- Rating:
- PG
- House:
- Astronomy Tower
- Ships:
- Hermione Granger/Severus Snape
- Characters:
- Harry Potter Hermione Granger Ron Weasley Severus Snape
- Genres:
- Romance Friendship
- Era:
- Harry and Classmates Post-Hogwarts
- Spoilers:
- Deadly Hallows (Through Ch. 36)
- Stats:
-
Published: 09/02/2010Updated: 10/02/2010Words: 21,958Chapters: 7Hits: 2,145
Sometimes That's What It Takes
SwissMiss
- Story Summary:
- Hermione despairs of Snape ever wanting her for anything more than running his errands. Until his unhinged physical therapist hits her with an untraceable curse and she ends up literally on cloud nine. SS/HG. Complete.
Chapter 05
- Posted:
- 09/21/2010
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- 247
Chapter 5
"I
don't think you understand quite how serious these charges are,
Susan." Harry shook his head and tapped the parchment on the
table in front of him. "We have unprovoked cursing, use of a
non-catalogued spell, reckless endangerment of life and limb--"
"Unprovoked? I should say she provoked me!" Susan
squeaked indignantly.
"Did she have her wand out?"
"N-- Yes! Yes, she did," Susan exclaimed
triumphantly and pointed at Harry. "She had it out and was going
to hex me."
Harry ran a hand over his face. It was after
midnight, and they weren't getting anywhere. He hadn't had any
trouble finding Susan at her flat, nor in bringing her in for
questioning. She had been quite cooperative, in every respect. Except
in agreeing to end the spell she'd cast on Hermione.
"All
right," he sighed. "Let's say, simply for the sake of
argument, that she did."
Susan looked pleased with
herself.
"Whatever threat there may have been is over
now. You're sitting here, safe and sound. Hermione, on the other
hand, is floating on a cloud somewhere over northwest England. She
could potentially fall to her death at any moment." He
conveniently left out the fact that Hermione was in possession of
Ron's broom and would thus most likely be able to survive said
potential fall. Most likely wasn't certainty, however. Plus, he
wanted to turn the screws on Susan's conscience. If she had one.
She remained untouched. In fact, she sniffed derisively and
announced, "She has the power to free herself."
"How?"
Harry nearly shouted, exasperated. "She's tried everything,
we've tried everything we can think of. She can't Apparate, cancel
the spell, or leave the cloud."
Susan tossed her head
and jutted out her chin. "All she has to do is renounce
Severus."
Harry eyed her shrewdly. "Professor
Snape? What does he have to do with this?"
Susan studied
her nails. "If she gives up any claim on him, the enchantment
will end on its own."
"Hermione has no claim on
Professor Snape," Harry said.
Susan looked displeased.
"The spell seems to think she does."
Harry stared
at her. "Let me get this straight. You came up with a spell
which gets rid of anyone who wants Professor Snape?"
Susan
appeared to consider this for a moment. "I don't think that's
entirely accurate; it's something of a cross between the Unwanted
Suitor Charm and the Exile Enchantment. The spell is keyed to me,
though, not to Severus. I had to have some means of removing
potential rivals, you see," she explained matter-of-factly,
warming up now that Harry had stopped asking questions and railing at
her, and was standing there, supporting himself against the table
with one arm, his mouth hanging halfway open in what she took to be
rapt attention. "It will only work on someone who carries a
torch for the same person I do. Which happens to be Severus,"
she said, biting her lip coyly. "I know you understand me,
Harry. After all you've done for him." She looked at Harry so
ingenuously that all he could do was nod.
"I've followed
his story for years," she went on. "I realised right away
he needed someone to take care of him, so I trained as a Healer. I
put my nose to the grindstone and finished the programme in only
three years, but of course by then he was already living at home,
practically a recluse! It's all that Hermione Granger's doing! She's
been keeping him there, not letting him out, keeping him drugged so
he can't think straight. I don't know why someone hasn't done
anything!" She looked accusingly at Harry.
He sat down
slowly, fascinated. He hadn't heard a yarn this good in years. "I
don't know, either," he said, carefully. "But go on."
"Well, I found out there was one other person who went
to his house regularly, and who was allowed to be there alone with
him: Madam Raffles, his physical therapist." Susan's eyes
narrowed. "I saw my only chance was to take her place. So I
spent the last year getting my certification, and as soon as Madam
Raffles was out of the way, I made sure mine was the only application
that would be reviewed."
Harry stirred. "That was
quite a coincidence, wasn't it? Madam Raffles getting sick and
needing to leave the country right then?"
Susan looked
surprised. "Oh, it was no coincidence. St. Mungo's has quite a
collection of viral agents."
Harry paused for a moment.
"What House did you say you were in?"
"Hufflepuff."
Susan cocked her head to one side.
"Riiiiight..."
Harry did not pursue it further. "And so once Madam Raffles was
out of the way, you had your entrée to Professor Snape's
house."
Susan looked pleased that Harry had comprehended
her entire plan. "That's right."
"And along
the way, you came up with this spell... What did you say it was
called?"
Susan looked at him slyly. "Now, I can't
give that away, can I? You'll send the information straight down to
the curse breakers and get them to release Hermione."
"Susan,
you do realise you have to let her go," he said reasonably. "You
can't leave her up there. What happens when the sky clears?"
Susan was unconcerned. "Oh, she'll pop over to the next
cloud bank. I think." She frowned. "I've never actually had
it work on anyone before, although I did try it on Madam Raffles,
before I resorted to the rare diseases research lab. Strange. After
working so closely with Severus for so many months, I don't see how
she couldn't have fallen in love with him."
"The
mind truly boggles."
"Well, I believe we're done
here, then," Susan said brightly, standing up. "Severus and
I had the loveliest time this afternoon, with the influence of that
awful girl removed from our life. I'm sure if you'll explain to her
that she needs to give up her fanciful notion of ever having a chance
with Severus, she can be right as rain and on her way in no time."
She giggled. "Rain. That's funny. Clouds. Do you get it, Harry?"
Harry nodded and stood as well. "Yes, Susan, I'm afraid
I do. And I'm afraid you won't be going anywhere just yet. I'm not
going to charge you officially tonight, not until you've had a chance
to consider the gravity of your situation. I'll have someone bring
you to a holding cell where you can wait until morning. If you change
your mind about reversing the spell, things may go easier for you."
Harry left the building with Susan's infuriated screams
ringing in his ears.
******
I had started
to doze off by the time Ron came back. I don't think I could actually
have fallen asleep; it was too cold for that. I kept poking my wand
alternately into my right boot, then my left one, with a Heating
Charm going, to keep my toes from getting numb. I held the broom with
one hand, balanced across my lap, just in case.
"Harry
not back yet?" Ron asked as he floated in front of me on a
borrowed broom. He had a miner's lamp strapped to his forehead, and
it was glaring into my eyes.
"Could you turn that thing
off?" I asked, cupping my hands over my face. "And no,
Harry hasn't been back yet."
"Here, I've got one of
Mum's Thermal Blankets, a thermos full of hot tea, and some
sandwiches." He shrugged his way out of a bulky rucksack which
was strapped to his back, and held it out to me.
"Thanks."
I tried to balance the rucksack on my lap along with the broom, and
wrest its contents out without anything falling. It wasn't easy.
Getting at the blanket was the first order of business. As soon as I
draped it over my shoulders, its inherent Warming Charm kicked in.
Instant gratification. Next came the sandwiches. After a bit of
fumbling, I managed to separate out one and unwrap it. It smelled
heavenly: egg and cress. I sank my teeth into it, practically shaking
with pleasure. I hadn't realised I was so hungry.
"Here,
pass me one too, will you?"
I paused and stared at him,
unable to speak due to the enormous bite of egg-and-cress in my
mouth. I couldn't believe he was actually asking for one of my
sandwiches. But then I could. When had Ron ever passed up an
opportunity for free food?
"What?" he said,
correctly interpreting the look I was giving him. "Mum must have
packed five or six in there. You're not going to eat them all."
"Maybe not tonight," I said, after I'd finally
swallowed. "What if I'm still here in the morning?"
"I'll
bring you more. Come on, it's hard work flying all over creation and
back, running errands for you."
I had no words. I
silently dug out another sandwich and handed it over.
"Thanks."
He unwrapped it and tucked in. "Wonder what's taking Harry so
long," he said around a mouthful of bread.
"Maybe
he had trouble finding her," I suggested. I wondered if he'd
tried the Professor's house. The thought of the two of them there,
together, alone, holed up for hours, made me feel quite desolate. I
pulled the blanket tighter.
Just then, I saw a light
flickering some distance off. At first I thought it was an aeroplane,
but from the way it bobbed along, I soon realised it must be Harry.
"Hey, Harry," Ron said, as soon as Harry was within
earshot. "Did you find her?"
Harry pulled up and
hovered next to Ron. "I found her," he confirmed as he
turned off his own headlamp. The happy news was not matched by his
expression. I began to get a sinking feeling.
"Don't
tell me," I said. "She won't reverse the spell."
"I
think you're right about her, Hermione. She's loony. Certifiable.
Turns out what she's done to you is probably only the tip of the
iceberg."
An awful, cold ball formed in my stomach. I
could barely bring myself to say it out loud, but I had to know. "She
hasn't... She didn't hurt the Professor, did she?"
Harry
looked startled. "I don't know. Didn't actually think of that."
He rubbed the back of his neck. "She was going on so much about
how she was in love with him" --Ron made a rude noise-- "it
never occurred to me she might have done anything to him, too. You're
right, though, I'd better check it out."
Now I was
getting into a panic. My own predicament meant nothing. I was safe --
yes, I was magically attached to a mass of condensed water, but I had
all my limbs, my wits, and my magic. I didn't even want to imagine
what she might have done to the Professor.
"Harry,
please, go find him now!" I pleaded. "I wouldn't put
anything past her!"
"I will, I promise. But first,
let me tell you what she said. There might be a way for you to get
out of this."
"Harry!" We'd left Professor
Snape in the lurch once, when we could have helped him. We couldn't
do that to him again!
"Listen to him, Hermione,"
Ron said soothingly. "We'll check up on Snape, I promise.
Anyway, if she did off him, there's not much we can do about it now,
is there?"
"And she's being held under
observation," Harry added. "She won't be doing anything to
anyone else for a while at least. Right. She said..." He stuck
his fingers into a pocket of his robes and pulled out a small
notebook, which he consulted. "She wouldn't tell me the
incantation for the spell she cast on you, but she did make it up
herself. Said it was 'a cross between the Unwanted Suitor Charm and
the Exile Enchantment'," he read from his notes. "Does that
mean anything to you?"
I forced myself to turn my
thoughts away from memories of Professor Snape exsanguinating on the
floor of the Shrieking Shack and flipped through my internal index of
spells. "Well, the Exile Enchantment is clear. It's similar to a
Banishing Charm, but sends the target to a real physical location. I
don't know the other one. But I think it's clear what the intent is.
I am the unwanted suitor. There must be more to it than that, though.
Oh, if only I could get to a library!"
"I've got
someone working on it," Harry said reassuringly. "They may
not be as brilliant as you, but I'm certain they'll come up with
something soon. Once we get the spell pinned down, we can take
another crack at cancelling it. In the meantime, though, there might
be another way. Now, don't take this the wrong way, and Ron, please,
keep quiet."
"I haven't said a word!" Ron said
indignantly.
"And I'd like for it to stay that way.
Right. Hermione..." He turned to me with the attitude of someone
having to deliver very unpleasant news. "Susan said the spell is
keyed to her, who she 'carries a torch for', is the way she put it.
It only works on someone who is..." Harry took a breath and,
forcing himself to be as calm and neutral as possible, said, "...in
love with the same person she is."
There was momentary
silence while we all digested that. Well, I knew I was in love with
the Professor. It wasn't much of a revelation to me. The oddness lay
in having it stated so baldly, however; to have it acknowledged like
that in front of both Harry and Ron.
Ron seemed to have got
it by this point, as a groan emanated from his general direction.
"Oh, bloody hell..."
"Ron," Harry said
sternly. "That's not going to help."
"Really?
Did you have to go and fall in love with him?" Ron whinged. "I
thought it was just some..." He waved his sandwich around
helplessly. "... some do-gooder thing, a project, like with the
house-elves."
"He is not a 'project'," I
huffed. "I quite enjoy his company."
Ron's face
screwed up. "You haven't-- I mean, the two of you, you
haven't..." He twirled his finger around in the air
suggestively.
"No! Not that it's any of your business,
but no! He has no idea," I admitted. "And it's going to
stay that way!" I glared at him.
Ron put his hands up in
a gesture of surrender. "Hey, no worries, he won't hear it from
me."
"Hermione," Harry interjected at this
point, "getting back to this spell." He appeared to
consider carefully how he was going to deploy the bombshell. "Susan
said if you would renounce your feelings for him, whatever they
are... you would be released." I could tell he was watching me
for signs of an explosion, but I didn't feel angry. Only drained.
"Harry, I didn't ask for this. Any of this." I
shrugged uncomfortably. "It just happened."
"But
think about it, Hermione," he said gently. "Snape's never
going to change. Chances are, even if he knew how you felt... nothing
would come of it. Is this how you want to live the rest of your life?
Pining over someone you can never have? Someone who wouldn't even be
good for you in the first place?"
I was hurt by his
words, deeply hurt. Although I recognised the truth in them.
"You're still young, Hermione. You can be anything you
want. Maybe it's time to move ahead. You know I'm only saying this
because I love you. If you and Snape made each other happy, that
would be one thing. But as far as I can see, you're miserable over
him, and he couldn't give a rat's arse about anything, not even
himself."
"Listen to him, Hermione," Ron said,
swallowing the last of his sandwich. "The man makes sense."
I couldn't say anything for a moment. The lump in my throat
was too big. If I was to give up on Professor Snape, though, there
was something I needed to know.
"Harry..." I had to
clear my throat, and then asked, quietly, "Do you think... Was
she telling the truth at all? About her and Professor Snape?"
Harry regarded me. I could tell he was weighing how much to
tell me. "I don't know," he said finally. "She said a
lot of crazy things during the interview, but I didn't get the
impression she was lying. She seemed only too pleased with how things
had worked out for her."
"I see," I said,
trying not to let on how much that hurt.
"On the other
hand," Harry said, cocking his head, as if remembering, "I
don't think she actually said she and Snape were 'together', if you
get my meaning. Only that they spent the afternoon together, but then
she was supposed to see him for his therapy session anyway, right?"
"Yes," I agreed, but I wasn't appeased.
"Well,
I'd better get back," Harry said, all business again. "See
if any new developments have come up. And," he added, at my
sharp, pleading look, "I'll check on Snape. I promise."
I
nodded. "Thanks," I managed to whisper.
He reached
over and gave me a one-armed hug. Then Ron did, too, and it was the
three of us again. Something snapped in me, and I started bawling. To
their credit, neither of the boys let go until my sobs had subsided
and I was able to breathe again.
"I'm sorry," I
sniffled, and cleaned my face with a Tergeo. "I know you two are
right. I just... wish it wasn't so hard."
"Buck up,
Hermione, there are loads of blokes out there dying to read books
with you, or listen to you tell them about books you read, or..."
Ron appeared to be grasping for what I might find attractive in a
man. "...read books to you," he finally came up with,
looking quite pleased with himself.
I gave him a watery
smile. "Thanks, Ron. You know me so well."
He
grinned. "You're our girl. You know we'll always look out for
you."
"I know," I said with a sigh.
"Will
you stay with her then, Ron?" Harry asked.
"What--
er, I mean... Yeah, sure," Ron said, clearly not having expected
to.
"Cheers," Harry said. "We'll get you out
of this one way or the other, Hermione; you'll see!" He circled
around, turned on his headlamp, and waved before he dived into the
clouds.
"You don't have to stay, Ron," I said, once
we were alone.
"No, no, it's fine," he said
stoically, hunching up his shoulders against the cold. "I'll
just, you know, sit here. On my broom. You can tell me about a book
you've read." He braced himself.
I laughed. "You
can't sit there all night. You'll fall asleep and fall off. Look,
I'll be fine. I might even be able to get some sleep," I said,
trying to sound cheerful. To demonstrate, I buckled up the rucksack,
strapped it to my chest, and lay down, still holding tightly to the
broom Ron had given me earlier. I had to wrap the blanket tightly
around my legs so it wouldn't hang into the clouds. "Look, all
cosy!" I felt like an overburdened mummy.
"Hermione,
I can't leave you all alone."
I sat up again. "Yes,
you can, Ron. It won't do us any good for you to sit up here,
freezing all night. You know what?" I said with a sudden
inspiration. "You could bring me something. A couple of things,
actually. First, a book." I laughed again as he rolled his eyes
at my predictability. "I know, but it gets pretty boring sitting
here for hours and hours. If you go to my office, I have a stack of
books I've been meaning to read in my bottom drawer. Any one will do.
"And the second thing is, several lengths of cord. I
want to tie these things to me, so I don't have to juggle them all
the time." I indicated the broom, rucksack, and blanket. "I'm
constantly worried I'm going to let something fall, and it will kill
someone down below."
"Sure," Ron said tiredly.
"Anything else?"
"Yes. I don't want to see you
back here before eight a.m.," I said in my most bossy tone.
I
could tell Ron was torn between loyalty to me and his warm bed.
"I
mean it! You go home now and get some sleep. I'll be fine."
"If you're sure..."
"Positive.
Honestly, I'd only worry if you stay," I said firmly.
"Harry'll kill me."
"He'll have to go
through me first. And anyway, I'm sure this won't last much longer.
Either Susan will snap, or Harry's people will figure out how to
reverse the spell. I'll probably be back home before you are."
Truthfully, I wasn't at all confident of either scenario, but I
didn't see any other way to assuage Ron's sense of duty. And I wanted
to be alone. I needed to think about things, and I couldn't do it
with Ron hanging about next to me. Literally.
"If you
need anything, all you have to do is send word."
"I'll
see you in the morning."
"Book and cords. Got it."
He turned on his headlamp.
"I love you, Ron," I
said sweetly.
"Yeah, yeah, I know," he said,
embarrassed but pleased. "Good thing I don't have any loopy
admirers." He flew a circle around me, preparing to descend.
"Snape? Really?"
"Good night, Ron," I
said in an exasperated tone, but I couldn't help smiling.
And
then he was swallowed up by the clouds, and I was left alone in the
dark. At least I was warm now, thanks to Molly's blanket. I
remembered the tea, too, and opened the rucksack up to get it out.
She'd remembered to put sugar in. I felt a lump in my throat again.
Snape? Really? Ron's question echoed in my head. And
Harry's words, as well. Was this how I wanted to live the rest of my
life? Waiting for the Professor? Because, I had to admit to myself,
that's exactly what I was doing. Not that I didn't have other
interests, other goals, or other social contacts. But there was a
part of me that hoped, that had reserved a corner of my heart for
him, and as long as that was occupied, no one else had a chance with
me. And I did want to share my life with someone. Although I had
friends, good ones, I was lonely.
So many times, too, I'd
thought Professor Snape and I had a real connection, a sense of
understanding and commonality. Had that all been nothing more than my
imagination? He'd been gruff this afternoon -- yesterday, now -- but
he wasn't always so off-putting. There were times when he seemed to
let his guard down, when he relaxed and even joked with me, albeit in
his usual sardonic manner. I'd thought we were friends.
All I
had to do was give up this silly notion of being in love with him,
and I could get back to my regular life. The mere idea tore at my
heart, made a physical ache start somewhere deep in my gut. I didn't
want to give him up. I didn't even want to give up the idea of him.
Not unless he told me outright that he no longer wanted me in any
part of his life.
It must have been the wee hours of the
morning by now; the moon had come up, bathing the cloudscape in its
soft glow. I'd finished the tea, so I re-packed the thermos and lay
down again, clutching the rucksack and broom to my chest. "Severus,"
I whispered, but the wind snatched the word away, and it was gone
before it had even reached my ears.