Goodbye to you

Of all the things I've believed in
I just want to get it over with

"Sirius, this has to end. People will find out, and then what? We'll live our lives apart, humiliated and ashamed that anyone ever found out about us."

Tears form behind my eyes,
But I do not cry

Sirius' eyes filled with tears, but not one spilled over; Sirius never cried. He looked at Remus with shock, but understanding. He knew it had to be done, but he didn't want to listen.

Counting the days that pass me by

He stood there staring into Remus' eyes. The very same eyes that he could get lost in, wondering what was going on behind them. Now they were solid and Sirius knew exactly what he was thinking. They both stood there for what seemed like days until Remus turned around and walked towards the Great Hall. It was time for dinner. He should go; he knew everyone would worry if he didn't, but Sirius didn't care much about anything now. All he cared about was him.

I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing
are starting to get old

"Remus, I know! You've said you were sorry a million times before! I don't care anymore!" Sirius stormed out of the room, leaving a flustered Remus alone in the common room.

It feels like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend
And I said,

"Listen Remus, I have to. I didn't have a girlfriend for three years because of... well... us. I'm surprised people didn't talk. I have to."

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

'It's not my fault,' Sirius told himself over and over again. 'He was the one who ended it. I'm just trying to do the right thing by getting over it. He was the one who said no one had to find out. It's not my fault.'

I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day
without you

Those eyes. They haunted him every day and every night; every waking hour and every second of his dreams. Sirius knew he couldn't do it. He just had to be with him.

Closing my eyes and you chase my
thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it's not right

"Remus, I thought you didn't want people to find out."

"It doesn't matter. All I want is you."

And it hurts to want everything and
Nothing at the same time
I want what's yours
and I want what's mine

The taste. The touch. Sirius wanted it all. He wanted everything, but yet, what if Remus was right? What if someone found out about them? What would happen then? Sirius wanted it, but it could never work.

I want you
But I'm not giving in this time

"No, Remus. You said it yourself, this has to end."

"But, Sir--"

"No, I mean it. This has to end. Permanently."

"But--"

"We can't keep doing this to ourselves," Sirius said, softly. "We both know this is never going to work out." He was the one to walk out of the room this time. Sirius leaned against the frame of the boy's dorm and looked at him one last time, tears welling in his eyes. "I love you," he whispered, then left.

And when the stars fall
I will lie awake

It wasn't that hard. All he had to do was tell his father he wanted to go to Durmstrang and he was transferred. No one asked any questions. No one wanted to know why he was so willing to leave all of his friends, and the only people he had ever known and loved. It was easy. Too easy. Even though he was away from Remus physically, he would never be mentally. Every full moon, he thought about him. Every waking moment. It was killing him inside, but they both said it themselves, no one could ever find out.

You're my shooting star