Facade

Facade

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Nobody really gives a damn about me. Not really anyway. I would kill just to have one person care about me. Somebody who really takes the time to get to know me. The real me. Not the artificial bimbo people think I am.

Heh. That'll be the day. All I am to anybody is a good fuck. Maybe not even good. An easy fuck. Some bitch who will screw anything that walks by.

Sadly, in a way I know it's true. The only way people notice me is if I fuck them. This is the way it is and I've grown to accept that. I don't really like that it has to be this way, but so be it. Whatever works. I'm the fucking Slytherin slut.

Do you know how many times I've been awaken by some horny fuck? Just to give you a little idea, it happens almost every night. I don't turn them away though. I never turn them away...

Maybe I should though. Maybe that's what's scaring him away. Maybe it's intimidating.

If I could just...if I could just get Draco. I don't mean like that though. I've fucked him before. But, I want more than that. I want Draco to love me. Like I love him. I would give up my nightly flings in a heartbeat if he just paid attention to me. Even just a little. I don't think that's asking very much, is it?

Am I that hideous? I don't think I am. I know I'm not the prettiest, but I believe that I'm decent. I know I'm not ugly because people willingly have sex with me, and I don't think it's because of my personality. Or do they just not care about what I look like? Are people just that sex crazed, that they would do someone they felt wasn't very good looking?

I don't want it to be like with him. All about sex. I want Draco to know me. I know him. I watch him all the time. He doesn't know it, but I do. I see him when he's talking to friends. When he's flirting with a younger Slytherin or occasionally a Ravenclaw. Even when he's sitting in his favorite chair by the fireplace. I love watching him like that. He always has this look of concentration on his face, whether he's reading or doing homework. Or, even if he's just sitting there thinking. It seems so personal when I see him like that. He's real. It's a time when he's really himself and he's not trying to impress anyone. Although he is. He always impresses me.

He's so beautiful. Just like his name implies. It fits him well. There's just something so magical about dragons. Their beauty and power scream, "Look at me!" They are gorgeous creatures and they know it. Just like Draco.

God I love Draco.

I don't know if maybe it's just wishful thinking, but I hope, one day he will feel the same way about me.

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