Rating:
R
House:
The Dark Arts
Characters:
Harry Potter Ron Weasley
Genres:
Angst Romance
Era:
Multiple Eras
Spoilers:
Philosopher's Stone Chamber of Secrets Prizoner of Azkaban Goblet of Fire Order of the Phoenix
Stats:
Published: 09/12/2003
Updated: 10/10/2003
Words: 3,087
Chapters: 5
Hits: 1,285

The Angels Never Sang

MPotter77andPenelope

Story Summary:
Why have the Angels Never Sang? The answer is different for every person, and each chapter will be told from a different point of view, giving them a chance go in-depth about why the angels never sang. In this chapter: Ron looks at the different ways the angels have slighted his best friend.

Chapter 05

Chapter Summary:
Why have the Angels Never Sang? The answer is different for every person, and each chapter will be told from a different point of view, giving them a chance go in-depth about why the angels never sang. In this chapter: Harry looks back at his relationship with Hermione, and looks forward to their future together.
Posted:
10/10/2003
Hits:
233
Author's Note:
This is a collaboration between MPotter77 and Penelope. Each chapter will be told from a different character's point-of-view and will follow the central theme of "The Angels Never Sang." Please Read and review.


The Angels Never Sang

I accepted the fact long ago that my life was meant to be a mess. It has been for as long as I can remember. One problem after another, with a pleasant moment thrown in here and there to keep me from thinking that I was cursed. She doesn't deserve to suffer because of my shortcomings. The angels have never sang for her, and the worst part is that I am the reason.

If you asked, she would probably tell you that the angels were singing the day we met. I highly doubt it. If they were saying anything, they were telling her to run away immediately and not look back. But she didn't, and for that I will always be thankful. I realize now that they were singing for me, but that's not the point. Her life would have been much simpler if she hadn't wandered into our compartment that day, and I wouldn't feel guilty for ruining her life.

The angels never sang for Hermione during the two years I hid my feelings for her. They were only doing their job; I asked them not to sing. Mione and I shared plenty of awkward moments when it would have been easy for them to break into song, but I kept telling myself that I was doing what was right to protect her. It was difficult for me to see her every day, knowing that I wanted so much more but unwilling to put her in danger. Yet again the angels were singing to me; I was able to keep her safe.

The angels were frighteningly quiet that night just over a year ago when I finally told her how I felt. I was expecting at least some kind of reaction, not the complete silence. And it wasn't just the angels that were silent, Hermione was as well. The silence was unnerving. Hermione always had an answer for everything, and I needed some reassurance that I was doing the right thing; that what I was doing would in some way insure that we could have a future together. Then angels were silent then, silent for both of us.

I can only imagine what the angels were saying to Mione when she found out Voldemort was gone for good. At one time, I thought maybe they broke their silence for her, hoping that I would be coming back soon. But deep down I think she knew that life had become more complicated instead of easier. Once again, the angels remained silent.

I can speak for both of us when I say that the angels never sang during the year I was gone. I can't even begin to imagine how horrible it must have been for her--not knowing that I was all right. My pain was excruciating, and I knew exactly where to find her. It gave me some small feeling of comfort that I could go to her door at anytime, or surprise her at work. She had no such privilege. I deliberately kept her from hearing the angels sing. I feel like I owe them a refund for the times they sang to me.

So now I'm trying to make things right between us. I can't take back all the things I've done to hurt our chances at happiness together, but I can do my best to make up for them. I can honestly say that the last year has taught me that I can't live without her. And now she's here in my arms like nothing was ever wrong. I won't tell the angels not to sing this time, because I know we're both ready to hear them.