Some Wishes Don't Come True

If the fate of the world

Lay in your hands

Who would you trust

To understand?

And if the weight of the Earth

Bore down on your shoulders

Who would you turn to

To remove that bolder?

My name is Harry Potter,

And these questions I ask

For I'm close to a breakdown

But I must finish this task.

Because when my parents were murdered

And I was the only one to survive,

The task was awarded to me

To keep everybody alive.

Nobody asked me if I wanted this

No one else even bothered to try

But what if I don't want to fight Voldemort?

What if I don't want to die?!

Hermione complains if her grades aren't perfect,

Ron complains that his family is poor;

But when you compare my life, my problems to theirs,

It makes all of their problems seem like a bore.

I'm not saying they're perfect,

I know that they're not,

But how I wish I was them

Wish I could get out of this spot.

Everyone calls me "the boy who lived"

But do you call this living? I don't.

Want me to deny that I envy my friends?

Well forget about that, cuz I won't.

They act like I defeated Voldemort

Like I did something great;

But my mother saved me,

Sealing me to this fate.

Don't get me wrong,

I appreciate being alive;

But sometimes I wish

That she had just let me die.

Sirius blames himself

For all I've been through

But I wish that he wouldn't

Curse that spy Pettigrew.

Sirius said that he shouldn't

Have gone off that day

Then he wouldn't have been caught

And together we could have stayed

But this is the ministry we're talking about,

They wouldn't have cared!

They just wanted it all to end,

They'd still have locked him in there.

And then, because the traitor

Was a friends of my dad's,

I'd have been given to him,

With no questions asked.

So I was sent to the Dursleys

And locked under the stairs.

But did anyone ever check on me?

Did anyone once, ever care?!

I once heard a song

The lyrics went something like this:

"I just wanna live while I'm alive"

I guess I didn't get that wish.

Then I journeyed to Hogwarts,

And I made some real friends

I wish I had known then

That I would be the cause of their untimely end.

Dumbledore says that I didn't do this

Voldemort's resurrection wasn't my fault

But in time I'll have to learn that on my own;

Self forgiveness can't be taught.

I killed four different people

When I brought Voldemort back

So many new names to add

It's too hard to keep track.

I find it ironic

That while growing up

I was treated like a no one

And how I thought that it sucked.

And now, when I'm finally

Treated like someone

I wish I could go back

To being a no one.

Because nobody cares

If a no one's alive

And nobody wants

A no one to die.

I wish I was a no one

That way Voldemort wouldn't want me dead

And I could live a normal life

But no, I have to be Harry Potter instead.

Sometimes I wish I had never come to Hogwarts

But that feeling doesn't last for long

For even in my darkest hours

I still remember that song...

It's become my new motto:

Live while you're alive

So I guess, in a way,

I'm glad I survived.

You have to do what you can

With the hand you've been dealt

I just hope none of my friends

Feel as bad as I've felt.

I still believe

That all this is my fault.

I still think how much better my life would've been

If Pettigrew had been caught.

And I still wonder what my life would be like

If I had the lives of any of you

But I no longer waste all my time

Wishing for things that I know won't come true.