Breathe

"Breathe"

I'm all right

I'm all right

I only hurt when I breathe

I'm all right

I'm all right

I only hurt when I breathe

-"Breathe" Greenwheel

(In Ginny's POV)

Why did you leave? Why did you leave me alone? I know you had a good reason. But you never told me. You left with no note, no word to anyone. Did you care about the way I felt? Did you know that I cared for you so much? I am lost without you right now. Where are you? Why aren't you here when I need you the most? Do you not care about me? Do you not care about us?

I don't know why I am asking these questions. I already know the answers. The answers weren't what I wanted to hear. You are gone now, up there in the stars. I sometimes wonder if you are ever looking down on me, wishing I were up there with you. I sometimes wish I could have told you how I really felt. I wish that I could have one more day with you.

I could have never told you how I felt because of the life I lived. At that time, I was dating Harry Potter, your archenemy. I would hold his hand, wishing it were yours. And you would be dating Blaise Zabini, and you would tell me how much that you wished that I were her. I wish that we would have those nights when we went to the Astronomy Tower and talk all night long. I wish we could go back to those days.

I never got that chance to be with you for real. We would always talk about it, but nothing ever happened. We were unlikely and against our families wishes. I always wondered what would have happened if I just dumped Harry. I always wondered what would happen when you dump Blaise.

Then I suddenly remember that night before you left to go into the real world. You left me here at this school, alone, wondering how you were. You would occasionally write me letters, but it wouldn't be that same as you being there. I would cry myself to sleep sometimes.

Then, I got married to Harry, even though my life belonged to you. Standing at the wedding alter, wanting to scream my lungs out, but I couldn't. My voice was trapped inside of me. I spoke so softly, wishing I could take back my vows. I wished that I never said, "I do."

But then, we had a divorce. I knew that it wouldn't work out between Harry and I. I up and left him, wishing that I could run back into your arms. It has been so long since I have last seen you. I picked up all my bags and Apparated to your house. But you weren't there. Instead there was a note, addressed to whom ever read it first. I dropped my bags and ran to it. After reading it, I cried. The first tears I cried since you last left me. You again left me.

I ran to the closet and opened the door. There you were, lying there, dead. You have been there for a few hours and I came too late. I dropped to your body and began to cry again. I never felt so bad before. I knew I should've broken it off with Harry and run away with you. I didn't have enough strength. But now I do.

I need to hold you more than anything. It hurts, but I am all right. I am slowly learning from my mistakes. I still live in your house. I still look at your picture every night, wishing I could hold you. But I never could. I'm all right, but it only hurts when I breathe. It only hurts because I love you Draco Malfoy.