Rating:
PG-13
House:
Astronomy Tower
Characters:
Harry Potter Remus Lupin
Genres:
Slash Romance
Era:
Multiple Eras
Spoilers:
Philosopher's Stone Chamber of Secrets Prizoner of Azkaban Goblet of Fire Order of the Phoenix
Stats:
Published: 11/08/2004
Updated: 11/08/2004
Words: 1,090
Chapters: 1
Hits: 572

An Obvious Secret

Irana Potter Snape

Story Summary:
Harry's been nursing a secret crush on Remus, and when he comes of age, he decides to find a way to let Remus know.

Posted:
11/08/2004
Hits:
572
Author's Note:
Written for Wish For The Moon’s Challenge #1 - Do You Want To Know A Secret? Light, fluffy and totally spur of the moment.


October 16, 1997

How in Merlin's name shall I bring this up? I mean, really, it's not the easiest thing to say to someone who has taken on the role of your godfather, even if he technically isn't my godfather. For all that, he's not even my guardian. But that doesn't make this any easier now does it? Bloody hell. Ron's right, I am mad. I can't just walk up to him and say it. That would go well. "Professor Lupin, Remus, I just thought you should know that I think you're bloody hot and would really like to shag you." Right. Like he'd even be interested in a kid like me. Whatever possessed me to tell Ron?

October 19, 1997

I still haven't said anything. I thought maybe I could bring it up in conversation one day after class, but I couldn't do it. Some bloody hero I am; can't even tell someone I fancy him. I just keep thinking he's sure to think I'm barmy, fancying someone who went to school with my father, someone old enough to be my dad. And of course, Ron just had to point that out, like I hadn't thought about it already. I can't believe I'm even writing about this. But I have to talk about this somehow, and it's plain I can't talk to Ron. He just doesn't understand.

October 20, 1997

Hermione caught me staring at him today. I'm sure she's got some clue as to what I'm feeling, and I know she wants to ask question, so I've been sort of hiding from her. I just can't talk to anyone else about this right now. I wish Sirius were here, although I probably wouldn't be able to tell him either. I'm almost certain they were...well, involved. Maybe it's a good thing he's not here. I don't think he'd care for this too much.

October 23, 1997

Hermione cornered me today after class. I thought I'd been doing better at hiding what I was feeling, but apparently not from her. I wonder if that means he knows? Well, 'Mione does, and she says she'll help. She's brilliant, I'm sure she'll come up with something.

October 24, 1997

I was wrong. Hermione isn't as brilliant as I thought. She told me just to tell him. Right. And just how do I do that? I never thought I'd say this, but Snape's right. Fame isn't everything.

October 27, 1997

The Halloween Ball will be here soon. I haven't asked anyone. Hermione is still after me to tell the professor how I feel. She even went so far as to research whether relationships between students and professors were forbidden. Apparently, they're not and she took great delight in telling me that as long as both parties are of age, it didn't matter. He just can't grade my assignments and exams.

The worst part is, I'm beginning to think Hermione might be right. Maybe I should just tell him how I feel. Everything I can think of outside of that is so incredibly juvenile, and despite being 16, I'm not a child. I never have been really. So I can't act like a child, and just going up and talking to him isn't something a child would do. Not like sending him unsigned notes and such. Of course, even if I did that, he's seen my handwriting enough to know it's mine. So perhaps I should just...well, tell him.

Then again, maybe not.

October 31, 1997 11:30pm

The Ball was okay I reckon. The feast was marvelous as always. But the Ball I could have done without I think. I got bored, but that might be because I didn't really want to be there. I'm feeling pretty good though. I think it was whatever made it into the punch. No idea what it was, but I'm feeling pretty good. Remus left the party early. Well, before me anyway. Maybe I'll go talk to him now. Yeah...I think I will.

November 1, 1997 4:15am

Wow. That was...just wow. That went so much better than I expected. I'm knackered now, but I'll write about it later. I want to remember this forever.

November 2, 1997 11:43am

Haven't seen Remus at all yet. He did owl me though, and I'll be seeing him tonight. We're going for dinner in Hogsmeade. I can't believe it's only been a day or so. Not even a day and a half really.

Would you believe he knew? He knew how I felt all this time and was just waiting on me to say something. All this time wasted! I mean, I knew all about the enhanced sense and whatnot, it just never occurred to me...I didn't think he'd know. I was so worried about making sure I was doing a good job hiding how I felt, it never occurred to me he'd be able to tell no matter what I did simply by smelling me. I was sure I was hiding it well. But he knew I was worried about him knowing too, yet another reason he said nothing.

So when I went to see him night before last--yesterday morning honestly--he was just waiting. He answered the door so quickly I had no time to change my mind. Said he smelled me coming. I can feel the stupid grin that gave me crawl over my face as I write this. Anyway, I went in, and we talked for a while before he finally asked me why I'd come to see him. And I just kind of blurted it out and then shut my eyes because I didn't really want to see his reaction. I just knew it wouldn't be a good one.

Of course, I thought I had died when he asked if he could kiss me. He said he'd been waiting until I was ready, and that he reckoned me blurting out that I was half in love with him, coming to see him just so I could do that, told him that I was. I nodded, and he kissed me. It was brilliant. So different from kissing Cho. Or any girl for that matter.

We cuddled for a while, and kissed some more, and talked until early in the morning. Or late since it was around four when I got here yesterday. And tonight we're having dinner! I'm not telling anyone about this yet, not even Hermione. I want to see how tonight goes.

I just realized, this is the longest entry yet. I guess I must be happy.