- Rating:
- PG
- House:
- Astronomy Tower
- Ships:
- Hermione Granger/Severus Snape
- Characters:
- Harry Potter Hermione Granger Ron Weasley Severus Snape
- Genres:
- Romance Friendship
- Era:
- Harry and Classmates Post-Hogwarts
- Spoilers:
- Deadly Hallows (Through Ch. 36)
- Stats:
-
Published: 09/02/2010Updated: 10/02/2010Words: 21,958Chapters: 7Hits: 2,145
Sometimes That's What It Takes
SwissMiss
- Story Summary:
- Hermione despairs of Snape ever wanting her for anything more than running his errands. Until his unhinged physical therapist hits her with an untraceable curse and she ends up literally on cloud nine. SS/HG. Complete.
Chapter 07
- Posted:
- 10/02/2010
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- 269
Chapter 7
I was dozing, halfway
between sleep and waking, thinking about the Professor, trying to
recall as many of our interactions as possible. In case there were no
more. He'd had me down to his basement laboratory on several
occasions, but I remembered one particular time: I was bringing him a
crate of empty vials because his supply was running low. There was a
full cauldron of some potion or other, ready to be decanted, and
another one at a delicate stage which needed his full attention. I
quietly took care of the finished potion, and got it ready for
delivery; then stood to the side, watching him work.
Looking
back, I couldn't remember all the details, but what I did remember
was a feeling of calm and belonging, as if I had been invited into
one of his most private moments. That might sound odd: given that
he'd been the Potions master at Hogwarts for many years, one wouldn't
necessarily think of his making potions as a private thing. But in
retrospect, I couldn't recall a single instance of him actually
preparing a potion in front of the class. He had demonstrated
individual steps, such as how to crush beetle eyes properly, or using
the twelve points of a clock to map out a stirring pattern. But the
actual act of brewing seemed to be something sacred, a priestly
ritual reserved only for the eyes of the initiated. And there I was,
watching him, being allowed to act as a sort of acolyte.
I'd
had the feeling he was very aware of my presence as well, and that it
didn't irritate him. Quite the opposite: I had the impression he was
-- well, trying to impress me might be taking things a bit too far.
It wasn't that he was showing off, either. More like he wanted me to
think well of him.
When he was finished with the second
potion, he came over to see what I'd done with the first. After
ascertaining that all the vials were filled to exactly the same
level, and all the seals made perfectly, he nodded and caught my eye
and pronounced the job 'adequate'. My heart fluttered, as that
seemingly underwhelming word carried a note of acknowledgment which
warmed me more than any O in his classes would have done. As if he
was saying I was all right, I could be a part of his life. Maybe I
was reading too much into it. It was likely all nothing more than
wishful thinking.
I wanted him to think of me as a part of
his life, though, as much as he was a large part of mine. I looked
forward to every visit, with both anxiety and excitement. Every time
our eyes met, there was a crackling of possibility, of questioning,
that passed between us. Or had I only imagined it? Was I as deluded
as poor Susan Bones?
And then air was rushing past me,
pummelling my body, and there was something thick and warm wrapped
around my head, over my face, and I couldn't breathe. At first, I
half thought this was nothing more than a dream, and tried to wake
up, when I realised what was happening: I was falling.
I
clawed at the Thermal Blanket, which had got twisted up with my cloak
and was now throttling me mercilessly in the blast of air. In my
panic to get my nose and mouth free, I nearly discarded the broom I
was still clutching in one hand. It was a good thing my survival
instinct remained vigilant even as my mind had wandered. In the nick
of time, I remembered what I was holding the broom for, and I tried
to shove it down between my legs, fighting against the pressure of
the atmosphere coming at me at a hundred and twenty miles an hour.
After what seemed like forever, but must only have been a few
seconds, the blanket flew free, and my breath was slammed out of me a
second time as the full impact of the wind hit me in the face. At the
same time, my field of vision now cleared, I registered that the
houses below me were no longer dark spots between the foliage, but
actual, three-dimensional shapes, separated by perpendicular strips
lined with lights and dotted with moving cars. I'd barely had time to
realise I was approaching said houses and cars at an alarming rate
when I noticed I was already below the level of some of the higher
buildings around me; if I'd been a couple of streets farther to the
left, I could have hit one.
Acting more out of reflex than
skill, I managed to get one leg on either side of the broom and pull
up, hard. The bottom dropped out of my stomach as my trajectory
adjusted from straight down to horizontal. My foot skimmed the top of
one of the trees lining the street, and I nearly did a roll-over
avoiding a second one. Whose idea was it to plant trees in the middle
of a city anyway? I couldn't gain enough control of the broom to get
out of the way of the traffic sign that suddenly loomed up at me out
of the darkness, however, and I slammed sideways into it, then
bounced off and hit the roof of a parked car. I lost my grip on the
broom and fell off onto the pavement, where I rolled over several
times until my momentum used itself up. I had landed.
I lay
there gasping for a bit, until I realised I was still alive. I'd had
the wind knocked out of me, my hands were scraped pretty badly, and
there was a sharp pain in my right knee, but I could move it. The
rucksack still strapped to my chest, along with my thick cloak, had
done their part to protect me.
I took stock of my
surroundings. It looked like a business district in a derelict part
of some mid-size city. It was still dark, but sunrise couldn't be too
far off. I was lying on the pavement in front of a darkened shopfront
with a peeling 'Closing Down Sale' sign in the window. I couldn't see
any other people around at this early hour. So much the better.
I
pulled myself to my feet. My knee was already swelling, and shaky
when I tried to put weight on it. It didn't seem to be anything too
serious, but I certainly wasn't going to be able to walk anywhere. I
spotted Ron's broom lying a short distance away. I reached into the
inner pocket of my cloak for my wand, and was relieved to find that
it hadn't been dislodged by either my fall or my pathetic excuse for
a landing.
"Accio Broom!" It shot into my
hand, stinging as it hit the cuts on my palm. I certainly wasn't
going to fly it again. I didn't know where I was, and even if I did,
I didn't feel up to sitting on a broom for any lengthy flights. I was
also not sure about Apparating at this point, given the levels of
adrenaline and dopamine pumping through my system.
There was
only one thing for me to do. I sent off a Patronus to both Harry and
Ron, letting them know I was all right and where I was headed, then
hobbled out to the kerb, and stuck my wand out. I didn't have to wait
long. With a sudden whooshing of air and screeching of brakes, a
purple triple-decker bus materialised before me.
The
conductor, a long-faced young man with his cap pulled low over his
eyes, intoned, "Welcome aboard the Knight Bus."
******
It didn't take
long before we arrived in front of the Ministry. I felt measurably
more stable, after a strong shot of hot chocolate and a sticky bun
(made fresh by the conductor's mother, I was told). I'd cleaned up my
hands and healed the scrapes as best I could, and made an attempt to
order my clothes and hair, as much as was possible riding a
conveyance whose driver had never heard of the concept of 'gradual
deceleration'.
During our journey, I considered what might
have precipitated my sudden fall, and came to the conclusion that
Harry and his curse breakers must have cancelled the spell rather
than reversed it, so that instead of being returned to where I
started, I had been simply dropped in mid-air. It was an
understandable error, especially given they hadn't known the initial
incantation to work with. Still, it had been quite a dangerous
gamble, and I meant to give Harry a stern talking-to.
As I
debarked, I saw there was already a welcoming committee standing out
front. Harry and Ron I'd expected, but the sight of the tall,
black-clad Professor hovering uncertainly behind them threw me for
quite a loop. Several possible explanations for his presence shot
through my head, each more distressing than the last: he'd come to
bail Susan out; he was here to press charges against me for failing
to deliver his potions on time; Harry had had to rescue him after
he'd been locked up somewhere by his psychotic P.T.; Harry had
summoned him in order to tell him the whole sordid story, including
the reason the spell had worked on me.
As I was engulfed by
my two best friends hugging me and exclaiming at my miraculous
return, I couldn't take my eyes off Professor Snape. And neither, it
appeared, could he keep his off me. It was as if there were an
invisible cord tying our gazes to each other. There was such an
intensity of emotion in his eyes, but I couldn't tell whether it was
anger, disappointment, or something else.
Harry must have
noticed I wasn't paying much attention to him and Ron, because he
leaned down and whispered in my ear, "He was rather upset when
Susan ended the spell abruptly like that." I was taken aback. So
it hadn't been incompetent Aurors, but a real attempt at getting rid
of me... permanently. I was dying to know why the Professor had been
present at the moment Susan cancelled the spell, and more generally,
where he had been this whole time, but I couldn't ask anything, as
Harry was still speaking: "Nearly killed her with his bare
hands. He was beside himself until we got your Patronus."
I
tried to make sense of what Harry was saying. Surely not that
Professor Snape cared about me? He would react similarly with anyone,
wouldn't he? If Kingsley had been in danger, or Professor
McGonagall... Wouldn't he? I managed to tear my eyes away from the
Professor, who still hadn't moved, to look at Harry.
"What
do you mean?" I whispered.
"He's got it for you,
Hermione," Ron said glumly, from my other side. "Wouldn't
have thought he had it in him. Harry already told him he could go
home, but he won't until he's seen you're safe. His words."
My
eyes returned to the Professor. He looked most displeased. I didn't
think the boys were interpreting things right. They'd never been much
good at emotional stuff, after all. On the other hand, why would
Professor Snape still be standing there, staring at me? I didn't dare
hope; I'd only end up looking like a fool.
"Go on,"
Harry said with a sigh. "You have my blessing." He nudged
me forward.
Half in a daze, I hobbled toward the steps.
Immediately, the Professor's blank expression turned to one of alarm,
and he limped down the steps to meet me halfway. I wished he would
use a cane, but it didn't do any good suggesting it.
"You're
injured!" he exclaimed, reaching out to steady me with his hand
lightly supporting my elbow.
"It's nothing, just a bit
bruised," I assured him. "I had a bit of a rough landing."
I hefted the broom, which I was still carrying. His eyes on me were
hot enough to boil Euphoria Elixir. Didn't he feel that? I
laughed nervously. "Aren't we a pair? My knee, your leg..."
I trailed off, feeling that once again I'd put my foot in my mouth.
True to my fears, he scowled at being reminded of his injury.
But he didn't release my arm. "Was this Potter's idea of a
'contingency plan'?" he demanded in disgust. "Giving you a
broom and wishing you 'happy landings'?"
I was trying to
think of some defence when I realised with horror that there were
stiff, dark stains all down one side of his robes.
"My
God, Professor! You've been hurt!" I tossed the broom down and
grabbed his hand. It was covered with thick, brown streaks: dried
blood. Trying to discover the source of the injury, I pushed his
sleeve up, but he pulled his hand back and shook his sleeve back
down.
"It isn't mine," he said in a flat tone.
"Healer Bones made a dramatic attempt at gaining attention. Due
to Potter's quick actions and despite my overwrought interference,
she did not succeed." Overwrought? The Professor? Because
Susan had got hurt? My stomach was doing all sorts of unpleasant
things.
"Is she all right?" I asked carefully,
trying to read what was behind his words. Was he a concerned lover?
Or an innocent bystander?
"She was alive when I last saw
her. I presume she will make a full recovery."
"That's
good," I said. An awkward silence descended.
"I am
... sorry this happened," he said finally, in a stiff and formal
manner.
"It's not your fault," I rushed to assure
him. "You didn't know anything about it." I paused.
"Right?" I raised my eyes to his, trying not to look too
anxious.
He frowned, probably at my stupidity. "I knew
nothing, Miss Granger. Nothing at all. If I had known... anything...
" I had the distinct feeling there were more layers of meaning
in his words than met the eye. His hand tightened on my elbow. Oh,
yes, it was still there. I wasn't about to complain. "Still, I
admit that I am in some way culpable." His voice was low and
smooth, and I was getting goosebumps.
I started to protest,
but he held his hand up. "If I had had any inkling of Healer
Bones' delusional feelings, I would have ended our association
immediately."
"Your association," I repeated,
dumbly. Did he mean personal or professional?
"Her
engagement as my physical therapist," he clarified, and now I
thought I detected a hint of amusement behind his cold words.
"Of
course. Yes, of course. Obviously," I babbled. "I just
thought... Well, she said some things. I didn't think... but then I
wasn't sure..."
"Miss Granger. Take deep breaths."
I complied. Did I mention I was about to melt under the force
of his eyes?
"As I said," he continued, "whatever
scenario she imagined was entirely fictitious. The only reason I
agreed to allow her to treat me was because I thought it was what
you, and others, wanted."
"I never..." I
protested breathlessly. "I mean, yes, I did think it would be a
good idea, but not--"
"Miss Granger," he
interrupted me again. "I understand completely. However, as a
result of this incident, I have decided to make some changes. For one
thing, my life will no longer be governed by committee. I know that
Minerva, Kingsley, Molly, and others" --here his eye flicked
over to Harry and Ron, who were doing their best to fade into the
background without entirely abandoning me-- "have only acted
according to their conscience and done what they thought was in my
best interest. However, I am a grown man, and I will not be coddled
and cocooned. I am taking charge of my own affairs and excising all
unwanted influence."
My heart sank. That was the end of
our 'association' as well, then. "Yes, sir," I said,
putting on a brave face. "I'm terribly sorry I wasn't able to
deliver your potions yesterday. If you'd allow me, as a last service,
I'd very much like to go to the client and explain what happened--"
The Professor's eyebrows drew down in a dark line of
annoyance. "You will do no such thing. As a last or any other
kind of service. You are not my house-elf." My disappointment
was now getting competition from a rising indignation. Honestly, it
was one thing to want to take charge of his life, quite another to be
so dismissive and rude. "I will be visiting the client myself
this morning," he said. My eye drifted unintentionally to his
stained clothing. "Yes," he remarked with a smirk, "perhaps
I should go home and change first. As should you." I became
suddenly aware of what a fright I must look. And smell. "And
then, Miss Granger..." His Adam's apple bobbed as he swallowed.
Was he... nervous? "I should be honoured if you would join me
for dinner this evening. I believe we have much to discuss."
Now I was confused. "I'm sorry, sir, I... I thought you
didn't want anything to do with any of us any more."
"And
I thought you were supposed to be the clever one," he growled.
"I said I was removing all unwanted influences from my
life. A very... astute friend of yours" --the admission seemed
to pain him-- "suggested that if I had paid you the respect you
were due, this entire fiasco might not have happened." He
inclined his head slightly. "I believe it is time for us to
change the parameters of our interactions. I have taken advantage of
you for far too long."
"Oh no, I was happy to--"
"I realise this." He leaned down and spoke low in
my ear, close enough that the ends of his hair brushed against my
cheek. "But do you not think that perhaps, on a different
footing, a greater happiness might ensue... Miss Granger?"
My
heart stopped. My insides turned to jelly. My brain completely shut
down.
He straightened. "Potter! Weasley!" he
snapped, his terminal scowl firmly in place again. "Do you think
you could see to it that Miss Granger arrives home safely without
sustaining further injury?"
Footsteps approached from
somewhere behind me. "We'll take care of her, Professor," I
heard Harry say through the blood pounding in my ears.
"We
always have," Ron added stoutly, and an arm went around my
waist.
"I will call for you at eight," the
Professor said as he relinquished my arm. I sagged against Ron and
nodded mutely. Without breaking eye contact with me, the Professor
stepped back, then, in a twirl of black robes, disappeared.
"You
okay, Hermione?" Ron asked, giving me a squeeze to see if I was
still responsive.
"What happened?" I said weakly.
"I think we were just witness to someone being swept off
their feet, Ron," Harry said.
Oh. Is that what that
was. Yes. I see. Eight o'clock then. The enormity of what had
just transpired began to hit. My sore knee gave way. I was glad for
Ron's sturdy body supporting me. "Oh God," I moaned.
"What is it?" Ron and Harry both asked together.
I looked from one concerned face to the other and admitted
tremulously, "I haven't a thing to wear."
F--I--N!!