Whispers in the Wind

My Immortal

A lone man was walking in a graveyard. He was carrying a letter. His hood was up, but as he knelt near a small statue of a shaggy dog he let it fall. He had dark circles under his eyes and his already prematurely gray hair had turned even more so. He let a few tears fall onto the crinkled up parchment, he cleared his throat shakily and began to read.

I'm so tired of being here

Suppressed by all my childish fears

And if you have to leave

I wish that you would just leave

Because your presence still lingers here

And it won't leave me alone

"Why? Why did you have to leave me here all alone? Could you have just stayed a little longer, even if it was only to say good-bye? What could I have done to you to make you stay with me? It hurts so much... It's like someone is stabbing me with a knife in the heart over and over again. You were always the one for a good prank, please let this be another one. Maybe if I go back and lift the veil... Would you be therlaughing that we made such a fuss? I know you didn't mean to make me sad, but you did and I hate you for it. How could you leave me, when I just found you? Everywhere I go I see your face laughing, smiling, and being anything but your name. Everywhere I look your there, you and Prongs, and Lily of course just smiling at each other. Why couldn't I be there to?"

These wounds won't seem to heal

This pain is just too real

There's just to much that time cannot erase

"I've lost everyone except for Harry now. Why didn't we see this coming? We were always so happy, it was like a dream. Then we all woke up. James and Lily were killed, Sirius you were imprisoned in a nightmare. e were betrayed. I don't know if the haunted look in my eyes will ever leave me. We thought we were invincible, we weren't. I had the best years of my life with you Sirius. I loved you like a brother. I'm tempted to end it all and reunite with my lifelong friends. End the war inside of me, to feel nothing. I can't do it though. I have to be strong for Harry. I swear I will protect him and be there for him like you never got to be. Sirius, why did you have to leave us? I'm the last true Marauder now. You should have seen the first feast of Harry's sixth year. They turned Snape into a Grim, and decorated the school with posters reading Prince Padfoot. I think it's Harry's way of coping... You would be so proud of him. He's just like you and James sometimes..."

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears

When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears

And I've held your hand through all of these years

But you still have all of me

"Do you remember after Harry's fourth year when you stayed with me? You woke up screaming and crying from nightmares. I remember just holding you, wiping away the tears, and cradling you like you were the most precious thing in the world to me. Guess what? You were. When you died Sirius, you took me with you; I don't think I would have emotion if it weren't for Harry. He really is a hero, Sirius, you'd be proud of how he handles everything life throws at him. Another thing, he told me something, his patronus, it's changed, it's you Padfoot, it's you... He got a snake this summer, guess what he named it, he named it Sirius. Don't be offended; it's red and gold, I promise. I don't know why I'm doing this, or if you can even hear me... I don't know what I'm supposed to do anymore Padfoot. Help me; show me the way..."

You used to captivate me

By your resonating light

But now I'm bound by the life you left behind

Your voice it chased away all of the sanity in me

"Since you left, I have to be strong. The war is progressing; there is no time to grieve only to fight. I fight with the memory of what could have been, I fight for you, and for the future, and for the past... Everyone expects me to be strong, to fight and think nothing of it. You were always happy, why couldn't I have the gift to walk into a room and make everyone smile? I don't feel anything but grief or anger and anymore..."

These wounds won't seem to heal <

This pain is just too real

There's just to much that time cannot erase

"Sirius, I know your happy and in a better place, but I'm not. I'm in a torn world of sadness and emptiness. Being alone is leaving me with scars. No one can see them but myself. I'm scarred now, so scarred... I can't do this much longer, I want to surrender, I want to give up, but I can't..."

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears

When you'd scream I'd fig away all of your fears

And I've held your hand through all of these years

But you still have all of me

"I remember the days when it was the Marauders; our motto is mocking me now; together forever... I see that memory and feel like laughing, I often do. But it's a cold, harsh and bitter laugh. I rarely ever laugh a laugh that comes from my heart. The only one with the power to do that is Harry. He and I have grown quite close; I will protect him that I promise. Sirius, come back to us, come back to me, I don't know how much longer I can hold it in. I'm going to break, and no one will be able to hold me together."

I've tried so hard to tell mysethat you're gone

And though you're still with me

I've been alone all along

"I keep reminding myself that you're gone and won't come back. It's just no use though. Your spirit is with me and when it's too much for me, I remember you. You are the one that is keeping me alive, and feeling. Now that you're gone I realize something and ask... Was I always meant to love and lose, to be alone?"

I've been alone all along...

"Goodbye Sirius, my brother, I will always love and remember you..." With that the man bowed his head and left the letter. As he walked away he thought he heard a whisper on the wind, I love you too Moony, goodbye...