Helplessly, Hopelessly, Recklessly

I can stand with the weight of the world
On my shoulders
I can fight with the toughest of the tough
I can laugh in the face
Of all my insecurities
Anytime, anywhere, anything
I'm strong enough

I amble through the corridors, my best friend at my side. He is rambling aimlessly, and about you nonetheless. I try simply to nod and grin but really I wish he would just shut up. Hasn't he realized that you loathe him? The icy glares you're always directing at him, the way you tense with anger each time he even speaks to you. I certainly notice... and I notice that they melt when you glance from him to me. A small blush even creeps onto your cheeks. But that is wishful thinking. It must be wishful thinking.

But when you're holding me like this
I'm carelessly lost in your touch
I'm completely defenseless
Baby, it's almost too much
I'm helplessly, hopelessly, recklessly
Falling in love

After cornering you many times in the halls, I've finally managed to convince you to join us for a round of Butterbeers. James spent nearly three hours thanking me and I tried desperately to wave it off. He doesn't know that I've invited you along for my own pleasure. He'll never know that I fancy you just as much as he does. He can't know. Because what kind of best friend would I be then? My thoughts are interrupted when I see you smiling at me across the table. I feel a strange sensation in my stomach at the very sight of your grin and so I give you one in return, despite the horrid feeling that it's wrong. But it can't be wrong to simply smile at you... that could never be wrong.

So let consequence do what it will to us
I don't care
Let the stars stand as witness to it all
Say the word and tonight I will follow you anywhere
I just can't pretend anymore
I'm too sturdy to fall

Your small body pressed to mine is almost enough to make me feel lightheaded, but you add to it by claiming my lips with yours. You taste of chocolate and smell of lavender and I know that not a day in my life will go by when I won't long for those two things. I try to savor the moment, pushing thoughts of him to the back of my head. But how can I so eagerly forget my best friend? My best friend who told me only last night that he was hopelessly in love with you. But kissing you could not possibly be wrong, not when it feels so wonderfully right.

But when you're holding me like this
I'm carelessly lost in your touch
I'm completely defenseless
Baby, it's almost too much
I'm helplessly, hopelessly, recklessly
Falling in love

You're dozing quietly in my arms, and it's remarkable how angelic you look. I brush my hand against your soft cheek, but you don't stir. My shattered heart pains in my chest, hurting more for every moment I stare at you. It's my fault, of course. My fault that we've been restricted to hurried kisses while no one is looking and rare nights like these, when you have to be gone before the sun even comes up. I ended it with you, in a desperate attempt to make things right again. And so you turned to James, and before long he had proposed to you. Except, you and I realized too late that we could never be without each other. All it took was one kiss and we had rekindled whatever it was that we shared. This time, however, things were truly hopeless. You were engaged to my best friend and to tell him... would destroy him. To tell him would ruin a lifelong friendship. And not even for you, my love, would I do that.

I am not afraid
I am not afraid

I still can't believe that this has happened. Not to you. The woman who filled my world with so much life and love. You can't possibly be dead. But you are, and I should know. I sit in this cell paying for your death. They believe I betrayed you, and oh, they are so right. I did betray you, Lily darling. I let you marry him, I let you go, and I let you live a lie with someone you did not love. I tried so hard to be the strong one and I know you hated me for it. Did you hate me forever, my precious flower? Did you hate me as you died? Does it even matter anymore? You are gone and I will sit here alone until the day that I die. It is my penance, and I accept it.

'Cause when you're holding me like this
I'm carelessly lost in your touch
I'm completely defenseless
Baby, it's almost too much
I'm helplessly, hopelessly, recklessly
Falling...

He looks so much like James that it hurts. It forces buried memories to bubble to the surface and they scorch me from the inside. But it's all very well that he looks like James, because if he looked like you... I know I wouldn't be able to bare it. Just don't look him in the eyes, I tell myself. You live in his eyes, Lily. Eyes that mock me. Eyes that laugh at me and judge me and worst of all... eyes that love me. You once told me that you would love me forever and I curse myself for ever doubting that. You loved me always, up to the moment you died and even now, you love me. I will protect this boy with my life, Lily. Just as I tried to do for you.

Helplessly, hopelessly, recklessly falling

As I fight this woman, wand to wand, I notice nothing of my surroundings. It has been a long time since I've been able to battle it out like this. It makes me feel almost alive. I dodge her curses, laughing out loud and egging her on. I'm playing a dangerous game and I know that with a simple spell, she could end things for me. The thought does not frighten me though, because death means seeing you and that could never be wrong. My mind, clouded with thoughts of you, does not register the need to move. A curse hits me squarely in the chest and my eyes widen with shock. I'm falling now, towards this mysterious archway. Briefly afraid... but why fear death, my love? I will see you soon. The world falls away and I'm left with only one thought. I have never stopped loving you.

I'm helplessly, hopelessly, recklessly
Falling in love