A Little Walk in the Moonlight

A little walk in the moonlight

Some things must remain forever

In the mists of the dreams we have

Where they remain untouched and perfect

For as long as they are cherished in our memory

Today, that mist whirls endlessly

Every time your name resounds in my mind

Just like a bird, landing on a lake

Would silently disrupt the stillness of the morning fog

I was not expecting your presence there, Remus

But I have lived my life too intensely

To forget that existence's spiciest moments

Are made of unexpected pleasures

How could I not be touched by your soul

When you let me feel the way it vibrates

When you let me see a bit of all you have seen

And made my essence vibrate in return?

Yet the wall will remain closed between our two worlds

Just like Muggles are kept away from Diagon Alley

A pureblood witch in a forced and unhappy marriage

Cannot ever set her eyes on you without faking disgust

Now my mind wanders in secret places

As my feet glide on the surface of the lake

There, as nothing is forbidden nor judged

I dance that one last dance, setting my thoughts free

Changing the course of time, I return and pause

To a moment in which I do not have to turn my head away from your kiss

Wishing so strongly that I could look straight forward

And keep you so close that I would feel your heartbeat against my chest

As no urge of mine is to be resisted from now on

One by one, I roll the overused buttons between my fingers

Slide your robes past your shoulders, down your arms

Book covers only tell one part of the tale after all...

Carried away, I close my eyes and open my heart

I run my fingertips softly, slowly

Across these little pieces of your story

That curse and fate, with the passing years, have engraved into your skin

Like a blind woman, still seeing so many things

I read words that cannot be pronounced

And yet scream a pain that has been felt

Deeply in flesh, much deeper in spirit

My tears fall in silence, like raindrops on water

As I press my lips against these remains of your past and present

And I whisper secrets that are known to myself only

In hope to soothe the pain and shorten the scars

Oh, so many things could have been

As I could have shared your life in thousands of manners

Yet fate, just as my heart, have decided altogether

To smile widely at what can, and will, be

So many things are ephemeral in this world, Remus

Consumed quickly, barely tasted, and forgotten even quicker

I do not want us to end that way, you see

Feeling bitter and disappointed of ourselves

I still have so many things to learn

You have already taught me a lesson of courage

When you, standing straight in all kinds of storms for so long

Have never stopped believing that the sun must be shining somewhere

Me, an invisible witch to those around her, strong yet so fragile

Dancing gracefully as death walks behind me, sleeps in my bed

And you, sweetest, bravest of all souls in whose eyes I saw my reflection at last

Smiling wider as you look in death's eyes, for you have known suffering

I shall stand by you, from far away

As you keep walking towards the sun

All you have to do is feel my presence close to you

For it will be there as long as you wish for it

As for the thoughts that have been set free

I do not wish them to die or fade away

Enough Occlumency flows in my veins

For me to jealously protect them from harm

They are the only thing I truly own, after all

And they will not be lost, even if mist might cover them

They will remain forever in that strange moment

That lies between morning and day

Sliding above a lake that is dear to my heart

A lake that has no name, no beginning, no end

Where a bird comes to rest from time to time

And is welcome to spread its wings and feel at home

Author's note:

I hope you enjoyed that little bit of poetry! Your reviews/comments/encouragements are always appreciated! :o)