash. After a heartbeat, a tiny dun-colored
beak poked its way out of the ash, followed by an egg-shaped head and beady
silver eyes.
"Welcome back to the
world, old boy," Albus smiled, leaning down and scooping up the newly reborn
phoenix. It piped a half-hearted musical note at him before collapsing back
against his palms, its tiny, naked chest heaving with exertion.
"I know, old fellow.
That can't have been pleasant for you."
The phoenix fixed him with
a disapproving gaze.
"Now what's this? You
can't be cross with me. That's the first time I've ever seen a phoenix reborn.
Did I make some faux pas, old thing?"
The bird pecked him weakly
on the flat of his hand.
"This is very curious,
indeed. I'm sorry you're put out with me. I haven't the slightest clue what's
to be done."
"He wants you to name
him," said an amused voice from the door.
"Name him?" Albus'
head snapped up. "Oh hello, Brione. Whatever do you mean, name him?"
Brione Ivey, the Herbology
professor leaned against his half-open door, arms crossed. "Just what I
said. You haven't had him long, have you?"
"No. Just a few months."
She smiled at him as she
would a sweet, but slow pupil. "Well, he's a phoenix. This is his first
Burning since you became his master. So he needs a new name." She crossed
the room, closing the door softly behind her. She tossed her dark hair over
one shoulder as she walked, dark but with a perfect streak of silver through
the middle, giving her an air of wisdom even though she was only a handful of
years older than Albus himself.
They laid the little phoenix
gently down on Albus' desk. He could have sworn the bird looked gratefully at
Brione, and his suspicions were confirmed when the phoenix nibbled affectionately
on her fingers.
"It appears you've
made a complete conquest of the little fellow," Albus observed.
"Hmm. I should always
be so lucky." She stroked the phoenix underneath its beak; it closed its
eyes. If it could have sighed in contentment, Albus believed it would have.
"So, Albus," Brione
said, clearly enjoying herself. "What shall you call him?"
"Oh… well…
I'm completely unprepared." He shrugged. "I've no earthly idea."
She looked at him, laughter
in her eyes. "Come now. There must be something. An old school chum to
immortalize? A favorite name for a son? Something."
"I could name him after
my father, I suppose."
"What was your father's
name?"
"Cronus," Albus
replied.
Brione arched a thin eyebrow,
then looked down at the bird. "Somehow, I think not."
"Well, then. I don't
know. Ask him."
"Oh, now. It doesn't
work that way. You've got to pick the name."
Albus cast around the room,
hoping desperately for something to jog his balky imagination. A potted plant
-- no. A bust of Beethoven -- close, but no. A globe, an hourglass… His
eyes fell on the calendar. November 5.
"Guy Fawkes."
"What?"
"It's Guy Fawkes Day.
That's what I'll name him after."
Brione looked at him in
disbelief. "Let me get this straight. You are going to name your phoenix,
a majestic bird, millennia old, after Guy Fawkes. After a Muggle madman who
tried to blow up both James I and Parliament."
"Yes, I believe I will.
Why not?"
"Other than the obvious?"
"After all," Albus
grinned, "Fawkes, gunpowder -- fire, phoenix." He looked down at the
phoenix. "Is that all right with you, old boy? Fawkes?"
"Suit yourself,"
Brione smiled indulgently, tapping Fawkes gently on the beak. "I came to
fetch you for lunch, you know," she said, returning her attention to Albus.
"I know you'd rather be up here buried in dusty books, but the tiny slice
of maternal instinct in me won't allow you to go without a proper meal."
"You? Have maternal
instincts for something other than Mandrakes? I refuse to believe it."
Brione sighed heavily. "Lunch,
Albus. Now." She turned as they moved to leave. "Goodbye, Fawkes."
***