Loving Him While He Sleeps

You're a song

Written by the hands of god

I looked at him while he was sleeping and satisfaction crept up on my face. He looked so angelic and so peaceful that I just couldn't bring myself to rob him of his slumber. I loved him best while he was sleeping because he couldn't be sarcastic and mocking. However, I guess I loved him then also.

Don't get me wrong cause

This might sound to you a bit odd

But you own the place

Where all my thoughts go hiding

So yes, I guess I also loved him equally as much while he was awake. At least then I could look into his endless, silvery, gray eyes. When he was awake, he would understand me; he would be able to read my mind like a book. He knew my most in-depth thoughts, my most hidden secrets. And still he accepted me. He loved me in my entirety.

And right under your clothes

Is where I find them

Underneath Your Clothes

There's an endless story

There's the man I chose

There's my territory

I remember our first time together. I didn't speak a word the entire night... I didn't have to. We had been as one that night. We were connected mentally, emotionally, and of course, physically. I never regretted him taking my virginity. Even though I knew he had been with many other girls, he made me feel as if I was the only one. It was the start of 'us'. Instead of being the one nightstand we both thought, it proved to be so much more. That night we discovered how well we understood each other, first just physically then deeper.

And all the things I deserve

For being such a good girl honey

We seemed like such an unlikely couple, Draco and I. He was malicious, sarcastic, and SO arrogant. I, on the other hand, was a rule-abiding (most of the time), know-it-all. He was pureblood and I was muggle born. Maybe that's why I liked him so much... He was everything I could never be. I was a smart girl; I knew that Voldemort was going to win in the end. Harry couldn't kill anybody- he didn't have it in him. Therefore, it was only a matter of time before the end came like it was prophesized. Yet, I had to be with Harry through it all. It wasn't as if I didn't like Harry, he was my best friend. But he was NOT the hero the wizarding world envisioned. Draco on the other hand, as I found out later, was not evil, but just wanted the war to end. He couldn't help the way he was brought up. And although he seemed mean, even cruel, to the others... he is kind to me (well, at least more so than to anybody else).

Because of you

I forgot the smart ways to lie

Because of you

I'm running out of reasons to cry

However, that was irrelevant, now that the war was over. And now that Draco and I could be together. It was so hard then, trying to be together in private. I had to lie to my friends and feign hate towards someone I loved. It was probably the hardest time of my life... not like the war was a bed of roses for anyone.

Now that we could be together, I was content. I don't think I've shed tears out of anything but joy in the year we've been engaged. We complete each other so while I am with him my life is complete.

When the friends are gone

When the party's over

We will still belong to each other

I do remember the last time I cried though... it was when Harry and Ron died. Besides Draco, they were all I had left. When Voldemort aimed his wand at Ron, he knew Harry would try to save him, "playing the hero role."

That night I cried more than I ever had in my life. My tears were the sorrow I felt, and the relief the war was over at last. Through it all, Draco remained by my side. Although he abhorred Harry with passion, although Harry was the reason his family was dead... he listened to me when I needed to talk about him. For days his shoulder stayed wet from my constant outburst of tears. Just thinking about it made vision get blurry and I realized I might cry, for the first time in a year.

Underneath Your Clothes

There's an endless story

There's the man I chose

There's my territory

And all the things I deserve

For being such a good girl honey

Draco finally started stirring in bed. When he awoke the first thing he saw was I, and that is how I want it to be for the rest of our lives. He was perplexed, I could see it in his beautiful, tired eyes.

"Why are you crying?"

"Because I love you so much!"

He looked at me in disbelief; probably thinking I was crazy. Yes, I definitely love him more when he is awake.

I love you more than all that's on the planet

Movin' talkin' walkin' breathing

You know it's true

Oh baby it's so funny.

"Hermione, I don't want you to cry!" He started to smirk. Draco never smiled, he smirked. And seeing him smirk made me smile... and pretty soon I was giggling like a schoolgirl.

You almost don't believe it

As every voice is hanging from the silence

Lamps are hanging from the ceiling

Like a lady to her good manners

I'm tied up to this feeling

We got out of bed and Draco looked at me mischievously, "Do you want to join me in the shower?"

Underneath Your Clothes

There's an endless story

There's the man I chose

There's my territory

And all the things I deserve

For being such a good girl honey

As I followed him out of the room, I realized that I could never love anybody like I love Draco. Whether he is sleeping or awake, whether we're laughing or crying, whether we're in secret or engaged... he is the man I chose, my territory.