Why? An Angst, Depression Fic

Why do you just stand there? Just *STAND* there while this happens to me, sure you're there after with a short comforting word. But then you're off again, never any time for me. It's just you, just you. Always just you, you, YOU!

I want to love you, can't you understand that? Can't you hear my cries? My sobs? My sadness?

No. Of course you don't. You don't care.

You had that look in your eyes again today, you know the one, your friends and that slut had the other too. You know the one I mean. The one where you feel *slightly* sorry for me, but you won't do any thing. And you know the ones your friends give, pure hate.

Why though? Why ME?!?! What did I ever do wrong?!?!

I gave up on hating you and your friends ages ago; I just kept up this charade out of habit, normality. Did I do the right thing? You're with her now, that slut. Why not me? I'd be true, I'd be honest, I'd... L... Lu... Luv... Love... You... You and only you.

You used to say you were waiting for the perfect girl; did I ever tell how noble I thought that was? After a while you were waiting for the perfect guy or girl. You admitted you were bi, do you realise how proud I was of you? No... No, of course you didn't. You're the only one to see the real me, and yet you can't.

Why am I still here? Writing you this note, oh well there's nothing you can do. When you find this I'll be dead. Gone. Out of your life forever. Doesn't that make you happy? I know you friends will be.

I'm going now; I don't even know why I'm writing you this. You're my rival, you hate me. I hate you. But I also... love you. Why?

You'll find me tomorrow, at the bottom of the astronomy tower. I hope you're HAPPY!!

I can be happy now, at peace.

Keep the owl, I don't need her anymore. She's Lily, after your mother, she has your eyes, which I've been told were your mothers.

Love,

Draco.

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Harry received this letter at seven past nine in the evening, he was crying by the end of reading it. He rushed to the astronomy tower, to find Draco on the point of jumping.

"STOP!!" shouted Harry.

Draco paused.

Then he jumped.

"NOOOOOOOOOOOO!!" Harry screamed, running forward to grab Draco's hand, just making it.

"I love you too..." Harry whispered through his tears, "I love you too..."

Pulling Draco up and into a strong embrace, scared that he would try to jump again, Harry repeated it again, "I love you too..." as he said this he gently rocked Draco backwards and forwards.

"Why?" whispered Draco.

"Why what?" Harry asked back.

"How can you love me? Why are you with that slut? Why did you save me?" Draco was almost shouting this.

"Because I do, because I love and because I thought you didn't love me back. I thought I might as well try to give Ginny her happily ever after, even if I couldn't have mine," Harry whispered back, seeming quite ashamed that he hadn't noticed Draco feelings before.

"Will... Will you... Willyougooutwithme?" Draco tried to ask.

"What?" Harry wasn't sure quite what Draco had said; he had his suspicions, and hoped they were right.

"I said; will you go out with me?" Draco repeated.

"Yes! Yes for now and forever!!" Harry responded joyously, pleased his suspicions had been right.

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So Harry broke with Ginny next day, amongst tears from her, and the ending of friendship with his best friends.

But that didn't matter; he had Draco now, for forever and a day.

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Fin.