Rating:
PG-13
House:
The Dark Arts
Genres:
Drama
Era:
Multiple Eras
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Published: 07/30/2003
Updated: 08/04/2003
Words: 5,447
Chapters: 2
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Honor

Professor Morgyn Merlin

Story Summary:
Severus Snape stood at the edge of the cemetery, watching the small group near the open grave. Or rather, watching one of them in particular: a woman in black, her pale face dry of tears, her thick brown hair pulled back sharply from a face etched not with grief, but anger. The widow of the man being lowered into the ground. *What would have happened if I’d told you, instead of letting you find out the hard way, Honoria? Would you be mourning my death now, instead of his? Would my son be mine?*

Chapter 01

Chapter Summary:
Severus Snape stood at the edge of the cemetary, watching the small group near the open grave. Or rather, watching one of them in particular, a woman in black, her pale face dry of tears, her thick brown hair pulled back sharply from a face etched not with grief, but anger. The widow of the man being lowered into the ground.
Posted:
07/30/2003
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359
Author's Note:
Thank you to my friend Becky for inspiring this fic and putting up with me chattering about all my fics.

Honor
In Death Begun

Severus Snape stood at the edge of the cemetary, watching the small group near the open grave. Or rather, watching one of them in particular, a woman in black, her pale face dry of tears, her thick brown hair pulled back sharply from a face etched not with grief, but anger. The widow of the man being lowered into the ground. He watched her a moment longer before turning, and apparating back to Hogsmeade. He had no right to watch her now, but he still remembered his long-ago promise.

*I will always protect you, Honoria.* The words rang with a bitterness now that had not been there when he swore to his fiance that promise. A promise he had not been able to keep. Not then, and not now.

*What would have happened if I'd told you, instead of letting you find out the hard way, Honoria? Would you be mourning my death now, instead of his? Would my son be mine?* His expression remained blank, not giving anyone a hint of his thoughts as he made his way back to Hogwarts, and down into the dungeons, where he pulled a bottle from the sideboard, along with a glass. He poured himself a glass full of the brandy, slowly whirling it, staring into its amber depths as his bitter thoughts continued to march on.

*Did you tell Marcus who his father really was? Did you tell Alistor that his beloved son was not his? Or did you want to forget I existed, Honoria?* Snape took a gulp of the brandy, staring broodingly into the empty fireplace. *You were a fool, Severus. A gods-cursed fool! Why didn't you tell her? Why did you let her find out from someone else? And why, in Merlin's name, didn't you tell her you were a spy?*

*Because,* a traitorous little voice in the back of his head replied, *you weren't. Not until she married Alistor. Until it was too late to get her back. Too late for your son to be yours.*

Severus snarled, throwing the glass into the empty fireplace, the brandy splashing the cold stones, the glass shattering into a spray of shards. *Damnit! He was my son, not Alistor's. Why didn't she tell me? Why did I have to find out from Albus?*

His bitter thoughts gave him his answer readily, and it wasn't the one he had been looking for. It never was. *Because you were a Death Eater, and she couldn't forgive you that. Because she hates what you were, and couldn't find it in her heart to forgive you even after you changed. She will always see that betrayal when she sees you.*

He remembered that day. The day she found out he was a Death Eater. The day she left. The day she went to Alistor, and told him everything. The day he went to Albus, and volunteered to spy for him.

~~~~~~

Severus walked into the flat he shared with his fiance, Honoria Gregori, to find it silent. He frowned, worried. Honoria always had music going when she was home, and she had stayed home today.

"Honoria?" He hung his cloak up by the door before heading deeper into the apartment. "Honoria, love, where are you?" He found her out on the balcony, a mug of tea clutched in her hands, staring out over Hyde Park. "Honoria? What's wrong?"

She turned dark, cobolt blue eyes up to him, anger and hurt written clearly on her face. "What's wrong? What's wrong, Severus?" Her voice was a quiet hiss. "Why didn't you tell me?"

Severus had a sinking feeling in the pit of his stomach, a gut instinct that everything was fast slipping away from him. "Tell you what?"

She stood, the mug dropping to the balcony, and shattering as she shoved him back towards the open door to their bedroom. "Don't pretend not to know, Severus! Why in hell didn't you tell me you were a Death Eater?"

He froze, unable to speak, uncertain what to say if he could. His indecision allowed Honoria to shove him into the bedroom, where she reached for his left sleeve. Instinct prompted him to grab her hand, to stop her from pulling up the sleeve to see the dark mark branded there into his skin.

"You are, aren't you?" Her voice was hurt, angry. "Why didn't you tell me?"

"I couldn't." He knew how lame his excuse sounded the instant it came out of his mouth, but he couldn't take it back now. All he could do was ride out the storm, and pray he could salvage something from the wreckage.

"Couldn't? Or just felt you didn't need to?" She glared at him through brilliant blue eyes. "What were you

thinking, Severus? That I would never notice? Or were you planning on making sure I never disagreed with what you were doing?"

"I don't know..."

"Don't know! Damnit, Severus! A relationship needs more than love. It needs trust. It needs trust more than it needs anything else. How can I trust you when you don't trust me? When you've lied to me, decieved me?" She continued on her tirade as Severus shrugged helplessly. "What were you planning on doing if the Ministry came knocking on our door? Try to convince me they had the wrong person? Or that they hated you? What were you thinking, Severus? Or were you just not bothering to think at all?"

"Honoria, let me explain...."

"Explain what? You lied to me, and you betrayed me. Did you forget? My family has been decimated by You-Know-Who and his Death Eaters." She paused, her expression becoming more murderous. "Or did you help in that? When I was mourning the loss of another cousin, another relative, were you laughing behind my back? Did you know who would be next, and gloat that you had the wool pulled over my eyes?"

"No! Honoria, please, listen to me. The Death Eaters have given me an oppurtunity that no one else has..." He was cut off by a sharp slap, delivered with an angry cry.

"Don't you dare defend them! They've torn my family apart, and now I find out you're one of them?" She stopped, her eyes flashing blue fire, before stepping around him, and heading for the door. When he tried to stop her, to speak to her, she just glared at him, slamming the door on her way out, with a finality to the sound that drove Severus to his knees.

~~~~~~

Severus woke the next morning with a pounding headache, and cramps from his head to his toes from sleeping in the chair in front of the fireplace. He groaned, pulling himself up, and stumbling for the shower. He had classes to teach today, though fortunately the first one was seventh-years. They were at least marginally competant, and some even possessed a modicum of intelligence.

A half-hour later, showered and dressed in clean robes, Severus summoned a house-elf, and demanded a pot of coffee. It didn't take the pitiful creature long to bring him what he wanted, and he poured himself a mug of it, drinking it straight. He hadn't put sugar in his coffee since Honoria left.

A knock on his door made him growl softly, before he went to answer it, expecting a student with a question at a greviously early hour, or Albus with some concern for him, only to find Minerva standing there.

"What do you want, Minerva?"

She raised an eyebrow at his surly tone, wiating patiently for him to invite her in, where she calmly took a seat near the fireplace. The one he'd spent the night in.

"You heard there was another attack?"

"Alistor Veritas, I know. His funeral was yesterday."

"No, yesterday."

Severus frowned, pouring himself another mug of coffee. "I hadn't yet heard."

"Honoria Veritas was kidnapped as she headed home from her husband's funeral." Minerva was watching him oddly as she spoke. "They left only a simple message behind. ÔTell the traitor that she will only be the first.' Her son brought it to Albus. He's still upstairs."

Severus had gone pale when she told him Honoria had been kidnapped, and had sat down heavily in the chair behind his desk. Now his heart pounded with fear, and his mind swirled. They knew. They knew, and they had Honoria.

"Severus?" Minerva was speaking, hovering over him. "Are you all right?"

He hauled his composure around him, a cloak against the pain of his life, glaring up at Minerva. "I am fine, Minerva. You mentioned Mrs. Veritas's son was in Albus's office?" Minerva nodded. "I should speak to him."

He didn't wait for a reply, merely stalking out of his office, and towards the stairs, his robes billowing behind him. Students scurried out of his way faster than usual, his expression convincing them they'd rather be elsewhere, as he strode towards Albus's office.

"Sugar quill." He sneered slightly at the password, and Albus's affection for sugary treats. Once he entered the Headmaster's office, he first noticed the black-haired teen sitting in front of Albus's desk. Marcus Veritas was the image of Severus at seventeen, only improved. Slim instead of skinny, without the pale skin Severus had then, and still retained.

The black eyes turned to look at him, and a slight, sardonic smile graced the teen's lips. "Hello."

Severus nodded in greeting.

"Ah, Severus." Albus smiled at him, grimly. "You've arrived."

Marcus continued to watch Severus as the older man took the other seat in front of Albus's desk, waiting for him to settle himself before speaking. "You're the reason they kidnapped mother?" The boy's voice was soft, almost silky, much as Severus's own voice had been at that age, without the annoying slide in octave.

Severus nodded. "It is more than likely that they wished to send a message to me. Though what, exactly, I am uncertain."

Albus cut off anything Marcus might have said with an upraised finger. "First, Severus, I need to be certain you're not going to do something dangerous, and run off after her on your own."

Severus glared at the older man. "I am not going to throw away my life and hers in a fool-hardy rescue attempt with no backup, Albus."

Albus nodded, a slight, knowing smile on his face. "Second, Marcus, you must promise the same. You are not to go chasing after your mother, and waste your life."

Marcus chuckled, shaking his head. "Old man, you underestimate my intelligence. I have my whole life ahead of me, if I don't squander it on some foolishly heroic attempt. I'm not going anywhere, not by myself."

"Good. I've already told the Order what has happened, Severus. They'll be preparing a rescue as soon as possible."

Severus nodded, remaining silent. He had said he wouldn't try to attempt a rescue alone. Neither would he wait for others to take the time to think up a convoluted plan that wouldn't work. He just needed a small team he could trust.

"Minerva told you about the message that young Mr. Veritas brought?"

"She told me."

"We will need to have Marcus remain here for now, until we can be assured of his safety." Albus raised a hand to still the teen's outburst. "It is the safest place you can be, Mr. Veritas."

"And why would I be a target?" Marcus's gaze was challenging, as he switched it to Severus. "Why can't I go home, and be safe there?"

"Because your home is not safe. The Death Eaters were able to kill your father in your home, they can get through whatever protections you have up again, and kill or kidnap you just as easily."

"But why would they want to? What am I to you that they would think to take me?" Marcus's eyes were narrowed, and his voice was the menecingly soft tone he'd used earlier, annoying Severus disproportionately. Something in the boy's manner and tone warned him that the he already knew the answer, but was looking for him to confirm it. That he wanted to hear the truth from Severus.

Severus met his eyes with a chill in his expression that he had long armored his heart with. The ice that deflected the slings and barbs from students and staff alike, that allowed him to ignore the sidelong looks of pity and the stares of derision. "If you are incapable of determining that reason yourself, I suggest you look in the mirror. You do not look like Alistor, nor do you look like your mother." With that, Severus stood, nodding to Albus before he swept out of the room.

*How much did you tell him, Honoria? Did you merely tell him that he was my son? Or did you tell him everything? Blast it!* He sensed the boy following him, and lengthened his stride. He didn't need to deal with Marcus at the moment, didn't need to deal with a boy looking for a father-figure to replace the one he'd lost.

But Marcus wasn't going to give up so easily. When Severus reached his office, Marcus caught the door before it closed completely, and followed him in, despite the death glare Severus directed at the teen.

"Was there something you wanted, Mr. Veritas?"

Marcus raised an eyebrow. "We both know I have no more claim to that name than you would. He's not my father, even though he treated me like his own son. It's rather difficult to imagine me as his son, considering his hair was a blond, and his eyes were distinctly green. And mother's hair was brown, her eyes blue. But you know that." He paused, waiting for a response from Severus.

"As you already know the truth, there is no need for this conversation to continue, and you may leave." Severus kept his voice icy, wanting only for the boy to leave him in peace to plan.

"You're not getting rid of me so easily. You might have said you wouldn't go after her alone, but you never said anything about making your own plans to rescue mother. I'm not blind, and I'm not stupid." Marcus glared at him, his posture and expression radiating annoyence and anger. "I'm not about to let mother stay in the clutches of the Death Eaters, but I'm no fool. I'm not a fool hero, to try and go find her and rescue her by myself, especially seeing as I haven't a clue where they'd take her. But you would."

"What makes you think I'd take along a teen age boy who is likely to get everyone killed?"

"Because I'm not going to get everyone killed, and I have a stake in this as much as you do." Marcus smirked in triumph. "And I won't let you leave me here to be bored to death by that old fool."

Severus raised an eyebrow.

"And I graduated from Pendragon University at the top of my class this past June." Marcus paused, his expression one of justifiable pride. At seventeen, he would have been the youngest member of that class by most of a decade. "Now, how are we going to rescue mother?"

Severus took the chair behind his desk, a slight, sardonic smile on his face. "Who said anything about we?"