How I Feel About You

How do you feel? Do you even let yourself feel? They do so much to you and yet you seem to take it all and not retaliate. Whenever I see you, you're with people who know nothing about you. They don't know what you dream about, what you'd like to do in your spare time, and what kind of people you like. I know now.

You stay with them as a follower; to escape the stigma of loneliness. I know. I'm not a follower. I don't have friends. I have minions. They'll do anything I want them to. That's lonely. No will say,

"Don't you feel sad? Don't you wish you had more?"

How, may I ask will I wish for what I've never seen if I cant even comprehend what it'll be like to have it. I see my other housemates, their friends, and their friendly out bursts. But I only feel disconnected. They make plans for the weekend and the few minutes stolen between classes. I don't. There's nothing to look forward to. I've strived for perfection all my life and if there's one thing I've learned is this: Perfection can't be obtained if you have activities and people to distract you from it.

I see the Gryffindors. They'd give up their lives for their friends and family. I think that that is extremely stupid. What people have yet to understand is that it's not people you have to abandon things for but the principle.

Although giving up my life for someone is not something I'd mind right now. I've heard people calling you stupid and insane. They say you've become unhinged. I think that's a reason why I admire you. No one will expect great deeds from you. No one will laugh at you behind your back, they'll do it to your face. They think that you don't care. I care for you.

Let me care for you. I'll try to be better. I'll try to put the fears of my future behind me and make your time well spent and worthwhile. I want you to see me as something more. As someone who's a person and who has feelings and affections but had yet to find someone to reveal them to you.

I have no one to turn to. My 'friends' won't understand. My family is either dead or as good as dead. They are no help at all. I'm driving myself insane. There's only so much I can take without breaking. My teachers tell me to be vigilant at all times, in case someone decides to attack and rid the world of my unseemly presence. That doesn't seem like such a bad idea either. So much time spent alone with my self. Me, myself and I. Maybe if I do it right, it will be you and me and everything that is we.

Let me erase your fears for you,

Let me fight all that fights you,

Let me looks beneath your lids,

Let me see your soul,

Let me brush away your tears,

Let me make you mine.

Tonight I'm going to brave my fears and see if I can speak to you. I'm going to see if I can survive the honesty of your eyes and the gentleness that is you.

"Can I help you with that?"

"Oh! No thanks! They take my things all year but by morning it's all back after I've put up these signs."

"How do you put up with this? Why do you nothing?" I was angry now. They had no right to treat her like this.

"Sometimes, it's easier to disconnect..." The faraway look in her oh-so-blue eyes seemed even more distant.

"Don't you wish they treated you with a little more respect?"

"It depends what you see respect as. Id rather that they didn't bother me and try to pry in my life. I know what they call me."

"Why?"

"See, that's the pleasure of being you and me. They can think whatever they want about us, but when the time comes and we reveal ourselves..." A blond strand blew across her face. "They can pre judge us all they want but they will never be able to guess our aspirations. Isn't that good in a way? We don't think like them. We are different we are better. We dare to dream."

It was time.

"I..."

"I know you stare at me."

"Luna, will you go out with me?"

"I. I don't know what to say."

"Say yes! Please! You have no idea..."

"All right Draco. If you go Malady Green hunting with me to the forest before we leave tomorrow and visit me during the summer, find me a pet garden snake between all this tell me you love me."

"I love you Luna."