Rating:
R
House:
The Dark Arts
Characters:
Draco Malfoy Ginny Weasley
Genres:
General
Era:
Multiple Eras
Stats:
Published: 08/02/2003
Updated: 08/11/2003
Words: 2,675
Chapters: 2
Hits: 733

Cold as Ice: Filled with Pain

evillian

Story Summary:
Ginny is in her sixth year at Hogwarts. She had gone out with Draco only to have him tear down her world. Now she is as cold as ice. But Draco is beginning to realize the mistake he made. can he melt the ice that is now Ginny, or is he to late?

Chapter 02

Posted:
08/11/2003
Hits:
259
Author's Note:
Hey! The second chapter has a lot more than the first. I hope everyone likes it. Thanks to everyone who reviewed! thanks to my friend for Darksynner for reading this and telling me her real opinion and helped me with the flashback ideas. please r/r!

Draco's POV

I'm crying. I don't care that they see me crying. I deserve this pain. I destroyed the one thing that ever meant anything to me.

I watch her as she leaves me standing there. She stops at the corner. I could have swore I saw a tear escape her eyes before she went down a hall away from me. I shake this thought from my mind as I remember the day I destroyed her.

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It was raining out. She stared out the window, her auburn curls fall in her face as she turns to see him. She smiled and ran to hug him, but he stops her. A look of concern crossed her face at this. 'What's wrong Draco?' she asked the question with a worried sound to it.

'Nothing's wrong,' he answered, a cold sound to his voice. He had to do this he kept telling himself over an over in his mind.

He's father had threatened him. He had threatened to kill Ginny if he didn't break it off with her. He didn't want to do this, but it was better than Getting her killed just so he was happy.

Confusion was evident on her face. 'then wh-' he placed a finger on her lips quieting her.

She looked at him. She could tell something was bugging him. She couldn't figure out what it was. She studied him as he tried to sort things out in his head. She could never tell what he was feeling when he didn't want her to know. She patiently waited for him to speak.

'Ginny, we need to talk.' Tears filled her eyes as realization dawned on her. She felt as though a knife had stabbed her in the heart and kept twisting.

'Your breaking up with me, aren't you.' She said it more like a statement than a question. He saw as she wiped away the tear that was there. None had followed it.

It hurt him the way she said it. Her happy aura that usually surrounded her was replaced by a cold one. He couldn't stand it, but he then remembered why he was doing this and simply replied, 'yes.'

He inhaled, closing his eyes and waiting for her to blow up in his face like so many girls had done before. It didn't happen. He opened his eyes to look at her. Her face was completely blank. She looked like a beautifully carved statue.

'Draco, you forgot,' now it was his turn to looked confused.

'Forgot what?' he asked.

'I'm not like other girls. You closed you eyes and waited for me to blow up in you face. I don't yell,' she said as a smirk that could rival his own appeared on her face.

'Well, what do y-' understanding came to him. He wouldn't blame her for hitting him. After all they had gone though together. After all she had given up to him. He deserved all that she could dish out.

He opened his mouth to speak, but before he could she said, 'I'm not going to hit you,...

Malfoy. That would actually be something you'd want me to do. ' With that said she left him. Her arm brushed against his as she walked past sending a chill up his spine.

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The memory ends as I start to walk in the direction she had gone before leaving me in that cold disturbing silence once again.

I start think about her again. I think of good times that we had together. Remembering things that will probably never happen again. I think of the big mistake that I made that day. It was at least a month before, and yet that day has been haunting me. I haven't been able to sleep well ever since that night.

I miss her...

I miss how she laughed at me when I was mad. I miss the way she smiled when she saw me. I miss the way she looked when she was happy. I miss the way she could always make me smile. I miss the way she said I love you. I miss- I miss her.

The one thing I can no longer have is what I want more than anything in this world. I lost my chance. I lost my other half. I lost my will to live. I've lost her.

Maybe...

Maybe I can get her back. Maybe- no that's just impossible. She hates me now. I guess I should just stop thinking about what I can't have. What I did have and destroyed. What I can never get back.

I realize where my feet are talking me and stop suddenly. Can I face that place again? The place we shared together? The place that I destroyed her? No. Not yet.

I head to my dorm looking for my photo album. I find it with ease as I had been looking at it the day before. Pictures that she had given to me, or had been taken that year when we were together.

I laugh as I look at the first picture in it and begin to remember that day it was taken a year ago.

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Draco walked in the Great Hall and made his way over to Ginny at the Gryffindor table. She was in an argument with her brother. When he sat down Ron glared at him and didn't say another word. Ron was still upset about Ginny going out with Draco although they had started to go out more than month before.

'Hey Gin. What's up?' she smiled and hugged him. He returned the hug.

'Hey!' she yelled happily. He smiled at her.

'Could you please not do that while I'm around,' Ron said through gritted teeth.

'Oh, what? Is big brother Ron jealous?' Draco said, a smirk on his face. Ron just looked at him. Then a big grin came on his face as a thought popped in his head.

He got a spoonful of potatoes and flung it at Draco. A look of shock crossed everyone's face at this.

Draco looked down at the plate in front of him. It hadn't been touched. He didn't bother using a spoon. He took a hand full of potatoes and threw it at Ron. Ron ducked down and it hit Harry going with the flow he grabbed a handful of corn and threw it at Draco. It hit everyone except Draco and soon the entire Great hall including the teachers got into a full fledge food fight.

In fact the only people who hadn't participated were the Slytherins. They all left the Great hall looking at their potion master throwing a handful of carrots at professor McGonagall.

When it was over Colin had taken his camera out from its case and took a picture of Ginny, Draco, Harry, Ron, and Hermione standing together covered from head to toe in bits of food. He gave them each a copy once he had them developed.

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I smile, but my smile quickly fades as a question pops into my mind.

Why...

Why had I broken it off? Why had I done it? I must have had a reason, but it has left me as I sit here felling sorry for myself. Drowning in my own self pity. Feeling sorry that I destroyed her.

Oh, right. My father. He's to blame for destroying Ginny as much as I am for listening to him.

I look at the clock on my bedside table. Her last class will be over soon. Five minutes to be exact. Maybe I'll walk up to our old spot. I can't avoid it forever after all.

I let my feet lead me out of my dorm to that place three stories away. It should only take me ten minutes to get there if I walk at a normal pace.

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Draco had just walked off the Quidditch pitch after winning a game against Hufflepuff. Ginny came running Down as well as "The dream team" and congratulated him on winning. They had all become good friends after a while.

'That was a good game you played up there,' said Ron enthusiastically, and patted him on the back.

'Yeah, I would never have admitted it before, but you really are good,' said Harry, a smile on his face.

Ginny had walked over to a friend of hers on the Hufflepuff team. Draco looked over as he saw Ginny say goodbye. The Girl watch as Ginny walked back over to Draco.

"The Dream Team" had headed over to talk to some of there friends. Draco watched as Ginny speeded up her pace a little walked up to him placed her arms around his neck and began kissing him hungrily. He wrapped his arms around her waist and gave in to her. Soon she had her legs wrapped around his waist.

She pulled back out of breath and looked back at the Hufflepuff girl standing there in shock as if she couldn't believe what she had just seen.

Ginny whispered in Draco's ear, ' Lets go inside,' jumping down from his waist and began walking with his hand in hers. A big goofy grin was pasted across his face. It didn't suit him at all.

He soon realized this and stopped, but still was a good deal happy, letting Ginny lead him up some place he hadn't been before. She stopped at a wall and kicked three bricks in a certain way that Draco hadn't paid attention to.

A door appeared and they walked in. The door vanishing as soon as they were inside. Ginny began to kiss him in the same way she had outside and he realized what she wanted. He gave in to her for the second time that day.

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As the memory fades like before I realize where I am. I'm at the place, but I can't bring myself to open the door. I can't. I'm going back to my dorm. I stop as I here something inside. The scratching of a quill and the sound of someone crying. I turn and open the door.

The shock of what I send is enough to seen anyone running and grabbing the knife Ginny is holding, about to slit her own throat. She seems not to hear the door open, or just doesn't care as she brings the knife to her throat.

I find my voice and say more than yell like I wanted to,' Don't' she seem startled when she heard my voice and turn to face me. She hadn't lowered the knife. She had tear stains on her face as a fresh wave of them came when she saw me. I looked around the room and saw a desk with a note on it.

A suicide note.

A thought comes in my mind and I know it seem weird to think it but it comes all the same.

I want her back...

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