- Rating:
- PG-13
- House:
- The Dark Arts
- Characters:
- Severus Snape
- Genres:
- Angst
- Era:
- Multiple Eras
- Spoilers:
- Philosopher's Stone Chamber of Secrets Prizoner of Azkaban Goblet of Fire
- Stats:
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Published: 01/09/2003Updated: 01/09/2003Words: 1,575Chapters: 1Hits: 652
When We Were Gone Astray
Malecrit
- Story Summary:
- Christmas 1981: Severus Snape pays a visit to an old friend and Death Eater.
- Chapter Summary:
- It's Christmas 1981, and Severus Snape, the new Hogwarts Potions professor, pays a visit to an old school friend by the name of Avery.
- Posted:
- 01/09/2003
- Hits:
- 652
- Author's Note:
- This story was written in response to Narcissa Malfoy's wonderful ASRWLL Christmas Challenge. Complete challenge requirements are listed at the end of the story. The title is a line from the carol "God Rest Ye Merry, Gentlemen."
1981. It wasn't a white Christmas that year, but it was a wet one.
Muggle children all over Britain were going to bed with the hope that
Father Christmas wouldn't be blown off-course by the harsh wind that
had arrived the week before and showed no sign of leaving. And on that
Christmas Eve, Severus Snape Apparated directly into Martin Avery's
sitting room, dripping rainwater.
Certainly no one would have seen him had he walked straight up to
the front door of the secluded house and knocked, but he'd rather not
have taken the chance. Instead, he'd left Hogwarts at dusk, pulling
the hood of his cloak over his head as he started out for Hogsmeade.
For a moment he had hesitated outside the Three Broomsticks, but had
decided a shot glass full of whiskey wasn't worth enduring the raucous
carols being sung inside the pub. This was the first Christmas in
years free from the threat of Voldemort, and the weather was no
obstacle for the wizarding community's celebration.
By the time he had reached the stile on the outskirts of the tiny
village, Snape was soaked through and suppressing shivers that
threatened to shake his entire body. So Severus Snape had concentrated
hard on the distant memory of a richly furnished room and disappeared
with a pop.
A moment later, Martin Avery looked up from the old, leather-bound book he held in his lap. "Christ, Snape!" he cried, rising from
his armchair. "Couldn't you have at least come in at the entry hall?
That rug's been in the family for generations."
Severus ignored the fact that he was indeed creating a rather
large puddle on a very old wool rug bearing the Avery family crest.
"Happy Christmas," he replied shortly, without a trace of holiday
cheer.
"Haven't you heard of a Drying Charm, mate?" Avery gave a short,
uneasy laugh, his eyes flickering between Snape's feet and his utterly
indecipherable facial expression. "Here, allow me," he offered,
reaching for his wand to perform the spell himself. Snape raised a
hand to stop him, though, and with a whisk of his own wand, both he and
the rug were perfectly dry a moment later.
"Is it really coming down that hard? How long were you out there
before you popped over, anyway?" Avery asked, trying desperately to
make conversation, something at which neither of them had ever been
particularly good.
"I wanted a bit of air," Severus said, still clutching his wand
as he stared down his host. The look might have been mistaken for
hatred or rage, but Snape was on the defensive.
"Severus, I didn't ask you here to hex you!" Avery burst out. "Ah,
well. Happy Christmas, mate."
The two young men lapsed into an intensely uncomfortable silence.
Snape could feel the beginnings of a headache coming on; he was glad he
had decided against taking the Floo. He noticed that Martin's sandy
blond hair was the shortest he had seen it since Hogwarts; he must have
cut it after his trial. Severus hadn't gone to the sentencing, but he
had read an article in the Daily Prophet the next day announcing
Avery's acquittal. In the accompanying picture, Martin's hair had been
long and matted from the time in Azkaban, and his hazel eyes had
shifted from one corner of the photograph to another. Those same eyes
were now wandering around the sitting room, avoiding Snape's gaze.
Severus cleared his throat.
Jumping ever so slightly, Martin Avery gave his guest a weak
smile. "So, well, I suppose you received my card, then?"
Severus pocketed his wand and momentarily extracted a green
envelope from within his robes. It held a greeting card decorated with
a picture of a dove, and in Avery's untidy scrawl the inside had simply
read, How about coming 'round the house on Christmas Eve? I'm on my
own this year. -Martin.
"Ah, good."
"But isn't that a Muggle custom, Avery? The bird doesn't move,"
Snape said, arching an eyebrow.
"Oh, well, there were a bunch lying about with the decorations,"
Martin shrugged. "My sister's, I suppose."
Sarah Avery had left for the continent two years ago, along with their
parents. Snape had always suspected it had something to do with
Martin's ... political leanings; he was the only Slytherin in a family
full of Ravenclaws and Hufflepuffs. It seemed he only stayed at his
ancestral home now because he had nowhere else to go.
"Have you heard from anyone?" Severus asked after a moment.
"Like who? My family?" Martin laughed bitterly. "Maybe Alastor
Moody'll drop me a note ... 'Congratulations and Happy Christmas, you
scum?' Yes, I'm sure he's just about the only person who gives a damn
about me right now. We don't exactly have anyone left,
Severus."
Alastor Moody was the Auror who had captured Avery earlier that
year. It had been only a month or so before Voldemort's mysterious
fall at the hands of James Potter's infant son, and Severus himself had
only just gone to Albus Dumbledore that summer. Severus was surprised
Avery didn't suspect he'd given him away. There hadn't been many of
their old gang left by the time Snape went over; Rosier and Wilkes were
killed the year before, and he'd quickly learned the Aurors were
already searching for the Lestranges, though to no avail. There were
others, of course, but Snape couldn't name them for sure. Their masks
were not only worn to prevent them from being identified by their
victims. And so in Dumbledore's office that July night, when Moody
demanded names, there was really only one to give. The true
circumstances of his arrest had never even crossed Martin Avery's mind.
"Severus, you all right, mate?" Avery asked, interrupting Snape's
train of thought. He motioned to a far corner of the room. "Say,
would you like to help decorate the tree?"
Severus turned around and saw an evergreen that nearly reached
the ceiling and was half-decorated with tinsel. "I'm bloody sick of
green and silver," he muttered.
"Oh, right. So how's teaching, anyway?"
"You know how I feel about children." Really, though, Severus
wanted nothing more than to return to the school. For the last six
months, he'd been unable to decide whether he should feel guilty for
turning in his old friend, but now he could only feel anger towards
Avery's blind trust, his amiability. Severus knew he shouldn't have
come at all, but then this wasn't the first time he'd allowed his
curiosity to get the better of him.
"Well, er, why don't you have a seat then? Shit, I'm a terrible
host. Have a drink, Severus," Avery offered, conjuring two cut-glass
tumblers and a full decanter.
Snape accepted the glass that was shoved into his hands, but
remained standing. "Why did you ask me here, Avery?" he asked,
narrowing his eyes.
"Severus, I--There's no one else. Do you have any idea how quiet
it is here?" Avery broke off, concentrating hard on the fire that was
crackling in the hearth. Severus could barely make out the words he
began to mumble distractedly. "We got in too deep ... Too fucking
deep...." Avery's voice cracked and he fell silent once more, covering
his face with his hands.
Severus Snape felt that if he remained in that room any longer,
he wouldn't be able to refrain from hitting Martin Avery across his
flushed, boyish face. It took nearly all his power, every single day,
to maintain his composure. He could not stand here and witness another
man's anguish.
"I must be going," he said, placing his full glass on the nearest
table.
"Oh, well, all right then," Avery replied quietly, looking over
at Snape with dry but bloodshot eyes. "But hold on. I have something
for you."
He bent down, producing a wrapped package from beneath the end
table beside his chair. "Sorry about the paper," he said with an
apologetic smile. It was silver foil embellished with a green floral
motif.
"I can't accept that," Snape said quickly, eyeing the unexpected
gift.
"Just take it, Severus. Open it later if you'd like." Avery
held out the present with both hands and a pleading look. Severus
reached out for it hesitantly, managing a brief but courteous
thanks.
Then, suddenly, there was a buzzing accompaniment to Snape's
headache; it began softly, but grew louder and clearer and faster.
I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry, it went. If Snape had ever had a
doubt about becoming a Death Eater, he knew Martin Avery had had a
hundred. Catching himself, he steeled his mind against that softness.
He was responsible for no one but himself. He had no room for
sympathy.
"Happy Christmas, Martin," he said, and Disapparated.
A short time later, back in his bedchamber at Hogwarts, Severus
Snape sat staring at Avery's gift. Sighing, he undid the neat
wrapping, revealing a copy of Hogwarts, A History. When they
were students, Avery had been the only one in their dormitory to
actually read the book, and he had spent many hours in vain arguing its
worth to the rest of them. Opening the front cover, Severus read the
brief inscription: Sometimes this seems like the one thing
that hasn't changed since we were in school. This is a new edition,
but they still haven't fixed that "Slitherin" typo on page 374. Well,
nothing's perfect, I suppose.
After a long pause, Severus Snape turned the page and began to
read.
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Notes: The following were the requirements for the challenge, as posted here.
You must write a Christmas-related scene featuring any two or more of the following characters: Avery, Snape, Rosier, Wilkes, Lestrange, and Lestrange. All eras up for grabs. If you're twisted, we could have Christmas with Avery, Snape, and the Lestranges some time during OotP. If you're a little nicer, we could have Christmas at Hogwarts or at someone's house with everyone alive. The possibilities are endless
The fic or ficlet must include
The line: "I'm sick of green and silver."
"But isn't that a Muggle custom?"
and
a Christmas tree
a reference to "Hogwarts A History"
a cameo by Mad-Eye Moody (can be in flashback, if you like)