Beautiful Ways

Beautiful Ways

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It wasn't long ago that we were together. After a year spent gathering up what courage I could find, you were starting to go out of your way to talk to me. You came to that first meeting of the DA at the Hog's Head and said all those nice things about me. I felt like I was about as tall as Hagrid after that. I was still nervous around you, but I was able to talk to you, and that was a marked improvement over the previous year. The night you kissed me was one of the best nights of my life. I had envisioned the two of us kissing a million times before, but it was still unlike anything that I could have hoped to prepare for. It seemed to me like all time stopped under that mistletoe. You were my entire world, and I could not have asked for anything more in it. I had finally found love, or at least I thought I had.

I'm not a savior, so do me a favor

Stop in and see me sometime

I don't need you to save me

I'm ready to break free

Just need somebody to say

You know you're never too far

You know you're never too far away

It was two months of bliss for me. Right up until Valentine's Day, I was as happy as I could have been, knowing you felt the same way I did. That all changed, though. I had a bad feeling about things that day, but I had just chalked it up to nerves. It was our first date, after all. I saw you cry, and I foolishly thought it had something to do with me, but it didn't, not really. You were still hung up on Cedric, and I was too naive to see it. I was just so desperate to get you to love me that I never stop to think that you may have still been in love with him. I was frustrated, and then you started in on Hermione and I guess my frustration got the better of me. I didn't mean to hurt you, but I guess I must have. I was just so sure that I could make you love me, but I know now I was wrong.

Help me cause I'm off the radar screen

Help me cause you know just where I've been

Help me cause I've lost my faith

Help me mend my broken ways

But I just can't help myself

Have you lost your beautiful ways?

You lost your beautiful ways

You ignored me after that. I kept seeing you in the Great Hall, talking with your friend, Marietta. I kept hoping that you would look my way, or say something to me, even if it was just to yell at me. Your indifference toward me was far worse than any kind of punishment you could have given me. My heart broke a little more each day that you continued to ignore me. My dream of love was dying, and with it a little bit of me with it. You had always been so beautiful before, and now you seemed to have lost that beauty. I started to feel like I'd never really known you, and that you obviously had never really known me.

You started out lovely

Then somehow you changed me

I thought it'd be easy to see

I came to you lonely

Somehow I won't be

Walking this line long with you

I guess the officially end to us was the last time we spoke with one another. I actually thought that you had wanted to apologize for what Marietta had done, or at least ask if I was in very much trouble. None of that seemed very important to you, though. In fact, I never did understand what you wanted to say to me. All you ended up doing was sticking up for her, and having yet another go at me about Hermione. How dare you? I couldn't believe the things you were saying to me. Were you destined to end up yet another of the disappointments in my life? I guess I should have known that true love was too much to ask for. Hermione is one of the few people who have ever genuinely cared about me, and you were slagging her? No, that was it. I remember yelling at you, and that you ran away. I can only hope that I have another shot at love with someone else, because I know now that it cannot be with you.

It's occurred to me that you won't be hanging around

I guess I don't mind cause you always put me down

But I never thought I'd see you on the ground

And you're supposed to save me?

So, here I am, sitting here with my real friends. I think this year has been the worst of my entire life, and that's really saying something. I've lost my godfather, nearly lost Hermione, and lost out on any chance of a future with you. I would say that this brings me back to square one, but I don't think I was even that far before. I've had to really rely on my friends this year, and they've really come through for me. It's going to be a long time before I can even think about looking for someone to love again. I don't imagine this will be too much of a problem, who would ever want to love me, anyway? I'm just glad that I have such good friends, like Ron and Hermione. I've always been able to rely on them, no matter what happens. Yes, things might work out ok after all.

"Hey, Harry," said Ron, nodding toward the glass window onto the corridor...

Help me cause I'm off the radar screen

Help me cause you know just where I've been

Help me cause I've lost my faith

I can't afford to live this way

And I just can't help myself

Have you lost your beautiful ways?

You lost your beautiful ways