- Rating:
- PG-13
- House:
- Schnoogle
- Characters:
- Harry Potter Severus Snape
- Genres:
- Action Angst
- Era:
- Multiple Eras
- Stats:
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Published: 06/07/2002Updated: 07/20/2002Words: 36,490Chapters: 9Hits: 9,504
Not Myself
SaerrySnape
- Story Summary:
- Harry Potter is left as an orphan on the streets of London. Yet when he finds himself in the home of a family of wizards, he finds that he's a wizard. And not just any wizard...
Not Myself 01 - 02
- Posted:
- 06/16/2002
- Hits:
- 1,252
- Author's Note:
- AIM - snapescoff
Suppose
I said
I
am on my best behavior
And
there are times
I
lose my worried mind?
Would
you want me when
I’m
not myself?
Wait
it out while I am somebody else?
Suppose
I said
Colors
change for no good reason
And
words will go
From
poetry to prose
Would
you want me when
I’m
not myself?
Wait
it out while I am somebody else?
And
I, in time, will come around
I
always do for you
Suppose
I said
You’re
my saving grace
- John Mayer “Not Myself”
Not Myself by Saerry Snape
Chapter 1 – The-Boy-Who-Was-Found
“Oi, Harry, where’d you get that scar?”
Harry blinked and looked up at Ron in confusion. They had been looking at Quidditch books for the past hour and now Ron was asking him about a scar? Which one?
“What scar?”
Ron pointed at his forehead and Harry lifted a hand to brush his hair back.
“This? Hey, what’s wit’ ye?”
Ron’s jaw fell to his feet as he stared at Harry’s forehead, blue eyes wide. He stuttered, “Yo-you-your H-H-Harry P-Potter!”
“And yer point is?”
Ron sputtered, “Y-your famous!”
Harry arched an eyebrow. “Last time I looked I was jus’ a street rat.”
“No! You’re famous in our world! Everyone knows your name?”
“I doubt tha’.”
“Harry, you’re not listening.”
“And yer talkin’ nonsense.”
“Stop talking like that!”
“Like wha’?”
“Cockney!”
“This is the way I talk! ‘Cuse me fer bein’ brought up in the streets! It ain’t easy ye know!”
Ron sputtered some more then ran out of the room, leaving Harry to blink in confusion then charge after him.
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“Mum! Muuuuum!”
“Merlin’s beard…. Ron?”
Mrs. Weasley came out of the kitchen, drying her hands on a towel. She frowned at her youngest son, who was panting at the bottom of the stairs.
“Is there something you wanted to tell me?”
Ron regained his breath and pointed back up the stairs. He gasped, “He-he…”
“Harry?”
Ron nodded vigorously and stuttered, “He-he-he…”
Percy, Fred, and George all frowned at their younger brother and Percy said, “You sound like Professor Quirrell.”
Ron scowled at them then yelled, “He’s Harry Potter!”
Silence fell like a sledgehammer on the room.
“What?” breathed Mrs. Weasley.
“I’m Harry Potter,” said a voice from further up the stairs. All eyes swept upwards to Harry, who was watching them with an emotionless gaze.
Mrs. Weasley blinked several times then said, “I-I need to sit down.” She staggered into the living room and fell onto the couch. Ron sat down on one side of her, Percy on the other as Fred and George took up spaces in chairs. Harry followed them, leaning against the doorframe, emerald eyes flicking from one to another. After a moment of silence Harry growled, “Anyone care t’ explain why exactly Ron ‘ere says I’m famous?”
The assembled Weasley’s all looked at one another then Mrs. Weasley said, “We couldn’t possibly tell you the whole story.”
“Then who can?” spat Harry, annoyed.
“Albus Dumbledore.”
“Could we ge’ him now?”
Mrs. Weasley said, “We can try.”
Harry frowned.
“Please do.”
Mrs. Weasley, shaking just a little, walked over to the fireplace and began to do something to it. Ron, Fred, George, and Percy all swept their eyes over to Harry, who scowled furiously at him and snarled, “Stop gawkin’ a’ me. It’s bloody annoyin’.”
The four boys turned away but Harry caught them sneaking glances at him. Snorting he watched Mrs. Weasley working at the fireplace. She suddenly called, “Headmaster Dumbledore’s Office, Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry.” There was a pop from the fire then an ancient looking man with long white hair and half-moon glasses framing bright blue eyes appeared. Or at least his head did.
“Ah, Molly. How good to see you again.”
“You as well, professor. Erm – I have some news.”
“News?” said Dumbledore, puzzled.
“About Harry Potter.”
Dumbledore blinked then and said, “What about him?”
Mrs. Weasley replied, “He’s here, professor.”
Dumbledore’s eyes widened and he said, “Move back, Molly. I’m coming through.” With that his head vanished. Mrs. Weasley moved away just as the flames burned green and then Dumbledore stepped into the Weasley’s living room, banishing soot from his robes with his wand. He then spotted Harry leaning against the doorframe and said, “Harry. It seems you have been found after all.”
Harry smirked, “Yea. Seems tha’ way.” He paused then said, “Mrs. Weasley said ye could tell me why I’m, er – famous.”
Dumbledore nodded and asked, “Why don’t we go into the kitchen?”
Harry looked at the old wizard for a moment then pushed himself off the doorframe in a liquid motion and vanished into the kitchen. As he did, Dumbledore turned to Mrs. Weasley and asked, “Where did you find him?”
“In the Leaky Cauldron. He had wandered in, dressed in dirty rags and with hair to rival Severus Snape’s. What has he been through, professor?”
“Only he can tell us that,” replied Dumbledore as he patted Mrs. Weasley’s arm then walked into the kitchen.
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“Harry, sit down.”
Harry sat, keeping on the edge of his chair. Dumbledore sat across from him at the kitchen table and watched Harry with twinkling blue eyes. Harry didn’t believe that twinkle for a moment. Years on the streets had given him the gift of telling if people were dangerous or not. And he could tell that Dumbledore had the ability to be very dangerous.
“First, I would like to ask you some questions.”
Harry narrowed his eyes and leaned back in his chair, crossing his arm. He said darkly, “I’d rather ye answer mine firs’.”
Dumbledore nodded. “Of course. I believe the beginning is a good place to start.”
“Always is,” said Harry. Dumbledore looked at him for a moment then began to speak.
“Twenty years ago a Dark Wizard who called himself Voldemort appeared. He gathered many followers to him, promising them many things, such as power. They ran caused chaos in the wizarding world for many years until ten years ago, when Voldemort was….incapacitated.”
Harry watched as Dumbledore paused, looking at him once before continuing.
“On Halloween night, he went to the village where your parents lived. Godric’s Hollow, it was called. Your parents had been hiding from Voldemort after he began to look for them. James, your father, made his best friend their Secret Keeper. He was the only one who knew where they were. But they were betrayed. Voldemort found out where they were and went to Godric’s Hollow.”
Dumbledore’s eyes locked with Harry’s as he continued talking.
“James was killed first. Your mother died trying to protect you. And that,” said Dumbledore, pointing at the lightning bolt scar, “is a curse scar. Voldemort tried to kill you as well. And he failed. You defeated him, Harry. That, my boy, is why you are famous.”
Harry blinked.
“I defeated a full-grown wizard? Sir, I think ye got the wrong person.”
Dumbledore shook his head and said, “No, Harry, I don’t. And you know it.”
Harry shivered as the blue eyes bored into his own. He closed his eyes to get away from them and saw a flash of brilliant green light, accompanied by a woman’s scream. That was a nightmare that often haunted his sleep. His eyes snapped open and he breathed, “Green ligh’.”
Dumbledore nodded. “The curse Voldemort used to kill your parents was called Avada Kedavra. It appears as a green light and is one of the Unforgivable Curses. Using it can put you in Azkaban, the wizard’s prison, for life.”
Harry blinked. His parents. Killed by a Dark Wizard that he had defeated. Harry shook his head and began to laugh. He could feel Dumbledore staring at him but he didn’t care. For some reason he found the whole situation very funny.
When he finally stopped laughing, Harry brushed tears from his eyes and looked at Dumbledore, his face settling into the emotionless mask he put on during one of Argil’s beatings. He asked, “Now wha’ do I do? I don’ want to go back ter the streets.”
Dumbledore smiled kindly and Harry felt himself warming up to the man. He felt like he could trust him with anything.
“Harry, you will be going to Hogwarts.”
“Hogwarts?” said Harry in confusion.
Dumbledore nodded and pulled an envelope out of a pocket in his cloak. He handed it to Harry, who turned it over and looked at the strange seal on the back. A lion, an eagle, a badger, and a snake, all combined around a large H. Very strange. Harry opened the envelope and pulled out the letter. Any of the other children at Argil’s might not have been able to read but Harry was. He had taught himself out of old books he had found. The letter read –
HOGWARTS SCHOOL of WITCHCRAFT and WIZARDRY
Headmaster: Albus Dumbledore
(Order of Merlin, First Class, Grand Sorv., Chf. Warlock, Supreme Mugwump, International Confed. of Wizards)
Dear Mr. Potter,
We are pleased to inform you that you have been accepted at Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry. Please find enclosed a list of all necessary books and equipment.
Term begins on September 1. We await your owl by no later than July 31.
Yours sincerely,
Minerva McGonagall,
Deputy Headmistress
Harry read the letter twice then looked up at Dumbledore.
“Is this serious?”
Dumbledore nodded and said, “Your name has been down for Hogwarts since you were born, Harry. And I presume that today is the day you turn eleven, correct?”
Harry frowned, counting the days in his head. After a moment he nodded then looked down at the letter again. Looking up again, he asked, “Where will I stay ‘til then?”
“Here, if you like,” replied Dumbledore. “Or I could send someone to bring you up to the school.”
Harry shook his head and tucked both the letter and the envelope into his back pocket.
“’Ere’s fine. If I can get Ron ter stop starin’ a’ me.”
Dumbledore smiled and said, “Well, then. I shall be going. Goodbye, Harry.”
“Goodbye, professor.”
Dumbledore left Harry alone in the kitchen, but he wasn’t alone for long as Ron, Fred, and George came bounding in a moment later. All of their eyes flicked up to his scar and Harry snarled, “Will ye stop doin’ tha’? It’s getting’ on mah bleedin’ nerves and ye don’t want ter get on my nerves.”
The three boys nodded then sat down at the table, their eyes focused on Harry. Fred said, “So your really Harry Potter.”
Harry rolled his eyes and leaned back in his chair.
“I thought that was obvious. Ye know, the scar ‘n all.”
Fred looked flabbergasted then Ron asked, “Are you going to Hogwarts?”
“Yeh.”
“So you’ll be in the same year as me! Crikey.”
“Lucky you, Ronnikins,” said Fred.
“Yea, best friends with the Boy-Who-Lived,” put in George.
Now Harry was confused.
“Boy-Who-Lived?”
All three of them looked at him like he was mad. Harry was about to scowl at them when realization dawned on him.
“Ah. I’m the Boy-Who-Lived.”
George grinned. “Got it in one.”
“Good job, Sherlock,” said Fred.
Ron shook his head at his twin brothers then asked, “Want to go back upstairs, Harry?”
“Yeh. I want ter finish lookin’ at tha’ Quidditch book. Looks like fun.”
Fred and George grinned at each other as the two younger boys rose. George said, “It is. Bloody messy too.” Fred nodded. “Yea. Horrid game, Quidditch.”
Harry gave them a Look. “Unless I ge’ hit by a Bludger, I’d be fine.”
“Sure,” said Fred and George at the same time. This time Harry did scowl at them. He then said, “C’mon, Ron.” With that the two younger boys left the kitchen. As soon as they were out of hearing the twins looked at each other.
Fred said, “Did I just see what I thought I saw?”
“Yea,” said George.
“Harry Potter…”
“…looks remarkably like…”
“Professor Snape,” said both twins.
Chapter 2 - Diagon Alley
Mrs. Weasley walked into the kitchen and saw a figure sitting at the kitchen table. She pointed her wand at them and said, “Don’t move.”
“Mrs. Weasley?”
“Harry?”
Mrs. Weasley waved her wand, turning on the lights in the kitchen. Harry lifted a hand to shield his eyes from the light.
“Harry, what on earth are you doing down here so early?”
Harry shrugged and replied, “Ye had to ge’ up early where I was a’. Simple as tha’.”
“Well, you don’t have to here. Go back to sleep, dear.”
“Can’t.”
Mrs. Weasley smiled and said, “I wish my children were like you.”
Harry arched an eyebrow at her. “Li’ me? Why?”
“They don’t get up early.”
Harry looked at her strangely for a moment then began to laugh, softly at first but gradually going up in volume. Mrs. Weasley smiled at him and said, “That’s the first time I’ve heard you laugh.”
“Na’ much to laugh abou’, Mrs. Weasley.”
Mrs. Weasley began to fix breakfast but continued talking to Harry as she did so.
“Did you have any friends, Harry?”
“Friends?” said Harry, bewildered for a moment. “Yeh. Tyls. ‘E and I grew up together on the streets. We sorta…took care o’ each other. Ye know? In tough spots an’ stuff.”
Mrs. Weasley nodded as she poked her wand at something in a pan. After a few moments of silence she said, “We’re going to go to Diagon Alley today to get your school supplies. Professor Dumbledore sent an owl last night with the key to your vault.”
“Vault,” said Harry.
“Gringotts vault. It’s the wizard bank.”
“Ah.”
Silence fell in the kitchen until a man Harry assumed was Mr. Weasley came into the kitchen. He smiled at Harry and said, “You must be Harry.”
Harry nodded. “I am, sir.”
Mr. Weasley smiled again then looked at his wife. He asked, “Is nobody else up?”
Mrs. Weasley shook her head then turned and pointed her wand at Harry.
“No, Arthur. Harry here was up before me.”
Mr. Weasley looked at Harry, who simply shrugged and said, “Ye ge’ up early in the streets. No sleepin’ late there.” Mr. Weasley looked at him for a moment then smiled and headed for the stairs. Mrs. Weasley looked after her husband then went back to fixing breakfast.
/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/
“Alright, everybody line up. No, Ginny, dear, you’re coming with me.”
“Aw, mum. Ron gets to go by himself!”
“Ron’s older than you.”
Ginny frowned at her brother, who stuck his tongue out at her. Harry shook his head at the two of them, an amused expression on his face. Mr. Weasley looked down at him and asked, “Ever used the Floo before, Harry?”
“Jus’ once. When I came ‘ere.”
“Ah. I see. Well, then, just say the Leaky Cauldron. Everybody got that?”
“Yes,” came the resounding reply and Mr. Weasley tossed a handful of Floo powder into the fireplace. The flames roared green and Mr. Weasley went through, followed by Percy, then Fred, then Ron, then Harry went through, followed closely by George, Mrs. Weasley, and Ginny. Harry ended up on the floor coughing up soot and had to be pounded on the back by Ron. Once Mr. and Mrs. Weasley had banished the soot from all of their clothes, they wandered out into an alley behind the pub. Harry watched closely as Mr. Weasley tapped several of the bricks in quick succession. Before he could ask what that did, the bricks began to move, forming into an archway that led into a bustling alleyway like nothing Harry had ever seen.
As they walked, Mrs. Weasley looked over Ron’s shoulder at his list. She said, “Alright, first, we go to Gringotts, then I’ll take the boy’s to Madam Malkin for their robes and Arthur, you can go get their books.” Mr. Weasley nodded and made a copy of Percy, Fred, and Ron’s lists. Then they were off.
They entered Gringotts and Harry was floored. He looked around wildly at the strange creatures all about him. Goblins, he thought. Ron suddenly nudged him in the back and he started moving again. They got up to the front desk and Mr. Weasley handed two keys to the goblin, one being the Weasley’s and the other being Harry’s. The goblin motioned to another goblin, who took the keys, then led them down two flights of stairs to a cart. Once they had all climbed in, the cart began to roll.
Harry was grinning foolishly by the time they stopped at the Weasley’s vault. The cart ride was much more fun than rushing about the streets and picking pockets. Harry watched as Mrs. Weasley got out and went into the vault, scooping a meager amount of coins into a leather purse. As they set off to his vault he said a silent thanks that Mrs. Weasley had explained wizard money.
Harry followed the goblin out of the cart when they reached his vault and nearly collapsed when he saw what was inside. Mounds of gold Galleons, stacks of silver Sickles, and little piles of bronze Knuts. He knew his jaw had dropped but he didn’t really care. He was thinking of how ironic it was that he had been stealing purses for a living when he had a fortune buried under London.
Once he had gotten back his bearing, Harry scooped as much as he could into the bag and closed it tight, tucking it safely away. If anyone knew how dangerous pickpockets were, he did. As he climbed back into the cart he tried to ignore Ron, Fred, and George’s awestruck stares.
/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/*/
Back in the sunlight that streamed down on Diagon Alley, Harry finally got Ron and the twins to stop staring at him. Instead, they were practically drooling at the broom in the Quidditch Supplies window. Mrs. Weasley grabbed the three of them by their ears and dragged them off with a lot of grumbling and moaning.
“Ow!”
“Mum!”
“C’mon, mum, I need my ear!”
Harry chuckled at them and followed behind with Ginny, who kept stealing glances at him then blushing when he looked at her. He just smiled at her and she squeaked.
“Hogwarts?”
Harry looked up in surprise to find himself in Madam Malkin’s Robes for All Occasions. He nodded then quickly walked over to where Ron was standing. Madam Malkin maneuvered him onto a stool then vanished through a door. A blond boy with a pale, pointy face on Harry’s left said, “Hogwarts, too?”
Harry nodded and the boy asked, “Play Quidditch?”
“I know the basics,” replied Harry huskily.
The boy frowned at him and said, “Your off the streets.”
Harry’s eyes narrowed at the way the blond boy said streets, like anyone who had lived there was automatically gutter trash. He had met plenty of people who were much more interesting than the boy beside him.
“Yeh. What’s it to ye?” growled Harry.
“Nothing,” replied the boy.
There was silence then the boy asked, “What House do you think you’ll be in?”
Harry shrugged and looked at Ron, arching an eyebrow as if to say House? Ron mouthed, “I’ll tell you later.” Harry nodded then said to the boy, “No.”
“Well, no one knows till they get there, really. I bet I’m in Slytherin - my whole family’s been. Imagine if you got Hufflepuff…”
“Yeh,” said Harry, “imagine.”
“Who’re your parents?”
Harry’s eyebrows shot up into his hairline. Where had that question come from? He was about to answer when Madam Malkin returned and said to the boy, “That’s you done, my dear.”
“See you at Hogwarts, I suppose,” said the boy as he left. Harry smiled grimly in response.
As soon as he was gone Fred hissed, “Harry, what were you doing talking to a Malfoy?”
Harry was about to say something when Ron cut in.
“Harry didn’t know, Fred.”
“Yeah, but…”
“Sod off.”
“Ooo, ickle Ronnikins used a…”
“I’m warning you, George.”
George and Fred broke into a strange song that Harry couldn’t follow but from the way Ron was blushing it was obviously something about him. Harry shook his head and watched Madam Malkin bustle about.
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“O’k, we’ve go’ robes, books, cauldrons, potions ingredients, telescope, brass scales, glass phials… what’s left?” said Harry as he consulted his list.
Mrs. Weasley leaned over his shoulder and said, “Well, we’ve got to get you a wand and then you can get an animal if you want.”
Harry nodded then was steered towards a shop called Ollivander’s. Once inside Mr. Weasley called, “Mr. Ollivander?”
“Arthur Weasley.”
Nearly everyone jumped as an old man appeared before them, pale eyes shining in the dark shop.
Mr. Ollivander smiled and said, “Maple and dragon heartstring. Thirteen inches. Flexible.”
Mr. Weasley nodded and Mr. Ollivander smiled, turning to each of them in turn before he turned on Harry and said, “Ah. Harry Potter. I wondered why I would be seeing you. Let me see. Ah, yes. Try this one.” Mr. Ollivander handed Harry a wand. “Beechwood and dragon heartstring. Nine inches. Nice and flexible. Just give it a wave.”
Harry waved it around but Mr. Ollivander snatched it back.
“Maple and phoenix feather. Seven inches. Quite whippy. Try -”
Harry tried - but had the wand snatched out of his hand before he could fully raise it.
“No… Ah, ebony and unicorn hair, eight and a half inches, springy. Try it out.”
Harry waved again and again and again. The Weasley’s were watching him and by now he felt very foolish and was wondering what exactly Mr. Ollivander was looking for.
“I wonder - perhaps - yes - holly and phoenix feather, eleven inches, nice and supple.”
Mr. Ollivander handed Harry the wand, who waved it lazily. A shower of silver and red sparks shot out of the wand. Mr. Ollivander seemed delighted.
“Very good. Very, very good. Yet very curious…”
Harry looked up from the wand in his hand and asked, “What’s curious?”
“I remember every wand I’ve ever sold, Mr. Potter. Every single wand. It so happens that the phoenix whose tail feather is in your wand, gave another feather - just one other. It is very curious indeed that you should be destined for this wand with its brother - why, its brother gave you that scar.”
Harry blinked. His wand? Brother to Voldemort’s wand?
“Yes, thirteen-and-a-half inches. Yew. Curious indeed how these things happen. The wand chooses the wizard, remember…I think we must expect great things from you, Mr. Potter…After all, He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named did great things - terrible, yes, but great.”
Harry shivered involuntarily, looking down at his wand. None of the Weasley’s had heard the entire conversation as Mr. Ollivander had spoken in a hushed tone. Harry quickly paid for his wand and they left.
A few moments later the Weasley’s and Harry were heading back up the alley into the Leaky Cauldron. Mr. Weasley had taken Harry’s new owl with him, as owls couldn’t travel by Floo.
One by one, they dragged their things into the fireplace and called out “The Burrow”.
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As soon as they were back at the Burrow, Harry, Ron, Fred, and George dumped their stuff in their rooms and went outside. The three Weasley’s were adamant to teach Harry about Quidditch and had convinced Mr. Weasley to teach Harry how to fly.
“I don’t know boys…”
“C’mon, dad. Harry wants to learn. Don’t you, Harry?”
Harry nodded vigorously and Mr. Weasley relented.
“Alright, but if your mother yells at me you two will be degnoming the garden.”
Fred and George saluted and Mr. Weasley sighed, leading Harry out into the backyard. George was letting Harry borrow his broom for practicing.
Harry listened intently as Mr. Weasley explained about flying, gripping the broom tightly in both hands.
“You got that, Harry?”
“Yeh.”
“Okay, then. Give it a go. Fred, you be ready to get him if something happens.”
“Gotcha.”
“Okay, Harry. Let’s see what you can do.”
Harry mounted the broom and kicked off from the ground. And then - he was free. He spiraled upwards then shot back down, going into a steep dive that he heard the Weasley’s below him give shouts. But he ignored them. He was in his element. He was meant to fly. No question about that.
After executing a number of moves that left the Weasley’s below gasping in awe, Harry landed neatly, a wide grin plastered on his face. Fred and George immediately began to pound him on the back in joy.
“You’re a natural, Harry!” said Fred.
“Yeah,” agreed George, “some of those moves Charlie would probably have a hard time doing.”
Harry blinked. “Who’s Charlie?”
“Our older brother. Works in Romania with dragons.”
“Oh.”
Mr. Weasley stared at Harry for a moment then said, “Why don’t we go inside, boys? I’m sure lunch’s ready by now.” The four boys nodded and all five headed inside.
After lunch, Fred, George, Ron, and Harry flew in the Weasley’s backyard (the four of them rotating off the brooms as there were only three) until dinner. Harry was so tired he only ate a little then went upstairs to Ron’s room. He was asleep before his head touched his pillow.