Angel Doll

Angel Doll

firedragon_luver

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It had been two years since Draco had had a miscarriage. It took time before he was able to move on, but he never forgot his and Harry's unborn child. But truth to be told, Draco is still one step short before he could say that everything is normal again. And that short step was Harry's acceptance. Harry needed not tell Draco that he hadn't accepted and moved on yet. Draco could see it; he could feel it.

Draco was early from work that day, the day of Christmas Eve, and a silent manor greeted him; he headed straight to the nursery room, where he knew he would find Harry. He knew that Harry secretly would go to this room and cry. Harry never showed what he truly felt; that was why Draco would always give this kind of moment to Harry, but not today. Seeing Harry wearing faded, loose blue jeans, and a clean white tight shirt, being so sexy and flushed from crying, he felt so inappropriately aroused. Merlin, he couldn't blame himself; it has been so long since their last, and that time both of them were so drunk.

"Harry."

"Hey." Harry quickly wiped away his tears and smiled.

"We need to talk."

"Draco..."

"No. We need to talk about it, not later, not tomorrow, not next time, but NOW."

"Please."

"Harry, listen: I lost a child too, our child. But life, it must go on. You would always tell me that everything would be fine, I believed you. But look at you."

"Don't"

"I'm beginning to think that you were blaming me for our loss. Hell! You won't even touch me unless you are drunk." Draco was crying so hard; the feeling that was bottled so long now exploded, and was too much for him. "When I was carrying our child, believe me, I did everything to take good care of him. But I guess that everything was not enough. If... if you think I only remind you of our lost child, if you think it would be best for me to leave..."

"No. I don't want you to leave. It's just I miss our child."

"I miss our child too, our unborn child. But look at you, look at us. It hurts so much to see you secretly going to this room and crying. I want you to share your pains with me, as I held on to you before. But no, you are so goody-goody Mr. I-Can-Take-Everything that you forgot you have a husband. I need you. I love you. But you, you don't need me, and maybe you don't even love me anymore. I've done everything...except this, and maybe it's the only thing left for me to do. Goodbye, Harry." He turned his back and when he was about to reach the doorknob Harry spoke.

"I saw this angel doll the day we learned you were pregnant. I was so happy, at last I'm going to have a family of my own, our family. I had so many plans for all of us. When you had your miscarriage, I was hurt, I was sad, my world broke down because we lost our baby and the same time scared because I almost lost you." Harry looked up at Draco eyes shinning with tears. "I don't know what will happen to me if ever I lost you too, that's why I am so afraid to touch you..."

"Harry, everything happens for a reason--we many not understand completely, but it should not stop us from being happy and living life."

"I know. I am so sorry, Draco."

"I missed you. I love you."

"I missed you too...you just don't know how much. I love you too. I am so sorry for making you think that I blamed you and that I am pushing you away."

They held on to each other, whispering words of love, encouragement and assurance. When their lips first met so softly and slowly, the fire between them started to blaze, so passionately and unexpectedly that they made love willingly, completely, again.

Soft giggling awaked Harry. Getting up he saw a chubby little girl looking at them with awe.

"Hello, daddy."

"Who are you?" Harry asked.

"I'm Angel."

"Harry, who are you..." Draco stop mid sentence when he saw a girl looking at him and unconsciously pulling up his robe to cover them.

"Hello, papa."

"Who..."

"I have seen how wonderful and loving you both are. If I were born, I would be the luckiest daughter in the world."

"You are our unborn child. Draco, we should have had a daughter."

"I was so sad when the two of you were not really talking to each other, how my early departure affected you both. But today happened and you found one another once again, and I really had to come and see both of you," she said smiling.

"Come, baby." Harry outstretched his hands and envelope his daughter in a warm embrace.

"I love the both of you so much," she whispered.

"We love you too, angel." Draco said. After a quick dressing and freshening up, they cuddled with her and played with her for as long as time would let them, until she stood up kissed them both and walked away from them. She looked at her parents one last time, eyes brimming with tears; she smiled and she knew that everything was going to be all right. Their love would strengthen them.

"Happy Christmas, Dad, Papa. Tell my baby brother that I love him too."

Harry and Draco looked at each other in surprise and automatically touched Draco's belly, and when they finally looked at their daughter, there sat the angel doll Harry bought, face wet with tears.

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