She Will Be Loved

Beauty queen of only eighteen

She had some trouble with herself

He was only there to help her

She always belonged to someone else

I had loved you since I was fourteen. I had liked you since I first knew you. I have never had a test, a risk, or a move that was made without or because of you. I had always thought that you had needed me too, but not in the same way. We have been friends since the year we met; I can't live without you.

I drove for miles and miles

And wound up at your door

I've had you so many times

But somehow I want more

You never dated me nor did I approach you. You were always there showing me how good it could...how good it should be. I never felt as comfortable or as wonderful around another girl; it was always you. I could never live without you and I can't just start now.

When we were at Hogwarts it was always the three of us. Through anything we could trust each other; we could depend on one another. There was always the three of us, no matter what. Then there were two. We grieved together, weeping on each others' shoulders. After the funeral my shoulder became dry and my head had no resting place; you had gone. You went back to your parent's house; back to before. We stopped speaking or writing to each other. Our only correspondence was in my dreams. I never could stop thinking about you. I missed you.

I don't mind spending everyday

Out on your corner in the pouring rain

Look for the girl with the broken smile

Ask her if she wants to stay a while

There wasn't someone who was always there; you weren't there. There was an empty, aching place in my heart and it grew. It gnawed away at my insides and ripped apart my ability to love anybody but you. I couldn't stand it anymore. I threw myself into your world; into the world of "before". I asked about you. I searched for you; I did everything in my power to find you. Then I did. I found you.

And she will be loved

She will be loved

Your address was seared into my eyes. I could never forget it. I would never forget it. A slip of paper with words copied down from a phone book was going to be my salvation. I got in my car and I drove to that address on that slip of paper, your address.

I parked my car near your building. Your door was the most beautiful thing I had seen since I had seen you last. I walked up the pavement, towards a dream I thought I could never achieve, but there it was. I took every one of your stone steps slowly, relishing the moment that I had found you. I reached your door; I raised my fist and knocked.

Tap on my window knock on my door

I want to make you feel beautiful

I know I tend to get so insecure

It doesn't matter anymore

There was no answer. I did it again, same result. Grey clouds suddenly burst; rain began to fall. I stood on your stone step and let the rain wash over me; it pounded my shoulders and chilled my neck. The rain slowly ran down my face where it mingled with tears. I sunk down on the stone steps as I cried out of frustration; I cried for him; I cried for you and I cried for us.

It's not always rainbows and butterflies

It's compromise that moves us along

My heart is full and my door's always open

You can come anytime you want

The rain gushed down my back as I stared up at the sky feeling its power and grace. I watched as the clouds angrily moved within one another separate but one. A noise made me tear my gaze from the heavens. It was you. You stepped out of your car as I stood on my own two feet, again. You walked up to your steps without looking up, fumbling with your keys. When you reached the steps you looked up, noticing the shadow that fell on your face, even in the dim light. Your eyes grew wide; your keys fell to the pavement with little noise.

I don't mind spending everyday

Out on your corner in the pouring rain

Look for the girl with the broken smile

Ask her if she wants to stay a while

I took another step down as your disbelieving face looked up at mine. You made a strangled sound as if you wanted to say something but couldn't. I took another step down and another until I was on level ground with you. The rain continued to fall. It drenched me more and more as you stood there getting wetter and wetter. Your hair became a deflated mass and your face was slowly becoming as drenched as I was. I looked into your eyes as they welled up with tears. Your gaze dropped from my eyes to the ground and I put my hand under your chin. I pulled your face back up to look at mine.

And she will be loved

She will be loved

Your tears were freely falling. I cupped your face with my hands and wiped them away. Then, unexpectedly, I leaned forward and I kissed you. It was a soft kiss that was only meant to alleviate some of our pain. As soon as I made contact with your lips, I knew it was something more. Something passed between us that words or actions could not convey and for that second everything was better, the world was whole, we had each other.

I know why you hide alone in your car

Know all of the things that make you who you are

I know that goodbye means nothing at all

Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls

I pulled back, surprised. I tentatively licked my lips hoping to find one last lingering taste of that euphoria. You still stood there, but there was something else in your eyes. We stood six inches apart but I could feel your body against mine. I could feel your lips on my skin wherever the rain fell. Your eyes had been searching the ground again and before I could pull your head up, you looked up and kissed me. I stood there, shocked, for a second before I realized what was going on. Then, I leaned in and kissed you back.

There were so many emotions wound up into those few moments. There were feelings I didn't know I had drifting around in my head. There was an undeniable passion that I never thought could make me warm through the rain. There was this need. I needed you, I needed to hold you, I needed to be near you, I needed to be there for whatever life will bring, and I needed for you to need me too.

Tap on my window Knock on my door

I want to make you feel beautiful

We broke apart again. Both of us drew back slowly as if wishing there was more. We stood there for a second more, just you, me and the rain. Then, you walked past me, up your glistening, stone steps, keys in your hand. You opened the door that was briefly my sanctuary, pulled the keys out and walked into your living room.

The door stayed wide open. Your carpet started to get wet and I suddenly realised that the door was left open for me. I retraced my steps of minutes, hours, years earlier and walked back up to your doorstep. I stepped into the room and drenched the carpet, but I turned and shut the door. As soon as I heard the door shut, the faint pitter-pattering of the rain died away. All that was left was you and me.

I don't mind spending everyday out

On your corner in the pouring rain

Look for the girl with the broken smile

Ask her if she wants to stay a while

And she will be loved

She will be loved