Mylee's Farewell

Mylee´s Farewell

What she´s feeling as she leaves everyone, possibly forever.

I´m sitting here; I can´t go on like this. I can´t drag you all along anymore. I must go one alone. You all may have been here with me, by my side, but you could never go where I went, in my head. I knew what was coming, I didn´t want to believe it, but I knew. I knew we would fail, and what I would have to do if we did. And I also knew that you all could never help me. I had to do this alone.

If I had started to do this alone, by myself, if none of you had been so kind hearted as to want to help me, then who knows, maybe I would´ve succeeded. Maybe I would´ve won, or maybe vanished forever. But, I´ll never know will I? This danger, this unknown fear, I can´t drag any of you into it. It wouldn´t be right. Each of you deserves to live a happy life, and that life cannot be led with me. For I will defeat this, or die trying, and in dying, it will be defeated, because death, like love, conquers all. I love you all, and that is why you cannot go with me.

Draco, don´t blame yourself, I know you are, remember you can hide what you´re feeling from everyone but me, we grew up together. Remember all the good times we had together, like in the cornfield, on our birthdays, and when we would just sit around the fire place and listen to stories. Remember those times, and you will never forget me, as I will never forget you. And Draco, I hope that as time goes by, you will find someone you can open up to, for, you never lose by loving, you only loose by holding back.

Harry, stay just the way you are, I´m sure someone will come around who is right for you, and will understand you like I never could. Thank you for all you´ve done for me. We´re alike you and I, both distant, yet we have friends who would do anything for us. I know you know why I´m doing this, and possibly you could explain it to everyone else, better than I can, that I´m doing this out of love for them.

Alexiana, don´t cry, I know you are. Please don´t be upset, or scared. Your safe, you always will be. You can overcome anything you set your mind to. Don´t fear, but if you must, use that fear, for out of fear comes strength. Remember, it´s a dangerous business, going out your door, and if you don´t keep your feet, you never know where you´ll be swept off to.

Hermione, you´re brilliant, and helpful, possibly, you saved us all. Don´t feel you failed in saving me. I´ve known for quite some time that it would come to this, I just wished it wouldn´t be so soon. For I have grown quite fond of our friendship, your like a sister to me, always setting me straight, lifting me up when I fall, giving me strength. Stay optimistic Hermione, and stay involved, continue to speak your mind, because our lives begin and end the day we become silent about things that matter.

Ron, dearest Ron, you where a light when I thought all hope was lost. Your optimism and good humor got me through some of my darkest hours. You taught me, that the best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen, but must be felt with the heart. I will remember what you taught me forever. And please do this one thing for me; tell Hermione, you know of what I speak. For I want you to be happy. Happiness is the meaning and the purpose of life, the whole aim and end of human existence.

Blake, what can I say to you, what I feel for you cannot be expressed in mere words. I love you, I always have and I always will, don´t mourn for me, because I will never be truly gone. I will always be with you, because as I promised, I will never leave you. They say a person needs just three things to be truly happy in this world, someone to love, something to do, and something to hope for. If that is so, then I am truly happy. I love you, and don´t you ever forget that. And now I´m doing what I was meant to do. And hope, I hope for your safety, that what I am doing, will keep you safe, so that you do not have to face this terror ever again. I love you forever, and remember when you feel all hope is lost, and there is no point in going on, keep your face to the sunshine and you cannot see the shadows, and always remember, that I love you.

Tarillyn, please take care of them. I know you didn´t always like me. But one day, when we meet again, I will have much to thank you for. I know that you knew that I would do this, yet you didn´t force me, you remind me of a very wise headmaster, he always gave you the chance to do things on your own, yet he was always watching for signs of trouble. I´m not sure where my path will take me, but as long as I know, that you are watching over my friends, I will go with an open mind, and a light heart.

Everyone, a muggle, by the name of Marcus Aurelius once said, "To live each day as though ones last, never flustered, never apathetic, never attitudinizing, here is the perfection of character." Remember these words. One of our greatest weaknesses is our lake of faith in ourselves. Keep the faith. And promise me you will never forget me, because if I thought you would, I would never leave.