- Rating:
- PG-13
- House:
- Astronomy Tower
- Ships:
- Hermione Granger/Severus Snape
- Characters:
- Hermione Granger Severus Snape
- Genres:
- Romance Drama
- Era:
- In the nineteen years between the last chapter of
- Spoilers:
- Half-Blood Prince Deadly Hallows (Through Ch. 36)
- Stats:
-
Published: 07/01/2011Updated: 08/12/2011Words: 19,666Chapters: 7Hits: 410
Never Give Up, It's A Wonderful Life
SwissMiss
- Story Summary:
- When Hermione Granger is assigned Severus Snape's old quarters, she never expects to find his ghost haunting them. But is everything really as it appears? SS/HG.
Chapter 07
- Posted:
- 08/12/2011
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Chiodos - "Closed
Eyes Still Look Forward"
Chapter 7
The next morning, Hermione was pleased to find Snape standing in
front of the window-picture out in her living room when she emerged
from her morning toilet. She'd taken longer than was usual for her,
it being awkward to wash so much hair under the tap in the
bathtub.
"Good morning, Professor," she said with a
friendly smile. "Have you been here long?"
Snape
scowled. "Lie-a-bed. The sun's been up for over an
hour."
Hermione came over to admire the landscape. The
sun shone in orange shafts over the nearby mountains, and the grounds
below were still covered in a thick mist. "It's beautiful, isn't
it?" Hermione said.
Snape grunted, which Hermione took as
agreement he was too embarrassed to admit to. They continued to watch
the scene, the mists barely perceptibly shifting and thinning as the
warmth of the morning rays dissipated them.
"I'll be
seeing Malfoy later today," Hermione finally said, when the
silence became pressing.
"We have established that my
memory of events within these rooms is impeccable."
"Do
you have any advice for me? The last time I saw him, I was being
tortured by his sister-in-law in his drawing room," Hermione
said, her voice becoming thin. "I'm not quite sure what the
etiquette books say about that."
The corners of Snape's
lips turned down, and his nostrils flared while he continued to stare
straight ahead at the magical window. "You will have him at a
disadvantage. You are a witness to his guilt. He will want to give
you something to assuage his conscience. But he will never admit it.
Let it seem as if you want much more, but will settle for this small
concession."
"It may be that he really doesn't know
anything," Hermione pointed out.
"He will do
anything to rid himself of this obligation to you. He will either
give you the information himself, or offer to put you in touch with
someone else, who in turn may or may not know something helpful."
"I
won't give up until we have closure for you," Hermione promised.
"You deserve at least that much."
Snape had no
answer to that. After a bit, he asked in a low voice, "Was it
the Cruciatus?"
Hermione nodded, understanding that he
was referring to her torture at the hands of Bellatrix Lestrange.
"Yes."
"Do you still experience...
aftereffects?"
Hermione shifted uncomfortably.
"Sometimes. Just a twinge. In my back." In fact, sometimes
the 'twinge' kept her paralyzed with pain for several seconds.
"I
created a nerve relaxant potion which I found useful. Unfortunately,
it has disappeared along with everything else I kept in my private
stock here. Perhaps it found its way into Poppy's stores. There was
no label. It was in a blue flask."
"Thank you,"
Hermione said quietly. "I'll make sure to ask her." Her
stomach took the brief silence then as a cue to growl loudly.
"I
guess I should be getting up to breakfast," Hermione said with a
rueful smile. "I'm going to be busy working most of the day. I
need to get my classroom set up. I'll be sure to come down and report
on what I find out from Malfoy. Feel free to... make yourself at
home," she added, feeling a bit foolish, as this had been his
home before it was hers.
"I won't be here long, if you
are leaving. I do not seem to be able to remain here when you are
absent," Snape informed her.
Hermione looked at him in
surprise. "Really? How curious. So last night..."
"After
you left, I remained here for a brief time. A couple of minutes at
most. Following that, I recall nothing until I re-appeared here this
morning."
"And I've rarely been here without you
appearing, either," she said, experiencing that familiar feeling
of excitement when pieces began falling into place. "I wonder if
that's a clue. You appear whenever there is a living person
here."
"I did not appear when Minerva cleaned these
rooms out," Snape pointed out.
"Maybe there was some
other trigger then, something that called you back, that only began
after Minerva had been here. Maybe she removed something important,
or disturbed something. Something in your box, maybe?" Hermione
jumped over to the small chest she'd left on the table, thoughts of
breakfast forgotten, putting her hands behind her back to stop
herself from opening it right away.
Snape moved over next to
her. "I can hardly imagine what." He gave her an odd look.
"Go ahead, then, open it! You look as if you're about to burst
with curiosity."
"Are you sure it's all right? I
don't want you to think I'm taking liberties with your
things."
"I've said you may open it! That was one
thing I always detested about teaching: having to repeat myself
constantly."
Hermione carefully undid the catch and swung
the lid open. She wasn't sure what she'd been expecting, but the
actual contents didn't look very exciting. Just some papers and odds
and ends. She took them out one by one and laid them carefully on the
table.
"That was my first wand," Snape said to the
first item. "We couldn't afford one from Ollivanders, so my
mother scrounged one up from some acquaintance of hers or other. It
never worked properly for me. Slughorn saw to it that I got a new one
in my second year. I had to make sure to take the old one home with
me over the holidays, though, so she wouldn't know."
Hermione
didn't probe further. The next item was familiar: a broad, green,
Slytherin scarf. Not one of the long, striped ones that the students
wore in the winter, but one of the old, cravat-style ones that were
worn with formal robes.
"We used to have to earn those,"
Snape remarked. "You couldn't just owl-order them from Madam
Malkin's. I didn't get one until fifth year. Malfoy got one as a
first-year, of course."
Something golden glinted down in
the corner of the box. Hermione reached in and extracted a plain gold
ring. She recognized it as a wedding band immediately. Her heart
began thumping hard in her chest. Had Snape been married?
"That
was my mother's," Snape announced, putting an end to Hermione's
train of thought. "She took it off when my father died, and kept
it in a box on her dresser. She never got over the fact that their
marriage failed. I think she mourned the marriage more than she
mourned him personally. Then, when she died a couple of years ago, I
didn't know whether to have her buried with it or not. I thought if
she'd wanted it, she would have worn it, if only around her neck. On
the other hand, she never threw it out. I couldn't bring myself to,
either. And I suppose Minerva fell victim to the same
sentimentality."
"Maybe she thought it was yours,"
Hermione suggested. "I mean, your wedding band. Maybe she
thought you'd been married. I thought it was yours, just now,"
Hermione explained, shyly.
Snape snorted. "I spent barely
a day out of Minerva McGonagall's sight from the day I set foot in
Hogwarts, apart from holidays, of course. Believe me, I couldn't have
hidden a secret wife from her." He regarded Hermione with a
measured look. "But I am... oddly flattered you thought I might
have married at some point. What did you think happened to my
proposed wife?"
Hermione was irritated at his poking fun
at her. "I didn't think that far. It was only for a moment
anyway, until you explained." She reached into the box again,
this time pulling out a piece of paper that was torn in half.
Snape
leaned over to read it, then stood up abruptly, sniffed, and walked
away.
"Burn that," he said shortly.
"What
is it?" Hermione said, resisting the urge to read it without his
permission.
"I said burn it!" he shouted. "What
did I just say about repeating myself?"
"It might be
something important," Hermione hedged. "You kept it for
some reason, after all."
Snape stalked back to Hermione
and put his face so close to hers she would have felt his breath, had
he had any.
"Fine," he hissed. "Do what you
want with it. It means nothing to me. Burn all of it!"
With
an angry wave of his hand and an exclamation of frustration, he tried
to sweep everything off the table, to no effect.
"I'm
sorry, but I'm not going to burn your things," Hermione said as
she gathered everything back up and put it back into the box.
"Something's upset you, but when you've calmed down --"
"Do
not treat me like a child!" Snape roared, clenching his fists
and pounding them against his forehead in frustration.
"Then
don't act like one!" Hermione said firmly. She punctuated her
statement by snapping the lid shut. "I know this is a difficult
situation for you, not being able to do anything yourself, but you
don't need to take it out on me. I am going up to breakfast now. I
expect to have some news for you when I return, after I've seen
Malfoy."
But Snape had retreated to the corner and
demonstratively turned his back on Hermione.
"Things are
going to get better soon, Professor," she said more gently.
"Just hold on a little while longer. I promise."
======
At
breakfast, Hermione asked Professor McGonagall if she'd been able to
get the portrait moved out of storage yet.
"Not yet,
Hermione," Minerva said, sounding slightly harried. "It
doesn't do us any good to have the portrait downstairs without anyone
able to check the charms on it, and if necessary re-cast them. I need
to get the artist to come to Hogwarts personally, and I promise I'll
send him an owl today. As soon as I'm done with this dreadful
inspection by the Governors." She shuddered.
Minerva
held a staff meeting after breakfast so that all of the professors,
House heads, and other staff could brief her on any progress being
made in their areas, in preparation for the Governors' visit.
Hermione felt decidedly odd sitting around the table with so many of
her former professors and other adults who had been in positions of
authority over her only a few months earlier. She felt slightly
naughty, as if she'd crashed the meeting and it was only a matter of
time before someone called her out.
No one did, though, and
following the meeting, Hermione and Professor Vector went up to the
classroom they would be sharing, to discuss scheduling, logistics,
the arrangement of furnishings, and so on. She was tempted to tell
the Arithmancy professor about Professor Snape, but for some reason
refrained from doing so. It seemed like the sort of thing Snape
wouldn't want spread around; at least not until he had been properly
returned to his portrait, or whatever the solution turned out to
be.
The Governors were scheduled to arrive after lunch. Only
the Headmistress, the House heads, and Mr. Filch were included in the
tour, but Hermione wanted to get a glimpse of Malfoy before she had
to see him one-on-one, in order to prepare herself mentally. Feeling
even more like a naughty schoolgirl than she had during the staff
meeting, she settled herself behind a column on a landing above the
entrance hall, and cast a Disillusionment Charm on herself for good
measure.
The Governors arrived in a group -- all twelve of
them -- but it didn't take any time at all for Hermione to spot
Malfoy's white-blond head in their midst. He looked thinner than she
remembered, his aquiline nose now nearly as prominent as Snape's own
hooked one. He was still a flamboyant dresser, though, and Hermione
could fairly see the velvet on his cape shimmering even from her
vantage point.
Once everyone had divested themselves of their
cloaks and capes, the Headmistress ushered the group into the Great
Hall to begin the tour with a welcome speech, and Hermione emerged
from her hiding place. She wished there were someone she could
discuss last-minute strategy with, but she didn't feel up to another
row with Snape. The man was in turns infuriating and fascinating. He
was making it exceedingly difficult to help him, but there was
something about him that made her not want to give up yet.
It
went beyond merely wanting to have her rooms to herself, or seeing
justice done. In her conversations with him, despite his bristly
exterior, she sensed a loneliness in him. He was someone who yearned
for companionship but didn't know how to go about getting it; or even
more, had yet to admit to himself that he desired it. He said he
wanted only to be left alone, yet the fact that he kept returning to
her quarters only when she was there had to mean something. She
didn't flatter herself to think it had anything to do with her
personally; the same thing would have happened if Dawlish or
Professor Trelawney had been quartered there instead. Although the
thought of Professor Snape barging in on the Divination professor in
her skivvies sent Hermione into a spasm of giggles.
In order
to distract herself and calm her nerves, Hermione decided to take a
walk around the grounds. It was a pleasant late summer's day, with a
gentle breeze that kept her from working up a sweat as she walked.
Invigorated by the fresh air after spending so many days indoors --
many of those hours below ground -- Hermione extended her stroll and
soon found herself on the familiar path to Hogsmeade village.
Rebuilding was well underway here as well, with stacks of
stones lying ready for a Magimason to charm them in place, and piles
of debris left next to the street, waiting to be Evanescoed. She had
no particular need of anything from the shops, and having just eaten
lunch less than an hour before, didn't feel like going into any of
the pubs, so she contented herself with walking down the main street,
greeting the occasional shopkeeper or resident she recognized from
earlier visits, or from the Battle, and acquainting herself with the
newest articles in the shop windows. Having spent so much of the past
year spent on the run and in hiding, she felt a bit as if she had
gone through a time warp.
Mindful of the time and not wanting
to miss her appointment with Malfoy, Hermione was about to start back
when she caught a glimpse of that familiar, old, run-down building on
the edge of town, and before she knew it, her feet were carrying her
down the path to the Shrieking Shack.
She wondered why it was
actually still standing, and who owned it. It was unusual for a piece
of property to remain empty and unimproved for so long. It was likely
that it had belonged to the school, at least back when Lupin was a
student. It would have been the only way to guarantee a safe place
for him to transform. But after he left school, why had Hogwarts held
onto it? Perhaps Dumbledore expected more werewolves to come -- and
perhaps they had, Hermione realized. She had no way of knowing how
many other werewolves had been educated at Hogwarts under Dumbledore
in the intervening years. It might even still be in use today. She
couldn't help but be intrigued at the thought that one of her fellow
students might have been a werewolf.
That was neither here nor
there, though. She stopped at the fence bordering the property and
looked at the weathered, gray siding, the peeling paint and
dilapidated roof. If it did belong to the school, and if it was
really being kept as a 'safe' place for werewolves to transform
without harming themselves and others, did it need to be in such a
state? She realized that the townspeople probably wouldn't willingly
agree to host transformed werewolves in their midst, and that the
property was better accepted under the ruse of being abandoned and
perhaps haunted. But this was nearly the twenty-first century! Surely
with the proper precautions, and the implementation of Wolfsbane, a
place could be provided for werewolves to transform without danger to
anyone and still maintain their dignity.
Hermione creaked open
the gate and approached the old house. The windows were dark, as if
it were nighttime inside, and huge spider webs draped down from every
eave. Really, as long as they were rebuilding everywhere else, would
it take that much more effort to pitch in and give this place a
facelift? She knew Minerva had more than enough on her plate at the
moment, but she meant to mention it to her.
In order to form a
better picture of the state of the property, and estimate how much
work would need to be done inside, Hermione mounted the steps, taking
note of the missing boards, and found that the front door was not
even locked -- she shook her head at that; merely the rumor of ghosts
would hardly keep curious townspeople out during the full
moon.
Inside, it was another world. The smell, the dim
lighting...Hermione was instantly transported back to that night
during the Battle. She hadn't consciously made the connection on
approaching, hadn't thought it could hit her so hard. She lit her
wand to dispel the images, but even then could fairly hear
Voldemort's unearthly voice, feel the vibration of Snape's body
hitting the floor. Knowing that for her own sanity, she should leave
this place, she nevertheless found herself inexorably drawn to the
room where it had happened. The door was standing ajar -- had they
left it like that when they removed Snape's body? She pointed her
light at the floor, and could see a slightly darker path in the dust,
leading from this room to the front door. Inside the room, the floor
was full of swirls and patterns where the dust had been disturbed by
many feet.
And there, unmistakable, covering a good half of
the floor, was a huge dark stain: Snape's blood. Had no one been in
to clean it up? Hermione wondered with disgust and affront. She
lifted her wand to perform a cleaning spell, then hesitated; maybe
there was a reason it had been left? Or maybe it was impossible to
remove, having been caused by Dark magic. She kept her wand up in a
defensive posture, made uneasy by the evidence of Snape's murder, and
took an uncertain step back. In doing so, she stepped on something
small and round, and nearly fell over.
She bent over, holding
her wand close to the ground, and saw a small brownish cylinder,
about an inch and a half long. A cork from a bottle of butterbeer.
There were several others as well, scattered back against the wall.
Hermione picked up the one she had stepped on. It was bad enough that
no one saw fit to maintain the property, or even clean up out of
respect for the victim after such a brutal murder... but apparently
the town's youth were now sneaking in and having parties. Absently,
she pocketed the cork. It was high time she got back to Hogwarts.
As
she walked, she became more and more worked up. Yes, there were many
things that needed urgent attention in order to open Hogwarts on time
for the start of term. Yes, the way the Ministry and the Governors
had structured things, there were too few people with too many
responsibilities. Yes, the living needed to look forward and improve
the world they had been left with. But, she couldn't help thinking,
Snape was also just one case. How many more bodies had been lost? How
many more crime scenes were left abandoned? How many more treasured
possessions had simply been disposed of or boxed up and
forgotten?
By the time she arrived back at the castle, she was
no longer nervous about meeting with Malfoy. In fact, she had worked
up enough righteous indignation to confront not only him but the rest
of the Governors as well with all of the injustices she had uncovered
and demand what exactly they were going to do about them. However,
she realized it wouldn't be prudent to make new accusations at this
time, not if she hoped to achieve her original goal of recovering
Snape's body. And so she resolved to remain calm and inoffensive, and
to follow Snape's advice and let Malfoy think he was doing her a
favor and repaying a debt.
Hermione found that she was just in
time; as she entered the main hall, the Headmistress was leading the
Governors and their entourage down the stairs, apparently at the
conclusion of their rounds.
Malfoy broke off from the group
when they reached the ground floor and approached Hermione with a
look of insincere pleasure on his face.
"Miss Granger!"
he effused. "I'm so pleased you contacted me. It is indeed
fortuitous that I find myself able to accommodate you so quickly. It
would have been inconvenient had you needed to come to the
Manor, n'est-ce pas?" He smirked.
"Quite,"
Hermione agreed frostily. She wasn't going to let him off the hook so
easily this time. "I assume the Headmistress did not mention
changing her mind about my employment in the course of the
afternoon?"
Malfoy was caught off-guard. "Pardon?"
"I'm
certain the Governors were informed of my appointment to the post of
Muggle Studies Professor."
"Yes, of course,"
Malfoy said testily, looking around at the other Governors, who were
loudly taking their leave from one another, but not so loudly as to
be unable to overhear their conversation.
"I must have
misheard you then -- and misread your note. I seem to have missed the
title 'Professor'."
Malfoy appeared to be maintaining his
facade only with difficulty.
"No doubt my hearing and
vision were compromised by the tortures I was subjected to
during the course of the recent unpleasantness," Hermione said
as sweetly as possible.
Malfoy scowled. "I presume you
have prepared a quiet corner where we can speak without being
disturbed?" he asked pointedly.
She hadn't, but in a
castle the size of Hogwarts, there was always an unused room to be
had. "This way," Hermione said, leading him to the chamber
off the main hall which usually served as the staging area for the
first-years before the Sorting.
"I don't know what you
think you're playing at--" Malfoy began, as soon as the door was
closed behind them.
"I'm not playing at
anything, Mr. Malfoy," Hermione interrupted him. "I
am merely pointing out the respect which is due the office -- if you
cannot bring yourself to respect the person."
The corners
of Malfoy's mouth turned up in a thin smile. "Respect is only
due to those that deserve it."
"Are you saying -- as
a Hogwarts Governor -- that a professorship is not worthy of
respect?"
"Come now, Miss --" He rolled his
eyes as Hermione opened her mouth again. "All right, if you
insist, Professor Granger. Muggle Studies? Really," he
drawled in derision.
"And yet the Governors still see fit
to endow the position. Odd, that."
"Hmm, yes. A
change may indeed be in order," he mused. "Is that what
this is about? But how tedious. I thought we were going to discuss a
mutual friend of ours."
"Professor Snape, yes. There
is actually a matter I would be very interested to hear your opinion
on. But the other is important, too. It all comes down to the very
thing we've been speaking of: respect."
"I always
had the greatest respect for Snape. If only I'd known he was working
for Dumbledore all along, the two of us might have been able to pool
our resources much earlier. But he had me fooled, along with everyone
else," Malfoy finished with a show of regret.
"So
everyone in Voldemort's camp thought Snape was one of them? There was
no question?"
"How else was he able to worm his way
into the Dark Lord's good graces, and remain there for so many years?
It is true: my poor, deluded sister-in-law questioned his loyalty
many times, but then she was out of her mind," he said sadly,
his gaze lingering on Hermione's face. "Quite mad. Can't be held
accountable. No doubt that would all have come out, had she lived
long enough to be treated..." He let the words dangle there
meaningfully.
Hermione refused to be side-tracked, although
the man's effrontery made her blood boil.
"We're
speaking of Snape," Hermione reminded him -- and herself. "It
has come to my attention that no one quite seems to know what
happened to his body. Apparently, by the time someone from our side
was able to get to the Shrieking Shack, he had disappeared."
Malfoy
merely raised his eyebrows. "How awkward," he commented. "I
do hope you're not accusing me of body snatching?"
"'Accuse'
is such a harsh word," Hermione said. "But did you? Remove
Snape's body? Perhaps put it somewhere else, 'for safe keeping'?"
she bored further.
"Professor Granger, I am insulted,"
he said, twitching his robes so that they flared out around him.
"Severus Snape is a war hero. The mere suggestion that I would
want to deprive him of the proper respect due him-- I've a good mind
to end this audience right now." He glared down at her.
"I'm
not suggesting that at all, and I beg pardon if it came out that
way," she gritted out. "But as you said, you were under the
thumb of a very powerful, Dark wizard. I believe you mentioned
something about the Imperius. If you did -- hypothetically
-- have something to do with spiriting the body away, perhaps
intending even to preserve it from desecration..." Surely she'd
given him enough excuses to choose from now!
Malfoy narrowed
his eyes at her, thinking. Finally, he said, "I have no memory
of doing so. However, as you say, it is possible that such a scenario
as you suggest took place ... Out of the respect and deep admiration
I have for Professor Snape -- Headmaster Snape -- I will make some
inquiries. Many of the potential witnesses are, unfortunately,
incarcerated... It may take some time."
"I'm sure
Professor Snape would appreciate it-- If he could, I mean,"
Hermione added, trying to cover up her near flub.
"What
is your interest in this, anyway? I'm certain there was no love lost
between yourself and Snape. In fact, if I recall correctly, there was
a particular animosity between him and your precious Potter."
"I
just want to see justice done," Hermione said vaguely, counting
on that being a Gryffindorish enough answer to put Malfoy off
inquiring further.
Malfoy regarded Hermione for a moment
longer than necessary, before saying coolly, "Yes, well. As I
said, I'll see what I can do. And now I really must be off. I've
already missed the train back to London." He moved to the door,
the audience clearly over.
"Thank you, Mr. Malfoy,"
Hermione said. "And do give my regards to Draco and your wife. I
know they tried to help as best they could." This last part she
even meant sincerely; she knew Draco had done his best not to
identify them at the Manor, and Harry had told them how Narcissa had
flat out lied to Voldemort in the forest, in order to protect
him.
Malfoy merely gave Hermione a side-long, suspicious
glance, and took his leave.
Hermione sighed and followed him
out. Some things would never change.
Author's note: Mmm...
loves me some Lucius. He's just so fun to play with.