Memories

I am standing here, at the Hogwarts Leavers' Ball. I should be the happiest person here, and I hope I look like it, but inside my heart is broken.

I am watching Harry dance with his girlfriend. If they play one more slow song, I'm sure my heart will be ripped in two. I'm in agony here, though no one notices.

Another slow song has begun to play, but Harry isn't dancing. He's approaching me. Oh, I wish he wouldn't see me in the state I'm in. He's actually asking me to dance! My heart is breaking, but I agree, and step out onto the dance floor with him, trying not to look into those eyes.

All of a sudden all sorts of memories come rushing back.

You've been searching the world to find true love

Looking in all the wrong places

When all of the time you've been blind to love

It's plain as the nose on your faces

I remember when I first met him. Those eyes were the first things I saw. I'll never forget them. Of course, he was very daft at the time. He isn't any more

It's here, it's now

Open your eyes and see it

Right here, right now

Open your eyes to love

I remember when he went to battle Voldemort all by himself. He was a great wizard, even then, but I didn't want him to do it. I threw myself on his neck, and didn't want to let him go for all the world. Now, I'm sorry I did.

You've been down on yourself thinking something's wrong

Wondering why love has never found you

Don't you know it's been right here all along

If only you'd look around you

I remember when I saw him again in his second year. He had grown so much. I remember when I woke up, and I knew he had done it. I think, that if I hadn't been petrified, I wouldn't let him do it, but I was, so he did. I remember throwing my arms around him, never wanting to let go. But eventually I did. Now, I wish I hadn't.

It's here, it's now

Open your eyes and see it

Right here, right now

Open your eyes to love

I remember the next year, when we thought Sirius Black was after him. I didn't want to let him break any rules; didn't want to let him out of my sight. I remember when we found that Black was Harry's godfather. That he didn't have anything to fear from him. So I thought it would be okay if I finally let him out of my sight. Not for me.

Love has been right by your side

So close that you couldn't see

If love could speak, it would shout to the sky

I've always been here, I always will be

I remember his fourth year. I was so scared I practically died when his name came out of the goblet. I remember holding my breath all through the first task. I remember when Harry finally emerged from the lake, with not only Ron, but Fleur's sister as well. I remember how brave I thought he was.

I'm here, I'm now

Open your eyes and see me

Right here, right now

Open your eyes to love

With a shudder I remember the third task. I remember seeing him disappear, and then finally reappear what seemed like days later, clutching Cedric's dead body. He was pale as a ghost. I didn't want anything else to happen to him. Didn't want to risk losing him again. But I let him go, and now I wish I hadn't.

Open your eyes

I remember out fifth year. How I knew Voldemort was back, and how he would kill Harry if it was the last thing he did. I remember how much anger Harry had. I wonder why I never got mad back. I didn't know then, but I think I might now. I remember what he told me afterward. How Voldemort had actually possessed him, for the short amount of time, though it was. I didn't want anything to happen to him. I wish I could just hold him to me and never let go. But I couldn't. Now, I wish I had known how.

Open your mind to love

Now I look at him. I see all he has become. All he has. He has a girlfriend. He's going to become an auror. He doesn't need me; yet, I still need him.

Open your heart to love

The song is over now. I enfold him in a hug, holding on for as long as I dare. Eventually, though it breaks my heart, I let go of him, for the very last time. I allow myself one last look in those eyes, with a magic all their own. There's something in them, they're happy. It is unfathomable to me. My eyes start to fill with tears, so I turn and walk away; leaving the boy I love behind.