Unheard Messages

Harry~

I know you can't hear me, but I can hear you, I can see you, and I need you to hear what I'm about to say some way, somehow. I pray this message will get to you someday. It is not your fault. I know you think it is, but it isn't. The Order and I should have told you what was going on, but we didn't. You thought I was in trouble and came to help me. I can't blame you for that. As a matter of fact, I'm rather proud of you for it. I just wish things hadn't turned out this way....

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Sirius~

Why am I trying to talk to you? I know you can't hear me...but I'm sorry. So, so sorry. I've put so many people through so much pain. I led my friend and the closest thing I had to a father into unnecessary danger and now you're...you're dead. I killed you. I killed you, Sirius. You will never get to joke around and laugh again. You'll never have the satisfaction of getting your name cleared and finally get to relax a bit. You'll never get to travel the world, see and do the things you couldn't do while you were locked away in Azkaban, or stuck at Grimmauld Place. You'll never get to do any of those things, and it's all my fault. I'm so sorry....

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....Please Harry, please realize it's not your fault. Move on. Be happy. Live your life. I only wish I could be there to watch you live it. But don't worry about me. I'm fine. I'm with Lily and James now...they're both so proud of you, Harry, and they send their love. You deserve a chance to enjoy yourself more than anyone else does...so please Harry, move on, it's all right...

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....It hurts Sirius. Bloody hell, it hurts. I can't believe you're gone. It seems like only yesterday when you were walking (as Padfoot of course) with Tonks and me to Platform 9 ¾ without a care in the world. I remember wishing everyday could be so carefree...not only for you, but for all of us. But now that seems impossible. I can't go on without you; I can't defeat Voldemort. I just can't. I miss you too much. I haven't slept or eaten in days. I don't deserve sleep. Sometimes I think I'd be better off dead. Then I could see you and my parents again...I know you'd want me to be happy, but I just can't. I miss you Sirius, and I'm so sorry.

Love,

Harry

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....It's hurting me too, and I miss you more than you could imagine, Harry, but we both need to move on. It may not seem like it's possible right now, but things will get better. I promise. Always remember that Moony and the Weasleys are there for you. They love you too. I'm always here for you also, inside you. You can always talk to me. I'm just sorry I can't be there for you physically.

Love,

Sirius