Unconditional Love

You. Just look at you. You're pretty; no- not pretty, but gorgeous. Beautiful. You are a complete goddess who doesn't deserve to live with us, the mortals. Every guy in the world wouldn't need a second glance at you to say 'I do' in front of an altar.

I am not every guy though. I am one of the most misunderstood people here at Hogwarts and you don't notice it. You just ...don't.

Your eyes are never directed at me. I'm like a little pest, whom you want to get rid of before he ruins your plans with...him.

I won't even say his name; not because I do not want to, but because I can't. The simple pronunciation makes me as cold as a rock. It only takes a name to make my blood boil, to make my murdering desires to come back, and to make my love for you grow stronger. I can't help it.

Every day, I try. I try not to love you anymore, to start off the relationship I left behind such a long time ago, but I can't. I just can't. No matter how hard I try.

Every morning I wake up to the thought of loving you no more and every time I am wrong.

As soon as I enter the Great Hall and I sit on my house table, I look directly into yours. And there you are, there you sit. Making loving eyes at him, holding hands with him, searching his features with such warming looks of content.

I'd kill; I'd do anything just to be able to receive such looks from you, just to get to hold your hand.

But no. Your looks, or at least, those looks are never directed at me. I get looks from you, oh yes, the looks reserved for me and me alone: hateful, loathing-filled looks.

I know you hate me, but I still won't give up hope that someday you'll love me.

You and him.

You're the Hogwart's Couple, did you know that?

Do you have time for yourself alone after you're all done with him? I wonder....

And when is it that I'm not wondering these days? I have been keeping quiet in all of my classes these days; I'm not myself anymore.... I need you so badly it hurts....

I don't even make a fool of myself in class, and I don't draw attention to myself any longer, but do you even notice? I keep on volunteering to the usual pain just to let you know that Gryffindors....That he is not the only one who can be brave. I can be brave and loyal too, when it comes to that.

Do you notice though?

Or are you too obsessed with him, too fuzzed up about him, to notice? I wish you were that obsessed about me, but no....

In your beautiful blue eyes, he and only he alone exists in the whole wide world.

He; Harry.

Damned Harry.

Harry. James. Potter.

He has messed with my life ever since I met him.

That's all you see, and it's his fault you don't see me. What has he gotten that I do not? What makes you stay with him when you could have any guy in the universe?

Is it the looks? I highly doubt it!

Is it the nobility? Is it the name? Is it the money?

Maybe.

What is it then? Why is this puzzling me too much? Can I be falling more deeply for you?

Definitely. I know it now. I love you with all my heart, with all my soul, with all my.....Everything. I love you so much you can't even imagine. I'm a fool, and I keep on loving you no matter how many hateful looks you give me.

You're my whole life.

Yes, I mean you.

Every night, before I go to sleep, I lay in my bed and think about you. About what you're doing in that particular instant, and imagining what you look like, feel like, smell like when you are soundly and peacefully asleep.

Are you also thinking about me the same way I'm thinking of you? I hope so. I really do. It would be my absolute joy and dream.

I love you. And you know it. I would give my life for yours any day of the week.

And because of this love, I will not let you marry him. I will never let you become a Potter.

I can imagine what your name would turn out to be if I give up, and, seriously, I can laugh at it! Really laugh at it!

Don't you realize, Day? He does not love you! You are just a little affair that will be done and over with as soon as Cho Chang apologizes for her actions toward Potter.

He doesn't love you, and even if he did, he would never be able to love you as I did, do, and will love you for life! If he ever marries you, it will only be for compromise. Just to show Chang she was wrong in ever leaving him! You'd only be a trophy wife! That's it and that's all you need to know about your future!

I will never let him do that! I will never let him hurt you, never!

I just wish you realize the truth before it is too late. I hope that when you know I was saying the truth, you love me and give me the looks you give that stupid Half-Blood every morning! I wish that with all my heart....

If that happens- when, I mean, when that happens- I could drop dead right there and then , but the happiest man nonetheless....

He will become tired of you; soon enough he'll drop you and this whole affair... And I'll be waiting. I'll always be waiting for you, Love of My Life.

Always, remember that.

Always....