Helplessly, Hopelessly, Recklessly

A/N: Second songfic ever and I love it much more than my first one. Enjoy and review :D

Disclaimer: Characters are Rowling's and the song is Helplessly, Hopelessly, Recklessly by Jessica Andrews.

I can stand with the weight of the world
On my shoulders
I can fight with the toughest of the tough
I can laugh in the face
Of all my insecurities
Anytime, anywhere, anything
I'm strong enough

I feel my body tense as I spot you, crossing the grounds on your way back from Quidditch practice. Your loud and obnoxious best friend walks along beside you, but I pay him no notice. Unruly black hair blows gently in the warm breeze and I smile when I see you laughing. Books lay forgotten in my lap and the only thought on my mind is how perfect you look when your cheeks are red and your grinning in that way. I feel my breath catch in my throat when you lift your head and your eyes meet with mine. I duck my head, pretending to go back to my book but all the while keeping you in my sight. From the corner of my eye I spot you turning to your friend, nudging him and nodding in my direction. A blush creeps onto my cheeks and I finally manage to look away.

But when you're holding me like this
I'm carelessly lost in your touch
I'm completely defenseless
Baby, it's almost too much
I'm helplessly, hopelessly, recklessly
Falling in love

We grin at each other over our Butterbeers and it makes my heart soar knowing that the two of us share our own joke. But the moment is shattered as your friend lets out a loud, booming laugh. I feel myself twitch in annoyance and I notice that even you cast him a weary look. My thoughts begin to drift and I wonder how I ended up with these ridiculous feelings. I, Lily Evans, who swore that this day would never come. I promised that I would never fall for a boy like you. And yet here I am, my hands shaking and my eyes watching your every gesture and movement.

So let consequence do what it will to us
I don't care
Let the stars stand as witness to it all
Say the word and tonight I will follow you anywhere
I just can't pretend anymore
I'm too sturdy to fall

My chest feels compressed, as if there's a hundred pounds sitting on it. And yet at the same time, I feel like I'm floating and the only thing keeping me grounded is your hand resting so gently on my cheek. As you lean closer, I can feel the anxiousness hanging over you and it comforts me to know that you are as nervous as I am. Finally your chaste lips meet mine and I clench my eyes closed, savoring every precious second that comes with a first kiss. When we finally break apart, you smile tentatively and brush a red lock of hair from my face.

But when you're holding me like this
I'm carelessly lost in your touch
I'm completely defenseless
Baby, it's almost too much
I'm helplessly, hopelessly, recklessly
Falling in love

My back slams into the wall, still kissing you with ever ounce of passion in my body. Your arms encircle my waist and you pull me so tightly against you. And while we're locked in this embrace, nothing seems wrong or dangerous. Everything is safe and right in the world, as long as you're there. You pull back briefly, a mischievous gleam in your eye and a grin on your face. "We could get caught, Lil."

I feel a thrill run through me, the type of thrill you get only when you know you're doing something very bad. "We won't get caught."

I am not afraid
I am not afraid

Bundled under the covers, you looking down at me while propped up on one elbow. Eyes so full of love that it makes me feel like bursting. You reach down and stroke my cheek gently and I see a look of hurt flash only briefly across your face. "I love you, Lil." I hear you mumble, trying to keep the sadness from your voice.

"And I love you. Don't be sad, my darling. Please?" I stare up at you with a pleading look, but I know I haven't made you feel any better.

"I'll always love you. Tell me you'll always love me, Lily. Even after you're his."

"Always."

'Cause when you're holding me like this
I'm carelessly lost in your touch
I'm completely defenseless
Baby, it's almost too much
I'm helplessly, hopelessly, recklessly
Falling...

I glance at you over his shoulder as you stand there, looking so perfect and yet so sad. No one else notices. The pain in your eyes. The pain in mine. I feel like the world is spinning out of control and it won't stop and I wonder how I'm stopping myself from screaming. And it kills me that it could all have been stopped if I hadn't of been so stupid. So stupid and greedy and now I'm hurting you in a way that can never be repaired. I tear my eyes away and realize that he is looking at me expectantly, waiting for me to utter those two words and seal it all forever.

One final glance at you, my love, and then it is done. "I do."

Helplessly, hopelessly, recklessly falling

My baby cries in his crib behind me and my death stares me in the face in front. Downstairs my husband is dead and you are not here. I know I won't live through this night and I know how utterly insane it is for me to be spending my final moments alive thinking of the love that I lost. The one that got away. The one I couldn't live without. But eventually I did, I had no choice. You wouldn't hurt James anymore and so, you wouldn't see me. You left me and I cursed you every night. I cursed you because you had proven to be the strong one. I cursed you because you could live without me. I cursed you simply because you had shown that I was weak. But I curse you no more, Sirius Black. I die with only one thought for you. I will always love you.

I'm helplessly, hopelessly, recklessly
Falling in love