Sunrise

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As I look into your eyes I see the sunrise
The light behind your face helps me realise

I'm sitting here, in a carriage on the Hogwarts Express with my best friends. All I can do is watch you. I watch him touch you and kiss you and laugh with you. As if you can sense my stare, you look up from his face, at me. I watch your eyes focus on mine. But as I look in deeper, I see the sunrise. Your eyes just do that. They're so deep and they're so understanding. The light behind your face helps me realise that I still have a life left to live. I've suffered so much. I've lost so much. You seem to understand that. Your eyes do. At least there's something I haven't lost. That I pray I'll never lose. The sunrise in your eyes.

Will we sleep and sometimes love until the moon shines
Maybe the next time I'll be yours and maybe you'll be mine

You thought I was asleep. You thought I wouldn't mind. Yeah, right. He looks at me now. He thought I was asleep too. Thought he'd have you all to himself. I shudder when I think about that. Then she comes in. I shudder again, but only you seem to see. He seems relieved when she comes up and snakes her arms around my waist. He seems relieved when she pulls me into a deep kiss. Deep from the point of anyone watching, but it means nothing to me. Her eyes are closed tight, but mine are wide open. I can see over her shoulder. I can see you. You make me hungry. You make me kiss her even harder, only because I'm trying to imagine that she's you. But she never can be. You look away now. You turn to him and touch him. I'm watching him pull you close and whisper in your ear. I'm watching you smile at his words. Your eyes seem to light up more than ever when you laugh. In your face I see the sunrise. I wish you were mine. I wish that your sunrise was mine. But it isn't.

I don't know if it's even in your mind at all
It could be me
At this moment in time
Is it in your mind at all
It should be me, it could be me
Forever

Do you want me? I watch you. You look at me again. Your eyes still have that sunrise. Even if your tongue is halfway down his throat at the same time. Maybe that's why you're kissing him so fiercely. Maybe you're imagining he's me. But maybe you're not. Maybe you just don't love me. But I do. I love you more than anything. She curls up in my arms. But she feels cold. Like a stranger. You're no stranger. The sunrise in your eyes is the feeling I know better than any other in the world. You look away again. You always seem to do that. Do I frighten you? I never want to scare you. I want to hold you. The way I hold her. Except that it would be different. I know what you feel like when you're in my arms. You hug me when I needed comfort. No words could ever have comforted me, only your touch. Except I want so much more than that. When you're in my arms, I feel so warm. I feel so loved. I want that feeling. I want to touch you. Touch you where even he hasn't. I want you. I want your sunrise.

Wandering through life will love come home to you
And the love you want forever, will they be true to you

I tear my eyes away from you. I look around the compartment. I look at her. She smiles at me. She doesn't have that sunrise. I try to, I really do, but I can't smile back. I look at you again. His hands are down your shirt. I shudder. But I watch you still. You draw away from him. You look at me. He takes you in his arms, the way I'm holding her. I except I wish I were holding you. And I wish that you wished that to. From where you sit, you can see me completely. His eyes flutter closed. There's nothing to stop you now. And you do. You watch me. Your eyes search mine. You look for something. I can't help but think you're looking for my sunrise. I've already found yours. It didn't take me long. You do nothing but watch me. I do nothing but watch you. We're starting our seventh year. In a few months time, we'll be out in the real world. Everyone's expecting me to settle down with her. Everyone's expecting you to settle down with him. "Hogwarts' Two Best Couples" will live happily ever after. They're made for each other. Why can't they see that I'm made for you? Maybe that would work if you were made for me. I know that you can be made from me, if you wanted to. I can't help that think that when we part at the end of the year, I'll wander through life. Everyone will think love has come to me, through her. But I'll still be looking for love. Even though I know I have to look no further than the sunrise in your eyes.

Will we sleep and sometimes love until the moon shines
Maybe the next time I'll be yours and maybe you'll be mine

He stirs, causing you to move in his arms. But you still watch me. There's something in your eyes. Other than the sunrise. I can see it. You look more beautiful. Like your eyes are drawing me in to you. I could gaze into them forever. Suddenly, I understand. I'm always slower than you to understand. Your eyes seemed to understand the first time they locked with mine. But now I understand too. Do I show that in my eyes the way that you do? Do you see the sunrise in my eyes? You're standing up now. Making excuses about needing to check the other carriages. You are Head Girl after all. As I watch you, I realise how perfect you are. I sit here in silence. She sleeps in my arms. It's time. I gently put her down on the seat. She smiles in her sleep. I wish I could smile back. I try, I really do, but I can't when I know that there's the sunrise in your eyes, waiting for me. He's asleep too. Quietly, I slide open the compartment door and step out onto the corridor. I can see you now. I can always see you.

I don't know if it's even in your mind at all
It could be me
At this moment in time
Love's indescribable
It should be me, it could be me
Forever

I approach you. You take a step towards me. Your hand fumbles for mine, and you pull me into an empty compartment. For a minute, we just stand there staring. Staring into each other's eyes. You'd think I'd get tired of staring at the sunrise, but that never seems to happen. Your eyes are doing that again. Drawing me in. Slowly I take your soft cheek in my hand. I've never touched anyone so gently. Its like you're the most important thing in the world. I need to protect you, but I need to feel you too. Now it comes. That moment where our lips draw in closer together. When they meet, I must be in heaven. Slowly my tongue plays along your smooth lips. Gently you open your mouth. My tongue explores wildly until I meet yours. Then I deepen the kiss. And you deepen it too. Its like we're one, never meant to be apart. Delicately you pull away, still staring into my eyes. Then you speak. "You know, I knew you wanted this. I could tell as I looked into your eyes." That is enough for me. I kiss you again, with even more passion than before. You respond, your tongue tenderly touching mine. My hands are running down you back, and slowly reach up your shirt. Caressing your beautiful skin. I pull away this time, and stare into your eyes, as if for approval. Your eyes tell me all I need to know. The sunrise can always tell me all I need to know.

Easy, ready, willing, over time
Where does it stop where do you dare me to draw the line
You've got the body now you want my soul
Don't even think about it say no go

It all happens quickly after that. We're lying, entangled, on the floor, the gentle bump of the tracks beneath us. I'm watching you again. Somehow you look even more beautiful with your clothes strewn around the compartment, lying there with the soft sunlight shining on your body. Your eyes flutter open. They stare into mine. I know it now. We're staring at each other's sunrise. I can tell what you want to say to me. Your eyes say it all. But you tell me anyway. And those words seem to set your feelings into stone. "I love you, Harry. I always have and I always will." My heart is bursting with passion right now. I return your words. "Hermione, you know I have always loved you. I know you can see it in my eyes. And I if you ever doubt that love, you have no further to look than my eyes." Slowly you nod, a dreamy smile on your face. And I try to return that smile, I really do. And, somehow, it seems right to smile at the sunrise. My face breaks into a smile too. Our whole faces show the sunrise, they always will.

We're getting dressed now. It seems a shame to cover up all that beautiful skin, I think. But then I look into your eyes. The set expression tells me. You have to tell Ron, I have to tell Ginny. As we leave the compartment, you give me a reassuring smile. A smile that shows the sunrise. A smile that gives me all the confidence in the world. They don't take it too well. But what can you expect?

I'm smiling now again. I'm watching you walk towards me, arm in arm with Mr Granger. Everyone standing around us is smiling too. But all I see is you. And when we both say those two words - "I do" - all I see is your sunrise. And all you see is mine.

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