I'm alive again.

Have you ever felt as if you're drowning in your own despair? As if every step you take you fall deaper into yourself? It may sound stupid to you. You probably think I'm selfish, I mean, I have two best friends who would do anything for me. But then again you don't know what it's like to truly love someone, but know that nothing could ever happen because, number one, he doesn't think that way of you, number two, you would make your other best friend feel like a third wheel.

I remember my first practical charms lesson, we worked together. It was probably the best lesson that I had in that year. To just see his flaming red hair was enough for me to spend a week in the hospital wing. But I ruined it, by helping him. later on in that year he was making fun of me, I burst into tears and ran past him. Later on, while the halloween feast was going on, I was in the toilets, when I heard a low grunt I turned around and there was a giant troll. This was the end for me. But no, I survived because of him; and Harry.

He's coming towards me.

"Hullo Hermione!" he says cheerfully,

"Why are you so happy?" I ask,

"Hey, why can't a young boy enjoy life?" At least he can.

"You've got a new girlfriend, haven't you?"

"Huh, so you think my life revolves around girls do you? Don't answer that! Yeh I do!"

I feel tears threatening to fall, this is way too much for me, I'm going to-

"That is it! I'm going to snap!" I scream, his face looks terrified, tears are welling up, I have to get out of here,

"I'm going to the library."

He calls my name, but I ignore him.

I'm in the commen room, at my small table in corner, I am doing some studying for my N.E.W.T.s for next year. I've made up my mind, I'm going to pretend nothing happened in the corridor earlier. Fred and George have just entered. They look at me as if I'm some kind of amusing joke sweet of theirs, this cannot possibly be a good thing.

"Hi, our little love sweet,"

"and what do you want today, Fred? No George, or is it Fred?"

"Fred, dear. We would like to know out of curiosity, why exactly you're going to snap?"

My blood goes cold. He told people. My surprise turns to anger very quikly. Just when I'm about to answer, he comes in. I stand up, ready to have a screaming comptition with him.

"Ron!" I challenge him.

"What?" He asks.

"You told them?!"

"Told them what?" he asks me, looking terrified, as he was earlier.

"That I'm going to snap!" I shout,

"No I didn't!" He lies, he did, I know he did!

"Don't lie to me, Ron! I can't beleive that you did that to me!"

"I didn't!" He is starting to shout aswell.

"Well then how come those two know?!" I shout back.

"Why are you being like this?!"

I burst into tears, I can't hold this in anymore.

"Hermione, just tell me." He says flatly.

"no, I can't."

"Tell me" he repeates himself.

"It's just, that, well, you see, the thing is....."

"Tell me!" He says. If only he knew how hard it is for me to sit next to him, knowing that I can't have him.

"No!"

"I can't help you if I don't know what's wrong!"

"Well maybe I don't want your help."

"You and I both know that's not true!"

"So? it's not as if you care!"

"Yes I do."

"Then how come you told them?!" I scream, crying a river.

"Because I thought that they might know why you've been acting so depressed lately! Tell me why!"

"Because; because I-I l-love y-you?" I told him. I can only expect to be let down now.

"What? Um...... OK well, uh......" I knew it.

"Never mind, I'm going to-" What's going on? Why can't I speak. He's kissing me. I'm being kissed by Ron!

I'm alive again.