The Last Letter to You

Dear Professor Snape,

This will be my last letter to you. As you know this is my last year in Hogwarts and you have done nothing to help me though my emotions for you. Sitting in your classroom for the past seven years you barely acknowledge my existence. Are you ashamed for liking a student or, are you mad for me telling you the truth two years ago? Whatever the answer is it won't take back the moments we had together.

It won't take back everything we've done. We walked around the corridors at night holding each others hands. Talking to you every night made me feel as if someone noticed I exist. I've noticed that you felt happier when someone cared for you and listened to your stories about your horrible past. You poured you warm heart into me. I never really knew that a strict teacher like you even had a heart until I met you. Every student you have taught has ended up hating you. I had ended up loving you. Your hugs kept me warm in the cold walkthroughs. Every night we'd say goodbye you would kiss me as if you meant love and compassion. Those nights I will never forget.

When people were not watching us we would hold hands, sit next to each other in the quidditch stands playing footsie. You would never touch me in any sexual manner unless I would let you. You stayed a gentleman around me and watched your P's and Q's. When I had trouble with my life I came to you for help. It seemed like you cared. You would smile at me with a gleam in your deep eyes and say "everything will be better someday". I sure hope so professor, I sure do hope. If this is "someday" then everything is not better or ok or great. You hurt me when you don't acknowledge me

Now that I am leaving I hoped for you to say something but for the past month you haven't. You got mad at me when I told you "I want to be with you forever." You walked away and never spoke or looked at me since. You don't care. You didn't love me, but I did. I loved you so much now I'm confused if I should give you this letter saying goodbye. But my feelings have to get out sometime. You have chosen to break my heart instead. I have chosen to send this letter. I want my words to be spoken for once without you turning away and ignoring me.

Don't worry about me, because I will always love you even though you didn't love me back. Maybe next time you would care for the ones you loved or assumed to love. You did mess up this time; just don't break another heart again, because you broke mine. Good bye professor. You always will be in my heart and dreams. I will always love you.

Sincerely,

Your only loving student.