- Rating:
- R
- House:
- The Dark Arts
- Genres:
- Angst Romance
- Era:
- Multiple Eras
- Spoilers:
- Philosopher's Stone Chamber of Secrets Prizoner of Azkaban Goblet of Fire Order of the Phoenix
- Stats:
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Published: 08/29/2003Updated: 09/01/2003Words: 4,726Chapters: 2Hits: 892
Whisper
Lily Evans
- Story Summary:
- Harry has barely been back at Privet Drive after his fifth year at Hogwarts when Voldemort commits his first Muggle murder. However, it's not just random Muggles. More scar pain-induced vomiting, a memorial service, and consoling. Will be H/Hr. Rated R for later chapters.
Chapter 01
- Posted:
- 08/29/2003
- Hits:
- 616
- Author's Note:
- Wheeeeeeeeee. This is like, my first attempt at an angst fic, I think. But sometimes it usually turns out to be somewhat fluffy. ;[ Oh well.
Chapter One: The Worst Nightmare
Another long summer. Hopefully, it would be better than the last, due to what Mad-Eye and Tonks were going on about when we were standing there between platforms nine and ten. There were no guarantees, though; Voldemort was back, meaning all hell would break loose over the wizarding world. More likely so in the Muggle world, though; he always chose Muggles as his first victims. Thought they were fun to kill. It probably would not be long until the first Muggle death, seeing as how that he was out and all, he could draw as much attention to himself as he wanted. That's just what happened, too.
--------------------------------"POTTER!" called the voice of his angry uncle Vernon from the bottom of the stairs. "GET DOWN HERE, NOW!"
Harry imagined that Uncle Vernon's face was the colour of ripe plums, steaming out of the ears with his eyes popping. The vision was somewhat alarming, especially the whole eye popping bit, but the steam out of the ears part made him snicker faintly as he pulled on a shirt and walked out of the smallest bedroom of Number Four, Privet Drive. He treaded down the stairs, emeralds looking bluntly at the round man before coming to a halt on the last step. "You rang?"
"Boy, you need to eat something. If you go back to that... that school skin and bones they'll think I've malnourished you and then I'll be hauled in to Social Services," his uncle growled, chins wobbling as he spoke.
Well, if anyone needs to not eat, it's you and Dudley, he thought scornfully, feeling somewhat disgusted at the way Uncle Vernon jiggled while he walked. It was unhealthy, really. "I'm not hungry, Uncle Vernon," Harry said dully, turning around and beginning to head back to his room.
"Boy, that's the third time you've told me today, not to mention how many times you've told me in the past few weeks! If you don't eat anything soon you'll starve to death." He didn't look like he would be mourning if Harry starved to death, though. Actually, when he said that, Harry could have sworn he saw a slight twinkle to Vernon's eyes. "I'm not finished with you yet, don't you dare go in that room, you ungrateful little wretch! We give you the clothes on your back, the food off our table and what do you do? You disobey us and don't listen to a thing we ever sa---"
"I disobey you? Since when?" Harry snapped, his temper flaring. "I'm basically your slave whenever I am around, doing your yard work, cleaning the loos, the kitchen, the rest of the bloody house, and you're saying I disobey you?" He glared daggers at Uncle Vernon. "You have it made, you know that? Sitting in your little suburban house with your quaint little family and all you worry about is if you can water your lawn or wash your car. You have no idea what it's like to be me! You haven't got an infamous Dark wizard on your tail, wanting to kill you! You've not got a great scar on your forehead that made you instantly famous all over the United Kingdom! You have a family! Where all I have is a cousin that beats me up, an uncle that screeches at me all the time, and an aunt who could care less that her sister and brother-in-law were murdered! Oh, and the family who takes care of me doesn't give a damn about whether I live or die." He took a deep breath, face flushed pink with anger. "So next time, think before you talk to me." Harry stomped into his bedroom and slammed the door, leaving Uncle Vernon standing at the bottom of the stairs, looking a bit confused and angry all at once.
He flung himself onto his bed, staring at the few letters that had been sent to him over what had been possibly the worst summer of Harry's life, which was saying something. At least this summer, Dumbledore had found a new way to protect owl post so it could not be read when intercepted. So Harry had a bit of an understanding of what was going on in the wizarding world. A yawn split his lips as he stared at the latest letter he had received, this one from Hermione, asking him if he could come and stay at her house sometime in the next two weeks; Ron was coming next weekend, which, coincidentally, happened to be his birthday weekend. Harry highly doubted he could go, though. The Dursleys hated everything dealing with Hogwarts and the wizarding world in general. Harry thought it would be best to ask his aunt and uncle once Vernon was no longer angry with him from their latest shouting match.
The truth was, Harry had not been very hungry over the past few weeks. He was going through the mourning process very badly, still stuck in the depression stage and wishing he could move on to acceptance. Worst of all, Dumbledore was planning on holding a memorial service for Sirius, and he, Harry, would not be able to attend, unless Tonks came and plucked him out of Number Four for a day. Then he would probably be returned to Hell for another few days' torture before Hermione's parents pulled up and rescued him from it. His eyes trailed over to the calendar, and with a shock, he realized that the next morning was Sirius's memorial service. With a sigh, he rolled over and pressed his face into his pillow, fighting the howl of agony that was urging to force its way out of his mouth. Harry fell into a restless sleep, much like all of the rest of his nights, and when he woke up the next morning, he didn't remember his dream. All he knew was that his scar was hurting him much like it did when Mr. Weasley was attacked by Voldemort's snake, Nagini.. Only worse.
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"Harry? Are you in there?" the voice of Nymphadora Tonks called through the bathroom door, where Harry had been holed up for the past hour, retching every so often from the pain, which would seize him in intervals, making him vomit. Whatever had happened, Voldemort was happy, because he felt the leaping sensation in his stomach every time he'd throw up.
"Tonks?" He could hardly believe his ears. His lips split into the first real grin he'd worn in two weeks and he flushed the toilet, remembering to spray a bit of Lysol before flinging the door open. His grin faltered at the solemn expression on his godfather's cousin's face. "What's up?" he said slowly, dreading what she had to say.
"He... he attacked.... He killed Hermione's parents."
"He what?" Harry said incredulously, eyeing Tonks with sheer disbelief. Voldemort could not have attacked Hermione's parents, he didn't know about Hermione... did he?
Don't you remember? He does know about Hermione, said a nasty little voice in his head. Remember Quirrell? And you can't forget when she met Malfoy's dad in Flourish and Blotts... He winced, realizing that Voldemort probably knew full and well about Hermione.
"Yeah... he killed them in the early morning today," she said weakly. "Good thing Hermione's at the Burrow, right?" Her eyes were glistening as if she were about to cry.
As Tonks said something about early morning, his head filled with images from the dream he had experienced that very same morning. Leaning against the wall, he closed his eyes and paid attention to them.
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Harry was standing in front of a nicely sized house in a suburban neighborhood, surveying the surroundings. There was a wooden fence surrounding the backyard, with very faint blue colours flickering off the wood, making Harry think that there was most likely a pool in the backyard. He was surrounded by about seven or eight people, all wearing the same get-up: black robes and cloaks, all hooded, with masks covering their facial features. They were murmuring vindictively amongst themselves.
"Silence!" said Harry, in a voice that was very unlike his own; it was then that he realized he was in Voldemort's mind. He could have sworn that Voldemort knew, for he felt as if the Dark wizard was smirking. "We don't want to alert the girl, or her family."
The neighborhood was pitch black, because one of the Death Eaters had brought along a Put-Outer and extinguished all the streetlights. The only source of light around was the moon and the stars.
"Yes, My Lord," they all muttered together, much like a child being told off by its mother or father.
"Now, come," said Harry, and trailed noiselessly up the front lawn, making his way up the porch and using the Alohomora charm upon the front door so he could get inside the house. "Kill the girl's parents. I will deal with her." Two Death Eaters made their way up the stairs, going into the bedroom at the far end of the hall. Harry paused by the first door up the stairs, which he knew, for some reason, was the bedroom of the girl whose parents were at the end of the hall.
A woman screamed, being roused from her night's sleep and finding two men all in black standing at the end of her bed; the man beside her grabbed a baseball bat he had stored beside his bed and jumped out from under the covers, shouting, "What the bloody hell are you doing in my house?!" They were silenced, however, as Harry heard two voices hiss the Killing curse at the same time. The rushing sound of death, magnified by two, filled his ears, and the whole top floor lit up with green light.
With a feeling of immense dread, Harry knew that whoever's parents they were, were now dead. However, he began laughing, an awful, cold, high-pitched laugh, and pushed the door of the bedroom he was standing at open. Striding in there, he realized that no one was in the bed. "Damnit!" he hissed, destroying the girl's dresser out of anger. "She's not here!"
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Harry had to rush to the toilet, retching once more as the memory of the dream subsided. Voldemort had been planning on killing Hermione. Voldemort had been planning on killing Hermione. Harry was horrified and a wave of pitying grief washed over him at the thought of how Hermione must be feeling now.
"I... I remembered," he rasped, looking up at Tonks once the heaves had subsided. "He was angry that Hermione wasn't there..." But now Harry knew he was laughing up a storm, due to the leaping sensation that Harry was constantly feeling in his abdomen. "But now he's happy..."
Tonks watched him, a tear sliding down her cheek as she crossed to the bathroom sink to fill a paper cup with water for Harry. Giving him a hand to help him up, she gave him the water, which he downed in one gulp. Then, without warning, Harry felt Tonks's arms around him as he was pulled into a hug. He awkwardly hugged her back.
"But.. That's not why I've come. I've come to pick you up for Sirius's memorial service. I've already had to tell your aunt and uncle off for not letting me pass, but once they saw I had my wand they let me by." She smiled weakly.
A fresh wave of grief washed over Harry at the mention of Sirius. He fought the wail of sadness attempting to force its way out of his throat and let go of Tonks, stepping back and clearing his throat. "Well," he said hoarsely, "I'll go get my stuff, then."
"Harry..." she trailed off, not wanting to say what she had to next. "You can't leave Privet Drive until next week. Dumbledore's orders. I'm sorry, I can't do anything about it. You know I would rush you off to Grimmauld Place first thing if I could, but there's no way I can." She added the last few statements at the look of anger on his face.
He scowled at her and stormed into his room without a word, slamming the door shut and grabbing random clothing from his trunk. When he was finally finished getting dressed, he had on a pair of black slacks, one of his white school shirts, his Gryffindor tie, and his cloak. His temper has faded a bit by the time he opened the door and looked at Tonks, who was holding a black tie in her hands.
"It would be better if you wore this instead of that," she said gingerly, handing him the tie and frowning at him; her eyes were red-rimmed and it looked as if she were fighting off tears.
Harry nodded mutely, loosening the scarlet-and-gold tie and removing it. He adeptly fixed the black one around his neck and looked at himself in the mirror; he could not help smiling at his image. "I look like I'm going to a job interview," he told Tonks, who smiled back.
The two of them bypassed the Dursleys on their way out of the house, all of which were looking very frightened or angry, or, in Vernon's case, both. Tonks gave the three of them a fake smile and led Harry out the door, where a small, dark blue Mini Cooper with a few scratches and dings on the hood; you could tell she had rented it just for this purpose.
They got into the car, where Tonks spent a few minutes trying to figure out how to adjust her mirrors, and headed off, straight to London.
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Harry and Tonks went to the Leaky Cauldron, where they traveled by Floo Powder to The Three Broomsticks. Sirius's memorial service was being held at Hogwarts; it was the place he loved to be at most, so Dumbledore thought it was only fitting it be held there. The two of them walked solemnly through Hogsmeade towards Hogwarts, which loomed in front of them like a haunted palace. In a way, it was a haunted palace. What with all the ghosts and.. Well you know. Anyways, they passed through the front gates and saw a party of people standing far off by the lake, all wearing black and looking rather solemnly towards the man standing away from them, wearing dark grey robes with stars embroidered on them and a hat that matched, covering the top of his long, white hair. It was Albus Dumbledore.
Harry had been walking along with his head bowed, staring at the ground, and was nearly knocked off his feet when someone ran headfirst into him, their arms wrapped tightly around him and their bushy, brown hair next to his face.
"Hey, Hermione," he said hoarsely, pushing her gently away for a moment to look at her. Her eyes were puffy and red-rimmed; her nose was rosy, and her cheeks had dried salt streaks on them. Immediately he placed a kiss on her forehead, much like any other friend would have done if Voldemort had killed their friend's parents. "I'm sorry."
She nodded, staying quiet, and did something she had never done before: he felt her fingers entwine with his and raised his brows, but said nothing. He slowly slid his hand from hers, wrapping his arm around her waist instead. She leaned her head on his arm and sighed, walking with him back to the group of people.
"Since we are all here now," said Dumbledore softly, though all the people could hear him. "Let us commence with the service.
"The man we are gathered here today to honor was a wonderful man. He was one of the few people in his family who didn't turn to the Dark Side or favor it. The first time I truly met him was when he was in his second year, and Sirius and his best friend, James --" he paused, looking at Harry, who determinedly stared at the lake. "-- Had gotten in trouble for blowing up a toilet."
Harry could have sworn he heard Fred or George whisper, "I knew someone had to have done it before us!" He also heard Mrs. Weasley hush them.
"He was a very clever young man, though a bit.. wild, I daresay. I could stand here for hours and tell you about all the times he visited my office, but that's not what we are here for. We're here to remember the good things about him.
"Sirius was named godfather to Harry when he was born, and after his best friends passed on, he attempted to be a godfather to him, but was accused of being a traitor and sent to Azkaban.
"Once he escaped, three years ago, he set out to clear his name, and nearly did so -- if only Peter Pettigrew had not escaped. If Pettigrew hadn't escaped, we might not be standing here today."
Harry could feel anger boiling up inside him at Wormtail, but more overwhelming was the urge to cry, to let it all out, and to fall to the ground and sob for days on end. He settled for just walking away from the service, his face pale and set as he walked over to the beech tree under which his father, Sirius, Remus, and Pettigrew had sat so many years ago. He pulled his knees up to his chest, his forehead resting on the tops of them; the contact of his forehead to his knee made the sharp twinge in his scar increase a bit, to where he winced -- just barely, though. So when he felt a hand upon his shoulder, he nearly jumped out of his skin with fright.
"Holy --- " he stopped, looking up and seeing Hermione. " Merlin, you scared me," he said softly, eyes wide.
She produced a small smile and sat down next to him, sliding her arms around him and squeezing lightly. "Now I know how you feel," she said, and burst into tears.
He looked at her, getting a slight sense of déjà vu -- the whole, girl-crying-on-him bit. Only this time, he didn't feel awkward and unknowing what to do. He put his arms around Hermione and gave her a tight hug, kissing the top of her head again and frowning. "I know, 'Mione," he said softly, smoothing a hand over her hair. "I know."