The Secret Journal of Lily Potter

Dec. 2 Dear Journal,

Roxanne is missing! She never made it to our hideout! Everyone else is here. Well everyone that stayed behind. I'm really scared and nervous. Roxanne should have been the first one here! I'm going to go look for her! I'm not going to tell the other girls where I'm going. Lilac will be furious, but if Roxanne is in trouble I have to find her. I promise I will write more as soon as I can...

Dec. 3 Dear Journal,

I didn't find Roxanne. But I saw something that really scared me, a Death Eater! He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named must be in the castle! I think that he must have Roxanne. I'm going to go check some more places...

Dec. 4 Dear Journal,

I found Roxanne! Of course when I found her, it was too late. I was right! The Dark Lord has her. When I found her I was in the Astronomy Tower, and she, and the Death Eaters, and the Dark Lord, were walking across the lawn, actually they were dragging Roxanne, and there wasn't a thing I could do. Roxanne looked half dead. I wonder what will happen to her she was a great friend; I wonder if I will see her again. The whole place is wreaked. The Great Hall is destroyed and who knows what else. I hope everyone comes back soon. We are all afraid, really afraid. We don't want to be here anymore! Oh god! I just want to be with James again!

Dec. 6 Dear Journal,

They're back! I can't believe it! They're really, truly back! They are okay. They are really tired, but they are okay. I hope I can talk to James before tomorrow. I need to go talk to Dumbledore right now it's about Roxanne. He still doesn't know what happened, all the other girls are in the medical wing. I'll write more later when I have the time...

Dec. 10 Dear Journal,

I talked to James today. He was still a little sleep-deprived, but he was really happy to see me. I asked him what happened and he said... I guess I should start at the beginning so it will be easier to understand.

"James what happened when you want after... him?" I asked.

"I don't want to tell you!" he said.

"James, you'll feel a lot better if you do," I said.

"Okay I will. But you have to promise not to tell anyone," he said.

"I promise," I said.

"After we left Hogwarts we went to Hogsmeade. We stayed at an inn. We asked a lot of questions. In the middle of the night a Death Eater appeared in the middle of town. He caused a great uproar. Everyone in the school started to chase him. He lead us all deep into the woods. I think we were near the heart of the woods when he disappeared in the fog. We continued to walk for a day or two, I don't know how long, but we stumbled into the Death Eaters camp. They were very surprised to see us. They pulled out their wands, but we were to fast for them. We had our wands out and started to shoot stunning spells all over. We hit some of our own people. By the time all the Death Eaters where stunned half of our people were down. By the time we revived all of our people it was night. The next morning we decided to go back. Halfway back we ran into some more Death Eaters. We did the same thing all over again. When we got back to the castle we were horrified that something had happened to you girls."

We talked some more. James got tired and went to bed. I also talked to Dumbledore. He was very sad about Roxanne, but said there was nothing that we could do about is. He said that she was probably dead and even if we looked we would never find her body. I think that he is wrong. He said that he was going to call the school to a meeting tonight. I have to go to it know. I have a bad feeling at what might happen...

Dec. 11 Dear Journal,

I can't believe what Dumbledore did! He put a memory charm on the whole school! Okay so I guess I better start from the beginning. We went into the Hall. Dumbledore got up and started to talk. I could see he had his wand behind him. My earring fell out and I bent down to pick it up. While I was bent down a flash went off while I had my eyes closed. When I sat up and opened them Dumbledore started to explain the course of the last several days. At first I was puzzled but then I realized that the flash had been a memory charm, a very powerful memory charm.

Now the whole school is totally oblivious to what happened, and I must pretend I don't know anything. The Christmas ball is coming up. My dress is almost finished. I just have to finish sewing the pearls on. James told me not to make any jewelry, because he is going to make it for me. I will just have to wait and see. It is going to be really sad not having Roxanne with us for the ball. I must pretended that I know that she went home because she didn't like how the teachers where teaching. I don't think that she is dead. The Dark Lord must have had some purpose to kidnap her other wise he would have killed her.

Something is wrong with Dumbledore. He isn't acting like he use to. Something's changed; I don't like it. I noticed it when he got back from 'it' I will referee to what happened as 'it'. It doesn't take that long to write. Anyway Dumbledore isn't allowing anyone to see him now. He stays locked in his office. Something is definitely wrong! I am going to go study with my study group now. We want to finish all our work a.s.a.p, so that we can work on our dresses.

Dec. 20 Dear Journal,

We are now officially in Christmas break. Just five more days until the ball! James has been acting quite suspicious. I wonder what he is up to. Lila has been hanging out with him a lot. I swear is I didn't know any better I would swear that girl was a sex demon. I told her to stay away from James, and this is what she said:

I am not going to listen to you! You probably think that I'm a sex demon. It is none of your business what I do. You are probably going to accuse me that I am going to sleep with every boy in the school. It is none of your business if I do. And there is nothing that you can to stop me from hanging out with James!

I swear that girl is so rude! But I think that there is a hidden message. Lilac would know if there was a spell to find out or not. I think I'm going to go ask her. If I find out anything I'll let you know!

Dec. 24 Dear Journal,

There is a spell! But it takes a long time to learn. Lilac is teaching it to me. The ball's tomorrow, I can't wait to go to it. My study group is going to use the Prefects bathroom, since we all are Prefects; we think that we will be in there all day. We are going to start off by talking really, really, long baths. Then we are going to give each other manicures and pedicures, and we are going to enchant them so they don't wear off and the sparkle and shin like crazy. Then we are going to change. Now we estimate that this will take until lunch, we told the house elves to bring the lunch here, Dumbledore Okayed it. Then after lunch we are going to start on each other's hair. That is going to take a really long time considering we don't know what to do. When we finally finish with our hair we are going to enchant it. I don't know about the other girls but I am going to put sparkles in. then we will finally change into our gorgeous dresses. We will finish be doing makeup. Of course we will enchant the makeup.

My dress is really pretty. It is green, of course; the top is plain and simple, and actually the only thing on the top is the pearl-drop trim. The straps are really pretty. Four separate chains from the top. The skirts fabric is pulled up to, oh how should I put this (?), the side-back (it's all I can think of to describe it) with the ivory doves. There is pearl-drop trim at the bottom. I have jewels sewn onto the skirt, along with the pearls. The shoes show a little bit when I walk. I have to go to bed; I need my 'beauty sleep'.

Dec. 25 Dear Journal,

Merry Christmas! It is morning, so I have a little bit of time to write. Here is a list of everything I got:

James- green cloak (I gave him a scarlet one)

Lilac- diamond earrings (I did the same)

Sirius- gold scarf

Remus- green/gold cap

Mom- gold dress

Dad- an owl

Petunia- the Lord of the Rings book set (it's her favorite, she's been trying to get me to read it forever)

Narcissa- gold earrings (I gave her silver)

Simone- gold-emerald earrings (I gave her silver-sapphire earrings)

Rose- gold-ruby necklace (I gave her a gold-black diamond necklace)

I have to go now, otherwise my friends will be mad at me. I will give you full detail of the ball tomorrow.

Dec. 26 Dear Journal,

The ball was great! Everyone had bright colors on. James had a tuxedo with little gemstones on it! He was so cute. When I reached him he handed me a box. He lead me pass the Great Hall, and into the rose garden. He took me over to a bench and sat down. When we were sitting down he had me open the box. Inside was a gorgeous, crystal necklace with matching earring. I started to cry, and he held me close. He wanted mw to wear them, but I said the first time I wear them I want it to be special. He said that the ball was special. I told him I wanted it to be more special that just a school ball.

When we headed inside we saw Lilac and Kurt heading outside. We waved and continued on our way. We danced for a long time. We finally decided to get something to eat. When we walked over to the food table Narcissa and Lucius were there. The boy started to shot daggers at each other then when they saw us hugging they calmed down. They actually got along quit nicely. When we had gotten something to eat we stepped out into the garden again.

We had been in the garden no more that five minutes when a fight broke out inside. We rushed in. it was between two seventh-years. Not wanting to use magic inside the school they went down to lake. James and I stayed behind, well sort of. We went down to where the brooms were kept and got James's broom. We got on and he took off. We went high into the air and began to circle the fight. Fortunately it was dark and no one saw us. After the fight was broken up, James flew over to the other side of the lake.

When we got there, he led me over to a rock and had me sit down. He proposed to me! Actually he gave me a promise ring. I accepted. We flew back to the ball and saw that another fight had broken up. We watched this one because it was between teaches! It was really scary at first. When they pulled out their wands everyone fled outside. We watched from out there. Dumbledore came out and when he saw what was going on her stunned the teachers. When he revived them he took them to his office. The ball continued after that, but when it was time for the 'magical' boat ride, the adrenalin started to pump. Each couple shared a boat with another couple; we shared ours with Lilac and Kurt, so there would be enough room for everybody.

When the boats started to go they just glided along the water. Then they started to lift. They went higher and higher until we were soaring into the sky. We flew over London. Then we went over Ireland. We went over the world it seemed. When we got back, the sun was just rising. We were all tired and went to bed. Thank goodness we have another week off! I am still tired and am going to bed right now! I can't wait to see what they do next year!

Jan. 6 Dear Journal,

Classes started again today. Everyone was really disappointed. I have almost learned the spell that Lilac is teaching me. James has been acting really weird. I think he is regretting proposing to me. Oh well, I think I will ask him. It is a good thing that it is only promise ring. Just a minute someone is coming...

It was a letter from Narcissa. This is very important so I will copy it down.

Dear Lily,

Oh Lily! Please come as quickly as you can! I'm so depressed; words cannot describe how I feel. I just caught that American slut having sex with my, my boyfriend! I swear that I will kill her when I get my hands on her! Also she has slept with Simone's, Rose's, and Roxanne's boyfriends. Be careful Lily, she is probably after yours to!

I have to go and help her know, but I have to find James first. I will let you know what happens...

Jan. 10 Dear Journal,

I have been with my friends since one o'clock yesterday. It has been twenty-four hours since I got any sleep. I didn't find James. All my friends are still in tears, except Lilac. They finally fell asleep. I know that the minute that I fall asleep, they will wake up. I'm kind of worried about James. I learned the spell; so I think I'm going to do it know. First I am going to copy it down again...

I am not going to listen to you! You probably think that I'm a sex demon. It is none of your business what I do. You are probably going to accuse me that I am going to sleep with every boy in the school. It is none of your business if I do. And there is nothing that you can to stop me from hanging out with James!

Okay here goes something... ah here it is...

I am not going to listen to you! You probably think that I'm a sex demon. It is none of your business what I do. You are probably going to accuse me that I am going to sleep with every boy in the school. It is none of your business if I do. And there is nothing that you can to stop me from hanging out with James!

Oh my god! Look at what is says in bold! It says 'I am a sex demon. I am going to sleep with every boy in the school, and there is nothing you can do to stop me!' I have to tell Dumbledore! He will know what to do!

Jan. 11 Dear Journal,

James confessed something disturbing, correction, very, very, very disturbing. He told me that he slept with Lila the night of the ball. He says he didn't know what happened, he just woke up and she was in bed with him. I couldn't help myself when I burst into tears. I cried and cried and cried. When I finally got my self-control back I told him what I had found out. He was shocked when he found out.

Then Sirius and Remus burst in on us. They turned red when they saw us and got ready to leave. James went with them. When he came back he told me what they had said. The same thing happened to them that happened to James! This has gone to far, we are going to Dumbledore right now!

Jan. 14 Dear Journal,

Dumbledore refused to see us! Something is definitely wrong with him! I wonder what it is? Maybe a demon has possessed him! That would be weird! I am going to spy on him; I will take you along so I can write everything I see! I'll start tomorrow I need some sleep...

Jan. 15 Dear Journal,

I am watching Dumbledore right now. He is doing nothing very interesting. Don't ask me where I am, I don't even know! So, so, so bored! Waite... something is happening in the flames! It is a face! A face in the fire! Dumbledore is getting up... there talking!

"I'm pleased Sean, my little demon... you have done well."

"Thank you my lord, this human is quite useful. No one expects a thing. This whole school will soon be mine! Then I will give it to you, and you can use it to take over the world!"

"Very good. Now Sean, the minute someone finds out who you are, you will be banished from this world, so be careful!"

"Yes my lord, I will!"

Okay so I guess I know how to get rid of him. I better go try to get him away. It will probably take a day or two, but I am ready to do anything to get Dumbledore back. He is such a sweet old man; I hope that he will be okay!

Jan. 23 Dear Journal,

It worked! Dumbledore is free! He has been Sean captive since the beginning if the year! That is why the whole school was allowed to do 'it'. I know that sounds weird, but it the only way I know how to put it. I knew something was wrong!

Lila has been thrown out of school! I am so, so, so, so happy! Now she won't out my friends in danger! Everyone was really glad to see her gone! I am... well you know how I fell! Happy! The Valentine ball is coming up. I am going to wear my gold dress and green cloak! I am so happy!

Feb. 23 Dear Journal,

I know I haven't written in a while, okay it's been over a month since I've written! Nothing has happened! But now something has! James is missing! He was playing Quidditch and he disappeared! Just like that! The whole school is looking! My friends have been looking after me.

Even in all the confusion, Sirius still managed to get in a fight with Snape! They soon got in a fistfight! Sirius was accusing Snape of making James disappear! Soon all the boys were fighting, and then the girls started in to! My group hurried away! Then the teachers got involved! Now everyone, including the teachers have detention! My friends are the only ones who don't! I am going to go look for James now I hope he is okay...

Feb. 25 Dear Journal,

We found James! He had been lost in the forest! He didn't even know how he got there! I must say that even I don't have any idea how he could have gotten there! Last night I saw Lucius and Narcissa going into the Astronomy tower! I know what that means! I wish James would take me up there sometime. He doesn't think that it would be right! And here his best friends have been going up there for years! Why won't he go? Am I asking too much of him? How could I be? Most people start to go up there when they are in fifth year! And here I am in sixth year and I haven't been up there once! I wonder if something happened up there to him? How could it? Unless he went with another girl! But hoe could he have? He was only dating that other girl for a few days! I must ask him!

This is a very weird feeling. This has come on very suddenly. I am bored really bored. I think I am going to sleep, sleep is nice! How could I be sleepy! I just woke up a few minutes ago! I am tiered, it almost unnatural. I am just so tired...

Dear journal,

You won't believe it! Okay, well maybe you will, but still! The whole school has been under a sleeping spell! All of our valuables have been stolen; well at least the ones people were wearing. All my presents and valuables are in a secret compartment in the bottom of my trunk. No one knows it is there! I have to go see if anything of James was stolen...

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