Stop the Spinning

Hermione and Harry have loved each other since their days at Hogwarts, but in the final battle between Harry and Voldemort, things take a horrible, bittersweet turn for the entire wizarding world. The Dark Lord is taken down, but the Boy-Who-Lived has disappeared. Hermione is deeply shaken and returns to a childhood place where Hermione and Harry had their best memories; their first kiss, their engagement, their marriage, and summer holidays near Hermione's house.

I remember

The swing that never swung straight

And it scared me as it twirled so fast

But you were always there

To steer me straight

And the spinning stopped

And I saw where to go

You've been gone so long

And again I feel

Like I'm spinning too fast

I can't see where I'm going anymore

And I find myself waiting

Down by the swing

Waiting for you

I know you won't come

I know you can't come

But I know that I'll wait for you

I'm flying through the air

It always feels that way

But the swing begins to spin

I won't let it

I swing straight

Without your help

I don't need you

You're gone now anyway

I'll live fine without you

Though if I had the choice...

But I know that doesn't matter

Again the swing spins

And again I try to stop it

But it's out of my control

I spin faster and faster

My surroundings blending

Everything's a blur

The tears might have helped with that

I feel your hands upon my waist

I know your not really there

I know I must turn around

Turn around to see only air

But I wonder how long I can stay

Feeling your hands on my back

Even if I know your not there

The swing has stopped now

Without your help I know

And I know I must turn and face you

Turn to face the air

My eyes close to hold back the tears

That escape despite my efforts

To run down my face

I turn around

Knowing delay is useless

But I can't help but keep my eyes closed

I still feel your hands upon my waist

And now your breath upon my face

Is that your voice that I now hear?

Are those your tears mixed with my tears?

I wonder if I could stay with you

Spend an eternity here

Is this the most I can ever get of you now?

A mirage of your hands on me

Your words with me

Your tears to feel

Your breath to breathe

I know I'll never

Feel your body, see your mouth

Taste your lips, or feel your heart

All I can do is

Feel your hands, hear your mouth

Taste your tears, feel you breath

Will it be enough?

I know I can't be happy with these small things

I know there all I have

But it isn't enough

And it isn't okay

Though your voice keeps telling me so

I must open my eyes

And face the truth

There is no way to prepare for what I know is there

So I open my eyes

Which immediately fill with tears

I'm robbed of words as I collapse

But he really is there

To catch me and keep me from spinning

I don't know how, but he's here