Memoirs of a Dragon Lover

Memoirs of a Dragon Lover

Chapter Six - The End

"This is kind of about you,

This is kind of about me,

We just kind of lost our way,

But we were looking to be free.

But one day we'll float,

Take life as it comes." - P.J Harvey "We Float"

I sit here a lot. In the garden of Sirius' house, he's looking after me now, although I don't know why. It's beautiful here, the dappled shade of the trees is cool. It seems so strange to me to be sitting here, writing this. It seems so strange that I have only just recovered. To me, it seems like an aeon has passed, taking with it all of the things that had once meant so much to me. I've lost so much, everyone has. Was it worth it? You tell me. Would I go through it again? Yes, yes I would. If only to feel the love Draco gave to me for a few moments of my life.

I sometimes think of the past. Of the happy times when we were all together, everyone that is, and I didn't have to think of the deaths of people I loved, even if I didn't know right then that I loved them. Pavarti, Lavender, Seamus, Remus, Hagrid. They all helped me. They all deserved to be loved, and to live. Not to fall into the darkness. But things happen for a reason, as I've always told myself. Life is a blank page, and it is up to us to draw the lines upon that page, but sometimes, our hand is held for us and we have no control over what we draw. I'd like to think, that whoever held my hand through the past years knew what he was on about, and things happened for a reason. I'd like to think that life is a game. Sometimes you win, sometimes you lose, sometimes you break even. I'd like to think these things, but who really knows? Who knows what the future holds, or what the present may bring? Sometimes, I think that I might like to. Other times I know it's better that I don't.

The world is somewhat more peaceful now, although it will never be the same as it was. Never will people be able to feel safe after dark. Never will they let their children play, away from their watchful eyes. No, it will never be the same again. No one will be able to look into the past and not feel a gut wrenching sense of loss. They are saying that this time is a new beginning for us all, and I'd like to think that that is true but I can't. The past holds too much of a sway over the future. You can't rub away those lines that you draw. So I'll sit here, in the shade of Sirius' garden, and I'll remember. I'll remember all of the good things. All of the fun, amazing, memorable times with all of those that I loved. That way, they'll live forever, in my memory. And I know that I'll be forever grateful for their sacrifices. For the life they gave so that we could live.

Now, onto Draco. He's gone, and there's nothing that I can do about that, but I'm not alone. Whenever I look at the pinpoint of light that is Venus, I know that I'll never be alone. Because a love like ours, can't ever die. It started before time, the kind of Love we had. It was the love of Adam and Lilith, of Guenevere and Lancelot, of Romeo and Juliet, and all of the other loves that were written in the stars but could never be. It was a passion that had no boundaries, no confines, except for what we would allow, and we allowed none. It has transcended the barrier of death, and will continue forever. My hope now lies inside me, to the child that should never have been. She will be a child of passion, of love and of all the things that are right in the world. I know her daddy is looking after us both.