Throughout Infinity

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Chapter Three-Holiday Horror

White is a very lonely color. In terms of pigment, it pales and thins all other colors, blanching a strong, vibrant red to a mellow pink or dark black to a lighter shade of grey; it is a lack of strength and emotion in color. In terms of light, it reflects, shunning all other beams from itself, living its life devoid of warmth. It is the isolating blizzard, the single cloud on a sunny day, the lonely caps on waves...

From Permafrost By: karei

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Draco looked at himself in the mirror. What is wrong? Is my body not good enough for her? Is that why she refuses me? No, we're perfect together... it's just that few words... we're cousins now. We weren't before and everything was okay. Dumbledore had to say something and now it's ruined. I'm trembling. Why? Why am I so emotional now?

Yes, Harry opened me up to caring when we killed Voldemort. Hermione with her beauty taught me that to lust was okay. Ron, that bastard, showed me that friends are important. Ginny, fair beautiful Ginny, has destroyed me. I am no longer Draco the cold hearted Malfoy. I am Draco the weak loving Malfoy. Why doesn't that bother me? Why do I want to smile and cry and love? This isn't me. What has happened to me?

"Master, Mr. Woods would like to ask you to reconsider quitting." Dobby said to Draco trying to keep his gaze away from his wayward naked master.

Draco turned and walked behind the dressing screen. "Tell Oliver I will do no such thing. I am happy this way. I have enough money to last me my life time and I don't need a job such as a Quidditch player to get any." That's not the reason I left.

He didn't hear a reply and assumed the house elf have left. Slipping on his bathrobe he picked up a near by bottle of vodka. Of course, his mother didn't approve of his latest drinking habit; he didn't like it either. It numbed the horrible pain of not being able to have Ginny. It nulled the anger that Colin had his greedy paws on his beautiful, lovable, sexy, mature, cousin Ginny.

He emptied the bottle with a few gulps as a vision of Colin and Ginny making love clouded his mind. He snarled with hate as his imagination made Ginny enjoy every second of it. "DAMN YOU!" Draco howled throwing the empty bottle across the room. It smashed into shards as it hit the door which moments after swung open to reveal Percy.

"Malfoy, You're a dangerous chap," Percy frowned, "although I'm sure it was a nice enjoyment for you I'm not here to have bottles pelted at me. Mother and Father insist I take you to Hogwarts with me. I have some business to take care of with Dumbledore about the upcoming Yule Ball. Do you mind coming, then again drinking was always more fun for you."

Draco sneered, "Of course, I wouldn't want pass up anytime with you c-o-u-s-i-n." The sight of Percy's cringe made Draco happy, Just like old time. Then again, You never regretted hurting their feelings before. Now you can't seem to stop wanting to cry. "I'll be down in the foyer in a couple of minutes, Wait for me."

Percy disappeared with a nod and Draco quickly got to work tidying up his hair that was turning a silver white color; with many well placed holding spells his hair looked perfect. Draco looked at his white skin and grimaced. He quickly casted some tanning spells and managed a gray, yet attractive look. Slipping on some high-class expensive robes he finished off his outfit with a handcrafted sword and the golden scabbard Arthur had given him. Draco then left the room happy with his flawless appearance.

He met Percy smiling only to find Percy did not return the favor. "What's wrong?" Draco said nonchalantly. What did I do now?

Percy suddenly broke out laughing; "I have never met a boy that takes as long as a girl to get dressed. What were you doing? Do you realize I've been waiting for twenty minutes?"

Draco couldn't believe it but his face was visibly hot with embarrassment.

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Seems Pansy's lineage was a terrible mix with her newfound werewolf gifts. Within three day her vampire beauty, from her great-great-grandmother whom lives in New York, her wizard abilities, and her werewolf gift from Lupin granted her pregnancy over quickly. She was in the Great Hall eating lunch when the suddenly pang of the wolf changing coming hit her. She dashed out of the room faster then most pregnant women after telling Snape what was happening.

Instantly Dumbledore called all classes to a stop for the rest of the day while all the teachers locked Pansy in a room to protect the rest of the students. What if she somehow got loose in werewolf form, well, no student wants to be dinner.

"So Severus how did she come about being a werewolf, I'm certain she wasn't one last year." Professor Spout said as they sat calmly around the door to an old unused room. I'd also like to know how you managed to get into bed with a girl under twenty when you yourself are over thirty.

Snape seemed unfazed by the fact Pansy was a werewolf; "Actually it's an interesting story. Pansy was, well, with Lupin for a good whole day. They went around shopping, according to her, and went they left to his house he failed to drink his wolfsbane, they began to procreate and he bit her in a fit of mad rage of trying to get out."

Professor Spout was white; "Her screaming has stopped. What does that mean?"

Snape turned to the door that suddenly began to rattle with stress as something beat against it. Ginny appeared suddenly appeared around the corner with Colin trailing close behind telling her to stop, that they knew what was here and weren't suppose to be there.

Snape looked deep into Ginny's eyes and saw a dark black brown holding strong determination, fiery strength, and command beyond anything that he could possess. Dumbledore too suddenly appeared around a corner.

Snape and Professor Spout in their moment of shock had the door slam against them as it crashed into the opposite wall. Dumbledore froze sudden unsure about something but Ginny continued with an inhuman growl. Colin was unmoving as he saw Ginny raise her wand and spit out a horrible dark curse that instantly put Pansy to floor.

"So you knew it. May I ask, did Stallion teach you?" Dumbledore said. Snape was baffled why was Dumbledore not taking care of the situation? Snape stared so hard at the scene of Dumbledore waiting for an answer, Colin white with fear, Ginny panting pale with fatigue, and Pansy the wolf out cold on the floor. A howl that sounded more like a cry broke the silence. Snape gasped at the sight of a mini werewolf cub with midnight black fur matted with blood and sweat.

"Good God! Ginny wake Pansy up!" Snape pleaded falling to the floor by the baby cub and hugging it tightly. Against her will Ginny stood up and waved her wand around chanting a strange forgotten wolf counter curse. Pansy suddenly reappeared as herself with her blonde hair in strangled knots. Her skin was flushed with pain and weakness. The cub Snape was holding turned into a small black haired human baby.

Ginny was down on the floor panting as she tried to stable her body, again the calling need for something came back, You Bitch! Get that damned crown! Don't you remember how important it was to Stallion... why can't you remember everything? With a quickly accio the crown was on the floor before her. She quickly placed it on and it began to hover. Strength, Ginny stood up strong again looking over the situation only to gasp at the sight of the cold gray eyes staring back her from the other side of the hallway.

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Draco looked at her in her glory; she's too beautiful to be my cousin. No one in her family can match my beauty, why can she? Why do I love her like I do even when I know she's my cousin? Why do I take in every insult and let it feed my lust for her?

"Sister. Do something with Malfoy, Mother made me bring him along and I don't need him bothering me while I'm with Dumbledore." Percy said seemingly over looking the naked Pansy, Snape holding a baby, and the unhinged misplaced door.

Draco smiled inwardly, Just like Percy not to care about that. What a brown nose, Draco looked at Ginny's bone crown, Oh, now that's something new. Very pretty on her strangely. Some how sexy, I like that... now if only she were wearing only that. NO! You bastard that's your cousin! Stop thinking that way. It's so hard; loving you that is, loving you and knowing what you are.

Draco suddenly lapsed into a daydream. Ginny suddenly stepped from her place in his daydream and wrapped her arms around him. She looked deep into his eyes and spoke, I love you Draco. My handsome Dragon, say it to me. Say it to me and mean it.

Draco snapped from dream with an anguishing sigh. He was walking behind Ginny but stopped as she turned and smiled to him, "Funny you know. A daydream is but a few seconds but moments past by in the real world. Some people learn to see both worlds."

Draco frowned, "Ginny, you really shouldn't continue on with this stupid facade. We're cousins, it's not right." It's not right but it's what I want. It's what you want. It's what we both wait; therefore we can not have it. Ginny, I love you.

Ginny turned back around not saying a thing as she led him on to her personal room. They were alone and he didn't like it, well not in the doing the right thing sense. She smiled at him softly, "I have some milk and cookies coming soon seeing as how the sun is setting and cookies are always a great night snack. Opetuim." Ginny said pointing her wand to the wall. Draco watched as the wall seemed to displace itself and the sun falling behind the trees of Hogsmeade came into view.

He smiled in awe, "Ginny, It's amazing. How- how did you learn such magic? I don't even know it after all my Dark Arts training when I was a death eater."

He wrapped his long arms around Ginny's shoulder as she leaned into him to enjoy to the view of the setting sun. "Draco remember when I asked you if you 'd love me even if I was a little different," She felt him nodded against her cheek, "I'm certain that you know what a meld is," He again nodded now worrying, she could sense it, "I- I melded with The First One." She could feel Draco's loss to grasp the subject; "She is Stallion, The girl who saved my body. Helped me keep Tom in line. Gave me the strength to live on for you. She is the first magic maker not of Avalon. We are one. I'm different now, that's probably why I'm more of a cocky bitch then normal."

Draco laughed, "I never said that." Though sometimes you are... I love you anyway. Your hair smells so good... what shampoo do you use?

Ginny laughed, "You didn't say that but you were thinking it. I use Magic Head and Shoulder. Draco, I love you too." He saw her face dimmed with realization that they could not be together. Ginny damned the fates that put life together for them, Why did you put us through loving each other when it's impossible!

Draco tried to keep the peace, "You're a mind reader," Ginny nodded, "then read my mind now..." Draco closed his eyes and concentrated hard on the dreams he often had of Ginny and himself together in bed.

She turned a bright red, "Draco, You really projected that one. It's still kind of hard for me to mind read because I still haven't tapped into all of Stallion's power. Draco, please... think of something less, overwhelming. Please." She closed her eyes reaching out to his mind; He was imaging himself naked getting dressed. She saw around his room and all the clothes thrown on the floor then she heard his voice as he had remembered himself thinking.

Is my body not good enough for her? Is that why she refuses me? No, we're perfect together... it's just that few words... we're cousins now. We weren't before and everything was okay. Dumbledore had to say something and now it's ruined. I'm trembling. Why? Why am I so emotional now? His pain echoed into her body and she collapsed with the power of it.

"You shouldn't dwell on it Draco. Let it go. You don't need to feel this much pain. There are other people you can be with, Blaise Zabini, for instance. She's a blossom of her own kind. She's so much prettier then me." But I'm the only one that deserves you! Damnit I'm the only what that should be able to see that pale white arse of yours! Damn you fates! I'd make a deal with the demons themselves to have you!

Draco nodded, "Yeah Blaise is pretty and she knows it. That, sweet cousin, is why she is a bitch to deal with. I remember last year, 'Draco you have to go the Yule Ball with me. You're the only Slytherin that looks good with me. I'm too pretty, only you can match my looks.' Ginny... love"

Ginny turned to the table by the fireplace and reluctantly smiled, "The snacks are here! Wasn't the sun pretty?" Draco nodded crowding around the table as he began to dip and bite at the food.

Draco looked at Ginny eyeing the food nervously, "What's wrong love?" SMACK. She didn't just... What is up with her? I don't get her, and right now I don't want to.

Ginny stared fire into Draco's heart, "GET OUT! COUSIN and don't you dare address me as love!"

Draco stumbled back, taking the table with him. He was suddenly covered in cookies and milk. He didn't care about dignity or pride right now, just revenge. He closed his eyes and thought hard. Pansy moaning his name, Hermione kissing him, before there was a her and Harry mind you, Blaise having sex with him, several one-night stands, and one or two mixed house affairs in his last year.

He strode out of the room before her tears of pain and anger could be seen, hurting her hurt him, but then again she deserved that one.

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Tom looked upon the castle with disdain. Even with a new body he couldn't get to that girl. He wanted her so much. Ginny, his soul possession since he emerged from the diary. The first one to see his secrets, the ones he wanted her to see. The first one to be brought into his book, the first one he made love to, granted it wasn't real sex, just thoughts connecting, him the Diary Tom. Who knew whom the hell the real Tom had first, of course Diary Tom didn't care. Ginny was his one goal, next to conquering the Wizarding World that is.

The fires that kept him going, the only one to defy, yet love him. The only one who defied him and he loved for it. His Ginny, no other could posses her. He already had the boys who had laid hands on her in his mind. Harry Potter, the one that if Ginny hadn't liked would never have had a battle with him in his second year. Colin Creevey, Ginny's current boyfriend who had even got so far as to touch Ginny where even Tom's diary powers couldn't go. Draco Malfoy, once loyal death-eater, now traitor, cousin, and ill thinker of Tom's desire, he should be damned happy he is still alive.

How does such a beautiful girl like Ginny fall in love with a worm like you Malfoy? I mean yes I'm for the Dark Side but I was never a traitor, You'll pay for thinking of Ginny is such ill manners.

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Night had fallen and Ron stood in an alley by an all night café heater hoping to get warm. Why did he run away? He couldn't figure it out. His mind snapped, yes, he had to get away, yes, he did get away, yes, but, what now? Suddenly the door crashed open and Ron was pushed to the floor. A girl with platinum red hair appeared from hind the door holding a large box. Ron open his mouth before his mind could think, "Do you need help?" I'm the one who needs help.

The girl laughed, "Sure. Thank you very much." She looked at him with dark moss colored eyes, red freckles speckled across her face and the scary paleness of her face were imprinted on Ron's mind before the door closed shut and the light was gone.

"Hold on a moment," Ron said to the girl, pulling out his wand, "Lumos!" tucking his wand into his pocket he took the box into his arms. Good God! You fool you could have just given the Ministry your position.

The girl smiled at him showing off her pearly whites. Strange she looks so pretty but her body is mis-shappened some how. Her legs, that's it! She's overly tall, much like me. Is she wearing make up? Of course she is, here the girls can not live without make up, she looks like that powder itself, she needs to ease up. The girl spoke after a second blushing, "I do not look like powder! What Ministry are you talking about?"

Ron gulped, "You're a mind reader? Good grief, No wonder you took no notice of my magic." It was rather careless of me. Well, I guess I must report you. Ron pushed up the box, "Where do you want this? Where is your local Magic Council?"

The girl seemed baffled but Ron felt the tingle as she searched his mind. He let her flow in and out of thoughts suddenly her voice popped into his head, I didn't notice your magic because your casual use of it spread to me... you're a dream linker? Rather impressive would you like to come home with me?

Ron smiled, You know so much about me, Time I learned about you. Sure, lead the way, after all I have been keeping clean with wand magic the past week or so, I'd like to feel a real bath. Do you mind?

The girl shook her head and lead the way to her home.

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Hermione swung the door open and switched on the lights. Harry was out cold on the floor to her surprise. "Oh honey." She whispered. Waving her wand she floated him into his room and began to undress him. He accidentally put a hand in her face. She instantly became nausea at the smell. Alcohol. She cringed and finished dressing Harry in his sleeping clothes.

She pulled her wand out and awoke Harry with a spell. He was woozy but suddenly realized her, "HERMIONE! Oh darling! You're okay. I'm so," he kissed her neck, "so," he kissed her cheek, "so," he kissed her mouth, "happy that you're okay." He concluded hugging her.

She growled with anger, "Why were you drinking?"

Harry looked her in the eyes with shock; "I was so worried. I was so scared. I had to get something to make me forget that pain."

Hermione glared, "Harry that's why I have relaxing potions! You're going to be a father and the first thing I bet you want our child to learn is how to drink a wine bottle in one gulp."

Harry frowned, "Hermione that is physical impossible, or so I think. I did it just this once, well there was the bachelor party, but that's the not the point. I'm sorry, I didn't mean to hurt you-"

Hermione stopped his babbling with a tear streaking down her face, "Harry, you didn't mean to but you did it. Please just shut up, Shut up and let's forget this happened. Go to the kitchen and clean up your mess before I see it again. Please."

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Ginny yawned finally caught up on all her Head Girl work, I did okay, Considering I missed nearly two weeks and I managed to catch up in one. She walked down the corridor to see Draco sleeping on the wall by the portrait that led to her room. "Malfoy! Wake up." She commanded kicking him softly.

Draco darted awake pulling his sword from its scabbard; it stood poised at her throat. He suddenly smirked and pulled the sword away, "Bitch, Why did you take so long to get here. My arse is frozen from the damned cold floor, you suddenly want me to die of pneumonia don't you?"

Ginny rolled her eyes, "Portrait," the rather new portrait of the new staff with Hermione in the lead waited for the password, "Linkin Park."

Portrait Hermione frowned at the muggle band that she didn't approve of, "Oh fine load of rubbish! Really Ginny listening to Swarm Lake is more fruitful. On with you," Ginny held the portrait closed on Draco as it began to argue with him, "No, No, boys are not allowed! You can not go in there at night, I won't allow it!"

Draco howled, "I need to sleep in there! I can't stand the floor much longer and there aren't anymore guestrooms! I'm not important enough, all the other rooms went to Percy and the Wizarding School Delegates! Please Hermione let me in."

There was silence and suddenly Draco was running in hoping not to get hit by Portrait Hermione, "Bugger, you really don't like me. What did I do to you?"

Ginny rested in a large comfort chair, "You became my cousin." You became my cousin and stopped loving me! You are so hateful now. Why!

Draco kneeled down in front of her, again seemingly like a whole different person. "Ginny, just because we're cousins doesn't mean I've stopped loving you, It just means I can't shag your arse off, a Pity really."

She felt tear well up into her eyes and she laughed as she hugged Draco close, "Draco say it please." Say you love me. Tell it to me. Whisper it in my ear, moan it on my throat, and think it as you kiss me! Please Draco just say it!

He shifted his body and suddenly had his face buried in her collar sucking softly on her neck. She groaned softly as she heard him utter I love you to her throat. His mouth moved to her ear, as he softly kissed it and again uttered the words I love you. She knew he was thinking those three amazing words as he drew them both to the ground kissing her the whole while.

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Ginny awoke to find Draco draped over her on her bed, Did we? She recalled the latest events and softly frowned, No we didn't. She remembered him stripping her of her cloak and school vest. He somehow managed to pick her up off the floor and stride across the room, open the door, and deposit them both on her bed in the next room. There she lost her shirt, as did he. Realizing that they could not stop he began to softly moan a sleeping spell and they both dropped to sleep before any damaged could be done.

Draco, why did you ruin it? I'm sure it would have been amazing! You look so beautiful like that now. Sleeping half on me, half not, partially undressed, eyes closed, thinking of me perhaps? She chuckled softly at her own thought.

As if on cue, Draco began muttering her name and squirming. She smiled and feeling no guilt about reaching into his mind and seeing his dream. She was gifted with the sight of her and him making love, not just sex. She loved him so and found herself crying. I can't have him.

She slipped away from him and got dressed for dinner. Only to have to owl post arrive with a most upsetting letters,

Ginny,

Where is Ron? He has gone missing since you returned to school, perhaps before you got to Malfoy manor. Darling you have to tell me what you can do with these new powers of yours, you must be able to do something. Do not tell Percy, I fear he is a reason Ron is gone.

Your loving mother,

Molly Weasley.

She opened the second that was written on strange paper with white, blue, and red lines and three holes to the left side,

Ginny,

It's me Ron. Don't ask where I am. Don't you dare show Harry this letter, or Hermione for that matter! Please trust me on this one I'll come to your dreams soon. I'll tell you all when the time comes. Tell mother, God help us if she realizes I'm gone, that I'm fine and not to worry. Please.

Ron

Before Ginny could write a reply the pigeon that delivered the message was gone. Molly's owl stood waiting, with a quick, 'Ron is okay', it was off. Draco was by Ginny's side at the Gryffindor table, "I felt your pain. What's wrong? Ginny is everything all right. Are you hurt? Did I do anything to you last night?"

After a moment of silence Ginny broke out into tears pushing her face into Draco's cloaked chest, "Ron! Ron is missing, He won't tell me where he is! Mother is worried and she thinks I can do something about it! I can't! Draco I can't take this! Help me please! I can't take this stress!"

Draco held her close putting his chin on the top of her head. He ran his hand over her head stroking lightly and with loving care. His body didn't reacted with sexual desire, which he was glad for. The only tension he held was one of the heart, it pained him to see Ginny like this. He hugged her tightly drowning the sobs in his chest as several people began to gather around. They began to pat Ginny gently on the back mouthing questions of concern to Draco, whom they did not know was a past Slytherin, save a select few.

Colin looked from the other side of the Gryffindor table with shallow slits for eyes, There's something going on that I don't know about and Ginny doesn't trust me enough to confide in me. I'm going to find out. Quickly with cat stealth Colin crept and pushed through the small crowd of four or five.

"Ginny, Darling what's wrong?" Colin said pulling the oh-so-reluctant Ginny away from the snobby bastard Draco. She's my girlfriend, hands off git.

She looked at him, her face twisted with pain, "Oh Colin!" She cried pulling him down back into Draco's lap and Colin against her. Her kiss was frantic as she tried to drain all her pain into Colin. Colin groaned softly as heat began to spread over his body. She quickly pushed him off scared, "Oh God. Draco where's Percy. Please get him."

Draco, When did it go from Malfoy to Draco? Colin was abashed at Ginny's sudden forgetfulness of his presence. He watched with angry eyes as Draco squeezed Ginny's hand tightly in his, nodded, and quickly disappeared to the head table. Colin looked at her with pained eyes, as before her face twisted into pain at the sight of him. Why?

Percy pushed Colin out of the way only seconds later. Hoisting Ginny up and pushed her gently into Draco's arms taking command, "Dra- Cousin, Take Ginny up to her room and try to calm her down, be nice. I'll be up as soon as possible, I have to get some potions from Madam Pomfrey for this. Okay," He paused looking lovingly at his sister and gently patted down her wild hair, "I'll be up to talk about what ever is bothering you soon okay?"

Ginny nodded quietly as Draco led her off at a brisk gentle pace out of the room. Colin felt the invisible cat hairs on his body raise up his spine, Mine, mine, mine; hands off you dirty Malfoy. Suddenly Percy's words caught up to his brain, Dra-Cousin. Colin suddenly went white with shock, My Ginny... cousin to that snake!

Colin dashed around the corner, turned into his cat form waiting for Percy, then gave chase to him after he left the hallway, last stop Ginny's room. He thought.